Succubus Blues (20 page)

“Stay away from me,” I warned.

He held up his hands, palms forward in an appeasing gesture as he approached me slowly. “Are you okay?”

I took two steps back, fumbling for my purse. “I'm fine. I just have to…have to get away from here…get away from him.” I pulled out my cell phone, intending to call one of the vampires. It slipped from my hands, dodged my attempts to catch it, and hit the asphalt with a sickening crack. “Oh shit.”

Kneeling down, I picked up the phone, looking with dismay at the gibberish on the display. “Shit,” I repeated.

Seth knelt by me. “What can I do?”

I looked up at him, his face swimming in my blurred vision. “I have to get out of here. I have to get away from him.”

“Okay. Come on. I'll take you home.”

Seth took my arm, and I had a faint recollection of being led a few blocks to some dark-colored car. He helped me inside and drove away. Leaning back, I sank into the motion of the drive, letting it pull me under, the backward and forward of inertia, backward and forward, backward and forward…

“Pull over.”

“What?”

“Pull over now!”

He complied, and I opened the door, expelling the contents of my stomach onto the street outside. When I had finished, Seth waited a moment before asking, “Are you okay to keep going?”

“Yeah.”

But a few minutes later, I made him pull over and repeated the process.

“This…car ride is killing me,” I gasped once we were on the road again. “I can't stay in the car. The motion…”

Seth's brow furrowed, and he suddenly made a hard right that nearly set me to throwing up inside the car. “Sorry,” he said.

We drove a few more minutes, and I was on the verge of asking him to pull over again when the car stopped. He helped me out, and I looked around, not recognizing the building in front of us. “Where are we?”

“My place.”

He ushered me inside, straight to a bathroom where I promptly knelt and paid homage to the toilet, again releasing more liquid than I had realized was in me. I felt distantly aware of Seth behind me, pulling my hair out of the way. Dimly, I remembered that higher immortals like Jerome and Carter could be affected by alcohol as little or as much as they liked, choosing to sober up at will. Bastards.

I don't know how long I knelt there before Seth gently helped me to my feet. “Can you stand?”

“I think so.”

“It's…uh…in your hair and on your dress. I think you'll want to change.”

I looked down at the navy georgette and sighed. “Steamy.”

“What?”

“Never mind.” I started pulling the straps down so I could get out of the dress. His eyebrows rose, and he hastily turned away.

“What are you doing?” he asked in a forcibly normal voice.

“I need to shower.”

Naked, I stumbled over and turned on the water. Seth, still not looking at me, retreated to the door. “You won't fall or anything?”

“I hope not.”

I stepped into the water, gasping at its heat. I leaned against the tiled wall and just let the heavy stream power-wash me, the shock momentarily rousing my wits. Looking up, I saw that Seth was gone, the bathroom door closed. I sighed and shut my eyes, wanting to sink to my knees and pass out. Standing there, I thought again about Roman, about how good it had felt to kiss him. I didn't know what he would think of me now, not after how I'd acted.

When I turned off the water and stepped out, the bathroom door opened a crack. “Georgina? Use these.”

A towel and an oversize T-shirt were tossed through before the door closed again. I dried myself off and put on the shirt. It was red and had a picture of Black Sabbath on it. Nice.

The activity took its toll, however, and a wave of nausea rolled over me again. “No,” I moaned, making for the toilet.

The door opened. “Are you okay?” Seth came in and pulled my hair back once more.

I waited but nothing came. Finally, I stood uneasily. “I'm all right. I need to lie down.”

He led me out of the bathroom and into a bedroom with an unmade queen-sized bed. I collapsed onto it, pleased to be flat and stationary, even though the room continued to spin. He sat down gingerly on the bed's edge, watching me uncertainly.

“I'm sorry about this,” I told him. “Sorry you had to…do all this.”

“It's okay.”

I closed my eyes. “Relationships suck. This is why I don't date. You just hurt people.”

“Most good things come with the risk of something bad,” he observed philosophically.

I remembered the letter he'd sent me, about the long-term girlfriend he'd neglected for his writing. “Would you do it again?” I asked. “Go out with that one girl? Even if you knew things would turn out exactly the same?”

A pause. “Yes.”

“Not me.”

“Not me what?”

I opened my eyes and looked up at him. “I was married once.” It was the kind of drunken admission one made fully aware that it would never have been spoken sober. “Did you know that?”

“No.”

“No one does.”

“It didn't work out then?” Seth asked when I didn't say anything for a minute.

I couldn't help a bitter laugh. Didn't work out? That was an understatement. I had been weak and foolish, giving into the same physical urges that had nearly led me into disaster with Roman. Only with Ariston, I couldn't claim drunkenness for that slip. I had been dead sober, and honestly, I think I'd been planning it for a long time anyway. We both had.

He'd come over one day for another visit, only this time we didn't talk much. I think we were past conversation by then. We'd both been restless, pacing and standing, making small talk that neither of us really listened to. My attention was on his physical presence—on his body and the powerful muscles in his arms and legs. The air was so thick with sexual tension it was a wonder we could move at all.

I walked to the window, staring at nothing as I listened to him pacing the rest of the house. A moment later he returned, this time standing behind me. His hands suddenly rested on my shoulders, the first deliberate touch he'd ever made. His fingers burned me like a brand, and I shivered, making his hold tighten as he stepped closer to me.

“Letha,” he said in my ear, “you know…you know I think about you all the time. I think about what it would be like to…be with you.”

“You're with me now.”

“You know that's not what I mean.”

He turned me around to face him, and his gaze was like hot oil running over my body, slick and scorching. Trailing his hands up my neck, he cupped my face for a moment. He leaned down and held his mouth a breath away from mine. Then, his tongue darted out and lightly ran over my lips, the barest of caresses. My lips parted, and I leaned forward to take more, but he stepped away with a small smile. One of his hands moved down to my shoulder, to the clasp that held my gown together, and unfastened it. The fabric slid off me, pooling around me on the floor, so I stood naked before him.

His eyes blazed, taking in every part. I should have felt embarrassed or shy, but I didn't. I felt wonderful. Desired. Adored. Wanted. Powerful.

“I would do anything, anything at all to have you right now,” he whispered. His hands traveled down my shoulders to the sides of my breasts, to my waist, and then my hips. My mother had always said my hips were too skinny, but under his hands, they felt lush and sexy. “I would kill for you. I would go to the ends of the earth for you. I would do anything at all that you ask. Anything just to feel your body against mine and your legs wrapped around me.”

“No one's ever said anything like that to me.” I was surprised at how calmly my voice came out. Inside, I was melting. I would hear variations of his promises for the next millennium or so, from a hundred different men, but at the time, the words were fresh and new.

Ariston's lips turned up in a rueful smile. “Kyriakos must say things like that all the time.” There was an arch tone to his voice, reminding me that even though the two men were longtime friends, there had always been a rivalry underscoring that friendship.

“No. He makes love to me with his eyes.”

“I want to use a lot more than my eyes.”

In that moment, I suddenly understood the power women had over men. It was surprising and exhilarating. Never mind issues of property and politics; it was in the bedroom that women ruled. With flesh and sheets and sweat. The knowledge filled me, rushing through me with an arousal stronger than any aphrodisiac could produce. I thrived on it, liking this newfound clout. I think it was this revelation that would later make the powers of hell cast me as a succubus.

I reached out trembling hands to him and began removing his tunic. He stood still as I undressed him, but every inch of him quivered with heat and longing. His breathing came heavy and fast as I studied his body now, noticing all the ways it was the same as Kyriakos' and all the ways it was different. I moved my fingertips over him, lightly touching the tanned flesh, the well-defined muscles, the nipples. Then my hands moved lower, below his stomach, wrapping around the long, hard length they found there. Ariston emitted a soft groan but did not move toward me yet. He was still waiting for my consent.

I raised my eyes from my fondling hands and looked into his face. He really would have done anything for me. That awareness increased my need for him.

“You can do anything you want to me,” I told him finally.

I made it sound like a concession, but truthfully, I
wanted
him to do anything he wanted. My words broke the spell that had been holding us apart. It was like a damn bursting. Like exhaling after holding your breath for too long. A rush. A release. My body nearly tumbled into his, like it had been straining and straining at bindings that had finally been cut. Touching him made me realize we should have been touching long before this.

He jerked me into a harsh kiss, jamming his tongue into my mouth as his hands moved under me to grab the backs of my thighs. In one motion, he hoisted me up and pressed my back against the wall. My legs wrapped around his hips, needing him closer to me, and then with one hard thrust, he was inside. I don't know if I was too tight or he was too big—maybe both—but it hurt in a sort of pleasurable way. I let out a surprised cry, but he didn't stop to see if I was okay. The passion had seized him, that animalistic urge locked deep into our blood that ensures the continuation of our species. He focused only on his own pleasure now as he pushed into me, over and over, harder and harder, seeming to thrive on every moan and scream that crossed my lips. I wouldn't have thought I could find release in such rough sex, but I did—more than once. Each time, it came as a great, consuming wave of sensation, starting deep within me and spreading throughout my body, rubbing every nerve, covering every piece of me until I was completely saturated. Then the wave would explode into glittering fragments, leaving me warm and tender and breathless. Like being shattered then remade. It was exquisite. Each of these orgasms seemed to drive him more urgently until his own climax came. This time, I was the one thriving on his release, digging my nails into his back as tightly as I could, holding on to him, bringing the episode to a shuddering, gasping end.

And yet, it wasn't the end because in only a little while, he was ready again. He took me to my bed and this time put me on my knees, leaning into me from behind. “I've heard the old women say this is the best position for conceiving a child,” he whispered.

I had only a moment to ponder this before he was in me again, still rough and demanding. I considered his words as he pumped away, that maybe he would be the one who gave me a child after all, not Kyriakos. The realization made me feel strange, eager yet regretful.

Ariston felt no such regret when we lay back on the blankets later in the afternoon, both of us exhausted and spent as warm sun spilled in over us through the window.

“The lack could be in Kyriakos,” he explained. “Not you. With as many times as I've had you today, you can't help but get pregnant.” He sucked my earlobe and wrapped his arms around me from behind, letting his hands rest on my breasts. “I've filled you up, Letha.”

His voice was low and proprietary, like he'd just gained something more tangible than sex. Suddenly I wondered who really did have the power in the bedroom after all.

I lay against him, wondering what I had done and what I wanted to do now. How did one go back to being a wife after being someone else's goddess? I never got to decide, however, because the next thing I heard was Kyriakos calling me from the front of the house, home too early. Ariston and I both sat up, startled. My fingers fumbled as I tried to get the blankets off me, tangling in the fabric. My dress. I needed to find my dress. But it wasn't here, I realized. I'd left it in the other room. Maybe, I thought desperately, I could get to it before Kyriakos found us. Maybe I could move fast enough.

But it turned out I couldn't.

In the present, all I said to Seth was: “Yeah. It didn't work out. Not at all. I cheated on him.”

“Oh.” A pause. “Why?”

“Because I could. It was stupid.”

“That's why you don't date?”

“Everything about that hurt too much. No good justified the bad.”

“You can't know that the next one will turn out badly. Things change.”

“Not for me.” I closed my eyes to hide the tears welling up. “I'm going to pass out now.”

“Okay.”

He might have left or he might have stayed; I didn't know. I simply slept, lost in black, numbing sleep.

S
ometimes you wake up from a dream. And sometimes, every once in a while, you wake up in a dream. That's what happened to me. I opened my eyes, head throbbing, vaguely aware of something warm and fuzzy in my arms. Bright sunlight made me squint at first, but when I could finally focus, I realized I was looking straight into the faces of Cady and O'Neill.

I shot upright, a motion my head did not approve of at all. Surely I was mistaken. Surely, no…there they were. Before me, next to the bed I sat in, was a large oak desk surrounded by bulletin boards and white boards. Pinned to the bulletin boards were magazine cutouts, faces and faces of people who reflected every nuance of the characters described in Seth's books. One section was even labeled
NINA CADY
, displaying at least twenty different cutouts of slim blondes with cropped, curly hair, while another section—marked
BRYANT O'NEILL
—displayed brooding, thirty-something men with dark hair. Some of the cutouts were from major ads I recognized, though I'd never before connected the resemblance to Seth's characters. Other minor characters from the books also had places on the display, though less noticeably so than the leads.

Scrawls of notes and words filled the white boards, most done in a bizarre shorthand type of flow chart that made no sense to me.
Working Title: Azure Hopes—fix later; Add Jonah Chap. 7; Clean up 3-5; C&O in Tampa or Naples? Check stats; Don Markos in 8…
On and on the scrawls went. I stared and stared at them, realizing I was seeing the skeleton foundation of Seth's next novel. Part of me whispered I should look away, that I was ruining something, but the rest of me was too fascinated at glimpsing the way a novel and its world came to life.

Finally, the smell of frying bacon made me turn from Seth's desk, forcing me to piece together how I'd arrived here. I cringed, recalling what an idiot I'd been around Doug, Roman, and even Seth, but my hunger won out in temporarily allaying my remorse. It seemed odd that I should feel hungry after what I'd put my stomach through last night, but like Hugh's beating, I could bounce back quickly.

Disentangling myself from the covers and the teddy bear I'd unknowingly been holding, I made my way to the bathroom to rinse my mouth and study my appearance: wild-haired and downright adolescent looking in the T-shirt. I didn't want to waste the energy to shape-shift, however, and trotted out of the bathroom, following the sounds of sizzling against a background of “Radar Love” by Golden Earring.

Seth stood in a modern, well-lit kitchen, tending a skillet on a stove. The color scheme was bright and cheery, maple wood cupboards and beams accented with cornflower blue paint on the walls. Seeing me, he turned down the music and gave me a solicitous look. His shirt today displayed Tom and Jerry.

“Good morning. How are you feeling?”

“Surprisingly well.” I made my way to a small, two-person table and sat down, tugging the shirt to cover my thighs. “My head seems to be the only casualty thus far.”

“You want something for it?”

“No. It'll clear up.” I hesitated, detecting something through the smell of salty, greasy meat. “Is that…coffee?”

“Yup. Want some?”

“Regular?”

“Yup.” He walked over to a pot, poured a mug of steaming coffee, and brought it to me, along with a cute sugar and creamer set.

“I thought you didn't drink this stuff.”

“I don't. I just keep it on hand in case caffeine-crazed women wake up in my bed.”

“That happen a lot?”

Seth smiled mysteriously and returned to the stove. “Are you hungry?”

“Famished.”

“How do you like your eggs?”

“Over hard.”

“Nice choice. You want bacon too? You're not a vegetarian or anything?”

“I'm an honest carnivore. I want the works…if that's not asking too much.” I felt kind of sheepish about him waiting on me, considering everything else he'd already done. He didn't appear to mind.

The works turned out to be more than I'd imagined: eggs, bacon, toast, two kinds of jam, coffee cake, and orange juice. I ate it all, thinking about how jealous Peter would be, still confined to his low-carb diet.

“I'm in a food coma,” I told Seth afterward, helping with the dishes. “I'll need to go back to bed and sleep it off. Do you eat like this every day?”

“Nah. Just when aforementioned women are hanging out. It ensures they don't leave too quickly.”

“Not a problem, considering this is all I have to wear.”

“Not true,” he told me, pointing toward his living room. Looking up, I saw my dress—clean—hanging on a hanger. The sheer, bikini-cut panties I'd worn under it had been looped around the hanger's head. “It said dry-clean, but I took a chance on putting it on extra-gentle cycle in the wash. It came out okay. So did the, uh, other thing.”

“Thanks,” I replied, unsure as to how I felt about him washing my underwear. “Thanks for everything. I really appreciate what you did for me last night—you must think I'm a total freak—”

He shrugged. “It's no problem. But”—he glanced at a nearby clock—“I may need to run out on you soon. Remember that one party? It starts at noon. You can still hang out here.”

I turned to the same clock. Eleven forty-seven.

“Noon! Why didn't you wake me up sooner? You'll be late!”

He shrugged again, infinitely unconcerned. “I figured you needed the sleep.”

Setting down the towel I'd been holding, I darted to the living room and grabbed my dress. “I'll call a cab. You go. Don't worry about me.”

“Seriously, it's no problem,” he argued. “I can give you a ride home even, or…well, if you wanted, you could come with me.”

We both froze awkwardly. I didn't really feel up to going to some strange party. What I needed to do was get home and do damage control with Roman and Doug. Yet…Seth had been terribly nice to me, and he had wanted me to go to this thing before. Didn't I owe him? Surely I could do this for him. An afternoon party probably wouldn't even last that long.

“Would we need to pick up anything?” I asked at last. “Wine? Brie?”

He shook his head. “Probably not. It's for my eight-year-old niece.”

“Oh. So no wine then?”

“Yeah. And I think she's more into Gouda anyway.”

I looked at the dress. “I'll be overdressed. You got anything I can put on over this?”

Seven minutes later, I sat in Seth's car, driving toward Lake Forest Park. I had the georgette dress back on, along with a man's plaid flannel shirt in shades of white, gray, and navy. The shirt was open save for a couple buttons. I had French-braided my hair in lieu of shape-shifting it into place and now frantically applied cosmetics from my purse as I rode. I suspected I had a sort of Ginger-Rogers-Joins-Nirvana look going.

We arrived at the suburban house I'd dropped Seth off at a few weeks ago. Pink balloons fluttered from the mailbox, and a mother in jeans and a sweatshirt waved goodbye as a small girl disappeared into the house. Said mother then returned to the massive, soccer team–carrying vehicle running in the driveway.

“Whoa,” I said, taking it all in. “I've never been to anything like this before.”

“You must have when you were little,” Seth amended, parking across the street.

“Well, yeah,” I lied. “But it's a different experience at this age.”

We approached the front door, and he entered without knocking. Immediately, four small, blond female forms slammed into him, grappling onto his limbs, nearly knocking him over.

“Uncle Seth! Uncle Seth!”

“Uncle Seth's here!”

“Is that for me? Is that for me?”

“Desist, before I have to break out the tear gas,” Seth told them mildly, unclasping one who threatened to rip his left arm off.

One of them, all blond curls and giant blue eyes like the others, caught sight of me. “Hi,” she said boldly, “who are you?” Before I could answer, she tore out of the foyer, yelling, “Uncle Seth brought a girl!”

Seth made a face. “That's Morgan. She's six.” He pointed to a clone of her. “This is McKenna, her twin. Over here's Kayla, four. This one”—he paused to lift up the tallest of the four, a motion that made her cackle gleefully—“is Kendall, the birthday girl. And I imagine Brandy's here somewhere, but she's too civilized to assault me like the rest.”

A living room extended beyond the foyer, and another blond girl, a few years older than Kendall, watched us over the back of a couch. Other assorted children—the party guests, I presumed—ran and screamed beyond her. “I'm here, Uncle Seth.”

Seth set Kendall down and tousled Brandy's hair, much to her chagrin. She wore the affronted dignity only one on the edge of adolescence could have. Morgan returned shortly thereafter with a tall, blond woman in tow. “See? See?” exclaimed the little girl. “I told you.”

“Do you always create such a scene?” the woman asked, giving Seth a quick hug. She looked happy but exhausted. I could understand why.

“I should be so lucky. My fans aren't half this ravenous. Andrea, this is Georgina. Georgina, Andrea.” I shook her hand as a slightly shorter, younger version of Seth entered the room. “And that's my brother, Terry.”

“Welcome to our chaos, Georgina,” Terry told me after I'd been introduced. He glanced at all of the children, his own and others, running around the house. “I'm not sure I fully understand Seth's wisdom in bringing you here. You'll never come back.”

“Hey,” exclaimed Kendall to me, “isn't that the shirt we got Uncle Seth for Christmas?”

An awkward silence fell among us adults as we all tried to look somewhere else. Finally, Andrea cleared her throat and said, “All right, guys, let's fall into line and get some games going.”

I had expected a child's birthday party to be wild, but what proceeded to pass that afternoon surpassed even my imaginings. Equally impressive was the way in which Seth's brother and sister-in-law managed to control the herd of screaming, jumping creatures that somehow seemed to be everywhere in the house at once. Terry and Andrea handled them all with efficient good nature while Seth and I did little more than watch, occasionally fielding random questions tossed our way. The entire experience stunned me as a bystander; I could hardly imagine coping with it on a regular basis. It was fascinating.

At one point, catching his breath, Terry saw me alone and struck up a conversation.

“I'm glad you could come,” he said. “I didn't know Seth was seeing anyone.”

“We're just friends,” I clarified.

“Still. It's nice to see him with someone flesh and blood. Someone he didn't make up.”

“Is it true he nearly missed your wedding?”

Terry grimaced by way of confirmation. “My best man, if you can believe that. Showing up two minutes before the ceremony began. We were on the verge of starting without him.”

I could only laugh.

He shook his head. “If you continue hanging out with him, make sure you keep him in line. My brother may be brilliant, but by God, he needs a keeper sometimes.”

After party games came cake, and after cake came presents. Kendall lifted Seth's up expertly and shook it. “Books,” she declared.

Brandy, older and therefore quietest of the group, glanced at me and explained, “Uncle Seth always gets us books.”

This did not seem to faze Kendall any. She tore open the package and crowed delightedly over three books of pirate stories contained within.

“Pirates, huh?” I asked Seth. “Is that politically correct?”

His eyes danced. “She wants to be one.”

As the party wound down and guests were retrieved by parents, Kendall beseeched Seth to read stories, and I followed him, the nieces, and other stragglers into the living room while the girls' parents attempted to clean up in the kitchen. Seth read in the same compelling way he had at his signing, and I curled up in an armchair, content to just listen and watch. I was therefore startled when Kayla's small form scrambled up and sat on my lap.

Youngest of the girls, she could shriek with the best but tended to speak very little. She studied me with her globes of eyes, touched my French braid with interest, and then snuggled into me to listen to Seth. I wondered if she understood any of what he was saying. Regardless, she was soft and warm and smelled like little girl. Unconsciously, I ran my fingers through the fine, corn silk strands of hair and soon began weaving it into a braid similar to mine.

When Seth finished a story, McKenna noticed what I was doing. “Me next.”

“No, me,” ordered Kendall eagerly. “It's my birthday.”

I ended up braiding for all four of the younger girls. Brandy shyly demurred. Not wanting four copies of me, I elected other styles for the girls, herringbones and plaits that delighted them. Seth continued to read, occasionally glancing up at me and my handiwork.

By the time we were ready to leave, I felt drained physically and emotionally. Children always made me feel a little wistful; being in close contact like this made me downright sad in a way I couldn't explain.

Seth said goodbye to his brother while I lingered near the door. As I did, I noticed a small bookcase beside me. Studying the titles, I picked out
Burberry's New Annotated Bible: Old and New Testaments.
Remembering what Roman had said about the King James Version being a bad translation, I opened this one up to Genesis 6.

The wording was nearly identical, a little cleaner and more modern sounding here and there, but mostly unchanged. With one exception. In verse 4, the King James Version had read: “There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men…” This version, however, said: “The Nephilim were on the earth in those days and also afterwards, when the sons of God went to the daughters of men…”