The Honourable Maverick / The Unsung Hero (10 page)

She had to try. Friendship with this man was an infinitely preferable option to scaring him off so that she never saw him again. They could stay in touch. Visit occasionally, even. It wouldn’t be beyond the realms of friendship to ask him to be a godfather to her daughter and, that way, they would have a link for life. Not that she’d ask him just yet.

With their dinner reheating in the oven, Max had taken himself off to a laundry space. He’d insisted that it was no trouble to disinfect Ellie’s clothing and put it through the washing machine and dryer. It would be good to go in the morning. He’d been so keen, in fact, it had been difficult to avoid the impression that he found her wearing his clothes as disturbing as Ellie did, albeit for very different reasons.

He seemed to keep himself very busy for the rest of the evening as well. He made up the spare bed and helped Ellie sort the baby gear and then he made more than one phone call to speak to Jet, who was on duty again in the emergency department.

‘That guy Nigel looks like he’s going to make it,’ he informed Ellie eventually. ‘He’s been to Theatre. The knife skated over his ribs and the damage was pretty superficial. His ankle’s been fixed. He’s got a good concussion but his C-spine checked out clear.’

‘Oh…thank goodness for that. If it had turned into a murder investigation, I would have had to stay
in the country for court appearances or something, wouldn’t I?’

Max gave her an odd look. ‘Yeah…I guess. But you weren’t planning on leaving immediately, were you?’

‘As soon as I can.’ Ellie found a smile to give Max. ‘Don’t worry. We won’t be messing up your lifestyle for too long. We might even be able to go back to the motel tomorrow.’

The look she got now was almost a glare. ‘I don’t think so. Not with the type of clientele that place attracts. The police will be swarming around for days, I expect.’

‘If Nigel’s going to be all right, maybe they won’t need to talk to me again,’ Ellie said hopefully. ‘I was worried about what to tell them.’

‘The truth,’ Max suggested.

Ellie’s eyes widened. ‘You mean my real name?’

‘No, not that bit.’ But Max looked less than sure. Then he gave his head a slight shake. ‘It’s not doing any harm,’ he said. ‘And it seems to be working so far. I’d stick to McAdam if I was you.’

Ellie had reason to remember the advice the next day, well after Max had gone to work and she was alone in the apartment with Mouse. She had her baby in her arms when the knock came at the door. For a moment, panic set in. It could be the police. It could also be Marcus. What if he’d had someone watching and had been informed that she’d moved in with Max? He’d had enough time to catch a plane from Auckland and find her here, without any protection other than a locked but probably flimsy door.

Heart thudding, she went to peer through the peephole on the door.

‘Max?’ A feminine voice called. ‘You home, babe?’

The image through the peephole was distorted. Ellie could see what appeared to be the longest pair of legs she’d ever seen. Long and sleek and black. Like the hair that flowed from the woman’s head. She opened the door and then wished she hadn’t. The woman really was long and sleek. She towered above Ellie, thanks to the stiletto heels that finished the look of her tight leather pants. Ellie was back in her newly cleaned maternity jeans and baggy sweatshirt that had both gone a rather odd, patchy colour from being bleached. She had never felt so short and dumpy and dowdy.

‘Ahh…’ The woman’s rapid up-and-down glance said it all. ‘Is Max here?’

‘No. He’s at work.’

‘Damn. I’ve got something I think he’ll be quite excited about.’

Ellie didn’t doubt that for a second. This woman would be just his type. Heavens, she already had biker chicks’ pants on. She could sling a leg over the back of his bike and put her heavily bangled arms around his waist and ride off into the sunset at a moment’s notice.

‘I’m Gina,’ the woman said. ‘I’m a…friend of Max’s. And Rick’s,’ she added with a confident smile.

Ellie nodded. She tried, and failed, to smile back.

‘And you are?’

It was right then that Ellie remembered the advice and it was simply too tempting not to use it.

‘I’ll Ellie McAdam,’ she said.

‘Oh…’ Perfectly sculpted eyebrows shot up. ‘Max’s sister?’

‘No.’ This time, Ellie managed a smile. ‘His wife.’

Maybe the advice hadn’t involved using the fraudulent relationship as well as the name but Ellie couldn’t resist. She couldn’t even summon sympathy for how Max was going to explain his way out of this after she’d gone.

‘And…’ Gina’s gaze dropped to the baby in Ellie’s arms. ‘Oh, my God…’

Ellie didn’t say anything. She didn’t need to. Gina was obviously having no problem coming to her own conclusion.

‘Um…’ Her visitor had been holding something in her hands, which she now held out. ‘I can see why he’s on the lookout for a new property. This one might be really great for you guys.’ Gina wasn’t one to let an opportunity slip past, evidently. ‘I met Max…and Rick at a bike show recently. I’m a real estate agent and Max gave me his details. Said he was on the lookout for a new property. This just came into the office and it’s kind of special so, of course, I thought of Max.’

‘Thanks.’ Ellie’s smile was genuine now. Sympathetic, even. She could well believe that Gina had thought of Max. What woman wouldn’t?

Max didn’t appear to have returned the interest, however.

‘Gina? Gina who?’ He’d brought Chinese food home with him and the aroma was seriously tempting as he unpacked the carry bags.

‘She didn’t say. Gorgeous looking, though. Leather pants and long, dark hair. Said she met you and Rick at a bike rally or something.’

‘Oh-h…We did pop in on a Ducati show a couple of weeks back. Yeah…rings a bell. We swapped cards but I gave hers to Rick ‘cos he was thinking he might give her a call.’

‘She left you brochures. Said you were looking for a property to buy?’

Max grimaced. ‘I should be but I really can’t be bothered. I might just move back in with Rick when Jet gets another stint away with the army.’

‘What’s wrong with this place?’

‘I’ve only got a sub-lease for three months. Sarah reckoned she wouldn’t be away any longer than that, though I can extend it if she doesn’t come back. She took this on as a two-year lease.’

‘Oh?’ Ellie was distracted, both by the tubs of hot food now on the table and the reminder of her old flatmate. ‘I must email her and see how things are going with Josh.’

‘Good idea. Might give me a shove in the right direction.’

‘Which is?’ Ellie pulled the disposable chopsticks apart. Max was opening the tubs and she’d never felt so hungry in her life. She must be getting better, she decided. Her body was coming back to life.

Max saw her practically drooling and he grinned. ‘Good to see you looking hungry. Steak with black bean sauce in that one. This one’s chicken and ginger and that’s stir-fried veggies ‘cos it looked healthy. There’s a bucket of rice so dig in.’ He dipped his chopsticks
into the first container and started filling his plate. For a minute or two they were both preoccupied with their food but after a few mouthfuls Max paused and glanced at Ellie.

‘I guess the right direction is settling down,’ he said sadly. ‘I’m thirty-six. I can’t ride round on my bike and move from place to place for ever. I like it here in Dunedin so maybe I need to put some roots down. Buying a house seems like a good first step. What do
you
think?’

A settled-down Max? With a home of his own? Would a wife and children and maybe even a dog be on the agenda as well?

Stupid to feel that bubble of hope but irresistible not to take the opportunity to soak in the expression on Max’s face. To enjoy that rough look his jaw always had at this time of day that made her fingers itch to touch it. To make direct eye contact and feel it all the way to her bones.

‘Couldn’t hurt to look,’ she offered. ‘The picture’s lovely and Gina seemed to think it was something special.’

‘But it’s way out on the peninsula. Long way to work.’ Max ate in silence for a while again. ‘Mind you, it’s a great road for a bike ride. Good twists and turns and it runs right along the harbour’s edge.’ He ate another mouthful. ‘I’ve got a couple of days off coming up. Why don’t you come with me and help me look?’

‘On your bike? Not on your life, mate.’

Max laughed, a wonderfully rich sound that made Ellie feel warm all over and happier than she could remember being in such a long time.

‘Hardly. Not with the mouse to take into account. We’ll take the car and it’ll be as safe as houses, I promise.’

Ellie still shook her head.

‘Why not?’

‘Um…I kind of told Gina that I was your wife and she assumed that Mouse was yours as well. She looked kind of disappointed.’

Max was grinning. ‘Is that so? I’ll tell Rick. She’s just his type.’

‘Not yours?’ Ellie knew she sounded surprised.

Max shrugged. ‘Used to be. Maybe I’m growing up a bit. Thinking about house buying does that to a man, you know.’

Ellie wanted to ask what he thought his type was now but she didn’t dare. This wasn’t a conversation she really wanted to have because the little spears of wishful thinking were too delicious to want to give up. It couldn’t hurt to indulge a small and very private fantasy for a little while, could it?

But Gina used to be his type and Ellie couldn’t help remembering the way she’d felt that morning. Dumpy and dowdy.

‘I still couldn’t go.’ It was her turn to grimace as she looked down at herself. ‘Even if I went back to the motel for my bag, I didn’t bring any non-pregnancy clothes with me. I look like I’ve been rummaging through the unwanted stuff from a charity shop. You really wouldn’t want to be seen out with me, Max.’

‘So wear something else.’

‘Don’t think your boxers and shirt would work either.’

‘So…go shopping.’

‘What?’ That hadn’t even occurred to Ellie.

‘You’re feeling better, aren’t you? You’re certainly looking better.’

Ellie nodded.

‘So, take a taxi and go to one of the big department stores in town. You could take Mouse in the car seat and they’d have everything under one roof. Not too much walking about to tire you out. You’ve got those outpatient appointments tomorrow afternoon, haven’t you? So you have to go out anyway.’

Ellie continued to nod. Everything under one roof? Clothes, lingerie, shoes. A hairdresser, maybe?

How long had it been since she’d worried about her appearance? Or had a reason to want to look good? This was a kind of hope that was permissible. Part of her fantasy, maybe, but one that was grounded in reality. It could happen. She could make a dramatic improvement to the way she looked. It was exciting.

‘If I go to a bank, I won’t even have to use my credit card.’

‘Is that a problem? You want some cash?’

Ellie shook her head hurriedly. ‘I’ve just been careful for so long because people can trace where you are if you use cards, can’t they? I’ve seen it happen on those crime shows.’

The reminder of why she had come here in the first place and the continued need for care dampened the atmosphere.

‘I’m sure it’ll be fine,’ Ellie muttered. ‘It’s not as if he doesn’t know where I am now anyway.’

He could be waiting. Biding his time. Probably quite
confident that he would receive information about the birth of his child and he would, eventually, because time was running out. The birth had to be registered. Mouse had to be given a name.

‘The offer’s still open, you know,’ Max said quietly.

‘To see the house?’ Ellie’s smile was a little tight. ‘Sure. Sounds like fun.’

‘No.’ Max had stopped eating. He was watching her face. ‘The name. Marriage.’

Ellie stopped eating, too. Her appetite had vanished.

She wouldn’t marry Max to give Mouse his name. Or to take it herself.

To marry Max knowing that it was in name only and that a very amicable divorce was already pencilled in?

No, thanks.

G
INA
the real estate agent did a double-take when she saw Ellie for the second time on the Sunday that was Mouse’s two-week birthday.

Max wasn’t surprised in the least. He’d been kind of stunned himself when he’d got home from work the other day after Ellie had been on her trip into town. She’d been wearing jeans that actually fitted and a soft, russet-coloured knit top that made her eyes and her hair seem the most astonishing mix of copper and chestnut shades. She’d looked…amazing and it was confusing because it wasn’t so easy now to dismiss errant thoughts by reminding himself that she wasn’t his ‘type’.

She still didn’t fit with the kind of athletic, leggy girls who were out for little more than a good time. She was different all right. Dangerously different because there was an attraction there that went a lot deeper than sex. He and Rick had always favoured blondes, too, but Ellie’s hair was so
rich.
She’d said she’d only had her hair trimmed and that the hairdresser had put some rinse through it to bring out natural highlights but it
glowed
in some mysterious fashion and it looked
so
soft. His fingers had itched to bury themselves in it.

He hadn’t, of course. He was being very, very careful ever since that kiss that hadn’t been a kiss. Ellie valued her independence. She had some definite plans for her future that didn’t include him and he didn’t want to be involved. It would only complicate her life. Not to mention his. Coming to see this house was an aberration that was making him distinctly nervous for some reason. It had only been intended as an outing. There were lots of tourist attractions out here on the Otago Peninsula. Larnach Castle and the aquarium. The lighthouse and the world-famous albatross colony. It was just a bonus that he could make a foray into the world of real estate that he knew he should enter and now was probably as good a time as any.

Maybe it was because it was something he’d never done before. Or maybe it had something to do with the way Gina had been staring at Ellie as if she couldn’t believe she was the same woman and Max could sympathise with the confused expression. Things were changing and Max wasn’t sure about the direction they were taking. Some of it was good. He was delighted that both Ellie and Mouse had passed the assessments given in their outpatient appointments at the hospital. He could have predicted how pleased the doctors would be because he could see Ellie’s strength returning day by day. She had a sparkle about her that couldn’t be attributed entirely to a new wardrobe or a clever hairdresser.

Pretty soon now she’d disappear out of his life. She’d already been on the internet, checking out discount
flight fares to Australia. She’d been exploring job opportunities as well and rental accommodation that might suit. The next step was to update her passport to include her child and that was only on hold until she decided on the name she wanted for her daughter.

She’d bought a book of names when she’d been in town and it had come out again last night.

‘Annabelle? Bella? I quite like Bella. Oh, look…here’s Maxine. It means “greatest”.’

‘You’re not calling her Maxine.’

‘She’s probably going to end up being Mouse for the rest of her life,’ Ellie had said mournfully. ‘Mouse Peters. Doesn’t have the best ring to it, does it?’

Mouse McAdam didn’t sound too bad. Not that he’d pointed that out, mind you. Funny how the idea of marriage to Ellie to provide a legal name had suddenly lost its appeal. Why? Was it because he could finally see that it would be such a sham and not what any marriage should be about? Especially a marriage that involved someone like Ellie. Not that Max had ever given that much thought to the institution but, deep down, he had principles and one of them was obviously that marriage was not something that should be taken that lightly.

Who knew?

Perhaps house hunting was another aspect of grown-up life that shouldn’t be taken lightly but they’d driven out along the windy peninsula road on this sunny afternoon, admiring the shards of light playing on the ruffled harbour waters. They’d had a bit of trouble locating the address, despite his satellite navigation device, because this house was set on a hillside and hidden from the road by a thick stand of native bush. Sunlight
filtered through the canopy of these private woods, which effectively killed any traffic or other noise from the outside world and there was an atmosphere that made Max pause when he climbed out of the car. He had an odd feeling that he was being pushed towards something he really wasn’t ready for. He gave himself a mental shake. Anyone would feel like that with a smiling real estate agent bearing down on them. He was only a potential buyer here. He could say no and he already knew he
would
say no.

The house itself was a wonderful, rambling old villa with a wisteria vine adorning the deep veranda and a view of the harbour and the green hills on the other side that would probably make it sell in a flash. They all stood for a moment at the top of the steps, their backs to the front door.

‘That’s Port Chalmers over there,’ Max pointed out to Ellie. ‘That’s where Rick’s place is. He’s got a converted warehouse loft close to the container terminal. Very industrial. Trendy.’

‘Bit different from this, then.’

‘Mmm.’ It was a bachelor pad all right and it hadn’t had the space for the three of them when Jet had come home for a spell. Why had he offered to move somewhere else? Had he seen his new apartment as a stepping stone from bachelor pad to family home? If so, he hadn’t had his feet in the interim space for nearly long enough.

‘You’ll love this place,’ Gina said, turning to unlock the door. ‘Come on. I can’t wait to show you around.’ She waited for them to enter the wide hallway. ‘Such
a cute baby,’ she said as Ellie went past. ‘What’s his name?’

‘It’s a she,’ Max said. ‘And her name is Mouse.’

Gina giggled. ‘What’s her
real
name?’

There was a moment’s awkward silence and then Ellie spoke. ‘We haven’t decided. Max doesn’t like my choice so I’m waiting till he comes up with something better.’

‘Fair enough.’ Gina was heading for a sweeping stairway at the end of the hall. ‘Let’s start upstairs with the master bedroom. It’s got the most amazing view.’

Max followed in silence. It was just part of the pretence, wasn’t it? Ellie wasn’t really expecting him to come up with a name for Mouse, was she? That was a responsibility he wasn’t happy to take on but what if he didn’t and she ended up calling the poor kid Maxine?

‘Vacant possession,’ Gina told them as they came back downstairs. ‘The owner was hoping not to have to sell but he’s decided to stay in Europe and he needs the capital for his business venture.’

‘It’s big,’ was Max’s verdict as they completed the tour.

Gina nodded happily. ‘Four bedrooms and the office, two bathrooms, the games room in the basement and the guest suite over the garage. It’s a perfect family home.’

But he didn’t have a family. Gina glanced to where Ellie was standing with Mouse in the baby sling near the French doors that opened from the open-plan kitchen living area to a terrace that flowed into a large, sloping garden. Max followed her gaze. Was Ellie admiring the backdrop of the bush or deliberately avoiding
having to keep up the deception that they were just the kind of family that this house was crying out for?

‘I know it might seem a bit big compared to your apartment at the moment but think of it as future-proofing,’ Gina said with a smile. ‘Who knows? You might end up with a few more little ones and this is the kind of house you’d want your grandchildren visiting, isn’t it?’

Grandchildren?
Good grief! Max saw his life telescoping inwards with him as an old man, rocking on that veranda. No, thanks. He had a hell of lot more living to do before then.

‘This would be paradise for children,’ Gina added, blithely unaware of the effect her comment had had. ‘Tree huts in the bush. There’s a little stream on the boundary and it’s not much of a walk down to the harbour. You could have a boat. It’s great for swimming in the summer. Or you could go fishing off the jetty.’

With the grandchildren. Ha!

Max tried to sound businesslike. ‘The house is pretty old. It needs repairs as it is and would take a lot of maintenance to keep up.’

Gina smiled again. ‘I’ll bet you’re good with a hammer and paintbrush, Max.’

‘Never tried to find out.’ His precious time off was put to far more enjoyable uses. Like a blast of fresh air on an open road bike ride. Or drinking time with his mates. Or a hot date. Yes, he still had a lot of living to do out there. To give up that time to work on a house? To build tree huts or mess about with boats? He needed to get out of here.

He didn’t have a family. He didn’t even have the prospect of one.

Carefully, Max avoided even a glance in Ellie’s direction.

‘I’ll think about it,’ he told Gina, ‘but I don’t think it’s what I’m looking for at the moment. Thanks for showing us around, though.’

‘No worries. It’s not on the market just yet so you’ve got time to think. I’ll be listing it next week, probably.’ Gina ushered them out and locked the door behind them. ‘I’ve got to dash.’ She winked at Max. ‘I’ve got a date with your friend Rick tonight.’

Max watched her slide into her little sports car and take off with a spurt of gravel beneath the tyres.

Dammit.
He
wanted a date with Rick. A fast ride to nowhere. Or, rather, somewhere that had a few icy lagers on tap. He wanted to step out of this parallel universe he’d fallen into that contained big houses and tree huts and babies that needed real names and sweet-smelling,
different
women.

What the hell had happened to his life?

Max was very quiet on the way back to the apartment.

So was Ellie.

She’d seen that look on his face as Gina had driven off, having announced her upcoming date with Rick.

Max had been envious.
He
wanted to be out with Gina. Having fun. Instead, he was stuck with her. And a baby. He was probably realising just how effectively he had scuttled any chance he might have had with Gina because she believed he had a wife and child. If
she hadn’t already been getting the vibes during the house tour, that look on Max’s face had made it very clear that the deception was past its use-by date.

Any fleeting hope that Max might even consider family life was firmly relegated to fantasyland.

Just like that perfect, perfect house with its magical setting that made it a world of its own.

Why did Mouse choose to become so grizzly as soon as they arrived home? It was almost as though she was trying to chase Max away. He certainly didn’t seem inclined to hang around. A few text messages and a change of clothes and he was off.

‘Going on a bike ride with Jet,’ he told Ellie, when he came out of his room wearing the leather gear she hadn’t seen him in since the day she’d arrived.

Sexy, sexy gear. She stood there with a howling baby in her arms and knew she didn’t stand a chance with this man and she never would.

Max pulled a helmet down from above the coat rack in the hall. ‘Don’t wait for me for dinner. We’ll probably eat out at a pub somewhere.’

Somewhere there’d be lots of people. Attractive women who didn’t have babies. There’d be music and dancing and the kind of atmosphere that was just what young doctors ordered for their time away from work.

Yes. Max couldn’t wait to escape but, to his credit, he paused at the door.

‘You OK being on your own for a while?’

‘I’m fine. Have fun, Max.’

‘Don’t open the door to anyone. Text me if you get worried.’

‘I’ll be fine.’ She could imagine what Jet’s reaction
would be if Max received a text from her requesting assistance. She could see that dark scowl and it was easy to imagine what he’d say to his friend.

For God’s sake, man, get rid of her. She’s been nothing but trouble since she got here.

It took a long time to get Mouse happy. A feed and cuddle, a bath and change of clothes. Ellie was tired by the time her daughter was asleep in her bassinette but she didn’t rest herself. She got busy.

An hour later, she had printed out and filled in an application form for a job in a Melbourne hospital that boasted a nearby crèche that took babies from six weeks old upwards. She found an envelope, stuffed the form inside and then sealed it and then she closed her eyes and breathed out a sigh of relief.

She knew where she was heading.

She had a future again.

Knowing that, and knowing that her time of being close to Max McAdam was limited, there really wasn’t any harm in enjoying every moment she had left.

Was there?

Something else had changed.

Max couldn’t quite put his finger on what it was but maybe that night out with Jet had cleared his head. Which was weird, seeing as he’d ended up leaving his bike at a mate’s house, getting a taxi home in the early hours of the morning and waking up with a mother of a hangover.

Ellie had been very considerate the next day, keeping well out of his way with a shopping trip that resulted in a pushchair that she then took Mouse for a
long walk in. He’d barely noticed them and it wasn’t until several days later that he realised he still wasn’t noticing them.

No, that wasn’t quite right. He knew they were there well enough but it wasn’t creating any negative-type tension. Yes, that was what it was. For whatever reason, after he’d burned off the fear of ending up rocking on a veranda having had his entire life sucked away, a new serenity had slipped into his life.

Max came to this satisfactory conclusion as he watched over Mouse while Ellie had a shower and washed her hair late one evening. Mouse was awake and he’d picked her up but she didn’t seem to be uncomfortable or hungry so he was sitting on the couch with the baby lying on his lap, the back of her head resting on his knees. She was gripping his forefingers with those miniature fists and looking up at him with an amusingly serious expression.

‘How’s it going?’ Max asked. ‘I’ve had a good day. How ‘bout you?’

It had been a good day. A good week, actually, with a huge variety of interesting cases. Having someone to come home to who was genuinely interested in hearing about everything he’d been doing was the best way to debrief he’d ever come across. Living with Rick and Jet, the last thing any of them felt inclined to do out of hours was rehash a working day but Ellie seemed to revel in it. She could ask the kind of questions that made him realise what a good job he’d done or sometimes make him think about how he could do it even better next time. And sometimes, best of all, he could make her laugh.