“Oh, Mr. Patterson. I’m sorry,” Lou said breathlessly, quickly stopping the door from slamming against the man’s face. “I didn’t realize you were in here.” He rubbed his hand, his fist stinging and beginning to throb from punching the door. He looked from Mr. Patterson to Gabe uncertainly. “I’m sorry to have frightened you. I just thought that there was somebody in here who shouldn’t be.” His eyes landed on Gabe.
“Good morning, Lou,” Gabe said politely.
Lou slowly nodded at him in acknowledgment, wanting nothing more right then than an explanation as to why Gabe and his boss were standing in his office at eight a.m.
He looked down at Gabe’s empty mail cart and then at the files splayed out on his desk. He or Alison always tidied the papers on his desk at the end of every evening. He narrowed his eyes suspiciously at Gabe.
Gabe stared back unblinkingly.
“I was just chatting with young Gabe here,” Mr. Patterson explained. “He told me that he started his job yesterday, and isn’t he just wonderful for being the first into the office? That shows such dedication to the job.”
“First in? Really?” Lou faked a smile. “Wow. Looks like you beat me to it this morning, because I’m usually the first one in.” Lou turned to Mr. Patterson and offered an even bigger smile. “But you already knew that, didn’t you, Gabe?”
Gabe returned the smile with equal sincerity. “You know what they say: the early bird catches the worm.”
“Yes, it does. It catches it indeed.” Lou glared at him through his grin. A glare and a grin. Both at the same time.
Mr. Patterson watched the exchange with growing discomfort. “Well, it’s just after eight. I should leave.”
“Just after eight, you say. That’s funny.” Lou perked up. “The mail hasn’t even arrived yet. What, em, what exactly are you doing in my office then, Gabe?” His voice had an edge to it that was clearly recognizable.
“Well, I came in early to familiarize myself with the building,” Gabe responded angelically.
“Isn’t that wonderful?” Mr. Patterson asked, trying to break the tension.
“Yes, it is, but, Gabe, you already familiarized yourself with my office yesterday,” Lou said tightly. “So I’m asking again, what are you doing here?”
“Now, now, Lou, I fear I must jump in here,” Mr. Patterson said awkwardly. “I met young Gabe in the hallway and we got talking. As a favor for me, I’d asked him to take some files to your office. He was delivering them to your desk when I realized I’d left one in my briefcase. But when I turned around to tell him, he was already gone. Poof! Just like that!” Mr. Patterson chuckled.
“Poof!” Gabe grinned at Lou. “That’s me, all right.”
“I like fast workers, but I must say I prefer fast
and
efficient, and my goodness you certainly are that.”
Gabe jumped in before Lou could say anything.
“Thank you, Mr, Patterson, and if there’s anything else you’d like me to do for you, please let me know. I finish my shift at lunchtime and would be only too happy to help out for the rest of the afternoon. I’m keen to work.”
Lou’s stomach tightened.
“That’s wonderful, Gabe, thank you, I’ll keep that in mind. So, Lou,” Mr. Patterson turned to face him, and Lou waited for Gabe, no longer a part of this conversation, to leave. But he didn’t. “I wonder if you’d be able to meet with Bruce Archer this evening. You remember him.”
Lou nodded, his heart lifting as though he was a schoolboy again, wanting to please the teacher.
“I was supposed to meet with him, but I was reminded this morning of something else I have to attend.”
“This evening?” Lou asked, happily kissing good-bye Lucy’s play and dinner with his family. He’d been saved. “That’s no problem. It would be a pleasure.”
He felt Gabe’s eyes sear into him.
In his mind, Lucy, dizzy from her twirling for him, dropped to the ground, and Ruth opened her eyes and pulled away from their morning kiss, his promise of less than an hour ago having already been broken. He felt a split second of guilt, which at least told him he was human, making him feel that he might actually be a good family man. Some of his colleagues felt no guilt at all.
“Great. Great. Well, Melissa can fill you in on the details. I have a big night tonight.” Mr. Patterson winked at Gabe. “It’s my little one’s Christmas play. I’d forgotten all about it until he came running in this morning dressed as a star. I wouldn’t miss it for the world.”
“Oh, that’s wonderful,” Gabe said, his face lighting up. “He’d probably never forgive you if you weren’t there. It’s such an important night for him. You’re a good father to go, as busy as you are.”
Lou glared at Gabe.
“Well, thank you, Gabe,” Mr. Patterson beamed, happy with the praise. “Right so, enjoy tonight, Lou, and well done for finding this lad.” Mr. Patterson patted Gabe on the back.
“Morning, Laurence,” Lou heard the familiar cheery call behind him and turned around to see Alfred join them in his office. “Is this a secret little meeting I didn’t
know about?” Alfred smiled, looking from Lou to Mr. Patterson.
Alfred was a tall man, six feet, with white-blond hair, kind of like an oversized Milky Bar kid who had melted and been molded back together by the hands of a child. He always spoke with a smirk on his face and in the kind of accent that came from being privately schooled in England. His nose was disjointed from his rugby days, and he swanned around the office, as Gabe had observed the previous day, kicking up the tassels of his loafers with the air of a naughty schoolboy who was up to tricks.
Alfred’s eyes fell upon Gabe, then quite obviously looked him up and down in silence and waited to be introduced. Gabe imitated him, confidently giving Alfred the once-over right back.
“Nice shoes,” Gabe finally said, and Lou looked down at the brown loafers Gabe had described yesterday.
“Thank you.” Alfred looked a little put out.
“I also like your shoes, Mr. Patterson,” Gabe commented, looking over at them.
In a slightly awkward moment, all eyes looked down at the men’s feet. Lou’s heart started pumping at a ridiculous rate at the sight of the black slip-ons and the brown loafers, the exact shoes Gabe had described the previous morning. So Alfred was meeting with Mr. Patterson. Lou looked from Alfred to Mr. Patterson, feeling a sense of betrayal. It wasn’t official that Cliff’s job was up for grabs, but if it was, Lou was hell-bent on making
sure it would be his, not Alfred’s. It now looked like he had a fight on his hands.
“Who are you?” Alfred finally asked Gabe after Mr. Patterson had bid them farewell.
“I’m Gabriel.” Gabe held out his hand. “Friends call me Gabe, but you can call me Gabriel.” He smiled.
“Charming. Alfred.” Alfred reached out his hand.
Their shake was cold and limp, and their hands fell quickly by their sides.
“Do I know you?” Alfred narrowed his eyes.
“No, we’ve never actually met, but you may recognize me.”
“Why’s that, were you in a reality show or something?” Alfred studied him again, with a less confident smirk.
“You used to pass by me every day, just outside this building.”
Alfred looked back at Lou with a slightly nervous smile. “Help me out here, pal.”
“I used to sit at the doorway next door,” Gabe continued. “Lou gave me a job.”
Alfred’s face eventually broke into a smile, the relief more than obvious on his arrogant face. His demeanor shifted and he became the big man on campus again, knowing that his position wasn’t being threatened by a homeless man.
He laughed as he turned to Lou, making a face and using a tone that he didn’t even attempt to disguise in Gabe’s company. “You gave him a job, Lou?” he said.
“Well, isn’t it the season to be jolly, indeed. What the hell is going on with you?”
“Alfred, just leave it,” Lou replied, embarrassed.
“Okay.” Alfred held his hands up and chuckled to himself. “You thought Patterson would like that one, didn’t you? Clever thinking, Lou. You’re really reaching high up into your sleeve for Cliff’s job, aren’t you?”
“I thought Cliff’s job was still Cliff’s?” Gabe said.
Alfred looked at him dismissively. “Only if he gets better.”
“And Cliff isn’t going to get better,” Lou added, before he and Alfred both laughed, Lou looking slightly guilty for doing so, Alfred unashamedly throwing his head back and guffawing.
Gabe looked from one to the other, bemused.
“Hey, can I use your bathroom?” Alfred suddenly stopped laughing.
“What? No, not here, Alfred, just use the restrooms.”
“Come on, don’t be a jerk.” His tongue sounded too big for his mouth as it rolled around his words. “I’ll just be a second. See you around, Gabe; I’ll try to aim my coins at your cart when you pass by,” Alfred joked, giving Gabe the once-over again. He smirked and winked at Lou before making his way to Lou’s private bathroom.
From the office, Lou and Gabe could hear loud sniffing behind the bathroom door.
“There seems to be a nasty cold going around this district,” Gabe said.
Lou turned to him. “Look, I’m sorry, Gabe—he’s, you know, don’t take him seriously.”
“Oh, nobody should ever take anybody seriously really; you can’t control anything but what’s inside this circle.” Gabe’s arms made a movement around his body. “Until we all do that,
nobody
can be taken seriously. Here, I got you this.” He leaned down to the bottom tray of his cart and lifted up a Styrofoam cup of coffee. “I owe you from yesterday. It’s a latte; the machine was back working again.”
“Oh, thanks.” Lou felt even worse now, totally conflicted as to how he felt about this man.
“So, you’re going to dinner tonight?” Gabe undid the brake on the cart and started to move away, one of the wheels squeaking as he pushed it.
“No, just a coffee. Not dinner.” Lou was unsure if Gabe wanted to be invited. “It’s no big deal really. I’ll be in and out in an hour at the most.”
“Oh, come on, Lou,” Gabe said with a smile, and he sounded alarmingly like Ruth.
Oh, come on, Lou, you know this one
. But he didn’t finish the sentence in quite the same way. “You know these things always turn into dinner,” Gabe continued. “Then drinks and then
whatever
.” He winked. “You must really want poor Cliff’s job.”
Lou bit the inside of his lip and nodded. With every fiber of his being he wanted that job.
“But is any of it worth it for the amount of trouble you’ll be in at home, Aloysius?” he said in a singsong voice that chilled Lou to the bone.
Gabe made his way toward the elevator, the squeaking of the wheel loud in the empty hallway.
“Hey!” Lou called after him, but he didn’t turn around. “Hey!” he repeated. “How did you know that? Nobody knows that!”
Even though he was alone in the office, Lou quickly looked around to make sure no one else had heard.
“Relax! I won’t tell anyone,” Gabe called back to him in a voice that made Lou feel far from reassured. Lou watched as Gabe pressed the call button for the elevator and lingered by the doors.
The bathroom door opened and Alfred exited, rubbing at his nose and sniffing. “What’s all the shouting about? Hey, where did you get the coffee?”
“Gabe,” Lou replied, distracted.
“Who? Oh, the homeless guy,” Alfred said uninterested. “Really, Lou, what the hell were you thinking? He could wipe you out.”
“What do you mean?”
“Come on, were you born yesterday? You’ve taken a man who has nothing and put him in a place where there is everything. Ever heard of a thing called temptation? Actually, forget I asked. It’s
you
I’m talking to,” he said. “You give in to that every time. Perhaps you and the homeless man aren’t so different,” he added. He chuckled and his chest wheezed, the result of his forty-a-day smoking habit.
“We’re nothing alike,” Lou spat, looking back down at the elevators to Gabe.
But Gabe was gone.
The elevator pinged and the doors opened, like welcoming arms ready to embrace the next guest. But there was nobody there. It waited, but nobody entered, and so it crossed its arms in a huff, and descended again.
A
T FIVE P.M., EXACTLY THE
same time that Lou should have been leaving work in order to get home for Lucy’s school play, he instead paced the floor of his office. Something Gabe had said had made him rethink his decision to miss the play; he couldn’t think what exactly, and all he could feel was a ball of guilt nestled somewhere near his heart and his gut. It was an unfamiliar feeling. His office door was wide open, prepared for his eventual catapult launch down the corridor into Mr. Patterson’s office, where he would announce he was unable to meet Bruce Archer for coffee. Not unlike Mr. Patterson, he too had family commitments. Tonight his daughter was going to be a leaf. But the thought of doing so made him weaken at the knees. Each time he reached the doorway he stopped short, and instead turned around and continued his pacing around his desk.
Gabe. Bloody Gabe. How on Earth had he allowed that man to get inside his head? He didn’t care what Gabe
thought about him. Gabe didn’t know how Lou was with his family. Gabe didn’t know how his family felt about him. He didn’t know all the good things he did for them. The expensive holidays, the lavish gifts at Christmas.
Lou would do his job tonight without guilt. Just like he did every day.
He calmed himself and sat at his desk. Just as he prepared to call Alison to instruct her to pass on the message of his important meeting to his wife, he heard Alison call out cheerily, “Hi, Gabe.”
Lou froze, and then for reasons unknown, found himself rushing behind the door, where he stood with his back to the wall and listened to their conversation through the open door.
“Hi, Alison.”
“You look smart today, Gabe.”
“Thanks. Mr. Patterson has asked me to do a few jobs for him around here, so I thought it would be a good idea to look a bit more respectable.”
Lou peeked through the gap in the hinges of the door and spied Gabe, his new haircut combed neatly like Lou’s. A new dark suit was draped over his shoulder and covered in plastic.
“You’re working for Mr. Patterson? Wow, congratulations. So is the new suit part of the job?” Alison asked.
“Oh, this? This is just for me to have. You never know when a suit will come in handy.” He smiled. “Anyway, I’m here to give you these for Lou. I think they’re plans.”
“But Lou just asked Mr. Patterson for these five min
utes ago. How did you get them from the architect so quickly?” Alison checked the plans, confusion written across her face.
“Oh, I don’t know, I just, you know…” Lou could see Gabe’s shoulders shrugging.
“No, I don’t know,” Alison laughed. “But I wish I did. Keep working like this, and I wouldn’t be surprised if Mr. Patterson gives you Lou’s job.”
They laughed and Lou bristled, making a note to make Alison’s life hell right after this conversation.
“Is Lou in right now?”
“Yes, he is. Why?”
“Is he going to meet with Bruce Archer today?”
“Yes. At least I think so. Why?”
“Oh, no reason. Just wondering.”
“Why, what’s going on?” She lowered her voice. “What’s the big deal about this evening? Lou’s been acting funny about it. It’s almost like he has a conscience about not going to his daughter’s play.” She giggled.
That was it. Lou couldn’t take it anymore. He slammed his office door, no doubt startling them both. Then he sat down at his desk and picked up the phone.
“Yes?” Alison answered.
“Get me Harry from the mailroom on the phone, and after that call Ronan Pearson and check with him to see if Gabe collected the plans from him personally. Do this without Gabe’s knowing. And then we’ll have a talk about that conscience of mine,” he snapped.
“Oh.” She paused, embarrassed, then composed herself. “Yes, of course, just one moment, please,” she said in her best telephone voice. “I’ll connect you.”
Lou adjusted his tie, cleared his throat, and spun around in his oversized leather chair to face the window. The day was cold but crisp, and there wasn’t a breeze as holiday shoppers rushed to and fro, their arms laden with bags amid the flashing colors of numerous neon signs.
“Yello,” Harry barked.
“Harry, it’s Lou.”
“What?” Harry shouted, machines and voices so loud behind him, Lou had no choice but to speak up. He looked around to make sure he was still alone before speaking. “It’s Lou, Harry.”
“Lou who?”
“Suffern.”
“Oh, Lou, hi, how can I help you? Your mail end up on twelve again?”
“No, no, I got it, thanks.”
“Good. That new boy you sent my way is a genius, isn’t he?”
“He is?”
“Gabe? Absolutely. Everyone’s calling me with nothing but good reviews. It’s like he fell from the stars, I’m telling you. And he couldn’t have come at a better time, that’s no word of a lie. We were struggling, you know that. In all of my years in this job, this Christmas season is the wildest. Everything’s getting faster and faster.
Well, it must be, because it’s not me that’s getting slower, that’s for sure. You picked a good one, Lou. I owe you. So how can I help you today?”
“Well, about Gabe,” Lou said slowly, his heart pounding in his chest. “You know he’s taken on some other commitments in the building. Other work outside of the mailroom.”
“I heard that all right, and I’m happy for him. He was as excited as anything this morning. Got a new suit and all on his break. I don’t know where he found the time to get it; some of them in here can’t even light their cigarette in that time. He’s quick, that boy. Mr. Patterson seems to have taken a shine to him. I’d say it won’t be long before he’s out of here and up there with you.”
“Yeah…anyway, I was just calling to let you know. I didn’t want it to conflict with his work with you.” Lou tried one more time. “You wouldn’t want him to be
distracted
, with his mind on the other things he’s doing for us. You know? It gets so manic up here, and we certainly don’t want any problems.”
“I appreciate that, Lou, but what he does after one p.m. is his own business. To be honest with you, I’m glad he’s found something else. He gets his job done so quickly, it’s a struggle to keep him busy.”
“Right. Okay. So, if he acts up in any way, you just go ahead and do what you have to do, Harry. I don’t want you to feel in any way obligated to keep him on for me. You know?”
“I know that, Lou, I do. He’s a good lad; you’ve nothing to worry about.”
“Okay. Thanks. Take care, Harry.”
The phone went dead. Lou sighed and slowly spun around in his chair to replace the receiver. As he turned, he came face-to-face with Gabe, who was standing behind his desk and watching him intently.
Lou jumped, dropped the receiver, and let out a yelp. “Jesus Christ.” He held his hand over his pounding heart.
“No. It’s just me,” Gabe said, blue eyes searing into Lou’s.
“Have you ever heard of knocking? Where’s Alison?” Lou leaned sideways to check her desk and saw that it was empty. “How long have you been there?”
“Long enough.” Gabe’s voice was soft, and it was that which unnerved Lou most. “Trying to get me in trouble, Lou?”
“What?” Lou’s heart pounded wildly, still unrecovered from the surprise, and also alarmingly discomfited by Alison’s absence and Gabe’s proximity. The man’s very presence disconcerted him.
“No.” He swallowed, and he hated himself for his sudden weakness. “I just called Harry to see if he was happy with you. That’s all.” He was aware of the fact that he sounded like a schoolboy defending himself.
“And is he?”
“As it turns out, yes. But you must understand how I feel a responsibility to him for finding you.”
“Finding me,” Gabe said with a curious smile.
“What’s so funny about that?”
“Nothing.” Gabe continued to smile and began looking around Lou’s office, hands in his pockets, with that same patronizing look that was neither jealousy nor admiration.
“It’s five twenty-two p.m. and thirty-three seconds now,” Gabe said, not even looking at his watch. “Thirty-four, thirty-five, thirty-six…” He turned to Lou. “You get the idea.”
“So?” Lou stood up and put on his suit jacket and caught a glimpse at his watch to make sure. It was five twenty-two, on the nose.
“You have to leave now, don’t you?”
“What does it look like I’m doing?”
Gabe wandered over to Lou’s side and picked up three pieces of fruit from the bowl there—two oranges and an apple—which he inspected closely, one by one. “Decisions, decisions,” he said. He held the three pieces of fruit in his hands.
“Hungry?” Lou asked, agitated.
“No,” Gabe laughed. “You any good at juggling?”
That same feeling struck Lou’s heart, and he realized exactly what it was that he didn’t like about Gabe. It was questions like that, statements and comments that pierced Lou somewhere other than where they should.
“You’d better get that,” Gabe added.
“Get what?”
Before Gabe could respond, the phone rang, and,
despite his preferring Alison to screen his calls, he dove for it.
It was Ruth.
“Hi, honey.” He motioned to Gabe for privacy, but Gabe didn’t leave and began juggling the fruit instead. Lou turned his back, and then, feeling uncomfortable with Gabe behind him, he faced forward again to keep an eye on his visitor. He lowered his voice. “Em, yeah, about tonight, something’s come up and—”
“Lou, don’t do this to me,” Ruth said.
“It’s just the play I won’t make, sweetheart.”
Gabe dropped the apple, which rolled across the carpet toward Lou’s desk, and continued juggling with the oranges. Lou felt a childish sense of satisfaction that Gabe had failed.
“Lucy’s heart will be broken,” Ruth said sadly.
“Lucy won’t even notice I’m not there, the place will be so dark. You can tell her I was there. Mr. Patterson asked me to meet with a client of ours. It’s a big deal, and it could help with my getting Cliff’s job, you know?”
“I know, I know. And then if you do get a promotion, you’ll be away from us even more. Anyway, I don’t want to get into this conversation now. So you’ll make it home for dinner? Your mum just rang on the phone saying how much she’s looking forward to it. You know, it’s already been a month since you’ve seen them.”
“It’s not been a month. I saw Dad just”—he went quiet while calculating the time in his head—“well, maybe it’s
almost
been a month.”
A month? How the time had flown. For Lou, visiting his parents was a chore, like making the bed. After he had not done it for some time, the sight of the untidy blankets would play on his mind until he went to get it over and done with. He’d feel an instant sense of satisfaction it had been completed. But then he’d wake up the next day and know he had to go and do it all over again. The thought of his father complaining about how long it’d been since Lou’s last visit made Lou want to run in the other direction. It made him feel guilty, but it also made him want to stay away longer.
“I might not make dinner, but I’ll be there for dessert. You have my word on that.”
Gabe dropped an orange, and Lou felt like punching his fist in the air in celebration. Instead, he pursed his lips and continued to make excuses to Ruth for everything, refusing to apologize for something that was totally out of his control. Lou finally hung up the phone and folded his arms across his chest.
“What’s so funny?” Gabe asked, throwing the one remaining orange up and down in his hand.
“Not such a good juggler, are you?” Lou smirked.
“Touché.” Gabe smiled. “You’re very observant. Indeed, I’m not a good juggler, but it’s not really juggling if I’d already chosen to drop those others and keep this one in my hand, is it?”
Lou frowned at the peculiar response and busied himself at his desk, putting on his overcoat and preparing to leave.
“No, Gabe, it’s certainly not juggling if you
choose
…” He stopped suddenly, realizing what he was saying and hearing Ruth’s voice in his head. His head snapped up, feeling that cold chill again, but Gabe was gone and the orange was left on his desk.
“Alison.” Lou marched out of his office with the orange in his hand. “Did Gabe just walk out of here?”
“Em…” she said slowly. “He came up to my desk about twenty minutes ago and—”
“Yeah, yeah, I know all that. He was in my office a second ago and then he was gone. Just now. Did he walk by?”
“Well, he must have, but—”
“Did you see him?”
“No, I was on the phone and—”
“Jesus.” He punched the desk, startling Alison. “By the way”—he dropped his voice and leaned in closer—“does any of my mail ever come to me under a different name?”
“What do you mean?” She frowned.
“You know—” He looked left and right and barely moved his lips as he spoke. “Aloysius,” he mumbled.
“Aloysius?” she said loudly.
He threw his eyes up. “Keep it down,” he hissed.
“No.” She lowered her voice. “I’ve never seen the name Aloysius on any of the mail.” Then she smiled, snorted, and started laughing. “Why the hell would there be Aloy—”
At his look, her words disappeared and her smile
faded. “Oh. Oh dear. That’s a”—her voice went an octave higher—“
lovely
name.”
L
OU WALKED ACROSS THE NEWLY
constructed Seán O’Casey pedestrian bridge that linked the two rejuvenated north and south quays—the North Wall Quay and Sir John Rogerson’s Quay. One hundred meters across the bridge brought him to his destination, the Ferryman, the only authentic pub left on this stretch. It wasn’t a place for cappuccinos or ciabattas, and because of that the clientele was specific. The bar contained a handful of Christmas shoppers who’d wandered off the beaten track to take a break and to wrap their purple-fingered hands around heated glasses. The rest of the place was filled with workers, young and old, winding down after their day’s work. Suits filled the seats, pints and shorts filled the surfaces. It was just after six p.m., and people had already escaped the business district for their nearest place of solace, to worship at the altar of beers on tap.
Bruce Archer was one such person, propped at the bar with Guinness in hand, roaring with laughter over something somebody beside him had said. All around him were suits. Shoulder pads to shoulder pads. Pinstripes and polished shoes and briefcases containing spreadsheets, pie charts, and forward-looking market predictions. None of them were drinking coffee. Lou should have known. But as he watched them backslap
ping and laughing loudly, he wasn’t in the least bit surprised. So, really, he had known all along.