The Hollow Man (21 page)

Partially …
Jeremy is thinking of Fourier transforms again, but more in an effort to hide something from Gail than to solve any problem in mathematics.

Why are you … who is this Everett person you’re thinking about? What does he have to do with that tree you’re trying to hide?

Jeremy sighs.
You remember that Jacob and I were talking about some theoretical work that a guy named Hugh Everett did some thirty-five years ago?

Gail nods, sees Jeremy’s closed eyes, and sends an image of herself nodding.

Anyway
, says Jeremy,
Everett’s work … and the stuff done by Bryce DeWitt and others in more recent years … it’s weird stuff. It solves most of the apparent paradoxes of quantum mechanics, but it does it by getting into real deep water as far as theories go. And …

Impatient, Gail goes behind the words and the shifting math images to look at the heart of what Jeremy is trying to explain. “Parallel worlds!” She realizes that she has said this aloud, almost shouting it. A man in the seat across the aisle glances over, then returns to his newspaper.
Parallel worlds
, she sends again in a telepathic whisper.

Jeremy winces a bit.
That’s the sci-fi term.…

Science fiction
, corrects Gail.
But this Hugh Everett, he postulated a splitting of reality into equal and separate parallel worlds … or parallel universes … right?

Jeremy still frowns at the language but glimpses her understanding of the concept.
Sort of. Uh … take the two-slit experiment for instance. When we try to observe the
spread-out electron wave, the particle knows we’re watching and collapses into a definite particle. When we don’t watch, the electron keeps its options open … particle and wave. And the interesting part is, when it acts like a wave … remember the interference pattern?

Yeah
.

Well, it’s a wave-form interference pattern, all right, but according to Born’s terms, it’s not
electrons
passing through the slits that produces wave-pattern interference, but the
probability
of waves passing through. What’s interfering are
probability waves!

Gail blinks.
You lost me, Kemo Sabe
.

Jeremy tries to draw an example, but ends up sending primitive equations:

He sees her frown, sends
Shit!
, and mentally erases the mental blackboard.

Kiddo, it means that the particles are particles, but that the act of us observing them makes them
choose
a course of action … this
hole? that hole? so many choices!… and since the probability of going through one hole is the same as going through the other, we’re recording
probability waves
creating the diffraction pattern on the screen behind the slits
.

Gail nods, beginning to understand.

You got it, kiddo
, urges Jeremy.
We’re watching probability structures collapse. Alternatives fizzle. We’re watching the bloody universe sort itself out from a finite range of
probabilities
into an even more finite set of
realities.

Gail remembers the tree that Jeremy had been thinking about.
And this Hugh Everett’s theory …

Right!
Jeremy is ecstatic. He has been wanting to share some of this with Gail for years, but has been afraid of appearing pedantic.
Everett’s theory says that when we force that electron to choose, it doesn’t really
choose
which slit or which probability, it just splits another entire
reality in
which we … the observer … watch it go through
one
slit while its equal and separate probability partner goes through the
other
hole
.

Gail is physically dizzy from the successful effort to understand the concept.
While the “second universe” observers watch it go through the
other
hole!

“Right!” shouts Jeremy. He looks around, aware that he has shouted. No one seems to have paid any attention. He closes his eyes again to better visualize the images.
Right! Everett neatly solves the quantum paradoxes by arguing that every time a bit of quantum energy or matter is forced to make such a choice—that is, whenever we try to observe it choosing—then a new branch grows on the reality tree. Two equal and separate realities come into existence!

Gail concentrates on remembering the blue-and-white covers of her old Ace Double Novels.
Parallel worlds! Just like I said
.

Not really parallel
, sends Jeremy.
Words and images just don’t do it, but imagine a constantly growing and branching tree:

Gail is exhausted.
Okay … and what you and Jacob were excited and upset about was that your analysis of these holograms … these standing-wave thingees that you think represent human consciousness … they’re like Everett’s theory somehow?

Jeremy thinks of his hundreds of equations at home, filling the chalkboard and enough sheets of paper to create a second dissertation.
Jacob’s mapping of the holographic mind shows it breaking down reality probability functions … “choosing” … the same way the electrons do
.

Gail is irritated by the simplemindedness of his explanation.
Don’t patronize me, Jerry. People don’t have to choose which slit they’re going to pop through. People don’t end up smearing their probability waves as interference patterns on a wall!

Jeremy sends a wordless apology, but his message is
insistent and unapologetic.
They do! We do! Not just in the millions of choices we make every day … shall we stand? shall we sit? do we
take this train or the next one? what color tie should I wear?… but in the more important choices of actually interpreting the data that the universe sends us through our senses every second. That’s where the choices are made, Gail … that’s where the math tells Jacob and me that the probability structures are collapsing and recombining every few seconds … interpreting reality!
Jeremy makes a mental note to himself to send for the most recent papers on chaos math and fractal analysis as soon as he gets home.

Gail sees the flaw in this theory.
But, Jerry, your reality and my reality aren’t separate things. We
know
that thanks to our mindtouch ability. We see the same things … smell the same things … touch the same things
.

Jeremy takes her hand.
That’s what Jacob and I have to investigate, kiddo. The probability structures are collapsing constantly … from almost infinite sets to very finite sets … in all of the observed standing wavefronts … the MR-imaged minds … but there seems to be some governing factor in deciding, for everyone, what that observed reality must be from second to second
.

Gail bites her lip. ???????????????????

Jeremy tries again.
It’s as if some traffic manager is telling all the electrons which slit to jump through, kiddo. Some … force … some less-than-random probability delineator telling the entire human race … or at least the few hundred representatives of it that Jacob’s tested so far … just
how
to perceive a reality that should be wildly permeable. Chaotic
.

Neither sends anything for a long moment. Then Gail offers—
God?

Jeremy starts to smile, then does not. He senses how
deadly serious she is.
Maybe not God
, he sends,
but at least His dice
.

Gail turns her face to the window. The gray brick buildings they are passing remind her of the long rows of barracks at Ravensbruck.

Neither of them attempts mindtouch again until they are home. In bed.

B
remen’s duties were legion.

He had never visited a ranch before, never imagined the scope and variations of physical labor possible on a working ranch of some six thousand acres, surrounded, as this one was, by half a million acres of “national forest,” although there was hardly a tree in sight above the relatively wet canyonlands of the ranch proper. The physical labor, he found in the coming weeks, was not just daunting, it was a backbreaking, ball-breaking, blister-making, lung-racking, sweat-inducing, blood-and-taste-of-bile-in-the-mouth level of labor. When starting, as Bremen was, from the point of a malnourished, inactive, pale and pasty shadow of a skid-row alcoholic, the level of work expected took on new dimensions of challenge.

He had imagined ranch life—when he had ever thought of it at all—as a romantic horseback riding of
range land, with short intervals of herding cattle or horses, perhaps fixing the occasional stretch of wire. He did not count on the maintenance tasks around the ranch itself, the postdawn feedings of animals ranging from geese around the lake to the exotic llamas Miz Morgan collected, the long excursions by Jeep to bring in strays, the endless tinkering with the machinery—vehicles, pumps, electric motors, the air-conditioning unit on the bunkhouse itself—not to mention the gory glories of castrating animals, hauling bloated lamb carcasses out of the stream after an overnight flood, shoveling manure out of the main barn. There was a lot of shovel work: digging postholes, digging trenches for the new sewer line, digging sixty feet of new feeder ditch for the irrigation canal, digging out Miz Morgan’s three-quarter-acre garden. Bremen spent hours each day on foot, in the new work boots Miz Morgan had him buy the first week, and more hours bouncing around in the dusty, open Jeep, but he never rode on horseback.

Bremen survived. The days were longer than any he had experienced since his undergraduate days at Harvard when he was trying to get a four-year degree in three years, but the dust and grit and barbed wire and muscle strain ended eventually with the sun setting behind the mountains to the west and then—while indigo shadows crept across the canyon and flowed down into the desert like slow wine—he would return to his bunkhouse, take a thirty-minute shower, fix a hot meal for himself, and collapse into bed before the coyotes started howling in the hills above the ranch. Bremen survived. The days turned into weeks.

There was a quiet here that was nothing like the true internal quiet of the Florida fishing shack; this silence was the deceptive calm at the eye of the storm. Indeed,
the roar of Miz Morgan’s strange mindshield of raw, white noise made Bremen think of stepping out under white-tossed skies in the false calm of a hurricane’s center, where the only noise was the background rumble of the great winds pinwheeling around in their vortex of destruction.

The noise was welcome to Bremen. It shut out the dome of neurobabble that seemed to rise from the entire continent now: whispers, entreaties, shouts and declarations, midnight confessions to the soul of self, and violent justifications. The universe had been filled with these umber shiftings and selfish self-loathings, each wavelength darker than the last, but now there was only the white noise of Miz Fayette Morgan’s powerful personality.

Bremen needed it. He became addicted to it. Even the Thursday trip the twenty miles into town became a punishment for him, an exile he could not bear, as Miz Morgan’s protective wash of mindnoise faded and the neurobabble rushed in from either side, individual thoughts and hungers and desires and filthy little secrets slicing at him like so many razor blades to the eye and palate.

The bunkhouse was more than adequate for a home: it was air-conditioned for the August extremes of heat; its bed was comfortable, its kitchen impressive, its shower was fed by water from the holding pond half a mile uphill so the water never ran out, and it was situated in a private cul-de-sac between boulders so that the lights of the main hacienda were not visible. The bunkhouse even had a telephone, although Bremen could not call out; the phone line ran only to the hacienda and chimed when Miz Morgan wanted him to carry out some task that she had forgotten to list on the previous evening’s “work list”—a single sheet of lined, yellow paper that she would
leave clipped to the bulletin board on the bunkhouse’s narrow porch.

Bremen quickly learned the areas out of bounds. He was not to approach the hacienda. The six dogs were well trained, they came to Miz Morgan in an instant when she shouted a command, but they were vicious. His third day at the ranch, Bremen watched them pull down a coyote that had made the mistake of coming too close in the wide pasture that ran down to the stream. The dogs had worked as a team, like wolves, surrounding and hamstringing the poor confused coyote before pulling him down and finishing him.

He was not to go anywhere near the “cold house,” a low cinderblock building set back behind the boulders near the hacienda. The cold house held a cylindrical water tank on its roof and Miz Morgan had explained that first day that the fifteen-hundred-gallon tank was for fire only; she had pointed out the heavy-duty hoses and couplings at the side of the cold house. These also were out-of-bounds for hired help, unless personally directed there by Miz Morgan.