The Dark Side of Love (10 page)

At that moment Rana heard Farid's voice, and she cried almost indignantly, “But he needs me, and you can't just run away and let someone down.”

“What poet said that? Tell me his name and I'll show you how he let those fine sayings loose on the world, and then stayed with his wife like a good boy. No, my dear, you're a dreamer, and it's my thankless task to wake you up.”

Farid heard a voice inside his head, saying: I'm here with you.

“And where's the shame that Ghassan was talking about just now?” Matta brought him back to the hilltop and the elm. “This dry half belonged to the Mushtaks anyway. The other half, the living one, belongs to the church of St. Giorgios. But never mind, the main thing is no one was hurt and no fields were damaged either.”

At these simple words, Farid himself suddenly couldn't understand why his father had been talking about a sin. Surely not just for a chunk of rotten wood, he said to himself.

When word went around in Mala that the fire had spared St. Giorgios's half of the tree, many people took it as a kind of final proof from heaven. It was the work of Providence that a descendant of old George Mushtak, of all people, had burned his part of the tree.

A week after the fire, Farid's father spoke normally to his son again. At lunch he suddenly asked in a perfectly friendly tone, “Pass the water jug, would you?”

Claire had insisted that Elias must be reconciled with Farid, and then she herself would back the idea of sending the boy to the monastery, although only to ensure that he had a good education. She had agreed when she learned that the monastery of St. Sebastian was run by Jesuits. But her mind was firmly made up on one point: her son was not going to become a priest.

Encouraged by his father's friendliness, Farid told him what he had seen on the site of the fire.

“That doesn't mean anything. There was a strong wind, it could have blown a spark on to a dry thistle, and then the thistle started the fire that burned everything around the tree, but fire doesn't have much chance with green wood. A rotten part is different,” replied Elias calmly.

“Saliha the dairywoman thinks one of the Shahins was behind the fire. She says they wanted to spoil our Easter,” Claire told him.

Elias dismissed the idea. “We mustn't look for Shahins behind every silly trick. What your son and his friends did was …” Elias hesitated as she cast him a warning glance, “… was a stupid, childish prank,” he finished, toning down what he had been about to say.

This conversation didn't help matters. Apparently his father had had the monastery plan in his head for a long time, and was just waiting for an opportunity to carry it out. And when the fire burned the elm tree, that opportunity seemed, in a strange way, to have fallen right into his hands.

DAMASCUS, MALA, 1907 – 1920

At noon on a clear, cold spring day, two strangers came riding down the dusty road to Mala in great haste. Even before they reached the mill on the way into the village, most of the villagers could see that the couple needed help.

The riders stopped outside the church of St. Giorgios. The barber came out of his shop and offered them fresh water.

“What's the name of this church?” asked the elder of the two.

“The church of St. Giorgios,” said a young shepherd who happened to be in the square outside it.

The barber thought the stranger on his fine white mount must be about fifty. A woman dressed in man's clothing was sitting on the vigorous black horse. She had blue eyes, so blue that you couldn't look at them for long without smiling in confusion. She was very young, and the villagers took her for the man's daughter.

He asked to see the village elder. There was no pleading note in his voice. The man he wanted, Mobate, lived in the big house opposite the mill on the way into Mala. For generations, village elders had been drawn from the Mobate clan. They were good at dealing with friend and foe alike, and had shrewdly found out how to settle
quarrels between the other clans and avert the despotism of the Ottoman authorities while always staying on top themselves.

Old Daud Mobate had died a year before. A week later, the most powerful men in the village elected his forty-year-old son Habib to succeed him. He was even wilier and a smoother operator than his father, who had been jokingly nicknamed “The Eel” in his lifetime.

At that time, as prescribed by the Arab law of hospitality, a stranger could stay in the village as the elder's guest for three days without a word to explain why he was on the road.

“George Mushtak,” replied Mobate's guest when an old farmer civilly asked his name. “And this is my wife Sarka,” he added. The woman laughed, a clear sound, and laid her head against her husband's arm. He was sitting beside her on the rug, like everyone else present. Her new name amused her. Every time they met anyone her lover invented two new names, one for himself and one for her. But she particularly liked the sound of Sarka,
the blue woman
.

Jusuf Shahin, the richest man in the village, cast a disapproving glance at the woman. He thought her laughter unseemly. Later he used to say he had known at that moment that the devil was in her.

On the other hand, he liked the man. He seemed mature and courageous, and said little, but what he did say came swift as an arrow from his mouth and hit its mark.

George Mushtak told them straight out that he had fled here because of the woman at his side. He and she were Christians, he said, but a rich Muslim farmer was determined to marry Sarka by force. He, Mushtak, had chosen to come to Mala because even as a child he had heard of the chivalry and hospitality of the village.

Mobate sat up and took notice. He knew that his grandfather had once found himself in considerable difficulties when he granted the protection of the village to a fugitive. Soon after that, Mala had been surrounded. Its attackers wanted the villagers to surrender the man they were after. Their leader hated him so much that he didn't even respect the sacred Arab custom which obliges a host to deliver himself up to death sooner than his guest.

The village held out against the attackers for weeks, until their leader and his exhausted warriors finally withdrew. After that,
however, the men of Mala had urged their village elder to look twice at the next stranger before giving his word and plunging them all into misfortune again.

“You may have your three days, but do your pursuers know you rode to Mala?”

“No,” replied George Mushtak grimly, “or I wouldn't have come. I went a long way round, and there's been no one on my trail for days. I give you my word.”

“Good,” said Mobate, “then in three days' time I'll tell you whether you can stay here. Now let us eat and make you welcome.” He clapped his hands, and the meal was immediately carried in, as if the women had been just waiting on the other side of the door. Sarka laughed.

While the guests enjoyed the stranger's stories and admired his wife's beauty, the village elder sent three reliable young men to the lookout posts on the mountains, where they could see down into the plain leading to Mala.

When there was still no sign of pursuers three days later, he felt reassured. His guest did indeed seem to have been cautious. They granted him the right to stay in Mala. Only then did the man ride away once more, leading his wife's horse behind him. Sarka stayed in the Mobates' house.

The women there liked the beautiful girl, but they were surprised to see that she never prayed. She didn't say grace with them before or after meals, just sat there smiling. One of the women, feeling suspicious, asked Sarka if she was a Christian. “No,” she said. Nor was she Jewish.

“A Muslim?” asked another woman. Sarka cheerfully shook her head.

“Then what in the world are you?” cried Mobate's sister Badia.

“Love, love is my religion,” replied Sarka with her clear laugh. And the women were charmed by her sense of humour, never guessing that she spoke the truth.

It was almost a day before George Mushtak came back and carried two heavy saddlebags into the house. They were full of gold coins.

Mobate was very pleased, since a rich man was a godsend for both the village and himself. Soon George Mushtak bought four old houses
on the village square, had them pulled down, and instead built a large new property with a grand house, a garden and outhouses. Mobate helped him to acquire fields, barns and threshing floors, and before two years were up George Mushtak could compete with Jusuf Shahin, until now the richest man in the village. But it wasn't long before the original friendship between the two men turned to enmity. There was much speculation about the reason.

The Catholics in particular were delighted to have the newcomer there. Not only did he get the Catholic church renovated at his own expense, he also backed the Catholics against the hitherto dominant Orthodox Christians. But their delight was premature.

In her later years, when Sarka was alone in the house feeling sad, or wandering around at night in the dark, she always remembered herself as a little girl running through the orchard and splashing about in the brook near her parents' home. She had been called Laila then, the world had been a game, her heart was free and unscarred. It hadn't yet suffered the wounds of love or worn the chains of fear.

But her memory of the hammam warmed her more than anything else. The details of visits to that splendid bathhouse had remained more vivid in her mind than all the weddings, circumcisions and religious festivals of which she retained only a vague idea. Going to the hammam in Damascus with her mother had been a great event for her, one that came only two or three times a year. Over ten women and twenty girls from the neighbourhood travelled in the big cart driven by a bearded old man. Laila had felt excited anticipation whenever she saw her mother packing everything up: food, sweetmeats, tobacco secretly abstracted from her husband's supplies, combs, soap, henna and bath towels, although they never used the towels because there were much better ones in the hammam.

Laila could still see it before her eyes: those beautiful rooms, the dome, the tiny windows letting coloured light shine in, and then all
the fun of sliding around on the soapy marble floors with the other girls. And the women sitting together, and their stories, the laughter and all that food. Laila was scared the first time she saw the fat lady who was always putting leeches on her breasts, belly, and legs. For a moment she thought they were worms growing out of the woman's body.

Only later, when Laila noticed her breasts beginning to swell, did she suddenly notice the glint in men's eyes out in the street, and the women's whispers in the hammam intensified and became a definite plan. Her mother was the first to say anything to her straight out. Hassan, son of the big farmer Mahmud Kashat, had his eye on her. The old midwife Fatima had told her so. He'd met Laila and liked her. Now he was going to indulge himself by taking her as his fifth wife.

“How many hearts does this man have?” Laila had asked, out of sheer curiosity.

“He's rich enough to keep ten wives, child, just like his father. With him you'll be able to fill your belly, wash in clean water every week, lie down in a bed without bugs and lice, and sleep easily. That's not bad payment for the bit of pleasure you give a man. Look at me. I have to bear that burden by myself, and slave for your father at home and in the fields as well. But you'll be sharing Hassan Kashat with four other women. His slaves will feed you and pamper you like a princess. And all that for a little carrying on every fifth night,” said her mother, who had lived through years of famine and bloodsucking insects.