The Beloved Daughter

The Beloved Daughter

a novel by Alana Terry

The characters in this book are fictional.

Any resemblance to real persons is coincidental.

The Beloved Daughter

Copyright © 2013 Alana Terry.

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Cover design by Alana Terry, 2013.

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All Scripture quoted from THE HOLY BIBLE,

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To my precious Ae-Cha,

so you will always know that you are

my beloved daughter.

PART ONE

Hasambong

North Hamyong Province

North Korea

1998

A Bruised Reed

“A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out.” Isaiah 42:3

“Are you trying to get us all killed with your recklessness? These inspectors report directly to Pyongyang.”

The wind howled as gusts of snow burst through the cracks in our cabin walls. If the stinging cold and the hunger pains weren’t already keeping me awake, my parents’ hushed argument would be. I hugged my blanket as I listened to their voices, forceful and angry as the winter gale.

I slipped one eye open, just a crack. My parents stood in the middle of our cabin facing each other. Father didn’t move at all. His face reminded me of the statue of our nation’s founder in front of our school. Kim Il-Sung’s bronze image never yielded in rain or snow but gazed resolutely at his starving citizens with cold and stony eyes.

“I will not renounce the truths of Scripture just to make my life here on this earth more comfortable,” Father spat. He was still whispering, but the forcefulness of his words filled our cabin like the roar of the angry Tumen River in flood season. “‘If you falter in times of trouble,’” Father quoted, “‘how small is your strength’!”

Mother swore. “Don’t talk to me about
strength
! Don’t you think I wish things were different? But they’re not. You think I’m a coward. But I’m the one who watches out for our daughter’s safety while you bring open suspicion upon our household right in front of the inspectors. No, Husband.” Mother pointed a finger in his face. “It is you who are the coward.”

I longed to rush to Father’s aid. In the candlelight, I saw Father’s frame droop. His shoulders sagged. I waited for Father to respond, willing him to defend himself, but he was silent.

“You dare speak to me about courage.” I wondered if Mother knew she was shouting now. “You don’t realize how much courage it takes to get up every morning and go to work, knowing that my daughter could be interrogated any day by her teachers at that school. Knowing that I’m powerless to worship God like the Good Book says if I want my only child to see her thirteenth birthday. Knowing that my husband thinks I’m an apostate because I would rather see Chung-Cha survive to adulthood. And meanwhile you – for the sake of a mere philosophy – are willing to condemn our entire family to prison camp. Of course you realize what those guards would do to Chung-Cha there, don’t you?” I prayed for sleep to shield me from my mother’s words.

“And do you know what will happen to Chung-Cha if she dies without ever learning the good news?” Father whispered.

“She knows the good news. Why isn’t that enough? Why do you continue to endanger our only child? Especially now with the inspectors here, looking to make an example of traitors?”

“The Lord will care for us.” I pretended not to hear the strain in Father’s voice.

“You are certain of God’s provision,” Mother countered. “Yet if Chung-Cha doesn’t die of cold and hunger this winter, she’ll just as likely die in a prison camp this spring. All because of your recklessness. You have the word of God in your heart. Why can’t you keep it there instead of speaking so openly and condemning us all?”

Father was speechless. I willed away the sob that was rising in my throat at the sight of my dear father so humiliated. Could Mother be right? I had never met anyone like my father. He memorized whole books of the Bible although Scripture was outlawed in North Korea. He shared the gospel with his co-workers although it was dangerous. Father’s faith was so strong that I was certain the Hasambong mountains themselves would one day cave in at the sound of his prayers breathed in the darkness.
Could this man really be wrong to love God so deeply? Was Father foolish to obey God so fearlessly?

Father always promised that God would care for us just like he cared for the sparrows. Years ago, I was quick and eager to believe Father’s words of faith. But as each month of the famine grew worse, as each night I shivered from the cold and clenched my empty stomach while listening in on my parents’ disagreements, I wondered if my mother could be right. Seeds of doubt found fertile soil in my empty belly.

In our Hasambong village, even the sparrows were dying from hunger.

Now with the inspectors here, the danger was even more real. The prison camps weren’t just rumors. Two families in our small village of Hasambong had been relocated since the start of the famine. One couple was caught with a stolen potato. The other family, whose infant I played with before she starved to death, was accused of cannibalism.

Was Mother right?
With the People’s Safety Agency here to inspect us, wouldn’t God understand if Father was less vocal about his faith, given the circumstances and grave dangers to our family?

My father sighed, and I held my breath to hear what he would say in his defense. “I am not a fool. I know what risks come from following Jesus Christ.” Father’s voice wasn’t angry anymore, but gentle, like the snow that occasionally covered the Hasambong mountainside in a blanket of unblemished white. “Chung-Cha is a gift from God … as are you.” Father reached out his calloused, work-worn hand to wipe a tear off Mother’s gaunt cheek. She turned away with a disdainful snort.

Father continued, “Nevertheless, if I begin to love these gifts more than the One who entrusted them to me, then I would not be able to look my Savior in the face when I stand before him and give an account of my life. It is God who gives me breath.” The confidence of Father’s quiet confession filled our cabin with uncharacteristic warmth. “And as long as my old worn-out heart keeps beating, as long as these tired lungs continue to draw air, I will not remain silent. I cannot. I will proclaim the Good News until my Savior returns to rule the earth or until he calls me home.”

My heart swelled at Father’s words of triumph and faith. I watched Mother’s face to see if she felt the same wave of power, the same surge of hope, that transcended the suffering and fear – even the constant hunger – of our provincial lives in rural North Korea.

Mother brushed past Father and unpinned her hair. She walked to the bed, yanked down the tattered blanket, and hissed, “Your stubborn faith will be the death of us all.”

The Test

“But Peter insisted emphatically, ‘Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you.’” Mark 14:31

Inspectors stormed into our cabin less than an hour later.

“Get up!” a raspy voice demanded as several men crashed the door in. Snow blew all the way to my bedside. Partially blinded by the flashlights, I was too stunned to even tremble.

Is this part of the inspection?
I wondered.
Are they going to interrogate us here?
Mother moaned. I peeked from under the blanket to see her wrapping Father’s coat around his shoulders. Where does she think he’ll be going on a night like this?

A man with dozens of pock-mark scars on his face stomped toward my parents’ bed. He wore the badge of the People’s Safety Agency on his dark green overcoat. His heavy boots shook the floor with each stride. When he grabbed Father by the neck and yanked him out of bed, I yelped like a wounded animal.