“Probably not,” he agreed.
“I did want you to know that once people realize that you aren’t going to call up demons to avenge imaginary slights, they’ll probably be more friendly,” she continued. “I think I can count on at least a few of them being curious enough to start asking you questions. You certainly are not the most exotic creature gracing our Court, or even the most formidable; they’ll get over their nerves soon enough.”
He thought of the gryphons and found himself chuckling. “At least I walk on two legs,” he offered. “And I am afraid that my ability at magic is very overrated. Not only can I not conjure a demon—even if Solaris hadn’t forbidden the practice—but I can’t even light a fire. Candles, yes; fires, no. My master Ulrich is a mage, but he didn’t choose me for my magical abilities, he chose me for my scholastic bent. Your people are safe around me.”
He meant it as a joke, but she took the joke a step further. “I wouldn’t go so far as to say that,” she replied, and if he thought he’d imagined a sly twinkle in her eye, he knew now it wasn’t imagination. “You’d be a very handsome young man if you just didn’t look as if you were about to deliver a sermon on Moral Life at any moment. If you smiled more often, I wouldn’t wager on
any
of our young women being safe around you!”
Belatedly he remembered that if she knew enough to quote the Writ correctly, she also knew that Priests of Vkandis took no vows of celibacy and only a modified vow of chastity. Which meant she knew that he was as free to pay court to young women as anyone here. He guessed she was encouraging him to do just that, and blushed.
Still, he found her very easy to talk to, and more so with every moment. She invited confidences and made it easy to give them to her; a lot like his own mother, in fact.
Mother used to adopt every stray that happened by the inn, from motherless horseboys to kittens. Talia must be like my mother—that’s why she stopped when she thought I looked unhappy.
She chuckled at his flush and his slow smile. “I hope you don’t mind my teasing,” she said, then added wryly, “we aren’t as far apart in age as you might think. It wasn’t all
that
long ago that I was your age, and if I wasn’t happily wedded and very much in love with Dirk—” She laughed and wrinkled her nose at him. “Well, consider my reaction representative of what the young women of the Court are probably thinking about you.”
His cheeks heated, and he blinked. Her reaction? She considered him attractive? No female, girl
or
woman, had ever told him that!
She shook her head. “Listen to me—‘if I was your age’—I sound like I think I’m an old crone! My, motherhood certainly has taken the ginger out of
me!”
He had to laugh at that. “My mother says the same thing,” he told her. “She swears that we each added five years to her age with every prank we pulled!”
“Some days I would agree with her,” Talia replied, and sighed. “I don’t remember littles being this much trouble to
my
parents! You have brothers and sisters?”
“One brother and several sisters,” he told her, then found himself talking about his family while she simply stood there and listened to him with no evidence of boredom. She even asked him questions that proved she had really been listening, and not just pretending to pay attention.
He progressed from telling her about his family, to finally confessing his own depression and loneliness. It seemed natural, after the way she listened to him about everything else. After all, if Hansa trusted her, why shouldn’t he?
“I don’t even know where they took Trenor,” he sighed, after talking for what seemed to be the better part of a mark. “He’s Karsite, too, after all ... and horses have always been as much my friends as people. I’d love to go riding, but I don’t know where I would be allowed to go, even if I
could
find him, and I don’t know what people would think if I asked for the stables.” He shrugged. “They might think I was some kind of spy, looking for a way off the grounds to pass messages on, when all I want to do is ride my horse.”
She brightened at that. “Havens, at least
that
is one thing I can help you with,” she told him. “I certainly know where the stables are, and there are riding paths all through Companion’s Field; there’s no reason why you can’t ride your gelding in there. Plenty of people ride their Companions on the paths. I can’t imagine why anyone would forbid you riding Trenor in there. Would you like me to show you where the stables are right now, and get you acquainted with the stablemaster? Once he knows who you are, he can have Trenor set up for a daily ride for you, if you’d like.”
He stared at her for a moment; this was the last thing he had expected, and the one thing that would help! He had a little trouble replying, until he got his wits back about him. “Thank you!” he exclaimed. “Oh, that is exactly what I do want! Thank you so much!”
But she waved away his thanks. “Not to worry, Karal. I’m glad that there is at least one remedy I can give you for your homesickness that will work right now. Time, I fear, is the only other remedy.” She laughed at his grimace. “I know, I know, the one thing a young man hates to hear is that the only cure for
anything
is time! It can’t be helped, though; it’s a cliché precisely because it’s so often true. When problems are big, it’s usually because they’re swallowing up everything else you would be thinking about. When you have some time, new things come up, and make the old problems seem smaller when you look back at them. So let some time pass, do a few things you really enjoy, and let your mind rest.”
He stood up quickly as she gestured for him to follow her, and she led him off at a brisk pace, pointing out exactly where they were and what places they were passing. “Here’s the rose garden, the maze is just through there; if you look through the rose trees you can just see the end of the Courtier’s Wing of the Palace. That’s where your suite is, though most Courtiers don’t live here, they have their own manors outside the walls—” That helped him orient himself, and he began to suspect that Alberich had led him in circles that first day, when he had taken Karal to the library. Perhaps it had not been deliberate; perhaps it was simply in the man’s cautious nature to attempt to confuse. Perhaps there had been work going on that required they make some elaborate detours. But from the outside, at least, the Palace and the buildings around it were laid out in a logical fashion. He knew that the library was on the first floor of the wing that contained most of the other rooms used for “official” purposes, and that wing lay directly across from his, according to Talia.
But she was pointing out other buildings now, buildings that were separate from the Palace. “That’s Healer’s Collegium, and that’s Bardic—look, there are the stables, you can see them from here, just on the other side of those trees.”
But it was not the stables that caught his attention, but the huge wooded field to their right. It
seemed
to be full of horses.
Then he realized why his mind had phrased it that way, for the “horses” were all white. There wasn’t another color of four-legged beast to be seen. Which meant, surely—
Talia saw where he was looking; she squinted against the sun in that direction. “That’s Companion’s Field. Do you want to go look over the fence for a moment?”
As well ask him if he wanted to fly! Of course he did—and at the same time, the idea terrified him. Companions! The beautiful creatures that Rubrik had so eloquently praised, and the Hellhorses of Karsite stories. His head knew that they were not the monsters from his childhood, but his stomach lurched at the idea of so many of them concentrated here. Still, he nodded numbly.
She must have guessed something of his thoughts from his expression, or lack of it. “You do realize that they aren’t demons, don’t you?” she asked, a little nervously. “Your escort surely explained what Heralds and Companions really are—didn’t he?”
I must look as tense as a cocked crossbow.
“Yes,” he told her, “Our escort and my mentor had a number of conversations about the Companions. I think Ulrich plans to come out here one day when he isn’t busy chasing diplomatic rabbits down holes.” He moved closer to the fence, until at last he was leaning right up against it, staring at the beautiful creatures in their Field.
Not demons,
he reminded himself; orthodox theology held that demons could be as beautiful as they pleased, but he still did not have to remind himself too forcefully. Now that he was here, watching them, his stomach settled again, deciding that maybe his head was right after all. There was something about the Companions that was so completely innocent that the idea of their being demons was absurd.
Not horses, either.
He could see how they would excite lust in the heart of any horsebreeder, though. If only one could achieve lines like that with horses! They were easily the most elegant creatures he had ever seen; Rubrik’s Companion was no isolated case. Well, rumor said that the Shin’a’in had bred horses to equal Companions, but who knew? Rumor also had it that the Shin’a’in rode naked and painted themselves blue, and he rather doubted either was true.
For one thing, riding naked is damned uncomfortable. You can get yourself such a set of blisters if you have a saddle, and such a rash if you don’t....
“Well,” he said at last, shaking himself out of the reverie the field full of Companions induced in him. “Your time is precious. even if I’m at leisure at the moment. And I am selfishly devouring it. So, if you can spare me a few moments more to take me to the stables—”
“I can spare you as much time as you need,” Talia said firmly. “Come on, and I’ll introduce you to the stablemaster.”
Talia was no out-of-shape courtier; she set out again at a stiff walk, and he was glad he’d been working out with Kerowyn. The stable was huge, which was only to be expected; their luck was in, though, for Trenor was in the third stall from the door, and whickered as soon as he caught Karal’s scent.
Karal let himself into the gelding’s stall, while Talia went looking for the stablemaster. Trenor was overjoyed to see him and whuffled his hair and chest with such enthusiasm that he left damps spots all over Karal’s clothing. When Karal looked him over carefully, he saw no signs of neglect, much less any of ill-use. That eased most of his worries; these Valdemarans were taking very good care of his “baby.”
The stablemaster arrived while Karal was examining Trenor’s feet and hocks. He was clearly pleased by the way Karal carefully examined his gelding, rather than being offended at the implication that the stable staff had been neglecting the horse.
“You know horses,” the man said—a statement, rather than a question—as Karal finished his examination and stood up to be introduced. Karal nodded anyway, and the man turned and spoke to Talia in a dialect of some kind, too heavily accented and rapid for Karal to follow.
Then he turned away and went back to the work they’d taken him away from; shoeing a pretty little mare. It rather surprised Karal that the stablemaster himself would tend to a task like that, instead of assigning it to underlings. On the other hand—the mare had the delicate lines of a very highly-bred palfrey, and the nervous air of a horse that had been brought up to be high-strung. Better that the stablemaster handle a beast like that; that was what Karal’s father would have said.
“Tahk says that you obviously are a good horseman, and that he’ll arrange for Trenor to be readied for you for a daily ride if that’s what you want. He also offered another option; if you prefer, he’ll simply leave orders with the stableboys that when you show up, they’re to fetch your tack.” Talia scratched Trenor’s neck, just along the crest, and laughed when the gelding leaned into her scratching. “I told him I thought you’d probably prefer to make less fuss than the highborns, and would take care of your own saddling, and he simply repeated that you were a
good
horseman.”
“I would, and thank you,” Karal replied sincerely. “I’d rather not have Trenor saddled up at any specific time, since I don’t always know exactly when Ulrich will need me.”
“Thought so.” She moved her scratching to under Trenor’s halter, and the gelding sighed with bliss. “You know, you could combine your lessons with Alberich with a daily ride; he has to make sure his Companion gets some exercise, and neither of them are anything but stiff first thing in the morning, which is when they have been going out.” She tilted her head to one side, as if sensing his apprehension at trying to approach the formidable Alberich with any kind of a request. “Want me to suggest it? I can tell him it was my idea.”
“Oh, would you?” He was appallingly grateful. “By the Light, I seem to be getting deeper and deeper in debt to you.”
Once again she waved away any suggestion that he might “owe” her anything. “Don’t mention it. I really just want you to be happier than you are.
That
would make a big difference to me, and if you’re happier, your work will go smoother.”
“And if the work goes smoother, my master will be likelier to be in a good mood, and if he’s in a good mood, he’ll make concessions, hmm?” He chuckled, and she joined in. “That I can understand! Everyone here is a diplomat.”
Though why my being happier would make a big difference to her in particular I can’t fathom....
“We’d better be going,” he said, reluctant to leave Trenor, but feeling better than he had in days. “His blanket’s damp, so they’ve obviously had him out for a good workout today, and from tomorrow on I can take over his exercise.”
“I—I had one more thought,” Talia said, hesitantly. “You were saying that you wished you could make some friends here, right?”
He hadn’t
said
anything of the sort, but he’d certainly
thought
it, so he nodded.
She licked her lips. “There’s another person here I would really like you to meet. He’s in a similar position to yours, but without even the authority of being a secretary to an envoy. I know that he is very lonely, and even though you don’t have anything at all in common in the way of background, you are still both from places that are so different from Valdemar that you are alike in your reactions.”