Authors: Harlan Ellison
Tags: #Short Fiction, #Collection.Single Author, #Fiction.Horror, #Acclaimed.Danse Macabre
She was moving swiftly now, off the main thoroughfare. In a moment Grebbie was panting, his stubby legs pumping like pistons, his almost-neckless body tilted far forward, as he tried to keep up with lean Berne. Chew Way opened on her left and she moved through a clutch of tourists from Horth, all painted with chevrons, and turned down the alley.
“Berne…wait up…”
The lean pronger didn’t even look back. He shoved aside a barker with a net trying to snag him into a free house and disappeared into Chew Way. The barker caught Grebbie.
“Lady, please…” Grebbie pleaded, but the scintillae in the net had already begun flooding his bloodstream with the desire to bathe and frolic in the free house. The barker was pulling him toward the iris as Berne reappeared from the mouth of Chew Way and punched her in the throat. He pulled the net off Grebbie, who made idle, underwater movements in the direction of the free house. Berne slapped him. “If I didn’t need you to help carry her…”
He dragged Grebbie into the alley.
Ahead of them, Verna stopped to catch her breath. In the semidarkness her eyes glowed faintly; first gray, a delicate ash-gray of moth wings and the decay of Egypt; then blue, the fog-blue of mercury light through deep water and the lips of a cadaver. Now that she was out of the crowds, it was easier. For a moment, easier.
She had no idea where she was going. Eventually, when the special sight of those endless memories had overwhelmed her, when her eyes had become so well adjusted to the flash-lit murkiness of the punchup pub that she was able to see…
She put that thought from her. Quickly. Reliving, that was almost the worst part of
seeing
. Almost.
…when her sight had grown that acute, she had fled the punchup, as she fled
any
place where she had to deal with people. Which was why she had chosen to become one of the few blousers in the business who would service aliens. As disgusting as it might be, it was infinitely easier with these malleable, moist creatures from far away than with men and women and children whom she could see as they…
She put that thought from her. Again. Quickly. But she knew it would return; it always returned; it was always there. The worst part of
seeing
.
Bless you, Mother Sydni. Bless you and keep you
.
Wherever you are; burning in tandem with my father, whoever he was
. It was one of the few hateful thoughts that sustained her.
She walked slowly. Ignoring the hushed and urgent appeals from the rag mounds that bulked in the darkness of the alley. Doorways that had been melted closed now held the refuse of WorldsEnd humanity that no longer had anything to sell. But they continued needing.
A hand came out of the black mouth of a sewer trap. Bone fingers touched her ankle; fingers locked around her ankle. “Please…” The voice was torn out by the roots, its last film of moisture evaporating, leaves withering and curling in on themselves like a crippled fist.
“Shut up! Get away from me!” Verna kicked out and missed the hand. She stumbled, trying to keep her balance, half turned, and came down on the wrist. There was a brittle snap and a soft moan as the broken member was dragged back into the darkness.
She stood there screaming at nothing, at the dying and useless thing in the sewer trap. “Let me alone! I’ll kill you if you don’t leave me alone!”
Berne looked up. “That her?”
Grebbie was himself again. “Might could be.”
They started off at a trot, down Chew Way. They saw her faintly limned by the reflection of lights off the alley wall. She was stamping her foot and screaming.
“I think she’s going to be trouble,” Berne said.
“Crazy, you ask me,” Grebbie muttered. “Let’s cosh her and have done with it. The Doc is waiting. He might have other prongers out looking. We get there too late and we’ve wasted a lot of time we could of spent–”
“Shut up. She’s making such a hell of a noise she might’ve already got the police on her.”
“Yeah, but…”
Berne grabbed him by the tunic. “What if she’s under bond to a sterngang, you idiot?”
Grebbie said no more.
They hung back against the wall, watching as the girl let her passion dissipate. Finally, in tears, she stumbled away down the alley. They followed, pausing only to stare into the shadows as they passed a sewer trap. A brittle, whispering moan came from the depths. Grebbie shivered.
Verna emerged into the blare of drug sonics from a line of top-mixers that sat horn-on-horn down the length of Courage Avenue. They had very little effect on her; drugs were in no way appealing; they only intensified her
seeing
, made her stomach hurt, and in no way blocked the visions. Eventually, she knew, she would have to return to her coop; to take another customer. But if the slug alien was waiting…
A foxmartin in sheath and poncho sidled up. He leaned in, bracing himself with shorter appendages against the metal sidewalk, and murmured something she did not understand. But the message was quite clear. She smiled, hardly caring whether a smile was considered friendly or hostile in the alien’s mind. She said, very clearly, “Fifty credits.” The foxmartin dipped a stunted appendage into the poncho’s roo, and brought up a liquid shot of an Earthwoman and a foxmartin without its shield. Verna looked at the liquid and then away quickly. It wasn’t likely the alien in the shot was the same one before her; this was probably an example of vulpine pornography; she shoved the liquid away from her face. The foxmartin slid it back into the roo. It murmured again, querulous.
“One hundred and fifty credits,” Verna said, trying hard to look at the alien, but only managing to retain a living memory of appendages and soft brown female flesh.
The foxmartin’s fetching member slid into the roo again, moved swiftly out of sight, and came up with the credits.
Grebbie and Berne watched from the dimly shadowed mouth of Chew Way. “I think they struck a deal,” Grebbie said softly. “How the hell can she do it with something looks like that?”
Berne didn’t answer. How could people do
any
of the disgusting things they did to stay alive? They
did
them, that was all. If anyone really had a choice, it would be a different matter. But the girl was just like him: She did what she had to do. Berne did not really like Grebbie. But Grebbie could be pushed and shoved, and that counted for more than a jubilant personality.
They followed close behind as the girl with the forever eyes took the credits from the alien and started off through the crowds of Courage Avenue. The foxmartin slid a sinuous coil around the girl’s waist. She did not look at the alien, though Berne thought he saw her shudder; but even from that distance he couldn’t be certain. Probably not: a woman who would service
things
.
Dr. Breame sat in the far corner of the operating room, watching the movement of invisible life in the Knox Shop. His eyes flicked back and forth, seeing the unseen things that tried to reach him. Things without all their parts. Things that moved in liquid and things that tried to crawl out of waste bins. He knew all the clichés of seeing love or hate or fear in eyes, and he knew that eyes could reflect none of those emotions without the subtle play of facial muscles, the other features of the face to lend expression. Even so, he
felt
his eyes were filled with fear. Silence, but movement, considerable movement, in the cold operating room.
The slug alien was waiting. It came up out of a belowstairs entranceway and moved so smoothly, so rapidly, that Berne and Grebbie froze in a doorway, instantly discarding their plan to knife the foxmartin and prong the girl and rush off with her. It flowed up out of the dark and filled the twisting passageway with the wet sounds of its fury. The foxmartin tried to get between Verna and the creature; and the slug rose up and fell on him. There was a long moment of terrible sucking sounds, solid matter being turned to pulp and the marrow being drawn out as bones caved in on themselves, filling the lumen with shards of splintered calcium.
When it flowed off the foxmartin, Verna screamed and dodged away from the mass of oily gray worm oozing toward her. Berne began to curse; Grebbie started forward.
“What the hell good can you do?” Berne said, grabbing his partner. “She’s gone, dammit!”
Verna ran toward them, the slug alien expanding to fill the passageway, humping after her like a tidal wave. Yes, yes, she had
seen
that crushed, empty image…
seen
it a thousand times, like reflections of reflections, shadow auras behind the reality…but she hadn’t known what it meant…hadn’t
wanted
to know what it meant! Servicing aliens, as perverted and disgusting as it was, had been the only way to keep sane, keep living, keep a vestige of hope that there was a way out, a way off Earth. Yes, she had seen the death of the foxmartin, but it hadn’t mattered–it wasn’t a
person
, it was a creature, a thing that could not in sanity have sex with a human, that
had to have
sex with a human, in whatever twisted fashion it found erotic. But now even that avenue was closing behind her…
She ran toward them, the slug alien making its frenzied quagmire sounds of outrage and madness, rolling in an undulant comber behind her. Grebbie stepped into her path and the girl crashed into him, throwing them both against the wall of the passageway. Berne turned and ran back the way he had come. An enormous shadow, the slug alien, puffed up to three times its size, filled the foot of the passage.
Berne saw lights ahead, and pounded toward them.
Underfoot, he felt a rumbling, a jerking of parts and other parts. There was a whining in his ears, and he realized he had been hearing it for some time. Then the passageway heaved and he was hurled sidewise, smashing face first into the melted window of a condemned building. He flailed wildly as the metal street under him bucked and warped, and then he fell, slamming into the wall and sliding down. He was sitting on the bucking metal, looking back toward the foot of the passage, when the slug alien suddenly began to glow with blue and orange light.
Verna was lying so close to the edge of the creature that the heat it gave off singed her leg. The fat little man she’d run into was somewhere under the alien. Gone now. Dead. Like the foxmartin.
But the slug was shrieking in pain, expanding and expanding, growing more monstrous, rising up almost to the level of second-storey windows. She had no idea what was happening…the whining was getting louder…she could smell the acrid scent of ozone, burning glass, boiling lubricant, sulfur…
The slug alien glowed blue, orange, seemed to be lit from inside, writhed hideously, expanded, gave one last, unbelievable sucking moan of pain and
burned
. Verna crawled away on hands and knees, down the egress passage, toward the light, toward the shape of a man just getting to his feet, looking dazed. Perhaps he could help her.
“The damned thing killed Grebbie. I didn’t know what was happening. All at once everything was grinding and going crazy. The power under the streets had been making lousy sounds all night, I guess it was overloading, I don’t know. Maybe that filthy thing caused it somehow, some part of it got down under the sidewalk plate and fouled the machinery, made it blow out. I think it was electrocuted…I don’t know. But she’s here, and she’s got what you need, and I want the full amount; Grebbie’s share and mine both!”
“Keep your voice down, you thug. My patient may arrive at any moment.”
Verna lay on the operating table, watching them.
Seeing
them. Shadows behind shadows behind shadows. All the reflections.
Pay him, Doctor
, she thought,
it won’t matter. He’s going to die soon enough. So are you. And the way Grebbie bought it will look good by comparison. God bless and keep you, Sydni
. She could not turn it off now, nor damp it with bowl, nor hide the images in the stinking flesh of creatures from other worlds of other stars. And in minutes, at best mere moments, they would ease her burden; they would give her peace, although they didn’t know it.
Pay him, Doctor, and let’s get to it
.
“Did you have to maul her?”
“I didn’t maul her, damn you! I hit her once, the way I hit all the others. She’s not damaged. You only want the eyes anyhow. Pay me!”
The Knoxdoctor took credits from a pouch on his coverall and counted out an amount the pronger seemed to find satisfactory. “Then why is she so bloody?” He asked the question as an afterthought, like a surly child trying to win one final point after capitulating.
“Creep off, Doc,” Berne said nastily, counting the credits. “She was crawling away from that worm. She fell down half a dozen times. I told you. If you’re not satisfied with the kind of merchandise I bring you, get somebody else. Tell me how many other prongers could’ve found you a pair of them eyes in gray-blue, so quick after a call?”
Dr. Breame had no time to form an answer. The iris dilated and three huge Floridans stepped into the Knox Shop, moved quickly through the operating room, checked out the storage area, the consultation office, the power bins, and came back to stand near the iris, their weapons drawn.
Breame and Berne watched silently, the pronger awed despite himself at the efficiency and clearly obvious readiness of the men. They were heavy-gravity-planet aliens, and Berne had once seen a Floridan put his naked fist through a plasteel plate two inches thick. He didn’t move.
One of the aliens stepped through the iris, said something to someone neither Berne nor the doctor could see, and then came back inside. A minute later they heard the sounds of a group moving down the passage to the Knox Shop.
26 Krystabel Parsons strode into the operating room and waved her guard back. All but the three already in the Knox Shop. She slapped her hands down to her hips, locking the exo-braces. She stood unwaveringly and looked around.
“Doctor,” she said, greeting him perfunctorily. She looked at the pronger.