Authors: C.J. Skuse
âNo,' said Fallon. âWe're a team, aren't we? Fearless Five, remember?' She looked at Pete, and frowned. âTechnically, you're not in the Fearless Five though. Sorry.'
âI'm sure I'll cope,' he said.
âSsh,' I said. I could hear something going on inside â a noise I couldn't identify. I rang the doorbell. A light came on in the hallway and a red shape appeared through the frosted glass of the front door. It was Jo â I recognised her red dressing gown.
It was clear that
something
had happened the moment she opened the front door. Her hair was scruffy and her eyes were bloodshot; behind her on the carpet lay the potted plant and the telephone table, upturned and smashed. There was scattered earth everywhere. Her cheeks were wet, and she looked through me like I wasn't even there.
âJo? What's happened? Has Max been here?'
Before any of us knew what was happening, she fell forwards and collapsed against the door frame. Pete caught her just in time to stop her hitting the step face first.
âJo? Jo?' He started lightly slapping her cheek; then he laid her out flat on the floor, half on the hallway carpet, and half hanging outside the front door. He knelt down and put his ear to her mouth to listen for breathing. âShe's all right. She's had a lot to drink, though.'
Jo was gabbling, gibberish and sobbing noises that none of us could decode. It was the most I'd ever heard her speak.
âShe stinks of whiskey,' said Fallon. Pete lifted her to a sitting position and she started sobbing into his neck.
âHelp me lift her, guys,' he said. âCorey, take one of her arms with me. On the count of three, one, twoâ¦'
âThank God you're here!' Jo wept, suddenly. âThank God. Thank God. Thank God. Got to go after him. Please Estella, please.'
We lowered her again.
âIs it Max?' I said. âOr Neil? Where are they?'
The front door was wide open â I only realised then how loud our voices had been. A neighbour from across the road was walking towards us in his silk robe and slippers. Fallon headed him off on the gravel drive, doing her best to assure him that everything was fine.
âIs Neil here?' asked Pete.
âMax. He's g-going to kill him,' Jo stammered as we dragged her into the kitchen. âOh God. Oh GOD. Oh GOD!' She was screeching like an owl, clutching Pete's shirt to the point of ripping it (again). We managed to get her to her feet and guided her towards the nearest stool at the copper-covered breakfast bar (which, as Neil liked to remind everyone, had cost over £3,000 to install).
âPlease. He's going to kill him. He's going to kill his father,' Jo kept on burbling.
She looked straight at me, didn't even blink. When I moved, she kept looking straight past me to the sink, her sobbing broken up by quick hysterical breaths and hiccups. âH-he was h-here. H-he shouted at me. He's s-so angry. He thinks it's my f-f-fault! Oh God. Oh God. My Max. My Max!'
Corey looked at me.
âWhere's Neil?' I asked her. She didn't make eye contact,
just clung on tighter to Pete, and kept sobbing. âJo? You need to tell us where Neil is.'
Jo shook her head. âThis isn't happening.'
I lost all my patience then. âYou knew, didn't you? You
knew
what Neil did to me.'
âNo, no! I wasn't sure.'
âDid you know what he did to Jessica? And you didn't do anything? You still let me come here. You still left me alone with him. Why didn't you
do
something?'
âI didn't know for sure, I swear I didn't! Ellaâ¦'
âWhy didn't you protect us?' I pushed Pete out of the way and got right into her face.
âI couldn't. I didn't.'
âElla,' said Pete. âNot now.'
I was shouting âTell me where Neil is. Tell me where Max went.'
âHe'll kill him. Then we'll all be free of him, won't we?' She said it like it made good sense, like it was a logical solution. Max would kill him and that would be that.
âNo, Max isn't killing anybody. I'm not going to let Neil ruin anyone else's life. Just tell us where Max went!'
âW-wallflower,' she sobbed. âThe p-p-p-p-pub. Seafront. Ella, he took it.'
âTook what? Make sense, you stupid bitch!'
With a quivering finger, she pointed towards the kitchen counter. There beside the draining board was the £700 knife block, with the knives made of âdiamond-sharpening steel'. It had been knocked onto its side. And the biggest blade of the bunch was missing.
I
didn't think, I just ran. Out of the kitchen, across the hallway, through the office to the conservatory and out into the back garden. I could hear them all behind me, shouting.
Ella, no!
It's too dark.
Where's she going?
You'll never make it! We'll take the Jeep.
I'm gonna call the police.
Moonlight was my only friend as I wrenched myself over the back fence and scrambled through the sand dunes, stumbling and tumbling through the collapsing mounds of sand and long grasses and forging on down towards the beach. The tide was coming in, like a billion angry tigers storming the beach with snarls, eating up the sand by the second. I didn't have long â only minutes â before it swallowed everything, but I'd run the beach a million times before with Pete in training, and I knew this was the quickest way to the pubs-and-clubs end of the seafront where Max had gone. It was exactly eight minutes to the jetty directly opposite The Wallflower if I sprinted.
And so I ran. I tore across the wet sand faster than I'd
ever run it before, my arms pumping against the wind, the tide biting at my trainers all the way. The salt was in my throat, but Max was the only thing in my mind. He'd never
had
to handle anything hard before â his parents had always bailed him out, or shielded him from any sort of harm. If he was going to fall, I had to be there to catch him.
As I rounded the headland, I could see the lights on the seafront â I could just make out the sign of The Wallflower, swinging in the wind. I prayed to God that the police were there before me but as I got closer I couldn't hear any sirens â just the bassy thud of the music from the Fun Pub next door. I could smell the burgers frying in the van opposite Tesco. Behind me, the stretch of sand I had run had already been swallowed by the tide. I could feel water through my shoes but I just kept going. It was already up as far as the second lot of stilts on the jetty. I was about two minutes away when I saw the two silhouetted figures halfway down the boardwalk. I knew it was them.
I heard their raised voices on the wind as I hoisted myself up onto the dry boardwalk. They both turned to face me. Still catching my breath, I looked for the knife.
Neil glanced from me to Max and back again. We were either side of him, trapping him like a wild animal. Then I saw the blade in Max's right hand, as the light from the street lamps bounced off the metal. He was nudging his father along the jetty with it, making him walk the plank.
âWhat the hell have you told him, you lying bitch?' Neil shouted. I was instantly shocked â he'd never shouted at me, never even raised his voice to me before. I had a split second of feeling ashamed. And then there was no feeling at all.
Max looked at me, desperate. âHe's just denying it.'
âIf someone has been making up vicious lies about me, I
want to know why,' Neil spat. He glanced at me and back to Max. Then me. Then the knife. âMax, come on, son. Come on. Give it to me. We can sort this.'
âYou're a nonce,' Max wailed, crumpling down to the boardwalk, toppled by the weight of what he was realising. âYou're disgusting!'
âI haven't done anything, I told you! Jesus Christ, you think I'm capable of something that sick? Max, you know me. I'm not like that. Please, son.'
âWhy deny it?' I said. âYou know what you did to me. To Jessica.'
He snapped his head back at me, then back to Max. To the knife.
âMax, I loved your sister. But Jessica had mental problems. She told stories, and, sometimes, if she got angry, you couldn't believe a word she said. She was always doing that. She could be quite vindictive. You ask your mother.'
âWe did,' I said. âJo's in a worse state than Max is. Coming apart at the seams. She can't hide it for you any more either.'
Neil barked his laughter like a walrus. âI can't believe this. Do you have any idea what you're doing? This is libellous.'
âActually, I think you mean slanderous,' I said. âLibel is written. But I'll write it down if you want me to. I'll spray it in big black letters up and down the sea wall if you like.'
I don't know where my strength was coming from â I can only describe it as unlocking a door and letting water flood through it. The door had been locked and watertight for so long, but now it was open, and everything was coming out. I could feel the fear leaving me as the truth did. Max was destroyed and I had nothing left to lose now. The worst was over. There was nothing to be afraid of any more.
Max collapsed to his knees on the boardwalk, the knife clattering down beside him.
Neil stepped forward. Max shuffled back one space. He stepped forward again, but again, Max shuffled back. Neil put his hands up and stepped back in surrender. He was so close to the edge of the jetty I could have pushed him into the raging sea with one finger.
âOK. Listen to me. If you want the truth, I'll tell you. But you'll only hear it from me, son. You'll get nothing but lies from that one.' He pointed to me, not looking at me.
âThat one?' I said, folding my arms. âWho are you calling “that one”?'
âGo on,' Max mumbled. I could barely hear him over the waves beneath the jetty, barrelling into the wooden stilts like wrestlers.
âYour sister had problems. We took her to counsellors, therapists, and they all said the same thing: she was angry because of her dyslexia, and how she kept sending her little stories off to publishers, getting nothing but rejections. It affected her badly. She took it out on us. Mainly on me.'
âYou're lying,' I said calmly, feeling my fear fizz away, an angry swirl in my stomach taking its place.
âCome on, son. Let's go home and we'll talk about it and I'll tell you everything you want to know. I'll tell you the
truth.
'
The word âtruth' was fired at me like a spit glob. Max mumbled something. âWhat was that, son?'
âI said Ella wouldn't lie to me. Not about this.'
Neil didn't skip a beat. âShe would, if she needed the money. I've had this before. Work experience girls at the garden centre. Accusing male members of staff of all sorts, just to get them sacked or to get a bit of compo. This is what girls like her do. You can kiss your sponsorship goodbye, darling, I'm telling you that for nothing.'
âGood,' I said, crossing my arms. âI didn't fancy another
year with Pervert World emblazoned across my kit anyway, thanks.'
âEverything I've done for you.' He licked his lip again. âYou're done. Your father's done 'n'all. I can afford better lawyers than he can. False accusations can get you in very hot water, my girlâ¦'
âThis isn't a false accusation.'
âYour word against mine. I've got clout around here.
You
haven't. You're just a slut.'
âSay it again, Neil.'
âSlut. You wanted it as much as I did. Touching me when you thought no one was looking. Little stolen kisses when you said goodbye. Always wearing the shortest little dresses. Any excuse to wear very little at all around me.' Neil laughed, managing to be patronising even now, with the waves roaring. âYou see things in black and white, love. It's not always the man's fault, despite what the papers say.'
âI was a child!'
âTakes two to tango. If there's blame being apportioned here, you've got to take some of it.' He turned back to Max. âOK, have it your way. We did have a thing. Briefly. But it was all her, Max. Every bit of it. She wouldn't take no for an answer. You know what she was like; always round our place, always cadging presents.'
Max just sobbed. I laughed. I was on the verge of hysterics. âI was a child!'
âYeah, you're a child
when it suits
. You've got nothing on me, little girl. Nothing.'
âI've got everything, actually. I'm going to the police, and I'm going to tell them every single detail about every little thing you did to me, starting with the moment you sat down on the sofa next to me when I was watching cartoons and you shoved your filthy hand down my knickers. Right up to
and including the afternoon you pinned me down with your big fat hairy belly and raped me on that island.' I pointed into the thick black night, in the vague direction of where I knew it was. Where it would always be. âI'll tell everyone what you did to me. And they will believe me.'
He cleared his throat. âWhere's your proof? The diaries of a lunatic and stories about me kissing you at some party and putting my hand down your pants. That's all they are, darling. Stories. Big deal.'
âI never mentioned the party,' I said. âDid you, Max?' He shook his head.
Neil folded his arms.
âAnd it's not just the diaries. It's not just “some stories”, either. And we've got a witness who swears Jessica walked in front of that bus.'
âAnd a witness who saw you touch her up,' called a voice. All three of us looked up towards the seafront, to where a figure stood in a white hoody at the end of the jetty.
Zane. Next to him stood Corey. And next to him was Fallon. A bubble caught in my throat. I had never felt so strong.
âWhat's this, a conspiracy?' Neil fake-laughed, but his nostrils were flaring like his face was fighting itself.