Merlin looked at her once more and then patiently obeyed. He picked up the book and handed it to her, shaking his head when she offered him a bill.
“Why go through the farce of paying me? Once you made me wreck these very premises.”
“I did,” she said in anger, “and I'm glad. Perhaps there had been enough done to ruin
me.
”
She gave him a glance, half disdain, half ill-concealed uneasiness, and with a brisk word to her urban grandson moved toward the door.
Then she was goneâout of his shopâout of his life. The door clicked. With a sigh he turned and walked brokenly back toward the glass partition that enclosed the yellowed accounts of many years as well as the mellowed, wrinkled Miss McCracken.
Merlin regarded her parched, cobwebbed face with an odd sort of pity. She, at any rate, had had less from life than he. No rebellious, romantic spirit cropping out unbidden had, in its memorable moments, given her life a zest and a glory.
Then Miss McCracken looked up and spoke to him:
“Still a spunky old piece, isn't she?”
Merlin started.
“Who?”
“Old Alicia Dare. Mrs. Thomas Allerdyce she is now, of course; has been these thirty years.”
“What? I don't understand you.” Merlin sat down suddenly in his swivel chair; his eyes were wide.
“Why, surely, Mr. Grainger, you can't tell me that you've forgotten her, when for ten years she was the most notorious character in New York. Why, one time when she was the corespondent in the Throckmorton divorce case she attracted so much attention on Fifth Avenue that there was a traffic tie-up. Didn't you read about it in the papers.”
“I never used to read the papers.” His ancient brain was whirring.
“Well, you can't have forgotten the time she came in here and ruined the business. Let me tell you I came near asking Mr. Moonlight Quill for my salary, and clearing out.”
“Do you mean thatâthat you
saw
her?”
“Saw her! How could I help it with the racket that went on. Heaven knows Mr. Moonlight Quill didn't like it either, but of course
he
didn't say anything. He was daffy about her and she could twist him around her little finger. The second he opposed one of her whims she'd threaten to tell his wife on him. Served him right. The idea of that man falling for a pretty adventuress! Of course he was never rich enough for
her,
even though the shop paid well in those days.”
“But when I saw her,” stammered Merlin, “that is, when I
thought
I saw her, she lived with her mother.”
“Mother, trash!” said Miss McCracken indignantly. “She had a woman there she called âAunty' who was no more related to her than I am. Oh, she was a bad oneâbut clever. Right after the Throckmorton divorce case she married Thomas Allerdyce, and made herself secure for life.”
“Who was she?” cried Merlin. “For God's sake what was sheâa witch?”
“Why, she was Alicia Dare, the dancer, of course. In those days you couldn't pick up a paper without finding her picture.”
Merlin sat very quiet, his brain suddenly fatigued and stilled. He was an old man now indeed, so old that it was impossible for him to dream of ever having been young, so old that the glamour was gone out of the world, passing not into the faces of children and into the persistent comforts of warmth and life, but passing out of the range of sight and feeling. He was never to smile again or to sit in a long reverie when spring evenings wafted the cries of children in at his window until gradually they became the friends of his boyhood out there, urging him to come and play before the last dark came down. He was too old now even for memories.
That night he sat at supper with his wife and son, who had used him for their blind purposes. Olive said:
“Don't sit there like a death's-head. Say something.”
“Let him sit quiet,” growled Arthur. “If you encourage him he'll tell us a story we've heard a hundred times before.”
Merlin went up-stairs very quietly at nine o'clock. When he was in his room and had closed the door tight he stood by it for a moment, his thin limbs trembling. He knew now that he had always been a fool.
“O Russet Witch!”
But it was too late. He had angered Providence by resisting too many temptations. There was nothing left but heaven, where he would meet only those who, like him, had wasted earth.
The Lees of Happiness
If you should look through the files of old magazines for the first years of the present century you would find, sandwiched in between the stories of Richard Harding Davis and Frank Norris
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and others long since dead, the work of one Jeffrey Curtain: a novel or two, and perhaps three or four dozen short stories. You could, if you were interested, follow them along until, say, 1908, when they suddenly disappeared.
When you had read them all you would have been quite sure that here were no masterpiecesâhere were passably amusing stories, a bit out of date now, but doubtless the sort that would then have whiled away a dreary half hour in a dental office. The man who did them was of good intelligence, talented, glib, probably young. In the samples of his work you found there would have been nothing to stir you to more than a faint interest in the whims of lifeâno deep interior laughs, no sense of futility or hint of tragedy.
After reading them you would yawn and put the number back in the files, and perhaps, if you were in some library reading-room, you would decide that by way of variety you would look at a newspaper of the period and see whether the Japs had taken Port Arthur.
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But if by any chance the newspaper you had chosen was the right one and had crackled open at the theatrical page, your eyes would have been arrested and held, and for at least a minute you would have forgotten Port Arthur as quickly as you forgot Château Thierry.
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For you would, by this fortunate chance, be looking at the portrait of an exquisite woman.
Those were the days of “Florodora” and of sextets,
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of pinched-in waists and blown-out sleeves, of almost bustles and absolute ballet skirts, but here, without doubt, disguised as she might be by the unaccustomed stiffness and old fashion of her costume, was a butterfly of butterflies. Here was the gayety of the periodâthe soft wine of eyes, the songs that flurried hearts, the toasts and the bouquets, the dances and the dinners. Here was a Venus of the hansom cab, the Gibson girl
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in her glorious prime. Here was . . .
. . . here was, you find by looking at the name beneath, one Roxanne Milbank, who had been chorus girl and understudy in “The Daisy Chain,” but who, by reason of an excellent performance when the star was indisposed, had gained a leading part.
You would look againâand wonder. Why you had never heard of her. Why did her name not linger in popular songs and vaudeville jokes and cigar bands, and the memory of that gay old uncle of yours along with Lillian Russell and Stella Mayhew and Anna Held
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? Roxanne Milbankâwhither had she gone? What dark trap-door had opened suddenly and swallowed her up? Her name was certainly not in last Sunday's supplement on that list of actresses married to English noblemen. No doubt she was deadâpoor beautiful young ladyâand quite forgotten.
I am hoping too much. I am having you stumble on Jeffrey Curtain's stories and Roxanne Milbank's picture. It would be incredible that you should find a newspaper item six months later, a single item two inches by four, which informed the public of the marriage, very quietly, of Miss Roxanne Milbank, who had been on tour with “The Daisy Chain,” to Mr. Jeffrey Curtain, the popular author. “Mrs. Curtain,” it added dispassionately, “will retire from the stage.”
It was a marriage of love. He was sufficiently spoiled to be charming; she was ingenuous enough to be irresistible. Like two floating logs they met in a head-on rush, caught, and sped along together. Yet had Jeffrey Curtain kept at scrivening for twoscore years he could not have put a quirk into one of his stories weirder than the quirk that came into his own life. Had Roxanne Milbank played three dozen parts and filled five thousand houses she could never have had a rôle with more happiness and more despair than were in the fate prepared for Roxanne Curtain.
For a year they lived in hotels, travelled to California, to Alaska, to Florida, to Mexico, loved and quarrelled gently, and gloried in the golden triflings of his wit with her beautyâthey were young and gravely passionate; they demanded everything and then yielded everything again in ecstasies of unselfishness and pride. She loved the swift tones of his voice and his frantic, unfounded jealousy. He loved her dark radiance, the white irises of her eyes, the warm, lustrous enthusiasm of her smile.
“Don't you like her?” he would demand rather excitedly and shyly. “Isn't she wonderful? Did you ever seeââ”
“Yes,” they would answer, grinning. “She's a wonder. You're lucky.”
The year passed. They tired of hotels. They bought an old house and twenty acres near the town of Marlowe, half an hour from Chicago; bought a little car, and moved out riotously with a pioneering hallucination that would have confounded Balboa.
“Your room will be here!” they cried in turn.
âAnd then:
“And my room here!”
“And the nursery here when we have children.”
“And we'll build a sleeping porchâoh, next year.”
They moved out in April. In July Jeffrey's closest friend, Harry Cromwell, came to spend a weekâthey met him at the end of the long lawn and hurried him proudly to the house.
Harry was married also. His wife had had a baby some six months before and was still recuperating at her mother's in New York. Roxanne had gathered from Jeffrey that Harry's wife was not as attractive as HarryâJeffrey had met her once and considered herâ“shallow.” But Harry had been married nearly two years and was apparently happy, so Jeffrey guessed that she was probably all right . . .
“I'm making biscuits,” chattered Roxanne gravely. “Can your wife make biscuits? The cook is showing me how. I think every woman should know how to make biscuits. It sounds so utterly disarming. A woman who can make biscuits can surely do noââ”
“You'll have to come out here and live,” said Jeffrey. “Get a place out in the country like us, for you and Kitty.”
“You don't know Kitty. She hates the country. She's got to have her theatres and vaudevilles.”
“Bring her out,” repeated Jeffrey. “We'll have a colony. There's an awfully nice crowd here already. Bring her out!”
They were at the porch steps now and Roxanne made a brisk gesture toward a dilapidated structure on the right.
“The garage,” she announced. “It will also be Jeffrey's writing-room within the month. Meanwhile dinner is at seven. Meanwhile to that I will mix a cocktail.”
The two men ascended to the second floorâthat is, they ascended half-way, for at the first landing Jeffrey dropped his guest's suitcase and in a cross between a query and a cry exclaimed:
“For God's sake, Harry, how do you like her?”
“We will go up-stairs,” answered his guest, “and we will shut the door.”
Half an hour later as they were sitting together in the library Roxanne reissued from the kitchen, bearing before her a pan of biscuits. Jeffrey and Harry rose.
“They're beautiful, dear,” said the husband, intensely.
“Exquisite,” murmured Harry.
Roxanne beamed.
“Taste one. I couldn't bear to touch them before you'd seen them all and I can't bear to take them back until I find what they taste like.”
“Like manna, darling.”
Simultaneously the two men raised the biscuits to their lips, nibbled tentatively. Simultaneously they tried to change the subject. But Roxanne, undeceived, set down the pan and seized a biscuit. After a second her comment rang out with lugubrious finality:
“Absolutely bum!”
“Reallyââ”
“Why, I didn't noticeââ”
Roxanne roared.
“Oh, I'm useless,” she cried laughing. “Turn me out, JeffreyâI'm a parasite; I'm no goodââ”
Jeffrey put his arm around her.
“Darling, I'll eat your biscuits.”
“They're beautiful, anyway,” insisted Roxanne.
“They'reâthey're decorative,” suggested Harry.
Jeffrey took him up wildly.
“That's the word. They're decorative; they're masterpieces. We'll use them.”
He rushed to the kitchen and returned with a hammer and a handful of nails.
“We'll use them, by golly, Roxanne! We'll make a frieze out of them.”
“Don't!” wailed Roxanne. “Our beautiful house.”
“Never mind. We're going to have the library repapered in October. Don't you remember?”
“Wellââ”
Bang! The first biscuit was impaled to the wall, where it quivered for a moment like a live thing.
Bang! . . .
When Roxanne returned with a second round of cocktails the biscuits were in a perpendicular row, twelve of them, like a collection of primitive spear-heads.
“Roxanne,” exclaimed Jeffrey, “you're an artist! Cook?ânonsense! You shall illustrate my books!”
During dinner the twilight faltered into dusk, and later it was a starry dark outside, filled and permeated with the frail gorgeousness of Roxanne's white dress and her tremulous, low laugh.
âSuch a little girl she is, thought Harry. Not as old as Kitty.
He compared the two. Kittyânervous without being sensitive, temperamental without temperament, a woman who seemed to flit and never lightâand Roxanne, who was as young as spring night, and summed up in her own adolescent laughter.