Authors: Tori Phillips
Were all kisses like these? She had never before tasted such heady wine as his lips now offered her. How barren her past had been before this Gypsy had come into her life and taught her the magic of a kiss.
Joy bubbled up inside of Tonia, and she seemed to float. She gripped Sandor harder lest she swoon. He crushed her against him as his lips demanded more. She gave him freely all that he asked. His kisses sang in her veins and took root in the marrow of her bones.
God save me, but I love this man!
With ragged breathing, Sandor released her lips. He took her face gently between his hands. His thumbs brushed across her cheekbones. “Sweet, so sweet,” he murmured as he caressed her. “My
sukar.
”
Then he sighed and dropped his arms to his sides. “But I am not the one for you.”
Tonia gripped the edge of the table for support as she tried to reel in her thoughts. “What do you mean?” she asked. Her lips still burned with his passion. “Did I do something wrong? I realize that I have no experience in these matters. Please tell me my mistake and I will amend it.”
A sad
smile tipped the corners of his mouth. “You are perfection,” he replied. “A gift from heaven for a very fortunate man, but not me.”
Her skin turned to ice; the whole room became frigid. “You don’t like me,” she said flatly. What a cruel jest! For the first time in her life, Tonia allowed herself to love a man only to learn that he did not love her.
Sandor bent down and retrieved the wood he had dropped. “I am a Gypsy.”
Tonia frowned. “So you have told me on several occasions during our brief acquaintance.”
He hunkered on the balls of his feet before the fire. “You are a lady from a noble family.” While he spoke, he added several split logs to the feeble flames. “I am too rough for you, too…foreign.”
A tiny curl of hope rose within her. Perhaps she had been a bit hasty in her judgment. “Am I too foreign for you?”
“You have hit the nut and core of it,” he whispered.
Sandor didn’t have to look at Tonia to know that his words had hurt her. How could he possibly explain the Rom’s concept of
marime
to her? How could he tell this angel that his people believed she was defiled and that now he was defiled for kissing her? Worse than that, in the eyes of his family, Sandor was almost beyond redemption because he had
enjoyed
kissing Tonia. In fact, he desperately wanted to kiss her again this minute. He wanted to lay her down on his grandmother’s sheepskin and make long passionate love to Lady Gastonia Cavendish, a
gadji.
Grabbing
his shoulder, Tonia swung him around to face her. Her sudden action upset his balance and he sat down hard on the cold floor.
Anger painted bright red spots on her cheeks. “Are you saying that
I
am not good enough for
you?
Pray explain this wonder to me, Gypsy, for my brains must have become addled by your…that is…recently.” She seated herself on the stool, folded her arms over her enticing breasts and glared at him. Her indignation made her even more beautiful in his eyes.
Sandor crossed his legs while he pondered his answer. “Tell me true, my fine lady, would your father approve of me? Would he have minded me kissing your lips if he had spied us just now?”
Pursing her lips, she stared down to her lap. “Nay, he would not, but then…” She looked at him. “Methinks he would not approve of any man I kissed except for one of his own choice. My father has three daughters and he has always been very protective of us. My sister Gillian’s husband had to practically wade through fire before my father allowed her to marry him.”
Sandor whistled through his teeth. “There are two more as beautiful as you?” Lord Cavendish must have an army of guards stationed around his manor.
Tonia turned pink again, though not from displeasure. “My twin sisters are eighteen months younger than I. We share the same coloring and general looks. All three of us are too tall for current fashion.”
He smiled at her modest description. “You are not too tall for me,” he murmured, hoping to make her smile in return.
Instead
, she frowned. “Not too tall, only not good enough.”
He clicked his tongue against his teeth. Tonia did not distract easily. “I did not say that—exactly.”
She lifted one of her lovely dark brows. “Then what do you mean—exactly? Tell me true.”
Sandor threw up his hands in the air as if he implored the angels for help. “
Jaj!
You are worse than a shire reeve with your questions. Very well, but I warn you, you will not like my answers.”
Tonia cocked her head and waited.
He sighed. He would skirt the problem of
marime
if he could. “If my uncle had seen us kissing, he too would not have approved.”
Tonia considered this for a moment. “Then your uncle would have shown good sense. A noblewoman stains her family’s honor if she is seen kissing a man in public.”
He shook his head. “’Tis not that, Tonia. Uncle Gheorghe would not approve of you because you are a
gadji.
A Rom man should kiss only Rom women.” He twiddled his thumbs while he waited for her next ticklish question.
She was silent for a very long time. The renewed fire snapped and crackled in the grate. “Methinks I understand,” she finally said, then she sighed.
“We are from very different worlds,” he added, relieved that he didn’t have to explain things in any more detail.
“We are together now.”
He gazed at her, trying to conceal the longing that consumed his heart. “But for how long,
sukar luludi?
The snow will stop, but time does not. Have you so soon forgotten why I came here?”
A small
rueful smile touched her lips, lips that were still swollen with his kisses. “Nay, but I hoped that you had.”
He returned her smile with a broad one of his own. “As to the problem of your execution, methinks I have hit upon a plan that will save both our necks.”
She sat up straighter on her stool. “Hoy day! It has taken you
this
long to tell me? Out with it!”
He chuckled. “Your pardon, my lady, but methought you did not mind my kisses. In fact, ’twas you, not I, that began it before I even got both feet in the door. You gave me no chance to speak a word.”
Tonia colored very prettily.
With another chuckle, Sandor rose, wiped his hands on his sleeves, then went to the table. “Nor did you give me the opportunity to show you what I have brought.” He untied the sack. “Are you hungry?” He lifted out one of the rabbit pies.
She lunged for it. “Sweet Jesu!”
He laughed as he gave it to her. Then he poured two cups of water from the jug. “Let us eat first. Serious matters sit better on a satisfied stomach.”
With her mouth full of the cold pastry, Tonia merely nodded. They ate in silence, enjoying the simple repast, the cheer of the fire and each other’s company. Sandor savored the reprieve. All too soon, he must tell her his plan—and about the pig’s heart that lay wrapped in his saddlebag. He watched as she licked the pie’s brown gravy from her hands. Her little pink tongue curling around her long, slim fingers stirred hot desire in his loins.
He had
fallen in love with Tonia. From the first moment of their meeting, he had been lost to her. Her sweet kisses only served to taunt him. How could she possibly love him in return? His was a fool’s dream, like Prosto of his grandmother’s cards. Aye, Sandor was exactly that man—except
both
his feet hung over the abyss. He had lost his heart to a lady of noble birth—and a
gadji.
Sandor was sure that she would leave him without a backward glance the minute he turned her loose. Wasn’t that the real reason why he had locked her in her cell when he journeyed to Harewold?
After they had shared a wedge of the cheese, Sandor cleared his throat. “The hour grows later,
sukar,
and we must speak of many things. As soon as the snow stops, we will quit this place.”
Tonia stared at him; her eyes shone a deep blue. “Leave Hawksnest?
Both
of us?” she whispered.
He could have wept for her distrust of him. “Aye, did I not tell you to believe in me?”
“You did,” she acknowledged. “But I feel as if I have lived these past few weeks poised on the edge of a sharp knife. Do you promise me freedom?”
Sandor swallowed. Once, when he was a child, he had caught a particularly tuneful lark. Day after day, he had delighted to hear its song, but a week later, he noticed that the little bird sang less and less. Old Towla told him to release the creature. She said that if the lark truly loved him, it would stay of its own free will. Opening that cage door was the hardest thing Sandor had ever done in his young life. The bird had soared to the skies while he watched its joy with an ache in his heart. But his grandmother had been right, as always. The lark returned every day to eat Sandor’s breadcrumbs and to sing for him. They remained friends until the bird had flown south for the winter.
Tonia was
like the beautiful lark. She longed for her freedom. Had she only kissed him and pretended to like him so that he would allow her to flee the King’s doleful sentence? Sandor gritted his teeth. He didn’t like to think of her as a scheming woman. And yet, he knew that he would have done the same thing himself if he had been the one standing in the shadow of death. The
tarocchi
cards had prophesied that he must take a risk. Was this it?
“Will you truly set me free?” she asked again, breaking his reverie.
Sandor could not look at her. Her yearning for escape broke his heart. Instead, he watched the flames leap in the blackened hearth. “What is free? Are we not all bound to something?” A strange question for a Gypsy to ask, he thought as the words tumbled out of his mouth.
Her eyes narrowed into slits. “Then you
lied
to me. I see it now. Your freedom is to kill me, isn’t it? Why have you kept me alive for so long? Did you mean to seduce me so you could take your pleasure of my body before you wrung the life out of me? What traitorous kisses you have! I almost believed you.”
Her words ripped him apart like a dozen daggers thrown by a vengeful former friend. He winced inwardly. “My tongue did not lie to you. Neither my words nor my kisses were meant to lead you astray. I swear this upon my soul.”
She twisted her lips. “Your
Gypsy
soul—and everyone knows how honest that is.” She slid off the stool to the cold floor and knelt before him. “Kill me now, Master of Death. I have grown weary of your game and cannot abide to spend another night in your perfidious company.”
She scooped
up her hair in her hands and held it away from her slender white neck. “Do it now—quickly. I am as ready as I will ever be. I have run out of prayers.”
Sandor wanted to lift her into his arms and kiss away her fears and anger, but he did not dare to touch her. Instead, he pulled out the garrote from his pouch and flexed the braided leather cord before her wide eyes. He must be cruel before he could be kind. “So you want to die?”
Tonia gulped.
Sandor stood up before her; the firelight cast his dark shadow over her. He dangled the garrote between his fingers. “Do you really prefer death to me?”
T
onia could
not control the spasms of fear that shook her.
“Tell me what is truly in your heart, my lady,” Sandor said in a much softer tone.
Despite her fright, she looked up into his eyes that gazed upon her with sad tenderness, searching her face, probing deep within her soul. Tonia clasped her hands together. What was the point of showing a brave face at this juncture? Why lie to him or to herself? There was nothing left to lose now.
“I want to live, Sandor. With you,” she confessed. Tensing, she waited for him to laugh at her folly before he whipped the leather thong around her neck.
Instead, he knelt opposite her and cupped her chin between his thumb and forefinger. “This is the truth of your heart?” he asked, his eyes wide with wonderment.
She blinked. “May I die if I lie,” she said, repeating his phrase though the words held a deeper meaning for her.
“You will not die,
sukar luludi,
” he assured her in his deep-timbre voice. “At least, not by my hands.” With that, Sandor tossed the garrote into the fire. The leather curled in the flames until there was nothing left but a long, black ash.
Tonia’s
relief made her limbs weak as jellied eels. With a sob of joy, she fell into his arms. Her tears, dammed inside for so long, overflowed her eyes and ran down her cheeks. Sandor held her against his chest while she poured out the fears that she had locked in her heart ever since the arrest. Never had life seemed so sweet. She savored the salt taste of her tears. Sandor’s soothing words of nonsense sang like poetry. Her dank cell was now a nest feathered with swans’ down. The fire’s crackle spoke of liberation.
While she wept, Sandor’s hands rubbed tender circles over the taut muscles of her shoulders. He kissed the tips of her ears and whispered endearments in her hair. Wrapping her arms around his neck, Tonia locked her fingers together and held him tight as if she would never be parted from him. Tonight, no shadows would cloud her heart. The world was filled with brightness and good cheer. Her soul danced an exuberant galliard.
“My best beloved,” he murmured.
“And you are mine,” she replied. A knot of happiness swelled in her throat.
Sandor lowered them both onto the sheepskin before the fire. Tonia sighed as she snuggled against him. In the fire’s light, she studied Sandor’s lean, dark-skinned face and she liked what she found there. It seemed as if she had been waiting all her life for this special man, this special moment.
Sandor lay on his side facing her and propped himself up on his elbow. His eyes softened as he gazed at her with a heart-stopping tenderness that made Tonia feel infinitely cherished. Her pulse leaped with excitement. With the tip of his finger, he traced the outline of her lips. A pleasure that she had never before experienced rippled through her.
He smiled,
then lifted her hand to his lips and kissed it with almost a holy reverence.
“Av, pawdel dur chumbas,”
he sang softly in his rich voice.
“Av kitane mansa?”
Tonia swallowed. “The words sound beautiful, but what do they mean?”
He took a tendril of her hair and curled it around his finger, all the while smiling at her. “’Tis an old love song. It says ‘Come over the far hills. Will you come with me?’ The singer is asking his love to run away with him. Would you come to the far hills with me, Tonia?”
Her heartbeat skittered. She took his hand in hers. “Methinks we are already
in
the far hills.”
He slipped his arm under her and drew her closer to him. “I long to be your lover, sweet flower. Do you understand what I ask of you?”
Her breath stopped for a moment. Her blood burned within her veins. The echo of his invitation sang in her brain. Sandor struck her as a man who did not offer his love lightly as most men did. Tonia knew that if she accepted him, there would be no turning back for her.
A giggle born of her nervousness escaped her. “Aye, you wish to disobey the King’s most direct order.” When he looked perplexed, she continued in a whisper. “You wish to shed the blood of my maidenhead.”
He caressed her cheek with the back of his knuckle. “I have already disobeyed His Majesty’s first order. You still live.” He lowered his head to her. “I would do more, much more, than take the gift of your virginity. I wish to love you now—and forever. Will you have me? I promise I will be gentle,” he added. He sealed his vow with a kiss.
Tonia’s blood
throbbed for Sandor’s touch, for his kisses, for joining him in the most intimate way she knew of, though had never experienced. Her mouth went suddenly dry. “Be my love,” she murmured, reaching up to stroke the cleft in his chin, “and my teacher.” She dispatched the vision of her shocked family to the smallest corner of her mind.
Sandor and Tonia looked into each other’s eyes and their gazes locked in a moment of silent understanding. They breathed as one. Then his lips feather-touched hers with a tantalizing persuasion that she was unable to resist. Shivers of pure delight raced through her. She moistened her lips then offered them to him.
Once more Sandor claimed her, this time as a hunter claimed his prize at the end of a good chase. His mouth imprinted his passion on her skin. She burned where he touched her and yearned for more of his fire. When the tip of his tongue touched her lips, she opened to receive him. He took his time exploring the recesses of her mouth. Passion exploded within her.
Sandor raised his mouth from hers, then smiled into her eyes. He lowered his head again. The caress of his lips on her neck set her aflame. “Oh, Sandor,” she breathed as she gripped his shoulders.
He pulled them both upright so that they sat facing each other. He lifted the slim chain that supported her cross over her head. Laying the necklace on the table behind him, he said, “Methinks the Lord God would be more comfortable there for the time being.”
“Aye,” Tonia
replied, not taking her gaze from his face.
With infinite care he untied the knot that held together the top of her bodice. She trembled, but she did not pull away. No man had ever dared to cross this line of propriety. Sandor pulled the silken laces through the first pair of eyelets while he hummed his Gypsy love song. When he loosened the second pair, he brushed against her breast, modestly covered by her chemise. Her skin tingled. He continued to undress her slowly and with great ceremony, as if she were a golden vessel to be offered upon an altar.
Once her bodice was gone, Sandor slid her shift from her shoulders. Tonia clasped her hands together in her lap, resisting the natural urge to cover herself. She held her breath as the cloth fell away, exposing her breasts to him. He touched her tentatively, almost shyly, murmuring his love for her in his strange yet melodic language.
Closing her eyes, Tonia threw back her head and gave herself up to the thrilling sensations of Sandor’s lovemaking. Though his fingers were icy, his palm was hot as the fire before them as he fondled the swell of her breasts. Splaying his other hand across her back for her support, he traced a path with his tongue across the soft skin that no man had ever touched.
Tonia gasped as her breasts rose to his intimate caress. The first tremor of arousal caught her. Then Sandor’s tongue teased one of her nipples into pebblelike hardness. Tonia clung to his shoulders. She felt as if she were floating in a pond perfumed with intoxicating flowers. His lips and tongue continued their sweet assault of her breasts and shoulders. The cool air kissing her wet skin only made the pleasure more exquisite. She moaned deep in her throat.
Whispering
her name, Sandor eased her back down onto the fleece. The soft lambs’ wool cushioned her bare skin. She opened her eyes. Sandor had already doffed his jacket. He pulled apart the lacing of his shirt, revealing his muscular chest. The sight of his strong body glowing bronze in the firelight made her heartbeat skitter.
“Forgive my badge of shame,” he apologized, pointing to the wicked V-shaped scar on his chest.
“’Tis no matter,” she crooned, reaching up and touching the ragged mark.
Sandor sucked in his breath. “By your blessing, you have healed the scar on my soul,” he told her.
His words tore at her heart. Tonia wiped away a small tear that had formed in the corner of her eye. Sandor did not notice her silent weeping for him. Instead he fumbled with the thick knot that held her kirtle around her waist. His fingers, now warm, brushed against her flat stomach as he worked the stubborn lacing. Tonia admired the flex and roll of the corded muscles in his arms. She anticipated the moment when those arms would hold her close to him, with no cloth to separate their bodies.
With a chuckle of satisfaction he finally freed the knot. Slipping his fingers between her skirts and her waist, he loosened the material from the ribbons that had held them in their modest place. Then he slid off her gown and petticoat with infinite care as if they were fashioned from cobwebs. With deliberate motions, he rolled down her worsted stockings and pulled them from her feet. Each time his fingers grazed her skin, she quivered. Finally he removed the shift that had gathered around her hips and laid it on top of her other clothing.
Looking
down at her, he drew in a deep breath. “
Jaj, sukar,
you are not just a feast for my eyes but a royal banquet.”
Stretched out naked on his sheepskin, Tonia shamelessly basked in his open admiration. Then she gasped when Sandor lowered his body over hers. His chest lightly brushed her jutting nipples. With her blood humming and her skin burning as if on fire, she arched toward him. He molded her body against his contours, two halves coming together as a whole.
Supporting his weight with one elbow, he began a sensuous exploration with his free hand over her stomach, then her waist and around her hips. His stroking of her unexpected pleasure points sent jolts of sensual excitement radiating through her. Tonia had expected rough handling from this unpredictable, half-wild Gypsy, but his lovemaking proved the truth of his promise. He was both tender and restrained, taking his time while he explored, aroused and pleasured her beyond her most secret wanton dreams.
Sandor’s expert lovemaking sent Tonia soaring to a high plateau of ecstasy. Panting, she whispered his name over and over like a prayer. When he found her inner core, she shivered at the first contact, then melted as he continued his stroking. Her thighs fell apart. Arching, writhing, moaning, Tonia begged Sandor for the release that she was sure must come. She couldn’t breathe.
“You torture me,” she panted as she bucked under his hand. “Have mercy!”
“Come to the far hills with me,” he sang under his breath.
Gripping the fleece in her fingers, Tonia cried out her sweet agony. Then, without warning, her body shuddered in a crescendo of pleasure. She felt as if she had shattered into a hundred shards of a Venetian looking glass, each piece reflecting her love for Sandor.
Opening
her eyes, she asked, “Did I bleed much?”
Sandor chuckled. “’Tis not yet happened, best beloved, but the time is now. I will unsheathe my sword.” He untied the waistband of his breeches and pulled them down over his slim hips.
Tonia gulped when she saw his manhood standing proudly erect between his legs. “’Tis a goodly size,” she whispered. A coil of fright replaced her earlier passion.
’Twill rip me asunder!
He knelt between her legs. “’Twill be a little pain, I confess. I cannot help that,
sukar,
but then I will take you up to the sun and you will forgive me.”
Before Tonia could frame a reply, he began to stroke her again. Her quickened response took her by surprise. Her body warmed then flamed with his caresses. Closing her eyes, she writhed under him as he lowered himself over her. Taking her hand in his, Sandor guided her to touch his shaft, hot steel cloaked in satin and pulsating. He groaned as she closed her fingers around him.
“Take care, beloved,” he gasped. “’Tis been a long time since I have made love. I could explode at any moment.”
He took her wrists together in one hand and held them over her head. Then he crushed her mouth in a kiss that seared into her soul as if he sought to imprint his image there forever. Between her legs, he stroked against her.
Her growing passion made Tonia’s blood pound against her temples. Sandor’s heat coursed through her body. She rose to meet him, eager for more. Her heart burst with her love for him and her exquisite anguish. She abandoned all her fears. Opening to him, Tonia surrendered herself completely to the wildfire of Sandor’s lovemaking. He returned his love for her in the fullest measure.
With a
slow thrust, Sandor breached her maiden’s wall. Tonia gasped with a momentary pain, but it was soon forgotten in the ascending passion that shook her. Sandor groaned under his breath as his love flowed into her like warm honey. Tonia quivered as his liquid fire filled her.
She released a long, surrendering moan as the tide of their ardor swept her to the height of a great wave. She felt as if she paused on the crest, then she plummeted down into the vortex of indescribable pleasure. As she floated back to reality once more, a deep peace seeped through her body. Tonia felt more complete and more alive than ever before in her life.
“I have found paradise,” she murmured, sinking into the cushion of Sandor’s embrace.
He pressed a gentle kiss on her lips before he replied, “Methinks paradise was not this cold.”
Rolling away from her for a moment, he grabbed his striped horse blanket. After tucking it around them both, he gathered her in his arms once more. Tonia pillowed her head on his shoulder and gave herself up to the sleep that claimed her limbs. “I am home,” she sighed.
Sandor brushed stray wisps of her hair from her face.
“Si kovvel ajaw,”
he whispered in her ear. “This thing is true. You
are
home with me.”