The apostate's tale (23 page)

Forestalled—or plain unwilling.

She faced it might well be the latter, then tried to tell herself again that burdening Domina Elisabeth with more just now seemed unfair. But if that was it, why not give them to Abbot Gilberd?

Because they were not his business.

That thought had come far too easily. She looked at it more closely. It stayed the same. Abbot Gilberd was here to determine what should be done with Sister Cecely. These other matters—the poisonings, the stolen deeds and bill, even Edward now he was under St. Frideswide’s protection—were arguably the priory’s to deal with.

Or—to be closer to the truth, Frevisse thought—they were
hers
to deal with, because she found she was indeed increasingly hesitant to give anything over to Domina Elisabeth just now. The way the prioress was presently slacking and forsaking all her duties, she might simply give any and all priory problems over to Abbot Gilberd, and that would not be to the priory’s good in the long run of things. Giving over power to someone was always easier than getting it back, and Frevisse was not minded to let Abbot Gilberd have more of a hand in St. Frideswide’s business than could be helped. If he took it into his mind that his hand was necessary here, getting his hand out again later might prove difficult.

So when, at the foot of the stairs up to the guesthall, she met Abbot Gilberd coming down, followed by one of his clerks with an ink bottle in one hand and a clutch of paper in the other, she made no effort to speak to him, merely stepped aside and sank in a low curtsy. He sketched a cross in blessing above her as he passed without pause, and she let him go his way to the cloister while she went up the steps and into the guesthall.

Ela was there, keeping an eye on matters. By this time on any usual day, the hall would have been fairly or altogether empty except for servants, with such travelers as had been there overnight gone on their way at first daylight, and Tom and Luce clearing and cleaning around such rare, few guests as were staying longer. But this past week and more had not been usual, and still was not. The hall was cluttered and loud with the abbot’s men, and Ela cocked her head to look up at Frevisse and asked, rather than waiting for Frevisse’s every-morning question of how things were, “What’s toward? Father Henry was closeted with Abbot Gilberd a long while yester-evening and looked none so happy when he came out. Nor he looks no happier today, and not Abbot Gilberd either.”

“Abbot Gilberd is going to speak with Sister Cecely this morning,” Frevisse said, keeping aside from a straight answer. “I suppose Father Henry will be there, too.”

“More patience to them both,” Ela said back, letting Frevisse know she knew an aside-answer when she heard it but letting it go. “The Lawsells purpose to leave this morning. Their man came in with their horses about Compline.”

Frevisse nodded. She would try to be present when they left, she thought, to bid Elianor farewell and encourage her mother to think of the girl’s return.

“They’re quarreling over it though,” Ela said. “They were loud about it a while ago. It’s why they’re not gone yet, I think.”

“Quarreling?” Frevisse asked. “The Lawsells?”

“Them. You should talk to them, maybe.” Meaning she thought Frevisse had
better
talk to them.

Frevisse held back from a sigh, because Ela was right, and went toward their chamber at the hall’s side, hearing as she neared their door Elianor’s young voice saying, low but angrily stubborn, “Once you have me back there, you won’t let me out again until I agree to marry someone. I know that’s what you mean to do. Don’t tell me it isn’t.”

“You know no such thing,” her mother answered with the edged patience of someone determined not to show how angry she was. “What I am saying is we need to go home and talk about it more. I am saying…”

“You don’t mean ‘talk about it.’ You mean ‘talk me into changing my mind.’”

Frevisse knocked firmly at the door and opened it. Mistress Lawsell turned toward her, and Elianor, who had been sitting on the edge of the bed with her arms folded across herself—to show she did not intend to move, Frevisse supposed—stood up. Before either of them could say or do anything more, Frevisse said, “I wish to speak alone with your mother. Please leave us, Elianor.”

Elianor, surprised, looked back and forth between her mother and Frevisse, then dropped a short curtsy more or less at both of them, and went out of the chamber. Frevisse turned back to Mistress Lawsell and said, “You do wrong to keep her from where her heart wants to go.”

“You
would
say that,” Mistress Lawsell snapped back. “Being a nun and in need of more nuns here.”

“And
you
would say otherwise,” Frevisse said evenly, “having come here in a lie.”

That direct attack caught Mistress Lawsell off her guard. “What?”

“You didn’t come here in the hope of turning your daughter toward becoming a nun. You hoped to turn her
from
it. What you want for her is a wealthy marriage, not the good of her soul.”

“Marriage isn’t damnation!”

“It can be, if someone’s heart is altogether elsewhere. Force someone into a pathway against their nature, and the chance of damnation is very great.” As Sister Cecely had been forced, Frevisse suddenly thought. She and Dame Johane had both come here by their family’s choice, not theirs, and Sister Cecely must have gone through with taking her final vows because it was expected of her, not from any true desire. Dame Johane, however it had been with her at the beginning, had found a place here, had found work she cared about and become happy. Sister Cecely had failed, had made her life instead on lust and lies and broken vows. And Frevisse said, with a sad sense that she was pleading as no one had pleaded for Sister Cecely, however opposite that pleading was, “Think on it, I pray you, Mistress Lawsell. Which will be better? A daughter forced to go a way she does not want to go and angry at you for it, or a daughter gladly become a nun and praying for your soul’s salvation all her days. Which will be better—for your daughter and for you?”

Mistress Lawsell’s jaw had set stubbornly while Frevisse spoke. There was no surprise in her answering, “We’re going home today. The matter can be discussed as well there as here.”

Frevisse guessed that Elianor had the right of it. Having failed of her purpose to put her daughter off thought of being a nun, Mistress Lawsell would put her under duress of one kind or another once she had her home, to force her to do as she was bid. There was nothing Frevisse could do about that. The girl was her mother’s. And somewhat more shortly than might be charitable, she said at Mistress Lawsell, “Very well. May God and St. Frideswide be with you both,” and left the room, leaving Mistress Lawsell to remember—or not—what St. Frideswide had done to those who had tried to come between her and her desires.

In her quick look around the hall, Frevisse did not see Elianor. Or Jack Rowcliffe. Elianor was very likely gone to the church again. Had Jack followed her despite Frevisse’s hinted warning yesterday?

But now that she thought about it, she had noted neither him nor his father when she first came into the hall. Maybe they were with Symond, or else had gone out somewhere—to see how their horses did or simply to stretch their legs. She was not so much concerned about where they were as with her desire not to have Jack to hand when she questioned Symond Hewet about the bill of obligation between them.

Breredon’s chamber was nearer than where Symond lay, though, and for duty’s sake, she went first to see how Breredon did, pleased to find him up and walking carefully back and forth in his room. To her inquiry he answered, “My guts still ache from the beating they took, but food and drink stay down me now. I’ll be ready to talk with your abbot or whoever else about having Edward out of here and away home with me in no more than a day or so, surely.”

He did not look nearly that near to being able to sit a horse, nor did Frevisse know if he was going to have his way about Edward when all was said and done, but not wanting to discourage him while he mended, she merely answered, “My lord abbot is seeing Sister Cecely even now,” and went on her way.

Fortune was with her. No one was with Symond except a man who must be his own servant among the men who had come with him and the Rowcliffes, and by the look of Symond, she judged it was surely a good thing he was not being left alone. He lay with his head barely raised on his pillow, his arms and hands slack along his body on the blanket over him, his skin the color and look of dough gone bad; and even though his eyes were open and he turned his head a little when she came in, she asked the servant instead of him if he was fit to talk a little.

“I am,” Symond answered for himself. His voice, though weak, was the strongest thing about him. “Does your infirmarian know what this is yet? Has anyone else fallen ill?”

“No one else is ill yet, no,” Frevisse answered. “Dame Claire is still trying to learn what it is. Or was. We hope it’s done.” All of which was true, without being all the truth, and she went straight on, to leave it behind her, “There’s something I must needs ask you, and you might want that I ask it to you alone.”

“Geffe is to be trusted to keep quiet if I say so,” Symond said. “What is it?”

For the seemliness of not being alone with a man—with two men—Frevisse had been standing in the doorway. Now, although no one was near enough to hear her if she kept her voice down, she took a single step into the chamber before saying, “It’s about the bill of obligation between you and Jack Rowcliffe.”

Symond made what passed, in his weakened state, as an effort to sit up. Geffe jerked forward to stop him, but there was no need. Symond’s weakness sank him flat again, even as he demanded with what strength he had, “How do you know of that?”

“I have it,” Frevisse answered evenly. “And the deeds that Sister Cecely stole.”

Symond closed his eyes and breathed, “Thank God and all the saints.” He opened his eyes. “Does John know?”

“I haven’t seen him yet, to tell him.”

“The bill. Don’t tell him of that. That’s between Jack and me.”

Geffe made a humph sound that Frevisse took for his comment on that.

Symond ignored him, and Frevisse said, “If the bill is only between you and Jack, then there’s no need his father know of it. But I would know what it’s about.”

“It was between him and me and Guy. It matters to no one else but us.”

Frevisse hesitated, then decided nothing would serve but the outright truth and said, very careful that her voice not carry out the doorway, “Dame Claire thinks neither you nor Master Breredon were honestly ill. She thinks that indeed someone gave you both some manner of poison.”

Symond stared at her, frowning, openly not understanding what that had to do with what he had said. Then understanding came. He startled with it, started to say, “Jack…” choked and began to cough dryly, so that Geffe came hurriedly forward, lifted him a little with an arm behind his shoulders, took up a cup from the small table by the bed, and held it for him to drink. When he was quiet, Geffe eased him down again, only then sending a reproachful look at Frevisse. She made a small shrug, silently saying that it was not her fault.

Eyes closed, Symond said, still somewhat breathlessly, “Not Jack. If anyone poisoned us, it was Cecely. Not Jack.”

“Why not Jack?” Frevisse said.

“No reason he should.” He looked at her to be certain she was listening. “He’s already paid back half the money, and neither Guy nor I would ride him hard to have the rest. He knows that. If he took fifty years, I wouldn’t ride him about it.”

“What was it for?”

“A woman, of course.”

Symond must have felt the weight of her disapproval bearing down on him because he gave a single short-breathed laugh and said, “Not that way, no. A widow in the village. A young and pretty widow in the village. He’d had some sport with her. Then she started to threaten him that she was going to claim he had promised her marriage. You know the tangles that can get into, if it comes before the church courts. Not adding on what his father would do to him for being so much a fool.”

“
Had
he promised her?”

“He swore to us he hadn’t and, knowing the widow, I’d take his word over hers. I don’t doubt he would have won clear of her in the end, but in the long run it would have cost him in more than money. So he begged Guy and me for help, to keep it all secret from his father. We helped him, and last she was heard of, the widow had used our money for a dowry, got a little shopkeeper to husband her, and is happy in Norwich.”

Needing to rest after all that, Symond closed his eyes but lifted the fingers of his nearer hand to tell Frevisse he wanted her to stay. After a few moments, without opening his eyes, he murmured, “It’s been to the good. Between the widow with him and Cecely with Guy, he’s learned the cost of sport with women.”

“And maybe that true dealing will cost him less in the end,” Frevisse said dryly.

Symond gave a single, silent laugh. He lay quietly a moment longer, then opened his eyes and said, frowning upward at the rafters. “Guy talked me into helping him. I wonder if that’s why Guy was so willing to help him—that Guy had learned his lesson but the hard way and was having to live it out, whether he would or no, and wanted to save Jack from the same.” He looked at Frevisse. “Poison?”