Authors: V.C. Andrews
He washed the blood from his hands, and Cory and Carrie were lit up like something marvelous had finally come into their lives.
“Let me hold Mickey now!” cried Cory.
“No, Cory, let Cathy hold him for a while longer. You see, he’s in shock and her hands are larger and will give Mickey more warmth than yours. And you might, just accidentally, squeeze too much.”
I sat in the bedroom rocker and nursed a gray mouse that seemed on the verge of having a heart attack—its heart beat so fiercely. It gasped and fluttered its eyelids. As I held it, I felt its small, warm body struggling to live on, I wanted it to live and be Cory’s pet.
The door opened and the grandmother came in.
None of us was fully clothed; in fact, we still wore only our nightclothes, without robes to conceal what might be revealed. Our feet were bare, our hair was tousled, and our faces weren’t washed.
One rule broken.
Cory cringed close at my side as the grandmother swept her discerning gaze over the disorganized, (well, truthfully,) really messy room. The beds weren’t made, our clothes were draped on chairs, and socks were everywhere.
Two rules broken.
And Chris was in the bathroom washing Carrie’s face, and helping her put on her clothes, and fasten the buttons of her pink coveralls.
Three rules broken. The two of them came out, with Carrie’s hair up in a neat ponytail, tied with a pink ribbon.
Immediately, when she saw the grandmother, Carrie froze. Her blue eyes went wide and scared. She turned and clung to Chris for protection. He picked her up and carried her over to me and put her down in my lap. Then he went on to where the picnic basket was on the table and began to take out what she had brought up.
As Chris neared, the grandmother backed away. He ignored her, as he swiftly emptied the basket.
“Cory,” he said, heading toward the closet, “I’ll go up and find a suitable birdcage and while I’m gone, see if you can’t put on all of your clothes, without Cathy’s help, and wash your face and hands.”
The grandmother remained silent. I sat in the rocker and nursed the ailing mouse, as my little children crowded in the seat with me, and all three of us fixed our eyes on her, until Carrie could bear it no longer and turned to hide her face against my shoulder. Her small body quivered all over.
It troubled me that she didn’t reprimand us and speak of the unmade beds, the cluttered, messy room that I tried to keep neat and tidy—and why hadn’t she scolded Chris for dressing Carrie? Why was she looking, and seeing, but saying nothing?
Chris came down from the attic with a birdcage and some wire screening he said would make the cage more secure.
Those were words to snap the grandmother’s head in his direction. Then her stone eyes fixed on me, and the pale blue
washcloth I held. “What do you hold in your hands, girl?” she fired in a glacial tone.
“An injured mouse,” I answered, my voice as icy as hers.
“Do you intend to keep that mouse as a pet, and put it in that cage?”
“Yes, we do.” I stared at her defiantly and dared her to do something about it. “Cory has never owned a pet, and it is time that he did.”
She pursed her thin lips and her stone-cold eyes swept to Cory, who trembled on the verge of tears. “Go on,” she said, “keep the mouse. A pet like that suits you.” With that she slammed out the door.
Chris began to fiddle with the birdcage, and the screening, and spoke as he worked. “The wires are much too far apart to keep Mickey inside, Cory, so we’ll have to wrap the cage with this screen, and then your little pet can’t escape.”
Cory smiled. He peeked to see if Mickey still lived. “It’s hungry. I can tell, its nose is twitching.”
The winning over of Mickey the attic mouse was quite a feat. First of all, he didn’t trust us, though we’d set his foot free from the trap. He hated the confinement of the cage. He wobbled about in circles on the awkward thing we’d put on his foot and leg, seeking a way out. Cory dropped cheese and bread crumbs through the bars to entice him into eating and gaining strength. He ignored the cheese, the bread, and in the end, walked as far away as he could get, his tiny bead-black eyes wary with fear, his body atremble as Cory opened the rusty cage door, to put in a miniature soup tureen filled with water.
Then he put his hand in the cage and pushed a bit of cheese closer. “Good cheese,” he said invitingly. He moved a bit of bread nearer to the trembling mouse whose whiskers twitched, “Good bread. It will make you strong and well.”
It took two weeks before Cory had a mouse that adored him and would come when he whistled. Cory hid tidbits in his shirt pockets to tempt Mickey into them. When Cory wore a shirt
with two breast pockets, and the right one held a bit of cheese, and the left a bit of peanut-butter-and-grape-jelly sandwich, Mickey would hesitate indecisively on Cory’s shoulders, his nose twitching, his whiskers jerking. And only too plainly could you see we had not a gourmet mouse, but a gourmand who wanted what was in both pockets at the same time.
Then, when finally he could make up his mind as to which he would go for first, down he’d scamper into the peanut-butter pocket, and eat upside down, and in a squiggle he’d race back up to Cory’s shoulder, around his neck, and down into the pocket with the cheese. It was laughable the way he never went directly over Cory’s chest to the other pocket, but always up and around his neck, and then down, tickling every funnybone Cory had.
The little leg and foot healed, but the mouse never walked perfectly, nor could he run very fast. I think the mouse was clever enough to save the cheese for last, for that he could pick up and hold as he daintily nibbled, whereas the bit of sandwich was a messy meal.
And believe me, never was there a mouse better at smelling out food, no matter where it was hidden. Willingly, Mickey abandoned his mice friends to take up with humans who fed him so well, and petted him, and rocked him to sleep, though oddly enough, Carrie had no patience with Mickey at all. It could be just because that mouse was as charmed by her dollhouse as she was. The little stairways and halls fitted his size perfectly, and once on the loose, he headed directly for the dollhouse! In through a window he clambered, and tumbled down on the floor; and porcelain people, so delicately balanced, fell right and left, and the dining-room table turned over when he wanted a taste.
Carrie screamed at Cory, “Your Mickey is eating all the party food! Take him away! Take him out of my living room!”
Cory captured his lame mouse, which couldn’t move too quickly, and he cuddled Mickey against his chest. “You must learn to behave, Mickey. Bad things happen in big houses. The lady who owns that house over there, she hits you for anything.”
He made me giggle, for it was the first time I’d ever heard him make even the slightest disparaging remark about his twin sister.
It was a good thing Cory had a little, sweet gray mouse to delve deep into his pockets for the goodies his master hid there. It was a good thing all of us had something to do to occupy our time, and our minds, while we waited and waited for our mother to show up, when it was beginning to seem like she never would come to us again.
C
hris and I never discussed what had happened between us on the bed the day of the whippings. Often I caught him staring at me, but just as soon as my eyes turned to meet his, his would shift away. When he turned suddenly to catch me watching him, mine were the eyes to flee.
We were growing more day by day, he and I. My breasts filled out fuller, my hips widened, my waist diminished, and the short hair above my forehead grew out longer and curled becomingly. Why hadn’t I known before that it would curl without so much weight to pull the curls into waves only? As for Chris, his shoulders broadened, his chest became more manly, and his arms too. I caught him once in the attic staring down at that part of him he seemed so taken with—and measuring it too! “Why?” I asked, quite astonished to learn that the length mattered. He turned away before he told me once he’d seen Daddy naked, and what he had seemed so inadequate in size. Even the back of his neck was red as he explained this. Oh, golly—just like I wondered what size bra Momma wore! “Don’t do it again,” I whispered. Cory had such a small male organ, and what if he had seen and felt as Chris did, that
his
was inadequate?
Suddenly I stopped polishing the school desks, and stood very still, thinking of Cory. I turned to stare at him and Carrie. Oh, God, how too much closeness dims your perspective! Two years, and four months we had been locked away—and the twins were very much as they had been the night they came! Certainly their heads were larger and that should have diminished the size of their eyes. Yet their eyes appeared extraordinarily large. They sat listless on that stained and smelly old mattress we’d pulled close to the windows. Butterflies danced nervously in my stomach to view them objectively. Their bodies seemed frail flower stems too weak to support the blossoms of their heads.
I waited until they fell asleep in the weak sunlight, then said in an undertone to Chris, “Look at the buttercups, they don’t grow. Only their heads are larger.”
He sighed heavily, narrowed his eyes, and neared the twins, hovering above them, and bending to touch their transparent skins. “If only they would go outside on the roof with us to benefit from the sun and fresh air like we do. Cathy, no matter how much they fight and scream, we’ve got to force them outside!”
Foolishly, we thought if we carried them out on the roof while they were asleep, they would awaken in the sunlight, held safe in our arms, and they’d feel secure enough. Cautiously, Chris lifted up Cory, while I leaned to heft Carrie’s slight weight. Stealthily, we approached an open attic window. It was Thursday, our day to enjoy outdoors on the roof, while the servants spent their day off in town. It was safe enough to use the back part of the roof.
Barely had Chris cleared the window ledge with Cory when the warm Indian summer air brought Cory suddenly out of sleep. He took one look around, seeing me with Carrie in my arms, obviously planning to take her out on the roof too, when he let out a howl! Carrie bolted out of sleep. She saw Chris with Cory on the steep roof, she saw me and where I was taking her, and she let out a scream that must have been heard a mile away!
Chris called to me through the racket, “Come on! For their own good, we have to do this!”
Not only did they scream, they kicked and beat at us with small fists! Carrie clamped her teeth down on my arm, so I screamed, too. Little as they were, they had the strength of those in extreme danger. Carrie was battering her fists into my face so I could hardly see, plus screaming in my ear! Hastily, I turned around and headed back toward the schoolroom window. Trembling and weak, I stood Carrie on her feet beside the teacher’s desk. I leaned against that desk, gasping and panting, and thanking God for letting me get her safely back inside. Chris returned Cory to his sister. It was no use. To force them out on the roof endangered the lives of all four of us.
Now they were angry. Resentfully they struggled when we pulled them toward the markings on the wall, where we’d measured their height the first day in the schoolroom. Chris held them both in place, while I backed up to read the inches they’d grown.
I stared and I stared, shocked and disbelieving it was possible. In all this time to grow only two niches? Two inches, when Chris and I had gained many, many inches between the ages of five and seven, though they had been exceptionally small at birth, Cory weighing only five pounds and Carrie five pounds and one ounce.
Oh. I had to put my hands up to cover my face so they couldn’t see my stunned and horrified expression. Then that wasn’t enough. I spun around so they saw only my back as I choked on the sobs stuck in my throat.
“You can let them go now,” I finally managed. I turned to catch a glimpse of them scurrying away like two small flaxen-haired mice, racing for the stairwell, heading toward the beloved television and the escape it offered, and the little mouse which was real and waiting for them to come and pleasure
his
imprisoned life.
Directly behind me Chris stood and waited. “Well,” he asked when I just wilted, speechless, “how much have they grown?”
Quickly I brushed away the tears before I turned, so I could see his eyes when I told him. “Two inches,” I said in a flat way, but the pain was in my eyes, and that was what he saw.
He stepped closer and put his arms about me, then held my head so it was against his chest, and I cried, really bawled. I hated Momma for doing this! Really hated her! She knew children were like plants—they had to have sunshine if they were to grow. I trembled in the embrace of my brother, trying to convince myself that as soon as we were freed, they’d be beautiful again. They would, of course they would; they’d catch up, make up the lost years, and as soon as the sunshine was upon them again, they’d shoot up like weeds—they would, yes, they would! It was only all the long days hidden indoors that made their cheeks so hollow, and their eyes so sunken. And all of that could be undone, couldn’t it?
“Well,” I began in my hoarse, choked voice, while clinging to the only one who seemed to care anymore, “does money make the world go around, or is it love? Enough love bestowed on the twins, and I would have read six or seven or maybe eight inches gain in height, not only two.”
* * *
Chris and I headed for our dim sequestered prison to eat lunch, and as always I sent the twins into the bathroom to wash their hands, for they certainly didn’t need mouse germs to imperil their health more.
As we sat quietly at the dining table, eating our sandwiches, and sipping our lukewarm soup and milk, and watching TV lovers meet and kiss and make plans to run away and leave their respective spouses, the door to our room opened. I hated to look away, and miss what would happen next, yet I did.
Gaily into our room strode our mother. She wore a beautiful, lightweight suit, with soft gray fur at the cuffs and around the neck of the jacket.
“Darlings!” she cried in enthusiastic greeting, then hesitated uncertainly when not one of us jumped up to welcome her
back. “Here I am! Aren’t you glad to see me? Oh, you just don’t know how very glad I am to see all of you. I’ve missed you so much, and thought about you, and dreamed of you, and I’ve brought you all so many beautiful presents that I chose with such care. Just wait until you see them! And I had to be so sneaky—for how could I explain buying things for children? I wanted to make up for being away for so long. I did want to tell you why I was leaving, really I did, but it was so complicated. And I didn’t know exactly how long I’d be gone, and though you missed me, you were cared for, weren’t you? You didn’t suffer, did you?”