Temptation (35 page)

“What are you waiting for?” I ask. Why won’t he move?

He smirks at me and says, “Can’t wait for my big cock to fill that perfect pussy can you?” Damn him and his dirty mouth. He knows what he does to me when he talks like that. I don’t get a chance to say anything back. He enters me in one thrust. He pushes deep inside of me, hitting that pain/pleasure zone immediately. He fucks me deep and slow. I can’t move the way he has my leg over his shoulder, and with no room for my other leg, I can only lay back and enjoy his slow fucking. His gaze never leaves mine and it’s the most erotic sex we’ve ever had before. I feel as though he’s trying to show me how much he loves my body, loves being with me right now.

Viktor thrusts deep inside of me once more then stops when he’s all the way in at the hilt. He doesn’t move for a few moments before saying, “Trust me, Ava.” He moves out and then right back in, stopping once he’s all the way inside of me. “Trust me,” he says again. I can’t think straight enough to answer him. I’m so close to the edge, and when he does it again, I scream out his name as my orgasm takes over my entire body. My whole body flushes then just as fast, I feel a wave of coldness. My legs start to quiver and I can’t seem to open my eyes to look at Viktor right now. I feel him start to move again, but this time his movements are faster. I bite my lip, not knowing if I can go again so soon after.

“Come on,
moya lyubov’
. I’m not finished with you yet,” he says as he reaches to start rubbing my clit. His strokes are just like his thrusts. They’re fast and rough. I can’t stop myself from lifting my hips for him. He’s hitting the spot I love the most. I feel him kiss my ankle, then his hand caressing my breast. He pinches my nipples gently, then moves back down to my clit. He rubs and squeezes my bundle of nerves, but I don’t come again till I hear his voice.

“That’s it,
moya lyubov'
. Come with me. Come with me now!”

I start to come as he circles my clit, and I open my eyes at the last minute to watch Viktor come undone with me. We both cry out and as I watch the pure pleasure written all over his face, I can’t help but get a rush of satisfaction. He stills inside of me after a few more moments, and he kisses my ankle again. I let out a puff of air, feeling so much better than I had before. I wince as Viktor slowly pulls out of me, and I close my legs as he goes to dispose of the condom. I rise up and watch him walk away and I can’t help but giggle when I watch him walk back to me.

“What are you giggling about?” he asks. When I don’t answer he shrugs his shoulders and bends down to pick me up. He cradles me close to him, and I lay my head on his chest. It feels wonderful to feel him so close to me. I can hear the beating of his heart as he takes me upstairs and when I place my hand over his heart, Viktor kisses me sweetly on my forehead. He holds me tightly as we get closer to the bathroom. He gently and slowly sets me down, and he caresses my face. Viktor kisses me softly on my lips and I groan when he pulls away. He chuckles and turns around. I watch him as he turns the water on for us, and as the steam starts to feel the room my heart begins to beat faster. Viktor and I have never showered together before and the excitement is thrilling.

He turns to me and smiles that sexy smile I love the most, and he grabs two towels off the shelf in the corner. I just stand still, not knowing for sure what he wants me to do. I feel sort of lost right now. This is a total new experience for me, but I’d be lying if I didn’t think of how amazing it’s going to be. He grabs something out of the cabinet then comes to me holding a wipe in his hand, and for a second I’m confused at what he wants to do with it.

“Close your eyes,
moya lyubov'
.”

I do as he says and he starts to rub my eyes with the wipe. He does this for a few moments and once he’s done I look up to him. I watch him toss the wipe in the trash and I realize he wiped all my makeup off my face. Viktor lightly touches my face and touches his fingertips to my lips.

“I’d rather you not wear that shit,’’ he says and we both laugh. As much as I like making myself look sexy and alluring for the men at the club, I wish I didn’t have to wear makeup either.

Viktor turns away from me to open the clear door to the shower and takes my hand to pull me closer to him. I step inside the shower, and I sigh feeling the hot water run down my body. I turn around as he steps in and I bite my lip. Just when I thought he couldn’t look any hotter, he looks incredible with the water running over his chest and down his muscular legs. I stand in a trance as the water runs down his abs, then down to his cock and legs.

I snap my head up to him when I hear him chuckle, but he doesn’t say a word. He reaches behind me and grabs my blue loofah and lathers it with my favorite body wash. The smell of cucumber melon fills my nose and I close my eyes when he starts to wash my body. He starts at my shoulders first, moving slowly down my arms. When he takes my hand, I open my eyes. He takes each of my fingers and massages in between them. Viktor gently lowers each hand as he finishes and moves back up to my chest. He seems focused on getting me as clean as he possibly can. His eyebrows are drawn together and his eyes never leave each place he washes. When he moves over my breasts and to my stomach, I have to place a hand on the wall to keep myself up right. I watch him with curiosity when he bends down and starts to wash my legs. I place each hand on his shoulders when he taps the back of my calf for me to raise my leg. He washes my feet and in between each toe. I can’t help but giggle when he does it again. He looks up to me, stopping for only a moment to smile and shake his head. I couldn’t help the laugh. It tickles.

He places my other foot down and starts to move back up my leg. He does each one exactly the same, but once he gets to my pussy, my breath catches in my throat. I lick my lips as he starts to touch me. I feel his skillful fingers gently massaging me and I move my hips to get him to touch my now aching clit. Viktor chuckles again, then drops his hand away from me. I groan, slightly irritated he didn’t do more to me. I wanted him to, but instead, he turns me around and starts to wash my back. I put both hands on the wall in front of me letting the water rinse off the body wash. Viktor rubs my back as he cleans me and I moan again when he gets lower, and lower. He moves down to my ass and does the same to it. I feel a little uncomfortable when he starts to wash in between my ass cheeks, but the feeling is quickly gone when he turns me around again. Dropping the loofah, he takes both hands and places them on my face, gently titling my head back so the water soaks my hair.

He slowly massages the water through my hair. I close my eyes, loving the feel of his fingers gently caressing my head. I slowly open my eyes, watching as Viktor grabs the shampoo, then places some in his hands. He rubs his hands together, our gaze never faltering. I love this side of him. I love that he’s taking care of me and showing me more than just his dominate side. I thought I had him figured out, but I’m learning with each day, he’s more than just a strong man. He’s caring and when he starts to wash my hair, I know he loves me. I can’t help but feel it. He does the same with the conditioner, and I sigh when he stops his gentle caressing.

Once he finishes cleaning me, he moves me out from under the warm spray and quickly washes himself. I try to help, but he smirks at me and shakes his head. He won’t let me even touch him. I can only watch. Even as he finishes and cuts off the shower, he won’t let me get out. I cross my arms over my chest trying to stay warm. I’m starting to get cold while he dries himself off. I don’t have to wait very long, thankfully. Viktor grabs my fluffy teal towel, wrapping it around me. He moves his hands up and down my arms drying me and warming me up at the same time. He dries my entire body, just like he washed me. There isn’t a place on me that he hasn’t touched to dry. I feel so pampered and … cared for. Loved.

Guilt starts to creep into my mind, and I have the urge to explain why I acted the way I had. I shouldn’t have let Trixie’s words plant the seed of doubt about us. I know Viktor. He’s been here for me and done so much for Gabbie and I. I open my mouth to apologize, but he gives me a quick peck on my lips and walks out of the bathroom. I frown, wondering why he just left like that. Instead of standing here worrying about it, I toss my towel in the laundry basket, comb through my hair, and toss it on top of my head. I walk into my bedroom and I see Viktor laying comfortably under the covers. His arm is behind his head, while the other lies over his chest. Seeing him like that, makes me realize something that I’ve known for a while, but pushed the feeling away.

I love him.

The thought keeps me rooted where I am. I can’t seem to move forward with finally realizing my new revelation. I love him. I can’t help the smile that comes across my face. Viktor watches me and beckons me to him. I want to run to him and tell him but instead, I calmly walk over to the bed and climb under the covers. I slide by him and lay my head on his chest. He places an arm around my shoulder and his fingers slowly trace up and down my arm. I bite my lip, trying not to blurt out how I feel about him. I’m suddenly afraid to tell him. I don’t really know why. I know he cares for me, as he showed me tonight. Not many men would do what he’s done in this situation and that makes me fall even more for him.

I raise my head up and look to him. He leans down and kisses my forehead and I sigh deeply loving this new feeling. I move to on my stomach so I have a better view and so I can explain myself for how I acted tonight. I feel he needs to know about my past with Malcolm, just so maybe he can understand why I freaked out. But Viktor being Viktor, beats me to it.

“I know,
moya lyubov'
. You have nothing to apologize for.”

“Vik, yes I do. I shouldn’t have …”

“No, Ava. I get it. I really do. I know you’ve been hurt. I know that pain can make you do and say things to the ones you care most about to avoid feeling that pain again.” He pushes a strand of my hair out of my face and says, “I may not know exactly what happened to you, and maybe one day you’ll want to tell me about that, but I understand. And if I’m being honest,” he grins, and continues. “I thought it was incredibly sexy that you were jealous. And when you were angry, I wanted to do very dirty things with you.” He flips me on my back and hovers over me. “I wanted to do very dirty things
to
you.”

I lick my lips and say, “What dirty things?”

“Oh, Ava, you know exactly what I want.”

My breath catches in my throat, wondering what he wants to do to me. I won’t lie, I want anything and everything this man can give. But, instead of letting this get hot between us, I place my hand on his cheek and say, “I am sorry, Viktor. I should’ve trusted you and I feel stupid for doubting you. I know you would never hurt me like that.”

“
Moya lyubov'
,” he starts to say something but I cut him off.

“No, Vik. I need you to listen now.” He looks deep into my eyes and nods. I move my hand from his face and wrap my arms around his neck. Funny how I was afraid before to tell him everything, to lay it all out there, but as I stare into those beautiful green eyes, all the doubt, all the guilt, anger, all that shit vanishes.

“I’m not very good at relationships. I’m not experienced with them whatsoever, but at the same time, when I’m with you that doesn’t seem to matter. At times I think you’re too good to be true and one day I’ll wake up knowing everything we share is nothing but a dream.” Viktor caresses my cheek as I continue to lay it all out for him. “You were right about me being hurt before. I thought I knew what love was, and I really thought Malcolm was different. But he wasn’t. He was just another asshole. I never thought in a million years I would end up pregnant, then left all alone. I think that’s what hurt the most about the entire fucked up mess I had with him. He abandoned me. He left me and Gabbie with nothing.” I close my eyes tightly trying not to cry. It never fails if I think of what Malcolm did to me almost two years ago, I get upset. It’s still an open chapter that I’m desperate to finish. I never got the right to say anything of how I felt. He didn’t give me a chance. Just knowing he didn’t care enough about Gabbie or me, to even say goodbye tears me up inside. “He promised me so many things. He made me believe he’d be there and take care of Gabbie and me. But,” I clear my throat and I open my eyes to look at Viktor. He’s the one who’s here now, and he’s the one holding me together. “Malcolm just left. I know it’s not right of me to think you’ll do that same. I know it’s not fair to you that I can’t seem to let this go, but I’m trying so hard, Vik.”

I let go of a breath, thanking God, Viktor hasn’t gotten up and ran out the door hearing me bare it all to him. I never talk about what happened with Malcolm for this very reason. It’s bringing up so many painful memories that I’d rather not relive. But for Viktor I will. Just so he understands me more. And why I am the way I am.

“I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I don’t want to constantly worry you’ll end up leaving Gabbie and I.” A single tear escapes and Viktor uses his thumb to wipe it away. “I just … I can’t go through that again. And I know I keep you at a distance to protect myself, but dammit Viktor, you got in anyways. It’s terrifying and I know I have a ways to go before I can fully trust you, but I want you to know I want to. I wish it was easy for me to say I was over it and could trust you completely. I want that so much.” I really start to cry. Viktor says nothing as he takes me into his arms and holds me while I let out all the shit I’ve held in for so long. He strokes my hair and rubs my back as I continue to cry.

I pull away and run my hands down my face. Viktor watches me and holds my arms keeping me close to him. I’m sure he thinks I’ll be the one to run away this time, but I can finally say I don’t want to run away anymore. My tears finally come to a halt which I’m thankful for. I didn’t want to break down in from of him, but at the same time, it was finally time for me to let it all out. Maybe now I can let go and forgive Malcolm for what he did to me. Viktor pulls me to his forehead and I close my eyes as I hear him say the most perfect thing ever.