That’s How I Roll: A Novel (40 page)

I’ve only got a little time left to me, no matter where I spend it.

This is where it ends. Me and this story, both.

I apologize to nobody on this earth. This is no plea for forgiveness. I know I don’t deserve forgiveness, and I’m not looking for any. I did the best I was capable of, and your judgments have no more meaning for me now than they ever did.

But there will be judgments; I’m convinced of that. I think
about all the different people I’ve run across in my life. I think about them all the time. And what I think is that almost all of them should stop pointing their fingers and get themselves down to church. Fall down on their knees and pray.

Pray there is no God.

don’t know where I’m going after they wheel the gurney away with my lifeless body strapped to it. But one thing I know for sure. If there’s another place beyond this one, I’ll get there under my own power.

Don’t doubt me.

My name is Esau Till.

About the Author

Andrew Vachss has been a federal investigator in sexually transmitted diseases, a social-services caseworker, and a labor organizer, and has directed a maximum-security prison for “aggressive-violent” youth. Now a lawyer in private practice, he represents children and youths exclusively. He is the author of numerous novels, including the Burke series, two collections of short stories, and a wide variety of other material, including song lyrics, graphic novels, essays, and a “children’s book for adults.” His books have been translated into twenty languages, and his work has appeared in
Parade, Antaeus, Esquire, Playboy, The New York Times
, and many other forums. A native New Yorker, he now divides his time between the city of his birth and the Pacific Northwest.

The dedicated website for Vachss and his work is
www.vachss.com
.

Other eBooks Available from this Author:

Another Life
• 978-0-307-37782-1
Blossom
• 978-0-375-71905-9
Blue Belle
• 978-0-375-71903-5
Born Bad
• 978-0-375-71909-7
Choice of Evil
• 978-0-375-71913-4
Dead and Gone
• 978-0-375-41361-2
Down Here
• 978-1-4000-4299-9
Down in the Zero
• 978-0-375-71908-0
Everybody Pays
• 978-0-375-71914-1
False Allegations
• 978-0-375-71911-0
Flood
• 978-0-375-71429-0
Footsteps of the Hawk
• 978-0-375-71910-3
The Getaway Man
• 978-1-4000-7511-9
Haiku: A Novel
• 978-0-307-37865-1
Hard Candy
• 978-0-375-71904-2
Mask Market
• 978-0-375-42441-0
Only Child
• 978-1-4000-4013-1
Pain Management
• 978-0-375-41422-0
Sacrifice
• 978-0-375-71906-6
Safe House
• 978-0-375-71912-7
Shella
• 978-0-375-71907-3
Strega
• 978-0-375-71902-8
Terminal
• 978-0-375-42528-8
Two Trains Running
• 978-0-375-42377-2
The Weight
• 978-0-307-37975-7

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