Authors: Judy Nunn
During the day he functioned, the constant duty and activity kept the images at bay, but at night his sleep was fitful, fraught with the horrors which presented themselves, over and over, until he'd awake drenched in sweat, despite the chill of the winter air.
And now Kit was with him, and that night the dreams took on a chilling new aspect. The ghastly image of Big Stan's mutilated face became that of young Kit Galloway. His baby brother, drenched in blood, no eyes, no nose, just gore where his face had been.
Malcolm rose before dawn and prowled about the camp, willing the practicality and purpose of the day to begin, to rid him of his imaginings. But an hour or so later when Kit bounded up, youthful, eager, awaiting his orders, the images returned, and Malcolm found himself shaken and unnerved. Damn them! Why had they sent his little brother!
The day progressed like many others. There was no action from the enemy, so the men maintained their customary routine. Around lunchtime, several who were off sentry duty tossed a baseball about. Not ostentatiously, and not far from the trenches. Just whiling away the time, relieving the boredom and frustration, they would have said if questioned. In truth they were distracting themselves from the underlying anxiety which always accompanied the waiting game.
Bill Perseman knocked back Kit's offer to chuck the ball around. He'd noticed Mac over at the helipad, sitting on the ground, soaking up the sun, enjoying a smoke. Good, he thought, glad of the opportunity for a private chat with the sergeant, he'd been wanting to seek him out.
âG'day, Mac.'
âSir.' Mac seemed quite happy to have his moment of privacy interrupted. âDo you want a smoke?' He dived his hand into his top pocket for his Winfields but Perse shook his head. He'd given up a year ago and, like many a reformed smoker, he loathed the habit.
Perse squatted comfortably, elbows on his knees. âCouldn't help but notice a bit of tension last night.' Perse always got straight to the point. âEverything all right with your Skipper?'
Mac looked sharply at him. The captain had a bit of a hide expecting him to rat on the Skipper. âSure,' he said, âwhy shouldn't it be?' Hell, Mac thought as he rose to his feet and ground his cigarette butt out with the heel of his boot, he might dislike the Skipper on occasions, but he'd never be disloyal to his officer.
Perse also rose. He was aware of Mac's unspoken outrage and realised he'd been too abrupt. But, as the harm had already been done, he decided the best way out was to be truthful. âNo offence, Mac, I'm not asking you to badmouth him. I just sensed your Skipper was a bit tense and I wondered if anything had happened, that's all. No offence intended, I swear.'
The honest look of concern in the tough little Queenslander's face was enough to convince Mac that he'd overreacted. âNone taken,' he said, once again producing his packet of Winfields. âYou sure?' he asked, offering the pack.
âWhy not.' Perse grinned and accepted the cigarette. Sharing a fag'd clear the air, he thought, it'd taste like shit but he wouldn't inhale.
They lit up and sat once again, side by side on the helipad, smoking in companionable silence.
âSkipper's always had a bit of a temper,' Mac admitted finally. Hell nothing disloyal in that, everyone was aware of the Skipper's quick temper. âBut the men understand that. They know better than to rile the Skipper, it keeps them in line.' Mac sucked heavily on his cigarette. âIt seems I'm the one who rubs him up the wrong way. For no particular reason,' he added as he exhaled.
âWhy do you reckon that is?'
âPersonality clash, I suppose,' Mac shrugged, âand the fact that I'm not Stan Munday.'
This seemed to be going somewhere, Perse thought. âOh?' he queried taking a second tentative drag on his cigarette, his mouth tasting like dry camel dung.
âStan Munday was his previous platoon sergeant,' Mac continued, âan older bloke, quite a hero with the men, I believe. Or at least that's what Beady tells me.'
Perse nodded, it was all making sense. Stan Munday would have been a hero to Malcolm Galloway too, he thought. He'd seen it before. A young officer losing his right-hand man could be pushed to the brink. âWhat happened to Stan Munday?' he asked.
âA booby trap.'
âAh.' So that was it, Perse thought.
Bill Perseman had witnessed something in Malcolm Galloway's behaviour the previous night, something far more than a quick temper. The lieutenant was losing it, he was sure. Poor bastard. It was a big worry under the circumstances, however. Perse stood and stubbed out his cigarette. He'd have to keep a close eye on Lieutenant Galloway.
âThanks for the smoke, Mac,' he said.
âYou're welcome, sir.'
Shit his mouth tasted foul, Perse thought. âI'm going to get a cuppa,' he said, âdo you wantâ'
He stopped mid-sentence as an artillery shell commenced its angry squeal. At the same time, the yell âincoming!' sounded out clearly from the gunpits, and the squeal became a scream as the missile shrieked its way towards them.
Ben the Tasmanian had his arm raised and was about to throw to Kit when he heard the first chilling sound. He dropped the baseball. âRun Kid,' he yelled, even before the call sounded from the gunpits, and he dived for the nearest trench, the others following close behind.
Perse and Mac turned to race for the control post, their nearest protective cover. Only fifty metres! Their ears were
ringing. The sound was like the demented scream of a banshee, the shell was directly overhead. Thirty metres! Twenty-five! Twenty! It took them only seconds, but then it took the missile only seconds too. They didn't make it. The shell landed a little short of its intended mark. It had been intended to take out the three foxholes on the very peak of the hill, but it landed directly in between the CP and the helipad. As if it had been intended for Perse and Mac.
They've got artillery within range
, Malcolm thought the moment he heard the scream of the shell.
I didn't know they had any bloody artillery
. He was in No. 3 foxhole with the machine-gun crew.
But there've been no intelligence reports of artillery movement
. His mind was racing. Even in the seconds before the shell hit, he was trying desperately to analyse the situation. Then there was an almighty explosion. Over near the CP.
Jesus!
âCheck the CP.' In the trenches connecting the foxhole, several men were already racing to the CP to see who might have copped it. âOnly one of you, for Christ's sake,' Malcolm barked, and the men halted. âYou, corporal, check the CP,' and Ben the Tasmanian disappeared. âWhere's the FO, where's Captain Perseman?' Of the three remaining men in the vicinity, no-one seemed to know. Malcolm turned to Kit who'd suddenly appeared by his side. âWhere's Perseman?' he snapped.
Oh God! Kit paled. He'd asked Perse if he wanted to chuck the ball around, and Perse had said no, and he'd headed off towards Mac, and Mac had been sitting over on the helipad. Just past the CP â¦
Malcolm registered the look on his younger brother's face.
Shit, don't tell me I've lost my Forward Observer
, he thought,
don't tell me that!
âGet the radio,' he ordered.
Barely a minute later Kit returned with the radio transmitter, but by then the news had come back about Perse and Mac.
âBoth dead, sir. Direct hit, killed outright.'
Oh Christ!
âAnd the CP?'
âDamaged. Only two blokes there, neither of them badly injured, sir.'
âGood.' Malcolm instructed the three privates to retrieve the bodies of Perse and Mac, then return to their posts. âCorporal,' he turned to Ben, âorder all troops to maintain full alert and repair all damage.'
âYes, sir.'
âCome with me, Kit.' The brusque efficiency of Malcolm's voice belied the shattered state of his nerves.
Two in one hit!
a voice was screaming in his head.
Jesus fucking Christ! You've got no forward observer! You've got no platoon sergeant. Jesus fucking Christ!
Kit shouldered the transmitter in its backpack and followed Malcolm to the observation post.
âSet up the radio,' Malcolm ordered, and he bent over the map spread out on the ground, âI'm calling in the artillery.' There was a sheet of paper beside the map with notations in Bill Perseman's surprisingly neat hand. Had it been only yesterday they'd studied the map together?
Shit, why isn't Perse here!
Kit obeyed the order. He set up the transmitter which was tuned to the special artillery frequency, but as he did so he looked at his brother in amazement. âYou're calling in the artillery?'
âWhat else would you suggest, private?' It was a patronising sneer, but the tic in Malcolm's right eye had started to flicker. âThey have artillery out there, we need support.' He picked up the binoculars, looping them around his neck, and looked out over the base, mainly to avoid Kit noticing the humiliating tic.
Kit realised, with a sense of shock, that his brother's nerves seemed to be getting the better of him. âI think they've only got one gun, maybe two at the most,' he suggested reasonably. There'd been silence from the enemy for
a full five minutes. If the NVA had more artillery they wouldn't have fired just one shell, he thought, they'd have shot the shit out of the place by now.
âOh they've only got one gun,' Malcolm said sarcastically, âthat's what you think is it?'
You smartarse bastard, they could have a whole fucking battery down there!
Lowering the binoculars, he turned on his brother. âAnd how the hell would you know?'
âIf they had more artillery, they wouldn't have fired just one shell. It might be a â¦' Kit stopped mid-sentence. The burgeoning scream of another shell interrupted, as if bent upon proving him a liar.
The brothers stood staring at each other for a split second before they dived to the ground, covering their heads. Again, a massive explosion, dirt and debris showering them. But again, the shell fell short of its mark and, when they rose to their feet and looked out over the position, it was obvious that no real damage had been inflicted.
In Malcolm's fragile state, however, the explosion had been enough to push him to the very edge of the emotional precipice upon which he teetered.
Grabbing the radio handpiece, he pressed the transmit button. He couldn't go to pieces, there was a job at hand, he was in command. He forced his voice to remain steady. âGolf 41 this is 31 Fire Mission Battery, over.'
â31 this is Golf 41, over.'
As he heard the answering response, Malcolm traced, with his finger, the lines on the map before him. The fire had come from the north, but how far away were they? What distance should he call? What was the east-west grid reference? The lines on the map were dancing in front of his eyes.
Shit! Shit! Shit! What are the bloody coordinates?
Kit watched, dumbfounded. It was madness to call in the artillery. Surely the fact that it had been five minutes
between shells
proved
that the NVA had only one gun. Perhaps it was a setup, perhaps the shells had been intended as a decoy. They should be analysing the situation, Kit thought, not calling for help.
âGolf 41 from 31 ⦠request immediate artillery fire â¦' The map was mocking him, the lines wouldn't stay still.
What are the fucking coordinates!
A moment's pause. The voice once again through the handpiece. This time requesting coordinates.
Shit! Shit! Shit!
Perse's notes.
Thank Christ!
Malcolm grabbed the sheet of paper, once again steadying his voice. âCoordinates are grid 453 658, height 215 metres, over.'
The reply came, âRequire confirmation of coordinates grid 453 658, height 215 metres. Do you confirm? Over.'
Nervous beads of sweat were forming on Malcolm's brow. âGolf 41 from 31, coordinates confirmed. Counter battery fire, one round fire for effect, over.'
â31 from Golf 41, counter battery fire, one round fire for effect, out.'
Malcolm put down the handpiece, overwhelmed with relief.
Thank Christ that's over.
He looked at his brother, who was staring at him. Rather strangely he thought. He straightened his back, glad that he hadn't lost control. In front of Kit of all people! Hell, it'd been close. He'd nearly lost it altogether. What a terrible thing, what on earth had happened to him? Oh well, they were all right now. The day was saved. Help was at hand. For some unknown reason, a string of cliches ran through Malcolm's mind and he wanted to laugh. Minutes later, when the deafening sound of a half a dozen heavy artillery shells screamed overhead, he did. He laughed out loud.
âHelp is at hand,' he said, thinking that he sounded rather like his father as he said it.
From their shelter the two men looked down the hill and out over the killing area to the jungle beyond. But the shells didn't land in enemy territory. The perimeter of
the base suddenly disappeared as the missiles detonated, throwing a wall of earth high in the air. God almighty, Kit thought, the shells aren't landing in enemy territory. They're not even landing in the killing area! We're firing on ourselves! He grabbed the handpiece of the radio transmitter.
âCheck fire!' he yelled. âCheck fire! Check fire! Check fire!' Even as he yelled it, a shell landed higher up the hill and Kit watched in horror as one of their own gunpits disappeared. A direct hit. Somewhere in that shower of dirt, men had been blown to pieces. Then all was silence.
Malcolm stared down at the gutted position. He stared at the gunpit, clouded with smoke, from which there appeared no movement. But he wasn't seeing anything. The coordinates had been wrong, how had that happened? He tried to remember. Yesterday afternoon he and Perse had made notes.
That's right.
And at one stage Perse had written down their own coordinates. The grid references of Fire Support Base Tango's outer perimeter.
Ah yes, Perse's notes. That's what went wrong.