âNone,' said Sellers. âHow come you've never . . .?'
âThere you go â all the medical proof you need, and proof that Duffy's a cunt. If one woman can miscarry eleven pregnancies and another miscarry none, it stands to reason that one woman might lose two or even more babies to crib death, and others not lose any. Doesn't make it murder, any more than Debbie murdered all the foetuses she lost. Hardly takes a brain of Britain to work out that some medical issues might be there in one family and not in another, like big noses or a tendency to get varicose veins. Like having a microscopic dick's a problem in your family and not in mine.'
âApparently there's a rare genetic condition that only affects men with dark curly hair and the initials CG,' Sellers said with a straight face. âWhen they look at their own penises, their vision distorts and they see them as five times the size they really are. Sufferers also tend to have a problem with body odour.'
They'd arrived at Bengeo Street. It was a horseshoe-shaped cul-de-sac of 1950s red-brick semis with small front gardens, token patches of green. Many of the houses had extensions built on to their sides. It gave the street an overcrowded look, as if the buildings had over-eaten and were straining to fit into their plots. The Yardleys' house was one of the few on the street that hadn't been extended; no need, with no kids to fill it up, thought Gibbs. It was still cordoned off by police tape. Paul Yardley was staying with his parents, for which Gibbs was grateful. Dealing with Yardley was a nightmare. You'd tell him there was no news and he'd stand there and look at you as if he didn't recognise your answer and was waiting for the real one.
Gibbs looked at his watch: half past four. Stella White's red Renault Clio was parked outside number 16, which meant she was back from picking up her son from school. Sellers had rung Beryl Murie's bell and looked as taken aback as Gibbs had been two days ago to get, by way of a response, a wordless electronic version of
How Much is That Doggy in the Window?
that was audible across the street. âForgot to warn you about the deaf doorbell,' Gibbs called out.
Stella White opened her front door as he approached. She was holding a child's muddy football boots, a blue plastic alien toy and a toast crust. Her jeans and V-necked jumper hung off her thin frame, and there were dark circles under her eyes. If this was what life with children did to you, maybe he and Debbie were the lucky ones.
âDC Gibbs, Culver Valley CID.'
âI was expecting a DC Sellers,' Stella White said â upbeat, smiling, as if a DC Gibbs was some kind of bonus, or treat.
Sorry to disappoint you
.
âChange of plan.' Gibbs showed her his ID, and allowed himself to be ushered into the front room. Television noise was coming from the next room, the one with the closed door: some sort of horse-racing commentary.
âYour husband watching the racing?' he asked. The room they were in looked as if it had had some money spent on it: thick swagged curtains, real wood floor, a slate and marble fireplace. Subtle colours that you couldn't easily describe, nothing as straightforward as red or blue or green. Debbie would have loved it, though she'd have been unwilling to live on Bengeo Street, however smart the house was inside; it was too close to the Winstanley estate, on the wrong side of town.
âI haven't got a husband,' said Stella. âMy son Dillon's got a thing about horses. At first I tried to stop him watching the racing, but . . .' She shrugged. âHe loves it so much, I decided it was mean to deprive him.'
Gibbs nodded. âAny sort of interest's got to be good, hasn't it?' he said. âWhen I was a kid I wasn't interested in anything. Nothing. I was bored out of my mind until I was old enough to drink and . . .' He stopped himself just in time, but Stella White was grinning.
âExactly,' she said. âI'm just so glad he's passionate about something â it almost doesn't matter what. He studies form and everything. Get him on the subject of racing and you can't shut him up.'
âHow old is he?'
âFour.' Seeing Gibbs' surprise, Stella said, âI know. It can be a bit embarrassing. He's not a child prodigy or anything â just a normal kid who's crazy about horse-racing.'
âNext you'll tell me he speaks twelve languages and can cure cancer,' said Gibbs.
âI wish.' Stella's smile dimmed. âI don't want to embarrass you by springing this on you, but I find it's easier if I do, and then it's out of the way. I've got cancer.'
âRight.' Gibbs cleared his throat. âSorry.'
âDon't worry, I'm used to it â the cancer, people's reactions to it. I've had it for years, and I've lived a better life because of it.'
Gibbs didn't know what else he could say apart from sorry. A better life? Who was she trying to kid? He was starting to wish he'd stuck with Beryl Murie.
âPlease, have a seat,' said Stella. âCan I get you anything to drink?'
âNo, I'm good. I could do with Dillon joining us, if you can tear him away from the horses. I'd like to go over what you've already told us about the man you saw approaching Helen Yardley's front door, see if you remember anything new.'
Stella frowned. âI doubt Dillon saw him. I was strapping him into his car seat â he sits in the back, so he'll have had a view of the back of the seat in front and not much else.'
âWhat about before you put him in the car? Presumably the man approached the house from the road. Might Dillon have seen him further down the street, before you strapped him into his chair?'
âHe could have, I suppose, though I didn't notice him, not till he was right outside Helen's house. But to be honest, I don't think Dillon saw him at all. The detective who came last time talked to him, and it wasn't much use. Dillon said he'd seen a man, but that was pretty much it â he couldn't say when or even
where
, and by that point he already knew
I'd
seen a man . . . I think he was just saying it because he'd heard me say it.'
âIf only the man had been a horse,' Gibbs attempted a joke.
âOh, then he'd have remembered every detail.' Stella laughed. âDillon's quite good with detail usually, even when horses aren't involved, but he couldn't tell the detective anything: hair colour, height, clothes. Not that I was much better.' She looked apologetic. âI
think
he had darkish hair and darkish clothes, I think he was tallish, regular build, and at the upper end of young or the lower end of middle-aged. I seem to remember he was wearing a coat, but who wouldn't have been? It's October.'
âNot carrying anything, as far as you remember?' Gibbs asked.
âNo, but . . . he could have been, I suppose.'
âAnd you didn't notice if he had a car, or if there were any cars not usually parked on Bengeo Street that were there that morning?'
âI wouldn't know a Volvo from a Skoda,' said Stella. âSorry. I'm completely car-blind. There could have been twenty bright pink Rolls-Royces parked on the street and I wouldn't have noticed.'
âNot a problem,' said Gibbs. âIf I could have a quick chat with Dillon, though . . .' He produced his best smile. âI'm not expecting him to tell me anything, but it's worth a shot. A lot of the blokes I know who are into the horses are also into cars.'
âOkay, but . . . if by any chance he starts to talk about Helen's death, could you . . .' Stella stopped. She looked embarrassed. âI know this is going to sound weird, but could you try to be as positive about it as you can?'
Gibbs chewed his lip, stumped. Positive, about a woman who'd been fucked over by the legal system, robbed of her only surviving child and then shot in the head?
âThis is going to sound very convenient from a woman with terminal cancer, I know, but I'm trying to bring up Dillon to believe what I believe: that there is no death, or there doesn't have to be. The spirit is what matters and that never dies. Everything else is trivial.'
Gibbs sat as still as a stone. He should have stuck with Beryl Murie, quit while he was ahead. âWhat have you told Dillon about Helen Yardley's murder?'
âThe truth. He knows she was a special person. Sometimes special people are chosen for soul challenges that most of us couldn't cope with, which is why Helen had a harder time than most, but now she's moved on to the next stage. I told him she'd be happy, if happiness is what her spirit needs, in her next life.'
Gibbs managed a non-commital nod. He looked again at the room he was in: fireplace with four framed photographs on the mantelpiece above it, two chairs, a two-seater sofa, bellows, a brass bucket for coal, a poker for the fire, two wooden coffee tables. No joss-sticks, nothing tasselled, no yin-yang symbols; Gibbs felt as if he'd been conned. âWhat did you tell Dillon about the person who killed Helen?' he asked. Whoever he was, he was the one Gibbs wanted to move on to the next stage, the stage of being banged up for life and, ideally, beaten to mincemeat in some shithole of a prison.
âThat was hard, obviously,' said Stella. âI tried to explain to him that some people are afraid of experiencing their pain and try to redirect it to others. If you don't mind my saying so, you strike me as falling into that category.'
âMe?' Gibbs sat up straighter in his chair.
Get me the fuck out of here
.
âNot that I'm saying you'd do anything violent â of
course
you wouldn't.'
Gibbs wasn't so sure.
âIt's just . . . I sense a lot of clouds close to the surface. Underneath those, there's a light burning brightly, but it's . . .' Stella laughed suddenly. âI'm sorry. I'll shut up â I've got bigmouthitis as well as cancer, I'm afraid.'
âCan I have a word with Dillon?'
âI'll go and grab him.'
Left alone in the room, Gibbs exhaled slowly. What would Waterhouse think about a woman who saw perks where others saw tragedy, and violent death as a great opportunity, facilitating a soul's entry into a happier next life? What if you decided a friend of yours had suffered enough in her present incarnation and it was time for her soul to move up a level? Gibbs wondered if he ought to mention it.
Through the wall, he heard the sound of Dillon's muffled anger as the TV was switched off. He stood up and walked over to the display of photographs above the fireplace. One was of Dillon in his school uniform. He looked as if he was saying the âch' part of the word âcheese'. There was a picture of Stella and Dillon together, and two of Stella alone, in running gear. In one she had a medal on a ribbon round her neck.
When she came into the room with Dillon, Gibbs said, âRunner, are you?' It was something he'd considered taking up, before deciding he couldn't be bothered.
âNot any more,' said Stella. âI haven't got the strength for it now. When I first got my diagnosis, I realised there was one thing I'd wanted to do all my life that I still hadn't done, so I trained and I did it: two or three marathons a year for about five years. I couldn't believe how much healthier it made me feel. Not only feel,' Stella corrected herself. âI
was
healthier. The doctors gave me two years to live â I've managed to wangle an extra eight.'
âThat's not bad.' Maybe thinking positive about death had its upside after all.
âI've raised pots of money for charity. Last time I ran the London Marathon, all the money I raised went to JIPACâyou know, Helen's organisation. I did a couple of triathlons, too, also for charity. Now I'm mostly doing public speaking â to cancer patients, doctors, Women's Institute, University of the Third Age â anyone who'll have me.' Stella smiled. âIf you're not careful, I'll show you may cardboard box full of press cuttings.'
âCan I watch telly?' Dillon asked impatiently. He was wearing a blue tracksuit with a school logo on the top. There were traces of chocolate round his mouth.
âSoon, love.' Stella stroked the top of his head. âOnce we've finished chatting to DC Gibbs, you can go back to your horses.'
âBut I want to do what
I
want to do,' Dillon protested.
âCan you remember Monday morning?' Gibbs asked him.
âIt's Thursday today.'
âThat's right. So Monday was . . .'
âBefore Thursday it was Wednesday, before Wednesday it was Tuesday, before Tuesday it was Monday. That day?'
âRight,' Gibbs agreed.
âWe saw the man with the umbrella, beyond,' said Dillon.
âUmbrella?' Stella laughed. âThat's a new one. He didn'tâ'
âBeyond?' Gibbs knelt down in front of the boy. âYou mean ahead?'
âNo. Beyond.'
âDid you see the man outside Helen Yardley's house on Monday morning?'
âI saw him and Mum saw him.'
âBut he didn't have an umbrella, sweet-pea,' said Stella gently.
âHe did.'
âWhat colour was the umbrella?'
âBlack and silver,' said Dillon, without missing a beat.
Stella was shaking her head in apparent amusement. She mouthed something at Gibbs that implied she'd explain later, once Dillon had been returned to the TV room.
âDid you see the man getting into or out of a car?'
Dillon shook his head.
âBut you saw him outside the Yardleys' house, on the path.'
âAnd beyond.'
âYou mean he went into the house?' Gibbs signalled to Stella not to interrupt.
She ignored him. âSorry, but . . . sweet-pea, you
didn't
see him go into Helen's house, did you?'