The Brides of Chance Collection (58 page)

“First thing,” Reba promised. “Congratulations, boys.” She patiently listened to a lengthy recital of the Trevor sisters’ charms before turning to Delilah.

“If you have a moment, we need to talk.”

Paul saddled Speck, vaulted on, and took off. He didn’t really aim for any place in particular, just so long as he wouldn’t have to be polite to anyone for a while. He had some questions to ask the Almighty.

Dozens of thoughts drummed around in his head, making his temples throb before he realized he’d wound up at the fishing hole. Loosely hitching Speck to a nearby tree, Paul headed over to the very place he and Delilah had gone earlier that week.

He could scarcely believe that just days ago he’d sat in this very shady knoll with Delilah, enjoying the beauty all around him and answering her questions about God. It was then he’d driven her away from them both.

“Lord, if she goes, a part of me goes with her.” Silence met his announcement, and his shoulders slumped in defeat.

“Why didst Thou bring her here only to take her away? Why did I think she loved Chance Ranch as much as I do?” He paused.
Why did I think she loved me?

Chapter 17

P
robably because Delilah does.” Daniel’s deep rumble came as a surprise to Paul.

“What are you doing here?”

“Don’t know yet, but I figured you looked like you might do something stupid if nobody came after you.”

“What are you blathering about?”

“Seems to me the last time you had your mind on that woman when you were riding, you broke your arm.” Daniel plunked down on the grass beside him.

“I—” Paul’s mouth snapped shut when he realized there was no denying the truth of his brother’s assessment. He maintained a stubborn silence until curiosity got the better of him. “What do you mean, Delilah does?”

Daniel gave a heavy sigh. “Aside from maybe Miriam, have you ever seen a woman fix her mind so on helping out around here? She didn’t know how to cook; she learned. She saw we didn’t have a flower garden; she planted one. Polly and Ginny Mae yammer on about something or another she’s done with ’em most every night before bed. And even I can see how much she likes this place just by the way she painted it.” He made a broad, sweeping gesture.

“And that’s what’s got us into this mess in the first place,” Paul grumbled, not certain whether Dan’s estimation of Delilah made him feel better or worse.

“What makes you think she’s leaving?”

“Reba’s friends are offering to take Delilah back to San Francisco with them, set her up in a fancy studio, and sell her paintings in their gallery.”

“Still doesn’t mean she’s leaving.”

“I haven’t given her a reason to stay.”

“So give her one.”

“I can’t. She’s not a believer, Dan.” Paul watched as Dan shook his head. “You just don’t understand.”

Dan’s head jerked up, and he spoke fiercely. “Now you listen and listen good, Paul Chance, because I know a lot more than you understand. A good woman is a gift from God, someone who completes you and gives you joy.” His voice almost cracked as he continued. “When you find that, you’ve got to hold on to it with both hands before He takes it away again. You have to fight for her with everything you are, or you’ll lose her. You haven’t got what it takes to go through life wondering if there was anything else you could’ve done. You don’t have a reason to keep on going.” Paul knew Dan spoke of his daughters.

“You don’t really believe all that, Dan.”

“More than anything else,” he swore fervently.

“Then prove it,” Paul challenged. “If Delilah and I do get married, you’ll be the one to walk her down the aisle. None of this not attending the wedding.”

Emotions warred on Dan’s face. “All right,” he spat out gruffly before he got to his feet and stomped away, leaving Paul to his thoughts once more.

“When you find that, you’ve got to hold on to it with both hands before He takes it away again.”
Dan’s words echoed in Paul’s mind, resonating in his heart.

Lord, is she being taken away by Thee?

No response came.

Maybe I should listen to Dan and ask her to marry me. I’ve seen Thee stirring in her soul, and I know Thou wilt bring her to the fold
.

Grim determination took hold of him.
She’s my match, Lord! Thou knowest that!
Why shouldn’t I keep her for Thee?

As soon as the thought crossed his mind, he knew the answer in his heart.
I wouldn’t be keeping her for Thee. I’d be keeping her for myself
. Paul straightened his shoulders.
Still, we belong together as man and wife
.

“And two souls shall become one.”
The scripture Miriam had read at her wedding crossed his thoughts. He struggled to accept what his heart told him.

No. The Lord still holds my soul. I’ve already given it to Him. This way I’ll just be bringing Delilah to Him, as well
. Even as he reasoned his case, he knew the truth: A man and wife stood together as one in the eyes of God. If he married a nonbeliever, that could not be. He’d never find peace because he’d forever be torn between the Lord and his wife. That was no way to raise their children.

Lord, please let her stay. Help her to see Thy love and accept Thee so that I can take her as my bride. How can I choose between the two things most dear to me in the world?

Even as the prayer went up, Paul knew the awful truth. There had never been a choice.

Delilah opened her folio and put in the watercolors she’d worked on this last week. The sheer number of them showed how hard she’d tried to keep her mind off Paul and her disappointment over how he hadn’t spoken to her once since that awful day.

All the better. She blinked back another onslaught of tears at the thought of leaving him behind her.
At least I can remember Chance Ranch
.

She shut the folio and began pulling her clothes from the wall pegs, leaving aside the traveling set she’d worn when she first arrived. Her heart clenched as she folded the forest green day dress Alisa had given her, then altered for her.

I will have a studio of my own
, she reminded herself.
A home where I can work on my paintings in peace without feeling dependent on anyone else. It’s just what I’ve always wanted. I should be happy
.

Then why aren’t you?
a tiny piece of her heart demanded as she held the jewelry box Miriam had given her for her birthday.

Because I hoped Paul would ask me to stay
, her heart cried,
but he didn’t say a word
.

She glanced out the window, spying the tender green shoots of the garden they’d planted together. She gathered her resolve.
From the start, I’ve said I couldn’t stay here forever
.

“I am happy.” She spoke aloud, shooing away her doubts.

“I’m glad to hear that.” Miriam and Alisa came through the doorway.

Not certain what to say, Delilah shot them a smile before opening the drawer on her washstand.

“I can’t believe you’re leaving this afternoon! It seems like you just got here.” Alisa pulled Delilah into a spontaneous hug.

“Here. We finished it last night.” Miriam held out a cloak made of the soft wool they’d bought from Reba not so long ago.

“We couldn’t let you go traveling without it, even though it’ll be summer soon.” Alisa folded it up and laid it in Delilah’s satchel.

Touched by their thoughtfulness, Delilah fought a fresh onslaught of tears.

The women helped her finish packing, and Delilah picked up her satchel. Noticing how much heavier it was than when she’d arrived, she walked up to the waiting buckboard. She gave one last look at the homestead and realized the weight of that valise couldn’t compete with the heaviness of her heart.

Paul numbly watched as everyone at Chance Ranch said their good-byes to Delilah. When she reached him, he took her hand in his, looked into her golden eyes one last time. “May God be with you, Delilah.” His final words were a fervent prayer, one last plea for her to change her mind about everything. About God. About being his wife. About leaving for San Francisco.

“Good-bye, Paul.” Her voice caught. When she drew a shaky breath and tugged her hand out of his grasp, he knew he was letting her go…possibly forever. He tried to swallow the lump in his throat but couldn’t speak as she climbed onto the buckboard and drove off.

Lord, I chose Thee. Now what wilt Thou choose to do with each of us?

Six days later, Delilah let loose a sigh of relief as she unbuttoned her shoes and curled her toes for the first time all day. She stretched and smiled as Shortstack pounced on a tattered ball of yarn in the corner.

The Munroes had been as good as their word. Founders of the San Francisco Art Society a mere year before, they’d set her up in a clever little cottage and introduced her to the artisans of the city.

Today they’d unveiled her first display at their gallery, and she’d heard so much praise, her head felt as though it would burst. One thing was certain: She’d find no shortage of patrons here. As a matter of fact, she’d best get some sleep. Tomorrow she’d need to paint enough to replace the pictures sold today.

Shortstack curled up at her feet as Delilah snuggled into bed only to find her mind too active for sleep just yet. This had been happening ever since she left Chance Ranch. In the short span of time she’d been in San Francisco, she’d found herself so restless, she’d been working rather than sleeping. Pushing aside the covers and ignoring an indignant meow from Shortstack as she scrambled out from under the pile, Delilah padded across the room and began lighting lamps. She passed by the small round mirror on the washstand and caught a glance of dark purple shadows under her eyes.

Well, I may not be getting my beauty rest, but at least I haven’t been idle
.

She sank her toes into the large braided rug she’d made over the last week and ran her palm over the quilted coverlet she’d begun with Miriam and Alisa but finished alone. She made her way toward the window, wanting some fresh air. Deciding against opening it at night in a town still too strange for comfort, she fingered the curtains she’d stitched and hung, trying to make the cottage her home.