Authors: Heather Manning
With a heavy sigh, Amanda shoved thoughts of the handsome schoolteacher out of her mind and filled the medicine dropper with warm milk. She couldn’t afford to indulge in romantic daydreams. Not this busy September morning. Not ever.
"Aunt Mandy, is she going to die?" Rex repeated.
"Not if I can help it," Amanda replied. She gently pressed the tip of the medicine dropper into the baby’s small rosebud mouth. Minnie puckered a bit, trying to suck. Small and feeble, the infant made frail, pitiful sounds like a mewling kitten.
"How is Mama this morning?" Rex asked.
"As well as can be expected," Amanda replied, shrugging. Glancing at him, she noted the anxiety etched on his young face. Her heart ached for him. He’d endured a lot of grief for one so young. "Your mother is sick in her heart and in her mind. It takes a lot of time to heal in those places."
She did wish Ella would make more of an effort though. Sometimes she had to resist the urge to go in there and shake some sense into her younger sister. Of course, she’d never tell Rex what she’d been thinking. Changing the subject, she asked, "Did you feed the chickens?"
"All I ever do is take care of those stupid chickens," he snapped.
"Watch your tone with me, young man," Amanda warned.
Rex sighed. "Yes, ma’am. I didn’t mean nothing by it. I fed the chickens and filled the pans with fresh water too."
"Anything, you didn’t mean anything by it," she said, correcting his grammar.
He shrugged a shoulder. "I spend so much time out there, I should move my bedding into the chicken house." With another shrug, he added, "Ozzie Lancaster calls me Chicken Boy."
Amanda bit her lip and tried not to laugh. She loved her nephew. With his sandy colored hair and freckles, he resembled Ella quite a bit. Her sister would never be able to disown the boy. He was her spitting image. "Well, now, eat your breakfast, and don’t worry about Ozzie Lancaster. He’s not the brightest spool of thread in the sewing basket for sure," she told him. He wasn’t, and that was the simple truth. "Your mama is proud of you and how you’ve pitched in around here since your daddy died. It hasn’t been easy, I know."
When Rex raised one pale eyebrow and regarded her doubtfully, Amanda added, "Your mama knows more about what’s going on around here than you realize. I’m proud of you too, Rex. You’ve taken on the responsibilities of a grown man. Now eat." She shoved the plate of fresh biscuits toward him.
She watched the boy’s face flush with pleasure and felt a little ashamed for not praising him more often. He was a good boy. He truly was. But Amanda rarely received compliments these days, so she seldom felt inclined to hand them out to others. She was a spinster who’d spent most of her adult life caring for one ailing parent after another. Now she was taking care of her newly widowed sister and two fatherless children — one who might die any day. She was twenty-seven years old, going on twenty-eight. Some days she felt twice as old. She feared the best part of her life was over. She’d survived one disappointment after another. It was all she could do not to nurse her bitter feelings. She tried to count her blessings each night before going to bed, but it was getting harder to do.
As she watched Rex tackle his scrambled eggs, Amanda wished there was fresh milk for him to drink, but he’d have to settle for watered down coffee. At least it was hot. She poured some into his cup. There was no money for fresh milk now — not since Rex’s father had died after accidentally falling from Joe Ulibarri’s barn roof. There was just enough to buy the tinned kind for Minnie. She saw Rex take a swallow and grimace. On Sundays, they drank the weak coffee with sugar. But today was not Sunday. It was Saturday. But it was a special day — sort of.
"Go ahead and add some sugar, if you want," Amanda encouraged him.
Rex’s freckled face lit up as he quickly reached for the sugar tin. "It’s going to be an exciting day, isn’t it, Aunt Mandy? Almost as exciting as the rodeo or county fair."
"No more dawdling. Eat," Amanda replied crisply. She tried not to think of the adventure ahead. Exciting? She couldn’t say, but it was certainly going to be out of the ordinary. So why was she looking forward to the outing and yet dreading it too?
"I read this book called The Conquest of Mexico," Rex said. "Mr. Gladney loaned it to me. It’s all about the Aztecs and their King Montezuma, and Captain Cortez and a beautiful lady named Marina. Mr. Gladney says the Aztecs didn’t build the old ruins, but he says the first settlers thought so, and they named the place after them. Mr. Gladney knows a lot about archeology. His best friend is an archeologist."
When Amanda raised her eyebrows, Rex explained. "He says archeology is the scientific study of old artifacts and stuff from ancient cultures. You know, pottery and skeletons and such."
"Eat," she said. "He’ll be here soon, and you haven’t finished your breakfast yet." She picked up the baby — roasting pan and all — and swished into the other room to change Minnie’s diaper. She knew Rex had been looking forward to this particular Saturday for weeks, ever since Mr. Gladney had announced he would be willing to take interested boys and girls to explore the old Indian ruins along the Animas River. A field trip, he called it.
Like most of the other people living in the small New Mexico town, Amanda knew the ruins existed, but she didn’t think about them much. After all, there was laundry to wash, her ailing sister to look after, little Minnie to care for, eggs to collect and sell, and the small garden to tend. Why should she concern herself with old deserted dwellings, home now to nothing but lizards and spiders?
When Rex told her about his teacher’s eager fascination with the old Indian settlement, Amanda had imagined all too well how Gil Gladney’s blue eyes must have lit up. Eyes as blue as the New Mexico sky.
Rex adored Mr. Gladney, she knew. Her nephew wanted to be a teacher when he grew up. He loved school and reading books. While most other boys his age would rather go hunting or fishing, Rex loved studying history and geography. He hoped to go to college one day. He even prayed about it. Amanda didn’t see how it would be possible, but she wasn’t going to say so and ruin his dreams. Rex was a good boy. So when he asked her to come along, to be a chaperone for the girl students, she’d said ‘yes.’
Her cheeks flamed now, reflecting upon her foolishness. She heard Bonita bark, and her cheeks grew even hotter. He was here! Her fingers fumbled with Minnie’s small diaper — squares of white flannel no bigger than a woman’s handkerchief.
Amanda heard voices in the kitchen — Rex’s and a woman’s. She relaxed a little and gently returned the baby to her roasting pan, tucking the blankets around her small body. Smoothing her skirt and her wavy dark hair, Amanda picked up the pan and returned to the kitchen.
"Good morning, Señora Martinez. Thank you for coming," she said, noting with pleasure the basket of fresh sopapillas and a jar of honey on the kitchen table.
"I am happy to help," the older woman replied. Short, plump, and middle-aged, Dolores Martinez was the mother of six grown children and more than a dozen grandchildren. She had proven to be a good neighbor many times in the past several months. "Let me have the baby," she insisted, taking the roasting pan. "Pobrecita, poor little thing," she cooed, looking down at Minnie. "She is small, but muy bonita, no?"
"Yes, she’s a pretty, little thing," Amanda agreed.
"Hmm, the sopapillas are still warm!" Rex exclaimed. He helped himself to one of the pillowy triangles of fried dough and drizzled it with a spoonful of honey.
"Mind your manners, and be sure to water the señora’s horse," Amanda reminded him as she peered out the window at the horse tied to the porch railing.
"Thanks, Mrs. Martinez," Rex mumbled, his mouth full. He darted out the door to do as he’d been told.
Amanda whisked his plate from the table and placed it on the floor. As usual, Rex had left a bit of egg and some biscuit crumbs for the dog. "Here, girl," she said, patting Bonita’s dark velvety head.
The animal was looking healthier every day, despite the broken tail and the sore patch on her back where someone had scalded her with something hot. Miserable and apparently homeless, the pitiful creature had shown up months ago on the farm. Rex had adopted her with fierce affection. Amanda dreaded the day when someone would turn up to claim the dog. She feared Rex wouldn’t be able to handle the loss so soon after the death of his father.
"How is the mamacita today?" Dolores Martinez asked.
Amanda feigned a cheerful smile. "Much the same." She led the way to the bedroom and quietly pushed open the door. Standing in the doorway, she glanced in at her sister lying in the bed. Ella’s long pale braids resembled skinny lengths of rope draped over each shoulder. Her dark eyes were open, but she didn’t appear to see anything, nor did she look in their direction as they entered the room. While Dolores made a tsk-tsk sound and muttered something in Spanish, Amanda made her way to her sister’s bed and sat down on the edge. She picked up one of Ella’s pale, limp hands and held it between her own strong, rosy ones. She felt a surge of conflicting emotion — both pity and impatience.
"Ella, Señora Martinez has come to sit with you. Remember, I told you I’d be going on a school trip with Rex this morning. The teacher is taking some of the pupils out to explore the old Indian ruins down by the river."
Amanda watched Ella, hoping for any sign of understanding on her sister’s blank face. There wasn’t one.
"It is a puzzle, this illness of your sister’s," Dolores said.
Amanda nodded. She didn’t understand it at all. When Doctor Morgan had come to help deliver the premature baby, Ella had neither spoken, nor cried out in pain. She moaned a little and whimpered. Afterwards, she wouldn’t talk or even eat. She wouldn’t even hold her newborn daughter.
"Doc Morgan says there’s nothing wrong with her — nothing physical anyhow. She’s as healthy as a horse, but she’s lost the will to live. She didn’t have much time to get over her husband’s death, and then the baby came too early. I guess she’s got a broken heart, and the doctor has no cure."
"Es una vergüenza—it is a shame," Dolores admitted. "You must be strong enough for the both of you for a little while longer."
But how much longer? Amanda wondered. She didn’t understand her sister’s behavior at all. Ella was alive. She had two children, a home of her own, and a sizable chicken farm, enough blessings for any woman. So why wasn’t she motivated to quit feeling sorry for herself and get up out of bed? Amanda recalled the doctor’s words now as she gazed down upon her sister’s pale face and gently touched one of the long braids. Ella’s eyes were so dull and lifeless.
Bonita padded into the room, hoisted her paws up on the bed, and wagged her tail. Amanda chuckled. "See, Ella, even Bonita wishes you were well." She stroked the dog’s silky, lopsided ears. She knew Rex was probably hovering outside the door and keeping an eye out for Gil Gladney’s buckboard. Usually, Amanda made the boy come in first thing to say ‘good morning’ to his mother. But it was hard for him to see her this way, she realized. He was always eager to leave the dark, disheartening room that smelled of medicine and despair.
"Amanda, you go get ready for your outing," Dolores said, placing a hand on her shoulder. "I will take care of your sister and her bebe. You are not to worry. Enjoy yourself."
"Thank you," Amanda said, rising from the bed. "I appreciate your kindness."
The older woman shrugged a plump shoulder. "It is nothing. I want you to have a good time — a picnic with the so-charming schoolteacher." She rolled her dark eyes suggestively and arched her thick eyebrows. "Alto, moreno, y muy guapo — tall, dark, and handsome."
Smiling, Amanda shook her head. "Don’t forget we’ll have Rex and a dozen other school children to keep us company. It won’t be romantic."
Dolores laughed and shooed her out of the room. Feeling more lighthearted than she had earlier in the morning, Amanda hurried to her room and studied her features in the mirror. Her cheeks were flushed with anticipation. Her brown eyes glowed. She examined the Spanish curls she’d flattened against her temples earlier. Recalling some women dubbed them ‘beau catchers,’ she reached for her brush and swept them away with a few impatient strokes. She wouldn’t want Dolores Martinez or anyone else to think she’d set her cap and her heart on winning Gil Gladney.
She had just finished pinning a brooch to her crisp shirtwaist and smoothing her gored skirt when she heard Rex call out, "Aunt Mandy, he’s here!"
Her heart lurched. She chastised herself severely for such foolishness and risked one last look in the mirror as she donned her best straw hat — the one with a wide brim to keep the sun out of her eyes. Trimmed with blue and green plaid ribbon, the hat appeared rather festive she thought as she secured the hatpin with fingers trembling ever so slightly. Amanda made her way to the kitchen where Bonita barked a welcome at the newcomer standing on the front porch. Rex had apparently left the dog inside in his eagerness to run out the door to greet Gil Gladney. Amanda felt a slight tug of guilt when she heard Minnie’s feeble cry from the other room, but Dolores bustled in and picked up the bowl of hardboiled eggs Amanda had prepared the night before.
"Go," the older woman urged, thrusting the bowl toward her. "And do not worry."
Amanda nodded, taking the bowl and swiping a small Mason jar filled with salt from the kitchen table too. As she opened the door, the dog swept past her with an eager swish of her tail. Gil Gladney stood on the porch talking with Rex. He’d removed his hat, and his black hair glinted in the sunlight like a raven’s wing. Even in scuffed boots and worn trousers, Mr. Gladney was the most attractive man she’d ever met. Dolores was right — he was tall, dark, and handsome. Incredibly handsome.
She glanced past him to the four youngsters already sitting in the back of the buckboard — little Sammy Cordova, who opened his mouth wide, revealing missing front teeth; the Schwarzkopf twins, Gertrude and Greta, with their long, twiggy braids, the color of old straw; and Jerry Snow, a boy flecked with freckles and red hair nearly the same shade as Bonita’s ragged coat. Jerry was Rex’s best friend. Amanda gave him a slight smile before returning her attention to the good-looking schoolteacher.