Authors: John Saul
But Dr. Engersol had told her she just had to choose! She didn’t actually have to do anything!
Except it wouldn’t be enough. If she said she’d chosen one or the other, and then didn’t go through with it, they’d all know!
Trapped.
Even after all his promises, he’d trapped her.
Which?
The rope?
She remembered freezing up there, terrified that she was going to fall, clinging to the rope until the coach climbed up and got her.
And she hadn’t even been able to make herself climb the ladder to the high board.
A ladder and a rope! How could she be afraid of a stupid ladder and a dumb rope!
But what if she fell?
If she fell off the rope, she’d break a leg at least.
But she might not fall off the ladder, not with bars to hang onto and steps for her feet. And when she got to the top, all she had to do was walk out to the end and jump off.
Just the thought of standing on the narrow board three meters above the pool made her stomach feel hollow and her groin tighten with fear.
But it was only ten feet! What could happen to her?
Surely being terrified for a few seconds was better than having everyone laugh at her because she was chicken.
“I—I made up my mind,” she whispered. “I’m going to jump off the diving board.”
Immediately, Dr. Engersol left his chair and came to remove the helmet from her head while two graduate students detached the electrodes from her body. But the cameras, which had been recording her every facial expression, every movement of her body, were still running.
And everyone was still watching.
She approached the ladder that led to the diving board and gripped the handrails tightly. She put her foot on the bottom step and started climbing.
She was halfway up when she looked down, and froze.
Do it! she told herself. Just climb up, walk out on the board, and jump.
Then, as she stared down at the concrete beneath her, her terror of heights welled up in her and she knew she couldn’t do it.
Don’t look, she commanded herself.
She forced herself to look up, and there, looming above her, was the board itself.
No!
She couldn’t do it, couldn’t possibly walk out on it! It was too narrow. She’d fall before she took even a single step.
As she felt the last of her nerve slipping away from her, she began to sob. Tears streaming down her face, she scrambled back down off the ladder and fled toward the locker room, covering her face with her hands, already imagining she could hear the laughter following her. Then she was inside the locker room, scurrying across the empty shower room. By the time she came to her locker, the bathing suit was already half off, and she jerked it the rest of the way, hurling it into a corner and pulling on her clothes as fast as she could. Leaving her locker standing open, sobs of
humiliation racking her body, Amy Carlson fled from the gym.
By the time Hildie Kramer came looking for her, the locker room was empty, but Hildie was almost certain she knew where Amy had gone.
As she, too, left the gym, every trace of the warm and kindly expression she habitually wore when she spoke to either the children or their parents was gone from her face, replaced by a look of harsh determination. Before anyone else saw Amy Carlson again, Hildie Kramer intended to find her.
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