Authors: TJ Klune
I squeezed his hand. “I get you. And I’m not going to let things change. Things will be just like they’ve always been.”
Sandy’s smile took on a melancholic curve. “Everything changes sometime.”
“Not us,” I insisted. “I won’t let that happen. It’ll still be you and me against the world.”
“And Vince.”
“No. Not
and
Vince. You’ve been here practically my whole life. I’ve known Vince a few days.”
Even though it feels like so much longer,
was the thing that went unsaid. We both heard it, but didn’t address it.
“But it’s been the best few days of your life,” he said, no recrimination in his voice.
I didn’t know how to respond to that, because it was true. And I hated it. Sort of.
He knew me too well. “Right, Paul?”
I shrugged.
He sighed like he was a bit annoyed which, to be fair, he probably was. “Honey, just when I start to think you can accept things and move forward with them, you have these idiotic little notions in your head that you’re not good enough, that you don’t deserve to be happy like everyone else.”
“I don’t think like that,” I replied weakly, but we both knew it was a lie.
He didn’t call me on it. He didn’t have to. “And whether or not you can admit it,” he continued, “you’ve smiled more this past week than you have at any point that I can remember.”
“You must have mistaken smiling for looks of frustration, bewilderment, and full-on horror.”
“Hey, Paul?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m going to say a word,” Sandy said. “Just react how you normally would, okay?”
I glanced warily at him. “Cracker Jack psychology. Fun.”
“Ready?”
I nodded.
“Vince,” he said.
I smiled widely; I couldn’t stop it if I’d tried. “Oh, goddammit!”
He smirked at me but didn’t say anything in response.
“Finding alternate route,” That Damn Bitch said succinctly.
T
HE
bike store smelled like rubber and sweat and good health. I hated it.
“Can I help you?” the cheery little woman asked as we walked in. She had to be just under five feet tall, but she was ripped, and I thought it was possible she could kick my ass in a fight. Then I wondered why my first thought was that I was going to fight this woman, and I just chalked it up to me being weird. As usual.
“Hi, I’m looking for a bike,” I said.
“Well, you came to the right place!” she said with a chuckle.
“Oh, really?” I asked her. “I wouldn’t have guessed since the sign outside says ‘Bike Shop’.”
“Forgive my friend,” Sandy said smoothly as the bike chick stared at me oddly. “He’s not normally so rude. He’s just a little flustered. Wonderful, exciting things are happening in his life, and he doesn’t know how to deal with them quite yet.”
“Oh?” she said, recovering slightly. She looked me up and down. “Have you decided to make some healthy lifestyle choices and become a bike rider?”
Before I could scratch her eyes out, Sandy spoke for me again. “The bike is for someone else.”
“My
boyfriend
,” I said, quite loudly, sure she would also be a homophobe and wanting to stick it to her good. “I hit him with my car and broke his other bike.”
Oh sweat balls
.
She narrowed her eyes slightly. “Is that so?”
“It was an accident,” Sandy said. “Look, this probably wasn’t the best way to start this. Hi, I’m Sandy, and this is Paul. We’re here to look at bikes.” He shook her hand, but I didn’t, because I had convinced myself the little biker chick was evil since she thought my “lifestyle choices” included shoving my face with lard. I didn’t want her evil to rub off on me in case I became a weed-smoking hippie who went to music festivals in a skirt made of hemp.
“I’m Jenny, and I think I can help you,” she told us, but really speaking only to Sandy. I had a tendency to alienate people with my mouth. You’d think I wouldn’t have been let out into public as much as I was. “It’s probably a good idea if I knew what kind of bike you’re looking to replace.”
Sandy looked at me. “What?” I asked him.
“What kind of bike was it?”
“What do you mean? It was a bike.” How hard was that to understand?
Jenny looked at me with bemusement. “There are many kinds, Paul. Was it a mountain bike? A road bike? Touring bike? Racing? Time trial? Triathlon? Track? BMX? Freight? Roadster? Cyclocross?”
“It was blue,” I said hastily, not even remotely impressed by her listing off bicycles. “I think. Maybe a little bit gray.”
“Were the tires thin or thick?”
“Paul’s a size queen,” Sandy said. “That’s probably not the best question to ask him.”
I glared at Sandy before looking back at Jenny. “Does it really matter what kind it was? I just want to get him a new bike.”
Jenny nodded. “It’s very important. It’s almost like a way of life. The type of bike a person has can define who they are.”
“I don’t think that’s a real thing,” I told her. “I don’t have a bike and I know who I am.”
“Who are you, Paul?” she asked me, looking as if she was trying to peer into my immortal soul. I wondered briefly if bike-riding hippies had some kind of Wiccan voodoo magic that they ascribed to.
“I just want a bike,” I assured her. “Not to be defined.”
“Hmm,” Jenny said. I didn’t know what that meant.
“Did you take a picture of the bike?” Sandy asked. “That could have made this easier.”
“Of course I did,” I scoffed.
“Well, then show it to her.”
“Well, after I took the picture, I accidentally deleted it while trying to download an app that allows you to take pictures of guys and then tells you if they’re a top or a bottom.”
Sandy looked interested. “Smart phones are way smart,” he said astutely. “Does it work?”
I shook my head. “I think it’s broken. I took a picture of myself with it and it told me that I was asexual. I didn’t even know it could do that. Wait. What if it was insulting me?”
“Technology hates you for some reason,” Sandy said. “Maybe you should get a shack in the wilderness in Montana and live off the grid.”
I tried to picture that. “Would I have to grow a beard? I don’t know if I can, and even if I could, if it’s something I could pull off.”
“No, I don’t think you’d need a beard. But one of these days your toaster is going to become sentient and stab you. I just think it would be easier if you didn’t rely so much on technology.”
“But what would I do in my Montana wilderness shack? I can’t just live in the middle of nowhere without being able to provide for myself.”
Sandy thought for a moment. “You could always start a small business that only a crazy person would have. Like making earmuffs for cats.”
I frowned. “But wouldn’t I need a small business model that included some kind of online plan? I don’t think if I’m living in a shack in the middle of nowhere that people would come buy my Cat-Muffs, no matter how good they were.”
“Man,” Sandy mused. “Technology is a vicious circle. You can’t escape it, no matter what you do. Even if I were to take care of the Internet side of it for you, how would I tell you about the orders that you have? I can’t call you on the phone because it might try and electrocute you. But I like the name Cat-Muffs.”
I grinned. “I thought you would. I even thought of a jingle already.”
“Lay it on me, baby doll.”
“If your cat is cold and its life is tough,” I sang, “all you need are Paul’s Cat-Muffs.”
“Testify!” Sandy exclaimed, throwing his hands in the air.
“So, are you guys going to buy a bike or something?” Jenny asked.
“That’s why we’re here,” I reminded her.
“I just wanted to make sure,” she said. “It sounded like you were about to make a foray into domestic terrorism.”
I scowled. “How are Cat-Muffs domestic terrorism?”
“I think they’re amazing,” Sandy said, just as baffled.
“Most people who live in the middle of nowhere in a shack are looking to blow something up,” she explained.
“Do I
look
like I want to blow something up?”
“You probably shouldn’t answer that,” Sandy interrupted. “Paul, why don’t we just look around at the bikes and see what we see?”
It was probably better than nothing, though I was sure I wasn’t going to be able to find the right one. There literally had to be at least eight trillion different bikes in the shop, each with a different sized frame and tread. I saw one that I thought was perfect, but Sandy said he didn’t think Vince would appreciate a pink bike with streamers and a basket on the front that had butterflies on it. “Besides, that bike is for eight-year-old girls,” he said, pointing to a sign next to the bike that said,
Perfect for eight-year-old girls!
“What is this world coming to?” I sighed. “Little boys are going to fall into these predetermined gender roles and never be able to choose the bike they want to ride? We haven’t come as far as we like to think we have.”
“His dad bought him a butch bike when he was a kid,” Sandy told Jenny. “He’s never been the same since. You should ask him how he knew he was gay.”
Obviously unable to stop herself, she asked, “How did you know you were gay?”
“I was eight years old when I realized that my G.I. Joe and Optimus Prime were more than friends,” I told her. “Theirs was a forbidden love that dared not speak its name.”
“Optimus Prime is a robot,” Jenny said. “Humans and robots can’t be in love.”
“Oh,” Sandy groaned. “You shouldn’t have said that.”
“Blasphemy!” I hissed at her.
“It’s true!” she insisted.
“I hope you never have children,” I snapped. “Obviously you’d want to destroy their imaginations.”
She was indignant. “I have two kids.”
“Is your last name Dream Killer?”
“It’s Lopez.”
My eyes went wide. “Your name is Jennifer Lopez?”
“I go by Jenny,” she assured me.
When was I ever going to get this chance again? “I’m not fooled by the rocks that you got because you’re still, you’re still Jenny from the block.”
She rolled her eyes. “Like I’ve never heard that one before.”
“It’s not every day you meet someone named Jennifer Lopez,” I tell Sandy.
“I would be more impressed if her name was Gwyneth Paltrow,” he replied.
“Because she’s an ice queen?” I glanced at Jenny. “That’s not a very nice thing to say right in front of her, even if her kids are probably dead inside because she won’t let their Optimus Prime ever know love outside of his species.”
“Can I please sell you a bike?” Jenny begged me.
“I don’t know what kind of bike Vince had,” I admitted.
“Vince? Vince Taylor?”
I was startled. “Yeah. How’d you know?”
She laughed. “I don’t know why I didn’t make the connection to begin with. You’re Paul Auster!”
“It’s like you’re famous,” Sandy whispered. “See if she’ll let you sign her boobies with a Sharpie.”
I ignored him. “Do I want to know how you know my last name?” I asked Jenny.
She grinned. “Vince told me all about you. And I have to say, he was right on the money.”
I groaned. “I really didn’t want to know.”
She patted my arm. “You know he adores you, right?”
“I’ve known him for a
week
. Well, almost a week. I’m still unclear as to what day counts as the first one.”
“What’s that have to do with anything?”
“He doesn’t know me well enough to adore anything about me.”
She shook her head. “Since when does that matter? What he
does
know is enough for him. That should be enough for you.”
“I’m sorry. I didn’t see that this was a bike shop
and
relationship counseling all in one. Unless I missed the sign out front that listed your credentials.”
“Do you need a therapist already?” she asked, concerned.
“Yes, but not for what you think,” Sandy said.
“That’s not funny.”
Jenny clapped her hands together. “But this makes my job
so
much easier. He called on Thursday to let us know he needed to order a new bike. I thought it was going to take a couple of weeks, but I called our other store and they already had his bike there, so I had it delivered over here. I was going to call him today to have him come pick it up.”
I was relieved. “So I can just pay for it and take it with us? I brought some bungee cables so I can put it in the back of my car.”
“You can.” She called out to the other chick working in the shop, who went to the back and brought up an almost exact replica of what I remembered Vince’s bike looking like. I was absolutely convinced that I was probably the best boyfriend of the history of boyfriends who had struck their
own
boyfriends with their car door and sent them to the hospital. Then I got hung up on the fact that I was using the word
boyfriend
three times in a single thought, and I got this goofy smile on my face that I couldn’t seem to get rid of. I grinned at Sandy and Jenny and let them see just how happy I was.
Jenny laughed as she went to the front desk. “I can see why he likes you. There’s something about you, Paul. In all the years I’ve known him, I don’t think I’ve ever seen him this happy before. It looks like you two have got a good thing going.”
I flushed as she typed something into the computer. “He’s pretty okay,” I allowed.
“I bet he is,” she said with a smile. “Okay, that’ll be $1,976.25.”
“The fuck you talking about!” I shouted at her.
She recoiled as if I’d slapped her. Everyone in the store stared at me.
“Sorry,” I said quickly. “I was just startled. I thought you said that bike was over nineteen hundred dollars.”
She nodded slowly. “It is?”
“For a
bike
? I didn’t put that much down when I bought my
car
!”
“It’s a 2012 Diamondback Podium 3 road bike,” she said as if that explained everything.
“I bought a
Prius
,” I said as if that made everything better.
“These things can be expensive.”
“Is it made of
blood
diamonds?” I asked incredulously. “Did children forced to work in deep, dark mines dig up the diamonds with their bare, bleeding hands?”