The Demon Lover (15 page)

This must have been the book he’d sent the Soheila in the letter to publish. Had he come back? I wondered. From what Soheila had told me it didn’t sound as if he had. And if he had died using this spell to confront the demon that had killed his sister, was it such a good idea for me to use the same spell to invoke the same demon?

Assuming it was the same demon.

I sat with the book open in my lap and the sugar bowl of boiling water in front of me. Soon it would be too cool to use. The instructions said that once the spellcaster entered the circle she shouldn’t step out of it again. So if I was going to do this …

What finally made up my mind were two lines from Angus’s letter:
From the moment when I looked into the blackness beyond his eyes a part of me has dwelled in that darkness
 
… 
Unless I confront him I will never be whole
.

When I read those lines I felt the spiral coil burning through my flesh.

I knew it was the same for me.

FOURTEEN

I
lit the candles while reciting the names listed in Fraser’s book. They were the same names Soheila had told me at the reception.

“Lilu, Liderc, Ganconer, hear me.

“Lilu, Liderc, Ganconer, I call you.

“Lilu, Liderc, Ganconer, come to me.”

When I finished lighting all the candles I uncovered the sugar bowl. A plume of spice-scented steam rose into the air. It smelled like pumpkin pie. Comforting and incongruous at the same time.

I took out the object I’d removed from my desk drawer. The offering. It was a stone my father gave me when I was six or seven and I’d been having nightmares. He had told me that he found it on the shore of a lake in Scotland—a loch like the one the Loch Ness monster lived in. It was chalky white and had a hole worn through the middle. He said people called stones like these fairy stones because if you looked through the hole at the break of dawn you could see fairies, but that they also protected their owners from nightmares. I’d slept with it under my pillow every night until I was in my teens and my parents were dead. Then, when I was fifteen, I’d talked Annie into going to Central Park with me at dawn. I convinced her by playing the dead parents card, as she put it. We smoked pot and sat on the boulders overlooking Sheep Meadow, waiting for the sun to appear through the buildings to the east. When the first rays of light streamed across the meadow I held the stone up to my eye. I hadn’t seen any fairies, but I’d heard a buzzing in my ears—like a hive of bees swarming over my head. I’d put it down to the pot and lack of sleep. I stopped sleeping with the stone under my pillow then, but I kept it in the same box where I kept my mother’s letters.

Now I dropped the stone into the hot water, reciting the three names.

“Lilu, Liderc, Ganconer, accept my offer.”

The plume of steam wavered and then thinned into a long tail, as if it had been funneled through the hole in the stone. It coiled in the air—a party streamer tossed on the breeze …

There hadn’t been a breeze before, had there? At least not when I was talking on the phone with Paul. But now a stiff breeze blew through the open window. The candle flames danced in it, the wicks guttering in the pools of melted wax. Outside I could see treetops tossing in the wind. The steam twisted in the air, coiling like the tail of a kite. I watched it, mesmerized, for several seconds until I realized that it was no longer coming out of the sugar bowl. It had separated from its source and taken on a life of its own.

The next gust blew out the candles.

It’s just the wind and water molecules, I said to myself.

But those water molecules were glowing now like phosphorescent plankton—as if they also had a life of their own.

I took a deep breath. The steam eddied toward me as if borne on my breath. The brand on my breast tingled. I exhaled and the steam moved again. It arranged itself into the shape of a face. His face.

I opened my mouth … amazed, yes, but also suddenly stymied. I hadn’t really figured out what I was going to say if he showed up. The only thing I could think of was “Who are you?” and that hadn’t worked out so well before. Before I could think of what else to say he beat me to the punch.

“Who are
you?
” he asked, as if he’d just thought of a comeback to my previous question.

I laughed out loud, my expelled breath pushing him back in the air. “My name’s Cailleach McFay,” I said.

“Cailleach.”
The name was a sigh on the wind that caressed my face. I found I liked hearing my name on his lips.

“I know you,” the breeze whispered, tugging at my shirt collar. “Don’t you remember?”

“Is it you? Did you come to me in my dreams when I was a girl?”

“Yes,” he answered, his voice hoarse with emotion, “though you and I have known each other longer than that.”

The breeze insinuated itself between my breasts and traced the lines of the spiral pattern on my left breast, making the skin tingle and my nipple harden. The coil flamed up as if I’d just been branded. Would my fairytale prince have done that?

“You don’t know a thing about me,” I said, batting the breeze away. “And I don’t even know your name.”

His lips formed a smile, stiffly, as if he wasn’t used to moving those muscles—or did he have muscles? This image was different from his earlier visitations. I had a feeling it was just a remote projection. “I have many names,” he said. His voice, I realized now, wasn’t coming from his mouth. It rode the air, billowing in and out of the window, winding around me like a silk scarf. Outside the trees thrashed. “Those you called me by and many others. You can call me Ganconer.”

“Are you the same …” I hesitated on what to call him. “… 
man
as in Angus Fraser’s story?”

He frowned at the mention of Angus Fraser’s name and the wind coming through the window turned cold. Gooseflesh rose on my skin where it touched me. “Don’t believe everything that man says.”

“Did you seduce his sister? Did you kill her?”

“Katy.”
The name was a sigh torn from the wind. “I lost her. It was hissss fault.”

“I doubt that,” I said, beginning to grow impatient with this apparition. Awake and with my eyes wide open he was decidedly less charming than he’d been in my dreams. Even if he was the same creature as my fairytale prince he had changed … or maybe I was the one who had changed. Maybe I had outgrown him. “Listen,” I said. “I called you here to tell you to go …”

The mist rippled and the wind roared. It took me a moment to realize he—
it
—was laughing. “
That’s
why you called me? I don’t think so, Cailleach McFay. I think you called me because you want
more
of me.” The mist unfurled through the air and wrapped itself around me. The air had gotten very cold in the room but the mist touching my face was warm. The warmth seeped through me, spreading like a warm liqueur through my bloodstream and coiling into my pelvis and, God help me, landing right between my legs.

I shook my head. “No,” I said. “You’re a phantom, an incubus. You’d suck me dry and leave me dead …”

“Not if you loved me,” he whispered, his voice a warm wave that lapped at my ear and filled me with longing.

“That’s a big
if
,” I replied. “Love comes and goes in my experience. I wouldn’t bet my life on it.” Images of my parents appeared in my mind—of my mother caressing the love letters my father had sent her, of my father’s face as he lovingly gazed at my mother—but I quickly banished them.

The coil that had been wrapping itself around me paused. I felt his … 
its
 
… hesitation. When he spoke again his voice sounded different—less silky, more
real
 
… 
and
laden with the soft burr of a Scottish accent. It made me realize he’d been acting up until now. “That’s been your experience?” he asked. “Poor lass …” And then the silky voice was back. “Perhaps that’s how you feel with your
human
lover because you’ve been waiting for me. Have no doubt. Your experience with me will be vastly different.”

Maybe it was my loyalty to Paul (I still had some, didn’t I?) or maybe it was the disdain in his voice when he said
human
, or maybe it was just the cocky attitude that he knew what I wanted, but I was suddenly disenchanted with this creature.

“You’ve got a lot to learn about women, pal. There’s more to love than being good in the sack,” I said, tensing my muscles and trying hard not to think about
how
good he was in bed. “Or maybe it’s been too long since you were human to know that.”

I thrashed my arms out, breaking the coils of mist into tattered shreds. Then, before he could regroup and whisper his sweet nothings into my ear, I dropped the lid over the sugar bowl and recited the three lines I’d memorized from Angus Fraser’s book

“Begone, incubus!

“I send you away, demon!

“I cast you into darkness, Ganconer!”

In the strangely quiet pause that followed, the scattered mist tried to reassemble itself into a face. Outside the wind had stopped as if it were waiting for a cue from its master. I suddenly knew I couldn’t let him take shape again and speak. I knew what I had to do. It wasn’t in Angus Fraser’s book, but it had worked at a bar in the Bowery with an obnoxious bond salesman. I picked up the sugar bowl and, just as a face was appearing again in the air, dashed the hot water into it. For a split second the incubus’s face had the exact same expression that the bond salesman’s had had when I threw my mojito into it—and then there was no face. The mist was sucked out the window in a gust so strong it knocked me flat on my back. My right hand hit one of the candles, spilling hot wax over my knuckles. I scrambled to my knees and crawled through spilled wax and salt to the window with the idea of closing it, but when I pulled myself up to the windowsill what I saw there froze me in place.

The trees, which had been thrashing a moment ago, were still now, but they weren’t upright. They were leaning east, every twig and leaf pulled taut as though by an irresistible magnetic force away from the house. The only movements outside were of animals running across the yard … raccoons and squirrels and even deer … all of them fleeing the forest as if it were on fire. I felt a tingling on my scalp and, looking down, saw my hair rising in the air, pulling in the same direction. It was perfectly still outside, as if the world were holding its breath …

It reminded me of something … a description I’d read from a survivor of the Indonesian tsunami several years ago, how the moment before the tidal wave hit all the water was dragged off the beach …

I heard it coming before I saw it. A sound like a freight train bearing down on the house. Then I saw it, a tidal wave of air mowing down the forest, snapping hundred-year-old oaks like toothpicks. I ducked a split second before it hit the house. Glass shattered above me and rained down into my hair. I pasted myself on the floor and covered my head with my hands. Something hit my head—one of the candles from the smell of it. For some reason that pissed me off. I raised myself up onto my elbows and shouted at the wind.

“If this is how you act when a girl says no, I’m glad I sent you away. I sure as hell wasn’t going to fall in love with you.”

A clap of thunder shook the house, followed by a flash of lightning that lit up the room. It occurred to me that I’d better get away from the window and leave the room. I got gingerly to my feet and duck-walked across the floor, glass and salt crackling under my boots. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to get the door open, but the moment I touched the iron doorknob the door swung open. “Thank you, Brock,” I whispered under my breath. The minute I stepped through the door it slammed behind me. The sound was echoed by another crash, this one coming from downstairs.
Shit
, I thought. I’d forgotten all about Phoenix.

When I got downstairs I found Phoenix sitting up on the couch, her eyes wide with fright, her hair standing up like an Andy Warhol wig, but otherwise okay. All the windows downstairs had been closed and miraculously they’d all held against the wind. The banging was coming from the front door.

“Shouldn’t we get that?” Phoenix asked.

Could a disanimate creature knock at the front door? Maybe, but it was far too polite for my incubus.

I went to the door, wishing it had a peephole. I could have asked who was there, but I doubted I would have been able to hear any response over the lashing wind and rain outside. I opened the door.

The three figures standing in the light of my front porch were so muffled and wrapped in layers of wool, down, and fur that I didn’t recognize them at first. They might have been the three magi—or the three witches in
Macbeth
. Only when the middle one turned down the collar of her fur coat and spoke did I recognize my boss, Elizabeth Book.

“Hello, Callie, dear. Won’t you invite us in?”

I looked from her to Diana Hart, zipped up to her wide-open eyes in a bright red down parka, and then to Soheila Lilly, muffled in a burgundy wool cloak.

“It’s a little early for Thanksgiving dinner,” I said.

“We’re not here for Thanksgiving, dear,” Dean Book said with a sigh. “We’re here for an intervention.”