Authors: Hannah Jayne
Avery’s father knocked and pushed the door open while he slid into his DRFPD Windbreaker. “I got a call; I’ve got to go in.”
“Is it about Adam?”
“No.” He shook his head. “I don’t know when I’ll be back, but the house will be locked up behind me. Stay inside. No funny business. You’re still on my list.” There may have been an edge to Chief Templeton’s voice, but it didn’t extend to his eyes. He turned and Avery listened as he clopped down the stairs in his boots and pulled the garage door shut behind him.
The entire house fell into an eerie silence.
Avery crossed her bedroom and peered out the window to watch her father’s car pull away.
The streetlight cast a weak shadow on the clutch of trees across the street from their house. Something moved in the shadows. She clicked off the overhead light to get a better look, squinting.
“I’m being stupid,” she mumbled.
There was a clap of thunder, and Avery’s heart started clanging like a fire bell. She clutched her chest and let it pound, then started to laugh as the sky broke and sheets of rain fell.
“Oh my gosh, I’m the biggest wimp!” she said, laughing to herself. She went back to her computer and clicked a link for something called “dissociative amnesia.”
Patients
with
dissociative
amnesia
experience
disruptions
in
their
memories. They have recurrent episodes in which they forget important information or events, usually connected with severe trauma or stress.
“Okay,” she said, biting her lower lip. “That sounds like what Fletch has.” She centered her mouse over another link. “Now, what can we do about it?”
Dissociative
amnesia
patients
experience
a
high
susceptibility
to
hypnosis, which can unlock painful or unwelcome memories.
Avery scrawled the word “hypnosis” with a big question mark on her scratch pad. For a town that had just gotten a Starbucks, having a hypnotist within city limits was more than unlikely. She went back to her Google search, and the links that populated her list gave her a chill.
Mental
disorders…blackouts…schizophrenia…
The sky cracked again, and this time Avery went to shut her window. A fork of lightning cast a white glow over the trees, which swayed in the wind. Avery blinked. She swore she saw movement. “There is nothing there, Avery. Stop being a baby.”
But she couldn’t shake the feeling that someone was out there, watching her. She tried to go back to her computer, but her fingers were trembling. She might be the chief of police’s daughter, but even she got the heebie-jeebies. And when she did, they were hard to shake. She grabbed her cell phone.
Fletcher answered on the first ring.
• • •
Fletcher didn’t know where his mom had gone. She’d said something about a meeting or a session, but he hadn’t been paying attention. Her voice had mixed with the cacophony spitting from the television set. Whenever he was home, the TV was on. He didn’t have a favorite show or even one he liked very much, but the noise soothed him. Or maybe it just drowned out the buzzing in his mind.
The phone cut through the din, and he smiled when he saw Avery’s number on the screen.
“Hey, Avery.”
“Hey, Fletch.” She was silent for an uncomfortable beat while Fletcher considered what to say. What could he talk about that wasn’t stupid? “So I was thinking about your blackouts again,” she said.
He deflated, having hoped somehow that she was calling just to say hey, that he could be a normal guy having a conversation with a girl about music or movies or what to do Saturday night. “Yeah?”
“You know the book I showed you? Well, I was also reading online that your brain can trap memories and stuff.”
He let out a slow sigh. “Repressed memories?”
“Yeah.” Avery sounded way too chipper on the other end of the phone. Fletch tried to imagine her sitting at home, her bedspread and walls painted something cheerful and girly like yellow or hot pink. “I read that hypnosis can possibly unlock those memories.”
Her voice didn’t sound as cheery now, and Fletcher’s thoughts about Avery in her bedroom turned dark. “And?”
“I thought maybe you might want to do that. You know, to help Adam.”
Without knowing why, Fletcher felt himself bristle. Adam. It was always about Adam.
Adam
was
your
friend.
A sharp pain stabbed behind his eye, and he sucked in a breath.
“Are you okay?”
Fletcher pressed his fingertips against his eyeball. “Yeah. I get headaches now because of the hit to the head.”
Avery was silent for a minute and Fletcher almost thought she had hung up.
“I’m really sorry,” she said finally.
He shrugged, though she couldn’t see it, and looked around his darkened house. The glow from the TV was minimal; whatever show he was watching featured incredibly good-looking people looking pained. There was silence on the phone but he could hear Avery breathing—short, shallow breaths that let him know something was brewing. She was considering something heavy in her head. Fletcher let himself think that maybe she liked him, that maybe she’d called to tell him. His mind raced and he thought he should ask her out, make some sort of plan.
She cleared her throat and thoughts pinged in his brain. A movie? A walk? Just hang out? Then she spoke.
“Don’t you want to know what happened that day?”
• • •
Avery waited for Fletcher to answer, but his phone began plinging with the cacophony of dying battery sounds and cut out at the same instant that Avery was plunged into darkness. She scuttled to the window. The houses that Avery could see were dark too, windows blank and gaping like open mouths.
Her phone blared through the blackness, the glowing face slightly ominous in the dark.
“Hey, Dad.”
“You okay, Avy?”
A lump started to grow in Avery’s throat and she wanted to beg him to come home or to hide under the covers until the lights turned back on—or at least until the thunder stopped its ruthless shuddering—but she was sixteen and she wasn’t afraid of the dark. At least she shouldn’t be. She sniffed and went to her desk drawer, pulling out a heavy Maglite flashlight and clicking it on.
“A-okay.”
“You know there’s—”
“An emergency flashlight in my desk drawer and two in the linen closet right next to the box of emergency candles, extra batteries, and that hand radio thing.”
“It’s a ham radio.”
“Whatever, Dad. I’m good though.”
Avery could hear the smile in her father’s voice. “That’s my girl. Look, the storm has gotten pretty bad. There are a lot of power outages. We’re going to check for flooding. You need to stay put.”
Instinctively, Avery glanced toward the clock on her nightstand. “Um, it’s midnight. I guess I’ll have to cancel the middle-of-the-night shopping trip I have planned, but okay.”
“Avery…” A fake warning voice.
“I’m fine, Dad. Go save the world. Be safe.”
“And you go to bed.”
“Bye, Dad.”
The eeriness of the situation was gone. It was just a blackout from a stormy night in Dan River. “No big deal,” Avery said to herself as she pulled her laptop into bed with her.
And then something thunked.
It came from downstairs and was half muffled by carpet, but it was definitely a thump. Avery sat upright, her palms beginning to sweat despite the chill that cut through her.
“It’s nothing,” she told herself.
She edged herself back into her bed, pressing her head into her pillow. Avery clenched her eyes shut. There was another crash. This one sounded like the splintering of a piece of furniture getting knocked over.
Avery kicked off her covers, her heart threatening to thunder right out of her chest.
“Dad?” Avery called, her voice sounding tinny and small. “Dad, are you home?”
The noise of someone breaking things came from downstairs. A sob lodged in her throat.
Steeling herself, she gripped the Maglite and breathed deeply, certain her dad—if he were here—would kill her for what she was about to do, but she couldn’t ball herself up in her bedroom and wait for whoever was downstairs to find her. She hugged the wall like she had seen in every cop movie. She held the Maglite like a baseball bat and kept it off, concealing her presence with the darkness.
Each time her bare foot made contact with a stair, she forced herself to breathe, a long, whooshing in and out like she had learned in yoga class. It was supposed to nourish and steady the mind, but it was making her light-headed. When she was on the last step, a gust of wind tore through the house. Avery shuddered. Whoever was in the house must have left the door open, probably for a quick escape.
With thoughtless rage tearing through her, Avery clicked on the Maglite and shone the bright beam into the living room screaming, “My dad is the chief of police. You better start running, asshole!”
Avery sucked in a shaky breath. “Oh my God.”
The lamp from the end table was on the floor, its bulb shattered. The half-dozen family pictures were on the ground too. Another gust of wind snapped the pages of the magazines she and her dad had on the coffee table—a catalog for police gear, an out-of-date
CosmoGirl
, a circular from the grocery store. But the destruction wasn’t what was terrifying to Avery.
It was the windows.
Every single one, the whole bank lining the wall, was wide open, with curtains billowing like ghosts in the wind and wet leaves sticking to the screens like hands trying to claw their way into the house.
“You sound just like my dad,” Avery snapped.
Fletcher had been awake and out the door early, the world heavy with that weird sense of eerie renewal that always happened after a storm. Avery was mad at him, stomping ahead.
“I’m only saying it was possible,” he said, trying to make his voice light.
Avery rolled her eyes as they entered the school together. “I guess it
could
have been a dream,” she said finally. “But it felt so real. I know I walked down the stairs. I
know
I saw all those windows open. I felt the wind on my face.”
“But didn’t you call your dad? And then you said you went downstairs…”
Avery rolled her eyes and picked at the seam on her jeans. “Yeah. I went downstairs and waited for him.”
“And?”
“Everything was fine down there. As if it never happened.”
“Maybe because it never did.”
Avery’s eyes flashed and Fletcher flinched. “But it was real. I can’t believe you don’t believe me. We know that someone is out there, someone who attacked you and killed Adam. Maybe that person is lurking around town.”
Fletcher didn’t want to think that whoever had come after him and Adam would go after Avery. If Avery got hurt, it would be all his fault. Just like what happened to Adam…
“So did your dad check around or something?”
“He didn’t find anything. Outside or inside. He thinks…”—Avery looked away, then glanced back at Fletcher—“that I am probably just freaked out, that I had a bad dream.”
Her cheeks flushed pink. Fletcher liked it.
“But the lamp was missing,” she hurried on. “The one that was broken on the floor? It was missing when I got up this morning.”
“Did you tell your dad that?”
“Yeah. Only…”
“Only?”
Avery looked slightly annoyed but fidgeted with the strap of her backpack like she might be nervous. “I told my dad about the lamp, and he said it hadn’t been there in weeks. He said he broke it awhile ago and got rid of it.”
Fletcher wanted to say something to comfort her, something to let her know that he knew that batty, paranoid feeling she was describing.
“You know how it is when there is a detail you know that you’re missing, but you just can’t get to it?”
Fletcher stiffened and Avery apologized. “I mean…sorry. Of course you do. You—I just—”
Fletcher shook his head and shook off the comment.
“It’s just weird…” she said, her words trailing off. “It was just really weird.”
Fletcher grimaced. He had spent the night before trying to fall asleep, but he kept thinking about Avery, about how she’d mentioned hypnosis just before the phone died. What if he could remember what happened after he and Adam were attacked?
What
if
I
don’t want to?
The voice in his head came out of nowhere, but it shot ice water through his veins.
Adam
was
my
friend
, he repeated to himself, his teeth gritted so hard that his jaw ached.
“What’s with you?” Avery asked.
Fletcher snapped back to the here and now. “It’s nothing. I was just… Yeah, I know what you mean about forgetting—”
He stopped in the hallway, his words dying in his mouth. “Oh, oh my God.”
Avery saw it too.
As had the large group of teens who had congregated off to the side, whispering and staring at Fletcher’s locker. “KILLER” was scrawled across the metal in thick, red ink.
Fletcher felt the piece of toast he had eaten for breakfast pushing its way up his throat. He knew Avery was talking to him. He knew he should respond, but he could only stare at the word: KILLER.
Fletcher turned, only aware that Avery had her hand on his arm when he shook it off to ran for the bathroom. He went for the nearest stall, bent over, and dry heaved, tears clouding his vision, snot running from his nose.
He was a killer.
He hadn’t been able to save Adam in the woods. And so the kids at school had branded him a killer. A murderer.
He heaved again, then flushed the toilet, leaning against the wall of the bathroom stall.
Why
couldn’t he just remember?
Lately, the visions were all the same. Adam calling out to him, then a flash of sunlight so bright it burned, then that sickening, overwhelming smell of blood. He heard Adam screaming for him: “Fletcher! Fletcher!” His shoulders screamed, his forearms burning as he swung blindly, going for some
thing
or some
one
who, in his memory, was nothing but a hazy blur. That blur killed Adam and tried to kill Fletcher too.
• • •
Avery stood in the hallway, stunned, as Fletcher strode away from the gathering crowd. “That dude is crazy,” someone murmured.
“How can they even let him back in school?” someone else asked.
Avery fisted her hands, holding them so tightly that she could feel her fingernails cutting into her palms.
“Who did this?” She didn’t recognize her own voice when it came out.
No one answered, but the chatter continued, students flooding over to see what the commotion was about.
Fletcher
is
not
a
murderer.
“Fletcher is not a murderer!” She screamed and a few kids nearby shot her weird looks. Tim stood in front of Avery, hands gripping the straps on his backpack.
“Avery, you should stay away from that kid.” His chin jutted after Fletcher.
“He’s not—” she started, but Tim’s hand on her arm stopped her.
“Adam’s dead.” His eyes were serious. “You don’t know what happened out there in the woods.”
“That’s just it,” Avery said, jerking away from Tim’s grip. “No one knows what happened out there.”
Tim said, “Fletcher knows.”
He disappeared into the crowd and Avery stood there, feeling very alone. These people didn’t know the facts. The evidence. They didn’t see Fletcher that day in the woods, his face bloodied and battered, the look of sheer and utter relief that had washed through his tired eyes when he recognized her, when he knew he was going to be saved.
They didn’t find me, Avery. You did.
The late bell shot her back to reality and Avery looked around, realizing the hall was mostly empty. She ran to class, huffing by the time she reached the door.
“It’s not like he couldn’t have done it,” a blond girl named Stacey or Sarah or something with an
S
said. “He wasn’t
that
much smaller than Adam.”
“Why would he?” another girl asked. “What would be the point?”
“Jealousy?” Tim was in the circle, his desk turned inward so he was facing the
S
-girl.
Avery looked around for their teacher.
They
shouldn’t be having this conversation
, she thought.
This
isn’t right
.
“Where’s Ms. Holly?” she finally managed.
Kaylee spoke up from the circle. “Admin office.” She held up a few newspapers and magazines. “We’re supposed to talk about trial by media.”
Then Avery noticed that all the desks were sectioned off into little circles, some students talking about the assignment, most typing on contraband cell phones. Her eyes went back to Kaylee, to the newspapers. One headline blared out at her: Is Fletcher Carroll a Suspect in the Marshall Murder?
Her stomach dropped into her shoes. “Why—why would you—they—think Fletcher did this? He’s just a kid. A nice kid. Like us.”
“It’s not that we’re accusing him,” Tim said carefully. “We’re just not excluding him as a suspect. You have to admit—”
“And just a kid?” Kaylee’s eyes were hard and sharp. “Have you
seen
the news? It’s full of fifteen- and sixteen-year-old murderers.”
“I blame video games!” someone screamed from the back of the class.
“No, it’s that rock music!” someone else yelled to a chorus of laughter.
“The devil made me do it!”
More quips. More laughter. More anger raced through Avery’s veins.
“One in three kids is a sociopath, you know,” Kaylee said, her gaze still fixed on Avery. She pointed to the student next to her as she counted off. “One, two…” Her last finger landed on Avery. Kaylee smiled. “Three.”
Tim said, “Fletcher is seriously a sociopath.”
“Psychopath.”
Avery stood there, blinking and incredulous. It had been twelve days since Adam had been found dead and Fletcher wounded. Adam and Fletcher were their classmates. And now these kids were tossing around the suspicion that Fletcher was some kind of killer.
“He didn’t do this,” she spat out.
Kaylee turned back to Avery, her baby-blue eyes full of false innocence. “If not him, who?”
• • •
Fletcher waited in the library stacks until the bell rang. Apparently, the need for atlases and world maps wasn’t huge, and he had the space to himself. No one questioned him. No one called him a killer. But the flashes were coming again. Hard. Fast.
Adam lying in the dirt, his hand outstretched. “Come on, man,” Adam was saying. “Come on, man. You have to help me.”
Fletcher slunk down and pulled his knees up to his chest, resting his forehead against them.
Come
on, think!
he commanded himself. His thoughts went to Avery and hypnosis.
Don’t you want to know what happened out
there?
Panting, his breath tore through his lungs.
“Come on, Fletch!” Adam had him by the shirtfront. Tears streamed down Adam’s face. “Fletcher!” He could feel the bursts of Adam’s breath washing over his cheeks, and Fletcher wondered why he couldn’t see Adam clearly. It was if there was a fog between them.
His
head
was
throbbing. His brain wasn’t functioning He wasn’t himself. All he could feel was the rage overtaking him.
In the library, Fletcher felt the muscles across his back tense. The sweat on the back of his neck chilled, and he shivered so hard that his teeth chattered. He wanted to sink into the library floor and disappear. Everything would be better if he just disappeared.
He thought of his mother’s anguished face when he’d opened his eyes at the hospital. He thought of Avery, Chief Templeton, and Adam. He had to remember something. They were all counting on him.
He pushed himself up from the floor as the bell rang. In the hallway, he blended into the swarm of students, although he felt as if everyone were watching him, blaming him.
“Hey, Fletch,” Avery said. “I’ve been looking all over for you.”
After what had happened that morning, Avery didn’t seem scared of him. Relief rushed over him. “Yeah,” he said over the sound of students’ voices. “I just needed some time.”
She nodded.
He stared down at the toes of his sneakers—new ones, since the police had taken his old ones for “investigative purposes.”
“About my locker…”
Avery cocked her head and pointed to her ears, wagging her head. “Outside,” she mouthed, pushing him.
“Sorry, I couldn’t hear you,” he said once they were out the door.
“Look, Fletch, I’ve been thinking about it, and we need to figure this out. I know you don’t remember much from the escape, but do you remember anything? Like other cars in the parking lot when you arrived? Anyone you saw on the trail?”
The thudding started again in his head.
Why
wouldn’t she just leave it alone?
“I don’t know, Avery. Your dad and the cops, they asked me a million times and I can’t—”
Car
tires
grinding
over
gravel. Fletcher getting out of the car. Adam coming around and snatching up a McDonald’s bag from the ground, crushing it with his fists. “People are such freaking slobs.”
He
did
a
jump shot, the wadded-up bag landing smoothly in the trash can near the trail’s entrance.
“Probably that guy’s lunch.” Fletcher shook his head at the other car in the parking lot, a red something or other. Racing stripe down the side. Busted fender.
“
There was another car in the lot, but I never saw who drove it.”
Avery’s eyes were saucers. “You remember that?”
Fletcher blinked. “Yeah, yeah I guess I do.”
“Fletch, this is a clue. A huge clue! We have to tell my dad. Oh my God, this could blow the case wide open.” Avery was very animated, like one of those kids overacting in the school play. She stopped. “Fletch, do you not realize what a major breakthrough this is?”
He swallowed, not feeling an ounce of Avery’s excitement. “It was just a car.”
“But it means someone else was out there on the trail with you guys and—”
“Avery—”
“Come on, Fletch. Come on. Do you remember anything else? Did you notice if it had California plates? Anything decorative around the license plate?”
Fletcher closed his eyes just to get Avery off his back. The moment he did…
“
Fletch, Fletch, what the hell, man?”
The
sound
of
flesh
on
flesh. Bones cracking.
An
arc
of
blood.