like a goddamn freshman. What's your secret?"
"Try active duty in the army for ten years, Eliot."
"No, thanks. I'd rather be safe and fat. Want to play a little squash? You can have my court and my opponent, who's just an overweight stockbroker."
"Thanks. I'd love to-if you can get me some gear."
"No sweat, old buddy," Andrew replied jauntily. "Then can we have dinner afterward?"
"Doesn't your wife expect you home?" Jason inquired.
"Not exactly. But that's another story."
ANDREW ELIOT'S DIARY
June 2, 1973
It was really great to see Jason Gilbert again after all these years. And also a bit disconcerting.
On the one hand, the guy has barely changed physically. He still looks like a twenty-year-old athlete, making me feel more like a middle-aged slob than I already do.
And yet there was something strangely different about him.
I search for the appropriate adjective, but the only thing I can come up with is "somber." While he's obviously happily married and adores his kids, he seems to have lost something of his old joie de vivre. I mean, he smiles a lot when we talk about the escapades of the past. But he never laughs. Nothing seems to amuse him now.
Of course, I'm aware that he's been through a great deal these past few years-most of which he avoided talking about. I mean, when your fiancée is murdered and you've been in the thick of a real shooting war, that's certainly reason enough
to be somber. But I sensed there was something more bothering him, and I tried my best to dig it out. At one point he said,
"I'm really lost, Andy."
That kind of shook me. Because if there was anyone in The Class who I thought knew what he was doing and why, it was Jason. I mean, he'd dedicated himself to a cause and sacrificed a lot of the glittering prizes that would have
come his way if he had stayed in the American rat race. After all, he was the best rat in our whole damn pack.
I got a glimpse of what was weighing heavy on him when I
told him how the press-and even the man in
the street-admired the exploits of the Israeli Army in the Six Day War. It was kind of a David and Goliath that really captured the American imagination.
To which he replied that the media must have glorified it. Because no matter how much you believe in what you're fighting for, it's a terrible thing to take another person's life. He was having trouble living with the awareness that there were probably kids in the world he himself had orphaned.
I replied that it must be pretty hard to be a soldier if you have thoughts like that.
He looked- at me with a sadness in his eyes that I'd never seen before and said softly, "It's impossible to be a soldier and a complete human being."
Up till then, I was convinced that I and our other classmates were feeling the weight of the world-stalled careers, mortgages, divorces, custody fights, rebelling
kids-and all the stuff of which middle-age crises are made. - But, unlike the rest of us, still in hot pursuit of fame
and fortune, all Jason wants to do in life is be a human being. -
And he's far from certain he can do it.
- D uring his first week in New York, Jason had to face twelve different audiences, ranging from a few political leaders to more than a thousand Friends of Israel
at a luncheon in the Biltmore Hotel.
There were more than just "Friends" at the gathering. During the question period, several New Left sympathizers attacked him vehemently for representing an "imperialist
nation." He calmly replied that, far from aspiring to empire, Israel wanted only to be a democratic country just like any other. And-in his personal opinion-would surely relinquish
territory in exchange for the Arabs' acknowledgment of her right to exist.
For a long while afterward, crowds clustered around the podium. Talking to him. Shaking his hand. Wishing him well. Finally, there was only one couple left.
He was standing face to face with his father and mother. Each of them was afraid to say the first words. But the glances they exchanged spoke eloquently. Of admiration and affection on their part. Of relief and love on his. Of the passionate desire for a reconciliation on both sides.
"Hello, Mom, Dad. It's ... good to see you."
"You look wonderful, Jason," his mother said softly.
"Yeah," he replied. "I guess danger agrees with me. You guys look pretty good yourselves. How's Julie?"
"She's fine," his father answered. "She's in California. Married a lawyer from Santa Barbara."
"Is she happy?"
"Actually, she and Samantha will be moving back this summer. When the divorce is final."
"Again?"
His father nodded. "Julie hasn't changed." He then added hoarsely, "We... we've missed you very much, son."
Jason hopped off the platform and put his arms around his parents. For a long moment they held this triangular embrace.
"Do you have time to come out to the house?" his mother asked.
"Sure, I'd really like to.',
The next evening at dinner he showed his parents pictures
of Eva and their two grandsons. They were very moved just to see them and delighted that his marriage was so successful.
"Can we keep any of these?" his mother asked. "Keep them
all," Jason offered. And then confessed, "Actually, I brought them for you."
Just after eleven, his mother pleaded tiredness and
excused herself, leaving Jason and his father alone for the first time in ten years.
Jason was the first to speak. "Dad, I know how much I must have hurt you and Mom-"
"No," his father interrupted. "If there are going to be
any apologies, let me go first. I was wrong not to respect your convictions."
"Please, Dad."
"No, let me finish. You've taught me a lesson about our heritage. I realize that it's possible to be
one-hundred-percent
American and at the same time still be a Jew. The Six Day War was a catalyst for a lot of people like me. There was such a sudden outburst of pride He paused.
Jason did not know what to say. His father's voice lowered as he continued.
"Then, of course, I knew you were in the thick of it and I was -worried as hell." He raised his head, "Oh God, son, I'm glad you made it through so we could have this talk."
The two embraced~ -
Eva and the- boys were waiting when his plane landed in
Tel Aviv. As they hugged and kissed, little Ben asked,
"Daddy, did you bring us any presents?"
"You bet I did, Benjy. But the best one will be coming here in October."
"What's that?"
"A grandma and a grandpa."
C C ome on in," Richard Nixon called to George Keller.
"You can use a little exercise."
It was a hot day in August 1973, at the Western
White House, in San Clemente, California. The President
was conferring with Kissinger as they sat waist deep in the shallow end of the swimming pooi. George Keller was seated nearby, taking notes as Henry called them out. ("Be sure I call Pompidou at 0700 GMT. ")
Nixon again repeated his invitation to George.
"I'm afraid I can't, Mr. President, thank you," George replied awkwardly. "In fact, I didn't even bring a suit along."
At which Nixon turned to Kissinger and joked, "Henry, don't tell me this boy of yours can't swim."
"Oh, he most certainly can, Mr. President. In fact, he couldn't have gotten his- college diploma without being able to swim fifty yards."
Dr. K. always scrupulously avoided saying the word Harvard unless absolutely necessary. Nixon had a phobia about that institution, dating from the time he was on Joe McCarthy's
investigating committee (and in fact, its president,
De-rek Bok, was on the current White House "enemies list").
"Well, okay," the President replied. "But, George, I want you to promise me you'll do a few laps before dinner. I need my team to be in tip~top shape."
"Yes, sir, Mr. President," he replied. "Now if you'll
excuse me, I've got to go back to my room and type up some of these memos."
George dutifully gathered up his papers, zipped them into an attaché case, and strode to the guest cottage where the various White House aides were billeted.
He could not have been at his desk for more than five minutes when Kissinger, wearing a terrycloth robe, entered without even knocking.
"George," he said excitedly, "you won't believe what the
President just did." -
"Is it good or bad?"
"Well, that depends on your vantage point, my boy," said Kissinger, a smile beginning to cross his face. "He's just asked me to become Secretary of State."
"Gosh, Henry, congratulations."
"Listen, can I use your phone? I'd like to call my parents and tell them." -
At 11:06 AM. on September 22, in the East Room of the
White House, Dr. Henry A. Kissinger took the oath of office and assumed the duties of the fifty-sixth American Secretary of State.
George Keller was privileged to be among the few nonmedia people present at the swearing-in. For he was joining the new Secretary as a Special Assistant.
Kissinger's short remarks of gratitude were spoken from
the heart. "There is no other country in the world where it is conceivable that a man of my origin could be standing here next to the President of the United States...."
George could not keep from hoping that America would also offer unlimited opportunity to a man of his origin.
"Henry, can I have a few seconds of your time?"
The new Secretary of State looked up from his desk and replied affably, "Certainly, George. What unsolvable new crisis do you wish to bring to my attention?"
"It's not a crisis exactly, it's more of a puzzle. You
know I've always been liaising with Andreyev at the Russian
Embassy-"
"Of course. Our best friend with the enemy."
"Well, he's invited me to lunch at Sans Souci."
"Good." Kissinger smiled. "At least we're still salvaging a few meals from what's left of détente."
"Seriously, Henry," George responded, "he wants to introduce me to their new Cultural Attaché."
"Ah yes," Kissinger replied with his near-photographic memory. "Fellow named Yakushkin." -
George nodded. "What do you think he wants?"
"That, my dear boy, is precisely what I expect you to find out. But will you take a word of advice from your old professor?" -
"Certainly," said George.
"Try their aiguillettes de canard. They cook them in cassis."
It is a Washington paradox. Under other circumstances it might be decried as giving aid and comfort-and in this case, haute cuisine-to the enemy. But in America's capital city they call it "gastronomic diplomacy."
Some of the President's men, like Haldeman and Ehrlichman, were regular clients of the Sans Souci, by far the best restaurant within walking distance of the White House. And they were fully accustomed to seeing high government officials (and even middle-rankers like George) sit down to dine with representatives of the nation that was supposed to be their mortal enemy.
This was not the first such meal in George Keller's government experience. Though he could not fathom why, the Russian Embassy seemed to have taken a particular liking to him. At first he thought it was because of his fluency in their language. And yet all their conversations were held in English. And not even in hushed tones. -
Still, always following the ground rules, he would furnish the FBI with a "Memorandum of Conversation" detailing the topics covered in each dialogue he had.
Far from arousing suspicion, the esteem in which the Soviets seemed to hold George actually raised his stature. For there were strategists at the State Department and the CIA