The Arrow: A Highland Guard Novel (The Highland Guard) (13 page)

Gregor should be pleased that things were running so smoothly. Being laird was a job he’d never wanted or been destined for. He was glad he could focus on the war with the knowledge that his clan would be well looked after. He was. But being superfluous in his own tower took some getting used to.

“I’m sorry,” Seamus repeated anxiously.

Gregor swore. He shouldn’t take his irritation with Cate out on the lad. “Nay, ’tis I who am sorry, lad. I am ill-tempered this morning. You did a fine job—thank you.”

The boy beamed and was about to run off when the door next to his opened and out walked the source of Gregor’s ill-temper, looking fresh and sweet and too damned lovely for his not-so-peaceful state of mind in yet another snug-fitting gown—this one dusky blue.

She turned her bright-eyed gaze to his. Did she have to look so damned
cheery
? “Is something wrong? I thought I heard raised voices.”

“It’s nothing,” Gregor said at the same time the lad offered, “I was just returning the laird’s boots.”

She dimpled. Since when did she have dimples, damn it? “We’d hoped to surprise you.”

“You did,” Gregor said. Turning to Seamus, he added, “You can return to your other duties, lad. Tell my brother we’ll be leaving soon.”

Cate was studying his face with concern. “Are you sure you are all right? You were tossing and turning rather restlessly when I came in to bring your clothes—”

“When you
what
?” Gregor exploded furiously, taking a step toward her before he remembered how foolish that was. Christ, she smelled good. Plenty of women used heather to scent their soap, but none had ever smelled like
this. None had ever made him want to bury his nose in her neck and inhale.

Rather than be intimidated by his anger, however, she looked up at him and smiled. “Freshly washed, brushed, and folded.” She shook her head. “You still leave them on the floor, I see.”

Whether it was the intimacy of how much she knew about his personal habits or the intimacy of knowing she had been in his room when he was sleeping, Gregor didn’t know, but he felt the walls closing in on him. Nay,
she
was closing in on him, and he didn’t like it. It made him want to lash out as he always did when a woman set her sights on him and tried to corner him. “Stay out of my room, Cate—especially when I’m sleeping.”

How she’d managed to sneak up on him was alarming on many different levels.

Her brows furrowed. “Why?”

“Because it isn’t right, damn it!”

She lifted a brow. “Isn’t right? I’m like a daughter to you—or a sister. Aren’t I?”

The hell she was! She was …

Clever
. He stopped, realizing what she was doing: forcing him to acknowledge something he didn’t want to acknowledge.

He couldn’t let her keep doing this to him. It was time to untwist the knots the lass had him all tied up in. She’d grown too bold after what he’d inadvertently revealed the other night. But he’d been playing this game a hell of a lot longer than she had. He smiled slowly. “Aye, you’re right.”

She blinked. “I am?”

“Perhaps not a daughter—I’m not quite that old—but definitely a younger sister.” She looked properly horrified. He shrugged as if it no longer mattered to him. “I was only trying to protect you.”

She swallowed uncertainly. If her closeness weren’t firing
every nerve ending in his body, he would surely have enjoyed it.

“Protect me from what?”

He gave her his best roguish grin. “Seeing something that might shock your maidenly sensibilities in the event I have company.”

She sucked in her breath, stricken, the thought obviously never having occurred to her. But if he thought she would so easily be discouraged, he’d underestimated her. The lass was far too stubborn and proud. Nor, as her little brawl at the river had proved, would she back down from a fight, even when the odds were not in her favor. And betting on him was bad odds indeed.

The stricken look slipped away, and the gaze that held his was far more knowing and determined than he would have liked. “There is very little privacy in a castle, Gregor. I’m sure you’ve nothing that I haven’t seen before.” The eyes scanning his chest and reminding him of exactly how much she’d seen were narrowed—and didn’t seem impressed. Though why the hell that grated, he didn’t know. He didn’t want her admiring him or his body. But who the hell was she comparing him to? Admittedly he’d bulked up in the past few years, but it was all muscle—

He stopped. Good God, what was she doing to him?

“Although for the children’s sake,” she added, “I hope you will keep your ‘company’ to a minimum.”

She’d done it again. Put him on the defensive. Making him feel like an arse. A
profligate
arse.

Whom he shared his bed with was his business. He didn’t owe her any explanations. He would bring a woman to his chamber if he wanted to.

But damn it, it would hurt her, and something inside him rebelled at the idea.

Her words, however, reminded him of another problem. Every time he tried to talk to her about “the children,” she kept putting him off. It seemed the only way to
be rid of her was to mention that he’d been on his deathbed with an arrow through his neck when Eddie was conceived and patrolling the Western Isles hunting down John of Lorn in the months during Maddie’s conception. “Speaking of the children, have you made arrangements yet for their removal—”

“There they are now,” she said, cutting him off. He could hear her relief at once again being saved from discussing the matter by the arrival of Ete, Lizzie, the scowling black-haired charlatan, the child who had a propensity to release his bladder every time Gregor was near, and the banshee in the guise of a blond-haired poppet. “We had best go, if we do not want Father Roland angry at us for being late.”

She tried to flounce off, but he caught her arm. “We aren’t done with this, Cate.”

She looked up at him, and something about her expression—hell, everything about her expression—made him want to cover her mouth with his. “No.” Her eyes searched his, probing. “No, we’re not.”

He might have been pleased by her agreement, except he knew she wasn’t talking about the children.

He didn’t know what Cate thought she knew about him, but she was wrong. And it was becoming very clear that one way or another, he was going to have to prove it.

Company
. The one word had shaken Cate’s confidence to the core. He wouldn’t bring a woman to his room … would he?

With the way Gregor had been fighting acknowledging his attraction to her since the night in the corridor, she suspected he just well might.

Cate was going to have to up her vigilance and her efforts, it seemed, until he was ready to accept that there was something between them.

It was thoughts of how to save him from himself that kept her occupied during Father Roland’s long “popular”
sermon given in Gaelic rather than Latin. Perhaps ironically, the subject was chastity, and the priest, after giving an example of the nun who’d gouged out her own eyes and had them sent to a king rather than be the object of his lust (Cate thought his point would have been stronger had the king gouged his own eyes out), was going on
ad nauseam
with long passages from the Gospel (these in Latin), which she didn’t understand.

Not surprisingly, Gregor had decided to sit a few benches away from her and the children. He was proving intractable on the subject of being “rid” of them, and she was finding it harder and harder to convince herself that he would change his mind. But as she had no intention of changing her mind either, they were at an impasse.

Patience
, she reminded herself. But it was difficult. On all accounts. Not just the children, but waiting for him to acknowledge what was between them—especially with all the other women with whom she had to contend.

Feeling as if a rock were sitting on her chest, she watched as the instant the mass was over, the women descended on him like locusts. It had been the same for the past three mornings at Dunlyon, since news of his arrival had spread throughout the small village and surrounding countryside. His arrival
always
caused a sensation, with women arriving at Dunlyon to see the laird under all kinds of ridiculous pretenses.

He took all the attention in stride, smiling, flirting, and charming every one of them. Every one of them but her, and for the first time it bothered her. Cate was jealous. And no matter how many times she told herself the women were nothing to him, she couldn’t stop the little voice from saying that neither was she.

Yet. Lady Marion’s words came back to her.
“Be patient, sweeting. Those women don’t mean anything to him. When he gives his heart to the right woman it will be forever.”
It was giving it to the wrong woman that had
been the problem. Gregor’s mother had guessed Cate’s feelings, and trying to give her hope—nothing would have pleased her more than to see them together—told her what had happened with his brother’s wife. How the woman had used Gregor to make his older brother jealous and elicit a proposal from him.

Cate followed John outside, where the villagers were taking advantage of the sunny winter morning to gather in the churchyard. One of the reeve’s sons—Farquhar, she recalled his name—stopped to talk to John, and Cate took the opportunity to look back at Gregor, who was still in the church trying to make his way outside.

Seeing whom he was talking to, she wished she hadn’t. Cate stiffened, her teeth grinding. Seonaid MacIan, the favored daughter of the wealthiest chieftain in the area, had befriended Cate when she’d first arrived but had turned on her once it became clear their friendship wouldn’t get her any closer to Gregor.

Blond, blue-eyed, and curved in all the places men seemed to like curves, Seonaid was the most beautiful woman in the area. Just ask her. As such, she thought that made her destined for Gregor. That he didn’t seem to agree, Seonaid blamed on Cate—though Cate had never said a word against her (and she would have had plenty of words to choose from).

Turning her gaze from the girl who’d done her best to make her life miserable for years, Cate was pleased to see Pip talking with some of the village lads, including Willy. Ete had Eddie in hand, but Lizzie looked exhausted from holding a squirming Maddy for so long, so Cate offered to spell her for a while. Finding a little space in the back of the churchyard, she let the little girl run for a bit, and then scooped her up in her arms and spun her around until they both were flushed and laughing.

“How sweet.”

Cate stiffened at the sound of the mocking voice.
Holding Maddy close to her chest as if to protect her from the venom, she turned to see Seonaid. As always, a couple of her followers were at her side. Alys and Deidre never said much, their purpose simply to echo Seonaid.

“What have you done to yourself, Caitrina?” Seonaid’s big blue eyes scanned her gown. “You actually found a pretty dress to wear? After what you did to Dougal MacNab, I thought to find you in armor with a sword.” She laughed, though there was no humor intended in the scornful tones. On cue, Alys and Deidre’s snickering followed.

Seonaid always had a way of making Cate feel awkward and unfeminine, and she knew it. Seonaid’s rich gowns were always trimmed with rows and rows of ribbon and embroidery, her hair always curled and artfully arranged, her skin looked like she bathed in milk, and there was never a speck of dirt under her nails. She was soft and lush as a pillowy confection, while Cate was hard and strong as a stick of dried beef.

When Cate looked at Seonaid she saw everything she wasn’t and could never be—on the outside. But underneath the pretty picture, Seonaid was selfish, spoiled, and spiteful, and any man who didn’t see that was a fool. Beef might not be flashy, but it had substance.

Cate was done letting the other woman make her feel bad about herself. “What do you want, Seonaid? As you can see, I’m busy.”

Seonaid’s lip curled with distaste as she looked at Maddy. “With one of the bastards? Why you would let them under the roof, I can’t imagine. If I were lady of the keep, I would have sent them away.”

Cate’s temper notched up at the word “bastard” and the familiar disdain. Disdain she’d heard far too many times as a child. “But
you
aren’t lady of the keep and certainly aren’t likely to be in the future, so it really is none of your concern.”

Seonaid’s cheeks flushed with anger, and her expression lost any pretense of equanimity. “Are you so sure of that? That’s not the impression I had a few minutes ago. I’d say the laird seemed very interested in a closer relationship.”

The way she emphasized “closer” made Cate’s chest twist.
He wouldn’t
. “I sincerely doubt that.”

“Why? You can’t think he’d prefer a boyish lass who plays at warfare to a woman like me—no matter what gown you are wearing.”

Cate clenched her fists. Knowing how to use a sword or defend herself didn’t make her “boyish.” But Seonaid’s barb had pricked what little there was of her feminine vanity. “It isn’t the dress but the character underneath. No matter how fine the linen you bundle it in, rotten fish still stinks.”

Alys and Deidre gasped. Seonaid turned florid, her eyes blazing with hatred. “Character? What a naive fool you are, Caitrina. Beauty and a bosom are what men want.”

Cate pursed her mouth stubbornly. “Not Gregor.”

She knew him. He wasn’t like that. She knew how little importance he put on his own looks, and how much it bothered him when other people did—though he never showed it. When he married, it would be for substance, not for superficial charms.

Seonaid might be cruel and spiteful, but she was also surprisingly astute, and something in Cate’s expression must have given her away. Her gaze pinned on Cate like a predator who’d just picked up the scent of blood. “My God, you are in love with him!” The sharp burst of laughter hurt more than Cate would have thought possible. “You don’t actually think the most handsome man in Scotland would ever marry a woman like you? A foundling he felt sorry for with nothing to recommend her but ‘character,’ a plain face, and a boyish figure?”