Read Sophie and the Scorching Sicilian Online
Authors: Kim Lawrence
He skimmed over the fact that Sophie Balfour bore very little resemblance to the perfect candidate, instead concentrating on the attributes that he had not previously considered essential. A peaceful life was fine but he bored easily, and Sophie was not, by any stretch of the imagination, boring!
She had brought
him
back to life, not just his home, suggested the intrusive voice in his head.
She was also incapable of deceit; admittedly that could on occasion be a pain, but honesty was rare and she was loyal. Her loyalty was sometimes misplaced but you had to admire a girl who spoke up for a father who had spent years taking her for granted, taught her none of the skills required for life outside her gilded cage and then virtually thrown her to the wolves to fend for herself.
If he had a daughter he would tell her she was capable of anything and tell her that he loved her every day of her life.
âWe are not discussing Allegra.'
Sophie was not fooled by his blank expression; she knew it was to hide his pain and maybe, she speculated miserably, his secret shame because he still loved the woman who had humiliated him and stamped all over his heart. He still wrote to her. She had seen the name on a handwritten letter on his desk.
A man did not react that way to the mention of a woman he was over. This was, of course, not news to Sophie but the fresh confirmation hurt anyway.
âNo.' Not speaking but thinking. Maybe he thought about her when they made love; maybe it was Allegra's beautiful vivid face he saw and not her ownâ¦
Sophie swallowed as a wave of nausea washed over her.
âAre you all right?'
âFine,' she said, forcing a smile.
He placed a thumb under her chin and tilted her face up to his. Guilt lay heavily on his conscience. She had worked herself into the ground and he had let her.
In fact, he had done more than allow it to happen; he had engineered it, and he had known she wouldn't say no because she had something to prove, but no longer to him. He realized that no matter what Sophie Balfour thought of herself, she had more backbone and sheer guts than anyone else he knew.
He felt his anger stir at the thought of the family who had allowed her to become invisible, just because she was the quiet one.
Sophie twitched her chin from his grip. âI'm fine,' she repeated flatly. âI'm just⦠I've not stopped all day. I was in the shower when I thought I'd better check things one more timeâ¦so I had to get out of the shower which is lucky, as it happens, because for some reason the men doing the lighting had put red lightsâ¦made it look like a bordello or somethingâ¦' She stopped and flashed him a questioning look. âSorryâ¦I'm talking too much again, aren't I?'
âI like it when you talk too much.'
âYou do?'
â
Sì
, I like your voice, though I do not always understand what you're talking about. You really do look tired.' He caught her chin again and this time Sophie did not pull back; the unexpected tenderness in his eyes nailed her to the spot and brought an emotional lump the size of a tennis ball to her throat.
He tapped her nose and said sternly, âYou need to learn to delegate more.'
âI do delegate,' she protested, wondering if the flowers had been put in his mother's suite.
âYou push yourself too hard.'
No matter how hard she pushed herself she knew that she
could not compete with the sort of pressure Marco put himself under, and he appeared to thrive on it.
âThat's what you pay me for.' And very soon now her job and her stay here would be at an end.
His brows twitched into a frowning line. âI do not pay you.'
âWell, indirectly, thenâyou pay Amber and she pays me.'
âNot enough, I would imagine.'
âIt's not slave labour, though not a lot by your standards,' she admitted.
âOr your standards. You make it sound as though we live in two different worlds.'
âMy father is rich and I suppose I will be one day, but not now, and I don't have expensive tastes.'
âFor a Balfour,' he inserted. âI have been looking for you for the past hour. It was almost as if you were avoiding me.'
âI've been too busy to even think about you,' she lied. âAnyway, what's so important that you couldn't
delegate
it?'
âI would like you to considerâ¦'
âCould we walk while you talk?' she asked, glancing at her watch and turning towards the stone facade of the palazzo. Looking at it, she felt a little glow of satisfaction, for there was nothing unloved about its appearance now. In a few short weeks she and the team had performed a small but pleasing miracle.
In a few short weeks she had fallen in love.
âI really do need to get ready and so do you.' In white shirt and denims that clung tastefully to his snaky hips and the powerful muscles of his thighs he looked pretty good already. Actually, he never looked simply good; he always looked incredible. âDo you mind if we duck in through the library?' she asked, nodding towards the open doors that led into the only room that had not needed her attention. âIf there's a disaster I don't want to know about it until I'm dressed.'
âYou have a very negative attitude. Why assume a disaster is inevitable?'
âI could bore you with the details of the last Balfour Ballâ¦' Sophie couldn't smile. The memory and the fallout from that night were still painfully fresh in her mind. âLet's just say that experience leads me to believe that if anything can go wrong on these occasions it will.'
âA gloomy prediction. You should learn to have a little faith or thoseâ' Sophie almost stumbled as his thumb flicked across the grooves above her small nose ââwill be permanent.'
âSome men like the lived-in look,' she claimed untruthfully. âAnd you won't be so sanguine if the press tomorrow is screaming about the Speranza family's bad blood.'
âThere is very little they can say about my name that they already have not.'
There was sympathy in her eyes as her gaze brushed his profile. The world thought they knew Marco Speranza. Pages of print had been devoted to his marriage break up and acrimonious divorce. His life had been dissected, his character analysed and his face and body lusted after.
She had thought much the same as the world. She had arrived thinking Marco was the sum of the press clips in Amber's research file; she had assumed that like many people with high profiles who lived their lives in the full glare of publicity, Marco needed that limelight.
Nothing could be farther from the truth. He endured publicity and never courted it. The Marco she had come to know was intensely private, perhaps in reaction to the days when his publicity-hungry parents had paraded him in front of the clicking flashbulbs, presenting the world with an image of perfect family life before they went back to their own lives, lives that did not have a place for a child.
She felt angry when she considered what a rotten childhood he had had.
âAs to what I wanted to talk to you about, I thought you might like to take a look at these when you have a spare moment.'
Sophie skipped, taking the steps two at a time, before the glanced down at the sheaf of papers he had put in her hands. âI'll make sure Amber gets them,' she promised gravely. âWhen I get back.'
âThey are not for Amber.'
âOh?'
âIt's a pre-nuptial agreement.'
âYou're getting married.' Sophie was amazed that she sounded normal and that she was still walking. Inside she was deadâno, not dead; dead did not hurt. She was dying slowly by painful inches.
âThat is the idea.' While he had not expected her to throw herself at him, he had expected a positive response, or even a response of any sort.
âWell, wow, that'sâ¦' She stopped and inhaled. âSurprising.'
Marco watched as she walked towards the library door. âYou had no idea?'
âIdeaâ¦' She turned slowly and looked at him, the angry colour flooding her face. âIf I'd had an
idea
do you think I'd have been sleeping with you?'
âWe have got very little sleep of late.'
âYou're disgusting!' she choked. He didn't even have the common decency to look ashamed, and as for telling her by giving her the pre-nuptial agreement intended for his prospective brideâpoor deluded and no doubt beautiful idiotâthat was one step up on dumping someone by text!
She shook her head and told herself to keep it calm, keep it dignified. âIt's nice to know that you think I'm as devoid of moral principle as you are!'
The recollection of him saying on one occasion there was never more than one woman in his life at a time came back to her and Sophie saw red. Her grasp on quiet dignity faltered as she raised her eyes to his face. The lying, cheating rat had the cheek to look bewildered.
The only thing she had asked for was exclusivity for the duration, and all the time he'd beenâ¦though God knows where he found the time or energy to sleep with his prospective bride, considering the amount of each commodity he had used up in her bed!
âHas she been out of the country? Is that it, and you needed someone to fill inâ¦?'
âHas who been out of the country?' Marco, who had never perfected the art of discovering his inner calm, repressed the urge to kick the table. One of them had to retain a little control and it clearly was not going to be Sophie.
He had not been totally sure of her reaction to his proposal but in none of the possible outcomes he had considered had she turned on him like a spitting cat.
A beautiful spitting cat admittedly, he conceded. His ability to make any sense of what she was saying was being severely hampered by the bounce and erotic sway of her unfettered bosom.
Sophie shook her head and pressed her hands to her ears. âDon't tell me, I don't want to know!'
âYou have lost one of your earringsâ¦' Marco said.
âLike I care!' She gulped back a sob as she threw the papers back at him. âWhat am I meant to do with these?'
âWhat are you talking about, Sophie?'
âMy God, you do believe in getting your money's worth, don't you? Designer, event organiser, sex on tap and now you want me to give you legal advice. What's wrong with your lawyers, Marco?' She shook her head and ignored the hands he stretched out to her. âI will do my part tonight,' she told him with a sniff. âBut afterwards I'm out of here,' she yelled. She would walk back to Londonâ¦crawl, if necessary.
âWho do you think this contract is for?'
It wasn't the
who
that mattered; it was the fact there was a who. âLook, I'm in no mood for twenty questions.'
âIf you stop yelling for two seconds and lookâ'
âIâ'
âThe name on that contract is yours.'
Sophie stopped dead.
âWhat?'
âYou.'
âMe!' The angry colour receded, leaving her paper pale.
I'm shakingâ¦I'm dreaming.
âMeâ¦youâ¦marry?' Poor grammar, Sophie. She lifted a hand to her spinning head. âThis is a proposal?'
âYes.'
âOh, God!'
âYou are practical woman, and I know you value frank speaking as much as I do.' When it came to pointing out his myriad faults, he reflected, Sophie had no equal.
Sophie eyed him uncertainly. âFrank speaking is good,' she admitted, talking slowly as she tried to work out where he was going with thisâand he clearly was determined to go somewhere. âBut sometimes a white lie can work, or even exaggeration?'
âI would not insult your intelligence by getting down on one knee and swearing eternal love.'
âNo, that would have been embarrassing,' she agreed, thinking,
how can an intelligent man be so stupid?
He nodded. âI want a family, but I do not want aâ'
âWife?' she suggested.
He turned his frowning regard on her. âA marriage based on unrealistic expectations and ephemeral emotions.'
âLife is pretty damned ephemeral, Marco.'
âI find you attractive and I like you. I have no problem if you wish to workâyou can start your own firm if you wish. Think about it.'
Sophie watched him walk away before she closed her eyes and shook her head.
âHe likes me,' she said, and burst into tears.
S
HE
paused at the top of the stairs. She was late, but that was Marco's fault; it had taken more cold compresses than she thought to soothe her puffy tear-swollen eyes, so if he didn't like it, tough.
At the top of the sweeping staircase she caught her breath at the scene belowâthe glitter of diamonds, the rainbow swirl of silk, the buzz of laughter and conversation audible above the soft hum of the orchestra.
It was totally magical.
It was totally terrifying.
She lifted her chin: no hiding in the kitchen with Mia this time. She might be leaving but it would not be through the kitchen door and not before she had told Marco Speranza that she would never
like
him!
Then she saw him and the defiant sparkle faded from her eyes as she gazed with helpless longing at the tall and supremely elegant figure projecting an effortless aura of cool command that she could feel from the other side of the ballroom. Her heart had stalled. She stared hungrily, until a hissing comment from Julia made her take that first step.
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Marco frowned as the diplomat he was speaking to allowed his attention to very undiplomatically stray; at about the same
moment he realised that the buzz of conversation in the ballroom had significantly lowered in volume.
âSorry,' said the man beside him when he failed to respond to an enquiry from Marco. âBut who is that incredible woman?'
Marco followed the direction of the other man's stare and his covetous gaze stilled on the figure gliding down the staircase. The figure wearing a red dress that clung lovingly to every proud curve, a figure that oozed an earthy warm sex appeal that had heads turning and jaws dropping.
She looked like a queen.
A combination of pride and lust pushed every other thought from his head as, without replying, Marco began to move forward, his eyes glued to the figure in the red dress. People parted to let him through.
He was at the foot of the staircase as Sophie reached the bottom. Without a word he held out his hand. She saw the muscles in his brown throat ripple, then their glances locked and for a moment she hesitated. Then, loosing a tiny, fractured sigh, she laid her small hand on his and he smiled.
The danger in that smile made her stomach dissolve in hot liquid excitement.
In a dream-like state Sophie allowed Marco to lead her out onto the dance floor. Her heart was pounding so hard that she could hardly breathe; walking away had seemed so easy when she was upstairs indulging her self-righteous anger but the moment their eyes connected she had known that it would take every ounce of will power she possessed and more.
The orchestra struck up a soft, dreamy number.
âI can't dance.'
âI can. Just move your feet and I will do the rest.' His eyes slid over the creamy upper slopes of her breasts. âWhere did you get that dress?' he asked in a throaty whisper.
âMia sent it to me. She made it.'
âShe has captured your personality.'
âMy personality and red andâ¦' She stopped, flushing.
âAnd passion. You are a very sensual woman, Sophie.'
Only with you, she thought, as she laid her head on his shoulder. Eyes closed, she melted without thinking into his hardness as their bodies swayed in time to the music.
He could dance and she could follow. Talk about the story of my life, she thought, making a token effort to escape the narcotic tug of his rampant masculinity before melting some more.
The music stopped and Sophie raised her head.
âYou're a very good dancer, Marco.' He was clearly good at everything except proposals.
Marco's heavy-lidded eyes glittered emerald in his sombre tense face. âLet's go,' he said thickly.
Sophie stared at him blankly. Was he serious? âThis is your party.'
A voice behind Sophie made Marco pull away and she heard him swear before he inclined his head and said, âMother, this is Sophie.'
âThe clever girl who is responsible for all this?' Without waiting for a reply Carlotta Speranza took both Sophie's hands firmly in hers and drew her away. For a slight woman she could be rather forceful, but then she was a Speranza.
âThere are so many people who are longing to meet you.'
âI don't thinkâ¦'
The actress ignored her faltering protest. âAnd your fatherâ¦how is heâ¦? We met at my last premiereâ¦an attractive man and you have his eyes. Doesn't she, Marco? Oh, where has that man goneâ¦?'
Sophie, who knew exactly where he was, didn't say anything. Marco was standing on the dance floor where she had left him, staring at her with a nerve-shredding intensity.
He would come and rescue her soon, she thought, and when he didn't she rescued herself from the attention of his over-
whelming mother by accepting an invitation to dance from a sweet young man who said he raced cars.
When Sophie, who was calling on her rusty social skills, pretended interest in cars and asked what his real job was, he looked startled and then laughed and told her she was delicious, adding that he assumed she wasn't a fan of formula-one racing.
The conversation went on a few minutes longer before a strange idea occurred to her.
âAre you flirting with me?' she blurted unthinkingly.
âIf you have to ask, not very well,' her companion replied with a grin.
âOh, I'm no judge,' she reassured him. Her experience was limited to one man and he didn't flirtâhe seduced.
Across the room Marco watched Clermont, a man almost as well known for the hearts he broke as the races he won, throw back his head and laugh before leaning into Sophie and saying something that made her blush. But she didn't, he noticed, clenching his teeth, pull away.
He did not notice the man he had been speaking with observe with alarm the murderous expression on his host's face and drift away.
His little ingénue was flirting and enjoying it.
Marco experienced a moment of chilling déjà vu. He had already married one woman who had appeared all sweetness and innocence and then watched her turn into a money-hungry tramp with all the morals of a call girl.
Was his judgement fatally flawed?
As Marco took a step forward, struggling with a level of rage he had never before experienced, Sophie, her cheeks flushed and her blue eyes sparkling, was whisked past him in the arms of an admiring middle-aged man, whose wife called a warning out to Sophie to mind her feet.
Marco, a low growl still vibrating in his throat, stopped
dead. He had been comparing Sophie to Allegra. What sort of insanity was that?
He experienced a wave of utter revulsion as he dragged an unsteady hand through his hair. How could he have thought even for one insanely jealous moment that there was a parallel between the two women?
If he let the Allegra experience poison his mind and ruin his chances of ever having a relationship that wasn't based on mutual suspicion she really would have won.
Allegra would have done anything, said anything, to be what she imagined he wantedâto get his ring on her finger. Sophie did not say what he wanted to hear or what would make her look good in his eyes; she said what was in her heart and that, he knew, was a preciously rare quality.
Allegra had used her sexuality and her body as weapons; she had been crude and coarse and vicious. Sophie was not using her sexuality to taunt him or any other manâshe was discovering it and enjoying it!
And why shouldn't she?
Sophie had spent her life being overlooked by her family, had been the butt of endless family jokes, he thought, his anger against the self-obsessed Balfours momentarily submerging his self-disgust.
However, knowing that Sophie deserved the attention she was receiving did not make it easier to watch her charm the men who were drawn like moths to the flame of her warmth and glowing beauty.
It was murder, and a constant struggle, fighting the compulsion to go into full chest-beating mode and drag her away.
He resisted because he trusted Sophie, but he did not trust himself to go near her without making a total fool of himself.
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Having had very little experience of being the centre of attention, it took Sophie half an hour to catch on to the fact that she was.
She wouldn't have been human if, after a lifetime of being the plain Jane in a brood of beauties, she hadn't enjoyed the novelty of the experience. But beneath the smiles and superficial gaiety she remained miserable, because the one man she wanted to tell her she was beautiful and irresistible didn't seem to want to come near her.
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Having personally waved goodbye to the last VIP helicopter Sophie let her perfect hostess's smile slip and, nodding to the patrolling security guards, made her way back to the palazzo. Her path was lit by the lanterns that she had rescued weeks earlier from one of the rubbish skips.
Restored and filled with flickering flames they created exactly the ambience she had hoped for, but Sophie's thoughts were a long way from considering the pretty picture they made.
The night had been a dazzling success; she had been propositioned four times and two had come from men who were not drunk or married. AndâSophie expelled a shaky breath and felt the anger lick through herâshe had also received a marriage proposal!
She had been aware of Marco watching her tonight, his brooding presence had dominated the event and her thoughtsâso no change there, she thought miserably.
He had not been looking exactly happy and after that first dance and his crazy suggestion he had not come near her, though she'd caught the tail end of some of his sneery glares.
Maybe he was regretting his proposal? If you could call it that, she thought, her fists balling as she recalled his casual offhand suggestion and the contract that lay unread. On the other hand he might just be piqued because she hadn't immediately fallen over herself to accept his offer�
And she could understand his surprise, looking at it from his point of view. She had not exactly tried to play hard to get;
she had been a total pushover, the perfect low-maintenance wife, it seemed.
She picked up her skirts and walked past the coach that was waiting for the stragglers from the orchestra, pausing to speak to the coach driver before she approached the curved sweep of stone steps that led up to the impressive entrance.
She glanced upwards; the massive double doors were flung open and the light spilled outwards, illuminating the banks of flowers that tumbled over the stone-flagged terrace onto the steps.
For a moment she felt a twinge of professional pride that almost immediately tipped over into sadness.
The problem was that this had got very personal.
This was Marco's home and she had wanted to make it a place he loved, a place where he could bring up his family. She had succeeded, and in a way that success had made her the author of her own misery.
This was Marco's retreat from the eyes of the world; it had hurt to think about him sharing it with someone, and now she had a chance to be that someone.
She had been tempted, but only for a moment.
She paused as a small laugh was drawn from her throat and she suddenly realised how much she had changed. Not so long ago she would have taken what he had offered, because she was plain, plump Sophie, who couldn't expect any more. She was Sophie, who didn't deserve the love of a man like Marco Speranza.
But now she knew that she deserved more.
She deserved a husband who loved her.
As she put her foot on the first step, three figures appeared through the double doors and paused on the veranda.
âGreatâjust what I need.' She took the next steps slowly.
âHere she is now.' Carlotta Speranza, the chandeliers of diamonds on her ears swinging, moved gracefully forward before Sophie had reached the top and bent forward to kiss the air either side of her cheeks. No physical contact was involved,
but Sophie had already noted that physical contact was not her thing. âSuch a clever girlâyou're very lucky, Marco,' she remarked, turning back to her son.
Before Sophie could reply the Speranza car pulled up on the gravel in the floodlit forecourt. The uniformed driver got out to open the passenger doors.
Sophie picked up her skirts and used the distraction it afforded to negotiate that final step and slip past them into the palazzo.
She stood for a moment framed in the doorway, the light reflecting the gold highlights in her shining hair. âGoodnight. Excuse me, I'm a little cold.' She nodded towards the older couple and added, âIt was very nice to meet you both.' Then without waiting for a response she went inside.
Her heels clicked in the silence of the doorway; the last two musicians walked past and made their goodnights.
Then she was alone.
Sophie walked into the now-empty ballroom; the contrast with earlier was dramatic. The tables were cleared, the white linen cloths removed; the flowers destined for a local hospital had been taken away and the army of caterers had all retreated to the kitchen.
She sat down at an empty table, kicked off her shoes, stretched her toes and sniffed a flower arrangement that had presumably been deemed too wilted to make the move.
She felt pretty wilted herself, wilted and defeated. Elbows on the table she propped her chin in her hands.
You could see why he thought it was a done deal. All she'd done so far was fall in with his plans. Work for me, plan my party for me, sleep with me, fall in love with meâ¦well, not the last. Marco had certainly not asked her to do that and, had he known, she had no doubt he would be appalled.
Marco, it seemed, was a one-woman man and he had given his heart to the gorgeous and, as far as Sophie was concerned, poisonous Allegra, and she had stamped all over it with her size sixes. Yet still when she clicked her fingers he came running.
Men were stupid, she reflected bitterly, and they wouldn't know a good woman if they fell over oneâcancel thatâthey would run in the opposite direction if they recognised one, or marry her and look for their excitement elsewhere.