The Black Dagger Brotherhood (41 page)

“You trying to corrupt a youth there, cop?”

John looked to the doorway. A huge man with a goatee and tattoos on his face stood in the threshold. He had on a set of leathers and a black T-shirt and a glove on one hand, and his eyes were the diamond white of a husky's, the rims around the irises superblue.

Staring at him, one word came to John's mind: Einstein. The guy just oozed IQ—it was the eyes, those penetrating, icy eyes.

“This is my roommate, Vishous. V, meet John.”

“What's doing? I've heard a lot about you.” The guy offered his palm and John shook it.

“And as for the tat,” Butch said, “he's of age. Right? Twenty-something.”

“He should wait.” V turned to John and started signing. Perfectly.
If you get one done before your transition by a human, it's going to distort when you go through the change. Then it's going to fade in a month or two. If you wait, though, I'll ink whatever you want into you, and I'll do it so it stays.

John could only blink. Then he dropped his duffel and signed,
Wow. Are you deaf?

As if learning an entire language took no notable effort.

“Hey, I'm feeling left out over here.”

“Just giving the man a little advice.”

John whistled to get V's attention.
Will you ask Butch what he's going to get for a tattoo?

“Good question. Cop, what're you getting done tonight, man? Tweety Bird on your ass?”

“I'm adding to an old one.” Butch went over and threw open the closet doors, taking off the robe so he was just in his black boxer-briefs. “What to wear . . .”

John tried not to stare and failed. The cop was built. Big shoulders. Thick, fan-shaped muscles flaring out from his spine. Arms that were cut. He wasn't as immense as a vampire like Tohr, but he was easily one of the bigger human men John had ever seen.

And all across the small of his back was a tattoo. Done in black ink, the geometric pattern took up a lot of space. It was a series of lines—no, it was a numerical thing. Groupings of four lines with a diagonal slash. Five of them and one lone line. Twenty-six.

V pointed to John's duffel. “Hey, man, your bag's leaking. You got shampoo or some shit in there?”

John shook his head and then frowned when he saw the stain in one corner. He went over and pulled back the zipper. There was something on his clothes, something white, opaque . . .

“What the hell is that?” V said.

Oh, God . . . had someone . . . ?

Butch nudged John out of the way, put his hand right in there, then lifted his fingers to his nose.

“Conditioner. Hair conditioner.”

“Better than what I thought it was,” V muttered.

Butch's hazel eyes lifted upward. “This yours, J-man?” When John shook his head, the cop asked, “You got problems at school you ain't talking about?”

The man's face was dark, as if he were prepared to go hunt down whoever was screwing with John and his stuff and pound them into the ground like a tent pole. And for a moment, John entertained a happy little picture of Butch popping Lash a good one and then stuffing the guy into a locker.

But he wasn't about to have his problems solved by someone else.

As he shook his head, Butch's eyes narrowed and he looked at V. Who nodded once.

Then Butch went all smiles, fronting real casual-like. “I'll call Fritz and he'll clean your clothes. And don't worry, we'll find you something to wear tonight. No problem.”

John looked at V, not falling for the no-big-deal on the cop's face. Tell him it's nothing. Tell him I can handle it.

V just smiled. “Butch already knows that, don't you, cop?”

“That it's no big deal and he'll take care of it? Yeah, I know, J-man.”

I thought you didn't understand sign language?

Butch shook his head. “Sorry, don't read hands yet. But I know from assholes, son. Like I said, you don't worry about a thing.”

The man kept grinning, his expression entirely pleasant. As if he were going to enjoy getting to the bottom of the problem.

John looked at V for help. Except the vampire just crossed his arms over his chest and nodded again at Butch. Totally onboard with the plan.

Whatever plan it might be.

 

 

The following scene is not really a deleted one, but something I edited a lot in the revisions of
Lover Awakened,
mostly because I didn't like the vibe. (The scene in the book starts on p. 344.) Bottom line, I thought this came across as too rough for Z and Bella's good-bye, but now I wish I'd gone with what I saw in my head. I think the scene in the printed book was good, but this is better:

 

 

B
ella packed up her things in less than two minutes. She didn't have much to begin with, and what little she did have she'd moved from Z's room the night before. Fritz would be coming for her things soon and would drive them to Havers and Marissa's. Then in another hour she would dematerialize to their house and Rehvenge would meet her there. With a guard.

Stepping into the dim bathroom, she turned on the lights over the sink and double-checked the counter to make sure she had everything. Before she stepped away, she looked at herself in the mirror.

God, she'd aged.

Under the pool of illumination, she lifted her hair off her neck and turned this way and that, trying to find some way to see her true self. When she gave up after God only knew how long, she let the weight fall and—

Zsadist appeared behind her in the shadows, taking shape from thin air, darkening the darkness with his black clothes and his weapons and his mood.

Or maybe he'd been there all along and only now chose to reveal himself. She stumbled back, banging into one of the marble walls with her hip. As she cursed and rubbed the sore spot, she refiled through her vocabulary for all the ways to tell him to go to hell.

And then she smelled him. His bonding scent was strong.

Z stayed silent, but it wasn't like he needed to say much. She could feel his eyes. Could see the golden glow out of the corner he was in.

She knew exactly why he was staring at her. And couldn't believe it.

Bella backed even farther away, until she hit the shower door. “What do you want?”

Wrong words, she thought, as he stepped into the light.

As she saw his body, her mouth went lax.

“I want to mate,” he said in a low voice. And he was more than ready.

“You think . . . Christ, you think I'd lay with you now? You're deranged.”

“No, I'm psychotic. At least, that's the clinical diagnosis.” As he took off his dagger holster, the door shut behind him and the lock turned. Because he willed them to do so.

“You're going to have to force me.”

“No, I won't.” His hands went to the gun belt at his hips.

Bella stared at what was straining against his leathers. And wanted it.

God, she wished he would hold her down and not give her a choice. That way, she could be absolved of what she was about to do and hate him more deeply. She could . . .

Z came forward until he was right in front of her. In the straining silence between them, his chest lifted and compressed. “I'm sorry I'm a bastard. And I wouldn't be pushing you at Phury if I didn't think it was the right thing for both of you.”

“Are you apologizing just because you want to be with me right now?”

“Yes. But it's true anyway.”

“So if you weren't hard at the moment, you'd just let me go?”

“Think of this as good-bye, Bella. The last time.”

She closed her eyes and felt the heat coming off him. And when he put his hands on her, she didn't jump. As his palms locked on her throat and tilted her head back, her mouth opened because it had to.

Or at least, that was what she told herself.

Z's tongue pushed inside of her as his hips came up against her lower belly. As they kissed there was a ripping sound—her shirt as he tore it in half.

“Zsadist,” she said hoarsely when he went for the button on her jeans. “Stop.”

“No.”

His mouth dropped down to her breast and her pants hit the floor and then he lifted her up and carried her over to the counter. He was purring loudly now as he forced her knees apart with his head and knelt before her, his eyes fixated on her sex.

So he knew exactly how turned-on she was.

Bella put her hands between him and where he was going.

“Zsadist, if you do this, I will never forgive you.”

“I can live with that.” He moved her arms away easily, trapping her wrists. “If it means I can be with you this last time.”

“Why the hell do you care so much?”

He pulled her hands forward, flipping them around so they faced upward. When he stared downward, he shook his head. “Phury didn't feed from you, did he. No marks on your neck. Your wrists.”

“There's still time.”

“He said you couldn't bear it.”

Great, that was the last thing she needed Zsadist to know.

“And this is my punishment?” she said bitterly. “You're going to force me—”

Z dove down to her, his mouth going straight to her core. With all his demand, she expected him to eat at her, but instead the soft strokes of his lips were so loving they brought tears to her eyes. As he released her hands, her cheeks went wet, and she held on to his head, bringing him closer still.

His eyes stared up at her while she climaxed against his tongue, watching her as if storing precious memories.

“Let me take you to the bed.”

She nodded as he came up her body and buried his glossy lips in her neck. The scrape of his fangs gave her a momentary flash of hope. Maybe he would finally feed—

But then he picked her up and willed the door open . . . and the passion left her. She was leaving. And he wasn't going to stop her.

Wasn't going to take her vein now, either.

He sensed the change in her immediately. “Where have you gone?”

“Nowhere,” she whispered as he laid her down on the bed. “I'm going nowhere.”

Z paused, looming over her, perched on the precipice. But then he worked his fly, springing loose that huge arousal. As he got up on her, his pants around his thighs, she turned her face to the side.

His hands stroked her hair back. “Bella?”

“Do it and then let me go.” She opened her legs wider to accommodate him, and as his erection hit her core, he groaned, his weight shifting in a jerk. When he didn't penetrate her, she closed her eyes.

“Bella . . .”

“I'd reach down and put you inside, but we both know you can't stand to have me touch you. Or do you want me on all fours? More anonymous that way. You'd barely know what you were fucking.”

“Don't talk like that.”

“Why not? Hell, you're not even naked. Which makes me wonder why this needs to happen at all. Now that you know how to take care of yourself, you don't have to have a female.” Her voice cracked. “You most certainly don't need me.”

There was a long silence.

She heard a hissing sound. And then he bit her.

 

Zsadist sank his fangs in deep and shivered at the first rush of Bella's blood. The richness, the thick, heavenly texture pooled in his mouth, and when he swallowed, it coated the back of his throat.

He couldn't stop.

When he'd decided to take her vein, he'd told himself he was allowed only one single, great pull, but once he started he couldn't break the connection. Instead, he gathered her in his arms and rolled her to the side so he could curl himself around her better.

Bella cradled him close, and he was sure she was crying again as she held him, because her breathing was raw.

Stroking her naked back, he tucked her hips into his, wanting to comfort her as he took from her, and she seemed to ease. Even as he didn't. His dick was screaming, the tip about to blow off.

“Take me,” she moaned, “Please.”

Yes, he thought. Yes!

Except, oh God, he couldn't stop the drinking long enough to get inside her: The strength pouring into him was too addictive and the response of his body was too incredible. As he fed, he felt his muscles knitting together, forming a steel weave over the hardening cage of his bones. His cells were absorbing the essential nutrients he had deprived them of for a century and putting them to immediate use.

Afraid he was going to take too much and kill her, Z eventually forced himself to release Bella's throat, but she just grabbed onto the back of his head and pushed him down. He fought his impulse for a moment, but then growled, the sound loud and low as a mastiff's. With a rough lift and twist, he repositioned her and nailed her on the other side of the neck, biting hard. Now he was crawling over her, trapping her underneath him, the bonding scent pouring out of him in waves. He was the carnivore standing over its prey while it fed, his arms flared and bent while he held himself up, his thighs spread over her lower body.

When he was finished he tilted his head back, took a deep breath, and roared loud enough to rattle the windows, his body twitching with the kind of power he'd known long ago, and only from the vile, forced feedings of the Mistress.

Zsadist looked down. Bella was bleeding from the two wounds he'd given her, but her eyes were shining and the unmistakable scent of the female sex rose from her. He licked up both sides of her throat and kissed her, pushing into her mouth, taking, dominating what was his . . . marking her now not just with his scent but his will.