“Karin, I’m working,” I said, in that sort of hiss that comes out when you’re pissed off but trying to keep your voice down. “See? Earning a living?”
She looked around her. “Here? Truly?” Her tiny white nose wrinkled.
I took hold of my temper with both hands. “Yes, here. This is my business.”
Sam came up, trying hard to act casual. “Sookie, who’s your friend?”
“Sam, this is Karin the—this is Karin Slaughter, my alibi for last night. She’s here to tell me Eric needs me in Shreveport. Now.”
Sam was trying to look genial, but it didn’t reach his eyes. “Karin, nice to meet you. We’re pretty busy. Can’t Eric wait for an hour?”
“No.” Karin didn’t look stubborn or angry or impatient. She looked matter-of-fact.
We stood silently regarding each other for a long moment.
“All right, Sook, I’ll take your tables,” Sam said. “Don’t worry about it. We’ll manage.”
“You’re the boss, Sam.” Karin’s arctic eyes gave my boss—my partner—a laserlike examination.
“I’m the boss, Sam,” he said agreeably. “Sook, I’ll come if you need me . . .”
“I’ll be fine,” I said, though I knew that wasn’t true. “Really, don’t worry.”
Sam looked torn. A group of thirtyish women who were celebrating a divorce began hollering for a refill on their pitcher of beer. They were the deciding factor. “Will you be responsible for her safety?” Sam said to Karin.
“With my existence,” Karin said calmly.
“Let me get my purse,” I told Karin, and hurried to the lockers at the back of the storeroom. I whipped off my apron, dropped it in the “dirty” barrel, and changed into a clean T-shirt from my locker. I brushed my hair in the ladies’ room, though since it had a dent all around from the elastic band, I had to put it back up in its ponytail. At least it looked neater.
No shower, no fresh dress, no nice shoes. At least I had lipstick.
I stuck my tongue out at the mirror and slung my purse over my shoulder. Time to face the music, though I didn’t know what tune would be playing.
I didn’t know how Karin had arrived at Merlotte’s; maybe she could fly, like Eric. She rode with me in my car to Shreveport. Eric’s oldest child wasn’t much of a talker. Her only question was, “How long did it take you to learn to drive a car?” She seemed mildly interested when I told her I’d taken driver’s education in high school. After that, she stared ahead of her. She might be thinking deep thoughts about the world economy, or she might be totally miffed that she’d gotten escort detail. I had no way of knowing.
Finally, I said, “Karin, I guess you just got to Louisiana recently. How long had it been since you’d seen Eric?”
“I arrived two days ago. It had been two hundred and fifty-three years since I saw my maker.”
“I guess he hadn’t changed much,” I said, perhaps a bit sarcastically. Vampires never changed.
“No,” she said, and fell silent again.
She wasn’t going to give me a way to ease into the topic I had to broach. I simply had to take the plunge. “Karin, as I asked Mustapha to tell you, the police in Bon Temps may want to talk to you about when you saw me last night.”
Karin did turn to look at me then. Though I was watching the road, I could see the movement of her head out of the corner of my eye.
“Mustapha gave me your message, yes. What shall I say?” she asked.
“That you saw me in my house about eleven thirty or midnight, whichever it was, and that you watched the house until daybreak, so you know I didn’t leave,” I said. “Isn’t that the truth?”
Karin said, “It might be.” And then she didn’t say one more word.
Karin was pretty fucking irritating. Excuse me.
I was actually glad to get to Fangtasia. I was used to parking in the back with the staff. Just as I was about to drive around the row of stores, Karin said, “It is blocked off. You must leave your car out here.”
Since the first time I’d been here with Bill, I’d seldom parked in front with the customers. I’d been a privileged visitor for months. I’d fought and bled with the Fangtasia staff, and I’d counted some of them as my friends, or at least my allies. Now, apparently, I was one of the crowd of casual human thrill-seekers. It hurt a little bit.
I was sure that would prove to be the least of my hurts.
While I was giving myself a pep talk, I was cruising through the rows of cars looking for a space. The search took a few minutes. I could hear a faint strain of music when we got out of the car, so I knew there must be a live band tonight (“live” in the sense that they were actually onstage).
Every now and then a vampire group would play a few sets at Shreveport’s only vamp bar, and this seemed to be one of those nights. Newly turned vampires played covers of music they had loved in life, recent human music, but the old vampires would play things that living people had never heard, mixed in with some human songs they found appealing. I’d never met a vampire who didn’t love “Thriller.”
At least Karin and I were able to bypass the line waiting at the cover charge booth, which was occupied by a snarling Thalia. I was glad to see her arm had reattached, and I tapped my own right forearm and gave her a thumbs-up. Her face relaxed for a moment, which was as close as Thalia got to a smile unless flowing blood was involved.
Inside the club, the noise level was tolerable. The sensitivity of vamp hearing kept the volume at a level I could endure. Crowded together on the little music platform was a cluster of very hairy men and women. I was willing to bet they’d been turned in the sixties. The nineteen sixties. On the West Coast. It was a big clue when they ended “Honky Tonk Women” to flow into “San Francisco.” I peeked at their tattered jeans. Yep, bell-bottoms. Headbands. Flowered shirts. Flowing locks. A slice of history here in Shreveport.
And then Eric was standing beside me, and my heart gave a little leap. I didn’t know if it was happiness at his proximity, or apprehension that this might be the last time I’d see him, or simple fear. His hand touched my face as his head bent toward mine. He said into my ear, just loud enough for me to hear, “This is what has to be done, but never doubt my affection.”
He bent even closer. I thought he was going to kiss me, but he was just getting my scent. Vampires only inhale when they really want to savor a smell, and that was what he was doing.
He took my hand to lead me to the management part of the bar, to his office. He looked back at me once, and I could tell he was reminding me without words that he wanted me to remember that whatever was coming was all a show.
Every muscle in my body tensed.
Eric’s office wasn’t big, and it wasn’t grand, but it sure was crowded. Pam was leaning against a wall, looking amazingly suburban-chic in pink capris and a flowered tank, but any relief I might have experienced on seeing a familiar face was simply swamped by more apprehension when I recognized Felipe de Castro—King of Nevada, Louisiana, and Arkansas—and Freyda, Queen of Oklahoma. I’d been sure they’d be there, one or the other, but to see both . . . my heart sank.
The presence of royalty never meant anything good.
Felipe was behind the desk, sitting in Eric’s chair, naturally. He was flanked by his right hand, Horst Friedman, and his consort, Angie Weatherspoon. Angie was a leggy redhead I’d hardly exchanged two words with. I’d hate her forever because she’d danced on Eric’s favorite table while wearing spike-heeled shoes.
Maybe I would write a rap song called “Flanked by His Flunkies.”
Maybe Eric’s table wasn’t my problem any longer.
Maybe I should crawl back into my right mind instead of freaking out.
There was a throw rug in front of the desk. Eric and I had been literally called on the carpet.
“Looking real, Sookie,” Pam said. Of course she would comment on my waitress outfit. I probably smelled like French fries.
“I didn’t have a choice,” I said.
“Meees Stekhuss,” Felipe said pleasantly. “How nice to see you again.”
“Hmmm,” Freyda said, from her chair against the wall facing the door. It seemed she disagreed.
I glanced behind me to see that an expressionless Karin was blocking the doorway. Pam was Emo Emma compared to Karin. “I’ll be right outside,” Eric’s oldest announced. She took a step back, and then she shut the door very firmly.
“So here we are, a big extended family,” I said. Kind of shows you how nervous I was.
Pam rolled her eyes. She didn’t seem to feel that now was the time for humor.
“Sookie,” Felipe de Castro said, and I saw we’d dispensed with honorifics. “Eric has called you here to release you from your marriage to him.”
It was like being smacked in the face with a large dead fish.
I made myself hold still, made my face freeze. There’s halfway wanting, or suspecting, or even expecting—and there’s knowing. Knowing at least has some certainty about it, but also a sharper, deeper pain.
Of course, I’d had conflicted feelings about my relationship with Eric. Of course, I’d more or less seen the handwriting on the wall. But no matter Eric’s little midnight visit and his previous hurried heads-up, this bald pronouncement was a shock—one I wasn’t going to bow down to, not in front of these creatures. I began sealing off little compartments inside myself—just like the ones that had theoretically ensured that the
Titanic
was unsinkable.
I did not even glance at Freyda. If I saw pity in her face, I would jump her and try to smack her down, whether that meant suicide or not. I hoped she was sneering in triumph, because that would be more tolerable.
Looking at Eric’s face was out of the question.
All this rage and misery swept through me like a windstorm. When I was certain my voice wouldn’t quaver, I said, “Is there some paper to sign, some ceremony? Or shall I just walk out?”
“There is a ceremony.”
Of course there was. Vampires had a ritual for everything.
Pam came to my side with a familiar black velvet bundle in her hands. To my vague surprise, though I wasn’t really feeling much of anything, she leaned over to give me a cold kiss on the cheek. She said, “You just nick yourself on the arm and you say, ‘This is yours no longer,’ to Eric. You hand the knife to Eric.” She unfolded the velvet to expose the knife.
The ceremonial blade was gleaming and ornate and sharp, just as I remembered it. I had a momentary impulse to sink it into one of the silent hearts around me. I didn’t know which one I’d aim for first: Felipe’s, Freyda’s, or even Eric’s. Before I could think of this too much, I took the knife in my right hand and poked my left forearm. A tiny trickle of blood coursed down my arm, and I felt every vampire in the room react.
Felipe actually shut his eyes to savor the bouquet. “You are giving up more than I ever imagined,” he murmured to Eric. (Felipe moved to the top of my stab-in-the-heart list instantly.)
I turned to face Eric, but I kept my eyes on his chest. To look up at his face would be to risk cracking. “This is yours no longer,” I said clearly, with a certain amount of satisfaction. I held the knife out in his general direction, and I felt him remove it from my grasp. Eric bared his own forearm and stabbed himself—not the jab I’d given my arm, but a real slice. The dark blood flowed sluggishly down his arm to his hand and dripped on the worn carpet.
“This is yours no longer,” Eric said quietly.
“You may go now, Sookie,” Felipe said. “You will not come to Fangtasia again.”
There was nothing left to say.
I turned and walked out of Eric’s office. The door opened magically in front of me. Karin’s pale eyes met mine briefly. There was no expression on her lovely face. No one said a word. Not “Good-bye,” or “It’s been swell,” or “Kiss my foot.”
I made my way through the dancing crowd.
And back to my car.
And I drove home.
Bill was sitting in a lawn chair in my backyard. I got out of my car
and stared across the hood at him. I had two conflicting impulses.
The first was to invite him into my house for some vengeance sex.
The second, smarter one was to pretend I hadn’t seen him.
Apparently, he wasn’t going to speak until I did, which proved how smart Bill could be on occasion. I was sure, simply because of his presence and the intensity with which he regarded me, that he was fully aware of what had happened tonight. My smarter self prevailed after a brief internal struggle, and I spun around and went into the house.
The necessity of focusing on my driving was gone. The pressure of the presence of the vampires was gone. I was so glad to be alone with no one to watch my face crumple.
I couldn’t totally blame Eric. But I did, mostly. He’d had a choice, whether he’d admitted it to himself or not. Though his culture demanded he honor his dead sire’s agreement and marry the Queen of Oklahoma, I believed that Eric could have finagled his way out of that agreement. I didn’t accept his contention that he was helpless in the face of Appius’s wish. Sure, Appius had already set the machinery in motion with Freyda before he’d consulted Eric. Maybe he’d even collected a finder’s fee from the Queen of Oklahoma. But Eric could have bullshitted his way free somehow. He could have discovered another candidate for the position of Freyda’s consort. He could have offered financial compensation. He could have . . . done
something
.
Faced with the choice between loving me for my short lifetime and beginning an upward climb with the rich and beautiful Freyda, he had made the practical decision.
I’d always known that Eric was a pragmatist.
There was a quiet knock at the back door. Bill, checking on my well-being. I went out onto the porch and flung the door open, saying, “I just can’t talk . . .”
Eric stood on the steps. The moonlight was kind to him, of course, gilding the blond mane and the handsome face.
“What the fuck are you doing here?” I looked over his shoulder. Bill was nowhere in sight. “Now that I’m not your wife, I thought you and Freyda would be . . . consummating your new relationship.”
“I told you not to pay attention to what happened,” he said. He took a small step forward. “I told you it meant nothing to me.”