âTwo things, son. The length of the chain â Jesus! Second â you'll have to leave him at the house in any case.'
âWouldn't mind leaving both of you,' Ben muttered to himself.
In fact, he and Blue were alone in the top paddock a week later when the dog found the first of the spring lambs. Or found the crows which had already found them.
âWhat you got there, feller?'
Foxes were his first thought, but the ripped-apart lambs had not been eaten. It looked more like play, or playful torture, than hunting for food. His second thought was Blue â the dog had the freedom of the farm. But Blue seemed as surprised as he at the discovery, and had never been aggressive with the animals, apart from head-butting the nose of the odd angry ewe.
Meg, back teaching six-tenths, was still in town when he arrived home, but his father was sitting in his cane throne on the veranda and his mother was ensconced in her old kitchen, baking, and chatting to her husband through the open window. Ben stalked straight to Nigger's kennel. As he squatted on his haunches, the dog seemed pleased enough to see him, wagging its tail and innocently offering up its jaws for inspection.
His father limped across the yard. âProblem, son?'
âA few lambs have been killed.'
âFoxes?'
âThey weren't eaten.'
âNo sign of wool on Nigger,' Hedley said, peering over his shoulder. âHow fresh was the kill?'
âYesterday. Maybe the day before. The crows had got stuck in.'
âThen you're not likely to find anything today,' the old man said, and straightened up and limped back to his chair.
âMaybe it was a wedge-tail?'
A chuckle from the older man, âNo chance, son.'
âWhat about Ted Chambers' dog? I never liked the look of it. Plugugly. More pig in it than dog. And always out in the road chasing cars.'
âBig call to make, Bennyboy. You wouldn't want to say anything to Ted without hard evidence.'
Gathering evidence would not be easy, but the chief suspect was waiting for Ben and Meg in the middle of the road â
its
section of road, clearly â as they drove home from church that Sunday, alerted by their dust from miles away. The dog's front feet were planted firmly in the dirt, bracing itself less against the oncoming car, perhaps, than against the backward thrust of the force of its own barking. One especially powerful bark seemed to lift the entire dog off its paws, spinning it 360 degrees back to its original position. Instead of speeding past, Ben pulled to the side of the road and stopped. Ted and Joan, great talkers, were still back in town on the church steps; he had time for a little sleuthing.
âWhat are you doing?' Meg asked, alarmed, as he opened the door, but the dog had already stopped its barking and padded tamely up to the driver's door with its tail wagging, a picture of innocence.
âAll bark and no bite,' Ben said, chucking its pale, pig-like ears.
In the adjacent field Ted Chambers' spring lambs were frolicking, and even as Ben inspected the dog's snout for telltale strands of wool, he knew that there was no chance of this dog travelling ten miles across stony country to kill
his
lambs. Behind them, the dust of another car was fast approaching. The Chambers, escaping the church steps earlier than usual? Edna and Hedley, more likely, arriving for the Sunday leg of lamb which Meg always left roasting in the oven before church.
âWe need to get home,' she reminded him, and he pushed the blameless dog away and tugged the car door shut.
He made sure Nigger was outside, out of sight, while they were eating, but Hedley warmed to the theme nonetheless. âIt happens to some dogs late in life, son. They turn.'
âInto grumpy old dogs?' Meg suggested.
For once her father-in-law ignored the tease. âMight be the dingo coming through, of course.'
âHe's got dingo in him?' Meg asked, surprised.
âHe's got blue heeler in him,' Ben reminded her. âHeelers are part dingo.'
âSome more than others,' Hedley said. âEvery now and then some genius decides the breed is getting too soft and crosses more dingo back into it.'
âWhat's this, dear?' Edna interrupted, working with her fork at a white cyst-like pocket in a slice of meat.
âLooks like hydatid,' Hedley pronounced. âBetter not touch that, Mother.'
Meg laughed. âThey're just garlic cloves, Dad.'
Hedley drowned the offending lamb in mint sauce. âAnd I thought the meat was off.'
âIt's an acquired taste,' she said, but he had already turned back to Ben.
âThere's no cure for it, son.'
âWhat are you saying, Dad?'
âYou know what I'm saying. Once they start, they never stop.'
âThen you'll have to have him with you, after all. In town. Where he can't do any damage.'
âIt's no life for a working dog in there, son.'
Silence. Meg's eyes met Ben's, pleading. He turned back to his father. âI'm not going to put him down without definite proof, Dad.'
âBennyboy â listen to reason. In no time flat you'll have no lambs left. Once a dog acquires the taste â¦' He turned back to his daughter-in-law. âSpeaking of which â could I pester you for a couple more slices?'
Nigger left his breakfast untouched in its bowl the next morning. After stalking that bowl, and being unrebuked, Blue gobbled it down. Was the older dog sickening? A different explanation waited out in the fields, where three black-feathered undertakers were watching over the bodies of another two dead lambs, one of which this time had been partly eaten.
Even now, finding no wool on the old dog's jaws or blood on his coat, Ben was able to resist the obvious. Although he prudently kept Nigger chained up every night for a week.
Prudently, but sleeplessly: bursts of angry, frustrated barking kept waking both of them. Desperate for a night's shut-eye by the weekend, he left the dog unchained, and found three more lambs ripped apart in the morning. Circumstantial evidence? Only Meg still thought so.
âWe have to catch him red-handed, Ben.'
A year or two before he wouldn't have listened. The value of the lost meat and wool would have tipped the scales of justice against the dog. Now the wool mountain was a mile high, everyone wanted to eat beef, or battery chicken, and his monetary losses were negligible. He could afford to bide his time.
âYou were thinking of getting rid of the sheep anyway, Ben. Barley prices are up â why not put in a few more acres next year? Or canola â the Chambers are putting in canola â¦' âIf it's not our lambs, it'll be the neighbours'.'
âI'll keep him in the house, then. Or we can put up a higher fence.'
âI can't even afford to fence the back paddock.'
He didn't tell his father about the latest attack. Hedley's trick knee needed replacement, he had enough problems. But when the older man next rode around the farm with Ben he saw immediately that the lamb numbers were down.
âThat cold snap,' Ben lied, and Hedley seemed satisfied enough, or too preoccupied with his own health to care.
Meg kept Nigger inside for the rest of the week, and when Ben found the fourth batch of savaged lambs it seemed at first that the dog might be in the clear. But a day later Meg found a leg bone in the dog's basket. She told Ben as soon as he came in that afternoon.
âYou let him out last night?'
âHe might be able to get out. But I can't see how he could get back in.'
âHe must have,' Ben said, and walked to the kitchen door. The fly-screen door was open an inch; he pushed it open, watched it fail to close completely.
âThe spring's gone. He could shove his nose in there.'
âNo wonder the mozzies were biting,' Meg said, but mosquitoes were the last thing on Ben's mind as he stalked outside and chained the dog to the tank-stand.
âWhy is Nigger chained up?' Edna wanted to know over the roast that Sunday.
âJust a precaution, Mum.'
âYou missing a few more lambs?' Hedley put in.
Ben said nothing; his eyes sought refuge in Meg's, avoiding his father's. But he couldn't turn his ears away.
âYou've only yourselves to blame, Bennyboy. Both of you. You can't get close to a dog.'
âA few pats can hardly make a difference,' Meg said.
âA few pats? He has the run of the house. You feed him scraps from the table â¦'
âSometimes.'
âHe thinks he's human, girlie. He thinks he's a member of the family.'
âHe
is
a member of the family. And he feels things â just like us.'
Hedley spluttered, amused. âLike you maybe.'
âLike
all
of us. He feels anger. Jealousy. Love â¦'
âMaybe you'd better get one of these social workers from the city out to talk to him.'
âHedley,' his wife warned.
âJust trying to help, Edna. The kids have made a rod for their own backs. All I'm doing is offering advice. You have to put the dog down, son. Before you lose any more lambs.'
âWe'll think about it, Dad.'
âWell don't think too long. It might be your farm now, but I can't sit by and watch it go down the gurgler.'
Ben, through gritted teeth: âI
said
, we'll think about it, Dad.'
âAnd I said, you're running out of time.'
Ben dropped his knife and fork with a clatter. âMaybe I don't want the fucking farm, Dad. Maybe I never wanted it â¦'
âThere must be someone who would take him as a pet,' Meg interrupted before anything more damaging could be said.
âYou could put an ad in the paper,' Edna suggested.
Her son picked up his cutlery again. âWe'll think about that too, Mum.'
The young couple lay awake half the night thinking â and talking. Meg's sleep, when it came, was eased by a sense that nothing had yet been decided. Ben left the house before she woke the next morning, needing an early start. Restringing wires in the top paddock, he waited until he saw her drive away to school before climbing into the ute and heading back to the house. He dragged a stool into the bedroom next to the wardrobe, and climbed up. Three guns had once been kept here, out of his child's reach, until the Anzac Day when Hedley arrived back early from the Club, pulled down his old army .303, carried it out to the woodpile, set it on the block, and took to it with a sledgehammer. He had offered no reasons, then or later, and Ben had never seen him in such a state, before or since. Edna deflected her troubled son's questions by talking vaguely of âa disagreement at the Club', of someone calling him âa name that he didn't like'.
Two guns remained. The single-shot .22 Ben had used himself as a boy, spotlighting rabbits and kangaroos and even shooting the odd fox under supervision. The shotgun â a Winchester Type 12 â he had never been allowed to touch. He had been too small the winter his father had bought it. A pair of ducks had settled on the dam, but after breaking a tooth on a pellet while biting into a drumstick, Hedley had gone off duck meat forever. The Winchester had not been used since, except secretly, in play. In his teens, Ben would often take the gun down when his parents were out and familiarise himself with its workings. He was standing on the stool now, checking the pump action, when his father appeared in the doorway below him.
Startled, he nearly unbalanced. The old man might have been a genie conjured up by rubbing the blue gun-metal.
âJesus, Dad â where did you come from?'
âYou can't use a twelve-gauge, son. You'd take his whole head off.'
Hedley turned and limped out of sight as abruptly as he had appeared. Ben placed the Winchester back on the wardrobe and took down the .22, an ancient single-shot Browning, plus a box of shells, and the squeeze can of gun oil. He spread newspaper over the kitchen table and carefully wiped down the open sights, broke open the breech and blew out the cobwebs. He oiled the hammer, checked its action, then opened the box of ammo and dropped a single shell into his breast pocket.
He was about to replace the box on the wardrobe when he stopped, and took out a second shell. Just in case.
Outside, Hedley was back on his throne. âNigger,' he called, and as always the dog ran instantly to him. âSit, boy,' he ordered, and as he leaned forward Ben thought he might be about to pat the dog for the first time ever. âYou've been a good worker, boy,' he said. A pause. âWell done,' he added, then leaned back again, and turned to his son and nodded. To Ben, unsettled, it felt weirdly like a prison warden's nod to an executioner.
âYou coming, Dad?'
âYou got to do these things by yourself, son.'
Bullshit, Ben thought. You just don't want to see it. But a lump clogged his throat; his father's terse farewell to the dog had touched him somehow. He averted his face, and whistled Nigger up into the back of the ute. Blue tried to follow; twice Ben had to order the usually obedient dog to stay. The younger dog whimpered and paced around the yard, agitated. When Ben tossed a spade into the tray, Blue barked frantically up at his sire, as if in warning.
Ben knelt and held the young dog's head for a moment, looking him straight in the eyes. âIt can't be helped, Blue. It's got to be done.'
The condemned dog, its own mind-reading powers apparently diminished by age, showed no qualms at accepting a ride in a ute with a man with a rifle and a spade. The south paddock was three gates away. Each time Ben stopped and climbed out he avoided eye contact with the dog, but Nigger seemed oblivious to this body language, running eagerly from side to side of the tray, tongue lolling, happy just to be out and about. When they reached the stand of uncleared mulga that bordered the south fence, the dog jumped joyfully down and headed straight into the bleached summer grass. He had killed a brown snake here years before; the patch of scrub was clearly a techni-colour mix of nose memories and fresh scents, which was why Ben had chosen it.