The House on Sugar Plum Lane (17 page)

There were still pots, pans, utensils, and appliances in the kitchen, as well as the furniture that filled the house, since Amy had leased it furnished. But the precious items had been carefully put away.

She really ought to call Ron and tell him that either he or the Ruckers could send someone to pick up the stuff at their convenience. After that was done, she really didn't have a game plan, although she had half a notion to approach Barbara on her next visit and announce who she really was, who her mother had been.

But maybe it was best to let sleeping dogs lie.

After all, her questions had been answered—at least, most of them.

As the back door creaked open and shut, Amy's heart jammed. Her first thought was that she'd imagined it, until footsteps sounded in the kitchen. Her pulse raced, and her adrenaline production skyrocketed.

Someone was in the house. But who?

One of Maria's kids?

Eddie? Barbara?

Ron Paige, the Realtor?

Any other option was too frightening to contemplate.

She backed toward the front door, her legs as stiff and spindly as a newborn fawn's, and reached for the knob, ready to dash outside. But before her escape, she called out in a deep, don't-mess-with-me tone. “Who's there?”

“It's me,” a frail voice answered.

Ellie?

Amy released the knob just as the elderly woman entered the living room, her gray hair windblown, her lightweight sweater turned inside out.

She held a yellow rosebud in one hand and a house key in the other.

Amy tried to reconcile the two images she held: the young Ellie who'd once lived in the old Victorian with the woman standing before her, the ghost of a person whose mind had become her prison. But she wasn't having any luck.

Ellie's brow, already creased by age, furrowed into a craggy V, and her eyes darted back and forth as if trying to navigate through a cloudy mind.

“Who…are
you?
” she asked. “Why are you in my house?”

Was she having a lucid moment?

“I'm Amy. A friend of Maria's.” Did she have to explain any more than that?

Ellie's head listed to the side, as if she was trying to find balance, then she straightened and her gaze brightened a couple of watts. “Of course. I remember now. Would you like to have some tea?”

Amy really should let Maria know that Ellie was here and safe, but she couldn't help thinking she'd been offered an opportunity to talk to her great-grandmother, a rare moment that might not last through a phone call.

“I'd love a cup, Ellie.” She smiled. “Thanks for asking. Would you like me to fix it for us?”

“I…” Ellie glanced around the room, as though taking inventory, noting the boxes. Confusion toyed with her brow until she eyed the quilt on the sofa and made her way toward it. The rose dropped to the floor, completely forgotten, as she reached for the handmade blanket instead, fingering the patchwork squares made out of a hodgepodge of fabrics.

“That's pretty,” Amy said, hoping the woman would remain rooted in reality. “Did you make it?”

Ellie didn't respond; she just caressed a square of pink dotted Swiss. When she looked up, she smiled. “Barbie loved her Easter dress, and she cried when she sat on that half-eaten chocolate egg.”

Amy eased closer, afraid to push too hard, yet desperate to connect, to be allowed to be a part of Ellie's world, if only for a moment.

“Children grow so quickly,” Ellie added.

“Yes, they do.” Amy was afraid to speak, afraid to breathe.

“Barbie's going to be a woman before I know it,” Ellie said, her voice wistful.

Okay, so the moment wasn't so lucid after all. But Amy was determined to have some kind of conversation, even if it was disjointed. “Did you cut the dress fabric into a quilt?”

No response.

Ellie's fingers moved to a piece of green plaid, and she studied it intently, a smile stretching across her lips. She lifted the quilt, held it against her cheek. “Harold loved that shirt.”

A knock sounded at the door, and Amy had to tear herself away from the old woman to answer.

It was Maria, appearing nearly as frantic as Ellie had been when she'd entered the living room just moments before.

“Have you seen Ellie?” she asked.

“She's here, Maria. Come inside.”

“Oh, thank goodness.” Maria entered the house, and when she spotted Ellie, blew out a ragged breath. “I couldn't find her, and I was afraid something had happened to her.”

“I meant to call you. She's only been here a minute.”

They both turned to the old woman, who continued to hold the quilt against her face, rocking slowly, absorbing some kind of comfort.

“The quilt,” Maria said. “She was asking for it last night, and I forgot to mention it to you. I was going to have you look for it.”

“I can see that it meant a lot to her.”

Maria nodded. “She was afraid that she wouldn't remember the important people and events in her life, so she made what she called a memory quilt a year or so ago. She cut satin from her wedding dress, flannel from a baby blanket her mother had made for Barbara, and fabric from some of Harold's clothing.”

“That breaks my heart,” Amy said.

“Mine, too.”

“She must have come looking for it.”

That was possible, although Amy suspected she'd just wandered into the rose garden and on into the house. That she'd stumbled upon it by chance.

Yet Amy supposed it really didn't matter. The fact that she continued to hold the quilt close suggested that there was still a ghost of the old Ellie deep inside.

Chapter 15

Armed with a small grocery list, Barbara pulled into the parking lot at the Farm Fresh Market, found a space near the entrance, and parked.

Joseph had called an hour ago, letting her know that he'd invited a group of political supporters to dinner that evening, a little detail that he'd forgotten to tell her, even though it had been on his office calendar for a week. Another woman might have snapped, but she'd held her tongue and did what she did best—scrambled to make everything right.

Thanks to Adele, her live-in housekeeper, the house was clean, the table was set, and a floral arrangement for the centerpiece had been ordered. With a little luck, the florist would have it delivered by the time Barbara got home.

It had taken three phone calls to line up a chef to prepare hors d'oeuvres and dinner, but Barbara planned to make the dessert herself—her mother's Texas chocolate cake and homemade vanilla ice cream. For some reason, her guests had always marveled over the treat, which gave the meal, as well as her candidate husband, a down-home feel.

Just as she reached for her purse, which rested on the passenger seat, her cell phone rang. She reached for it, but since she'd neglected to return it to the side pouch after she'd taken the last call, she had to dig around her wallet, cosmetic bag, and a clutter of receipts to find it.

Usually she looked at the lighted display to see who was calling first, but she was afraid she'd lose the connection if she didn't answer quickly. “Hello?”

“Barbara? It's Cynthia.”

It was Joey's wife, Barbara realized. Had her voice just cracked? “What's up, honey?”

“Joey…” Cynthia choked back a little sob, and Barbara's heart stalled.

“No! Don't tell me that!”

“No…. He's…not…” She sniffled. “It's just that he had…a setback. They're putting him back in ICU.”

Barbara gripped the cell phone until she thought she might squeeze it in two. “I'll be right there, honey.”

She pushed the End button, then dialed Joseph's office. When Marilyn Rawlings, her husband's secretary, answered, Barbara heard noise in the background, a buzz of conversation, a chuckle or two.

“I need to talk to Joseph,” she said in her best don't-put-me-on-hold voice. “It's important.”

“Your wife on line three,” Marilyn told him.

The din of conversation stilled, and Joseph picked up the line. “Hey, Barb. How's it going?”

“Not good,” she said. “Not good at all. Joey's been placed in ICU. I'm heading to the hospital now. You're going to have to cancel that dinner tonight.”

“Sure,” he said. “Of course. Do you want me to meet you there?”

“That would be a good idea, don't you
think?
” She hadn't meant to snap at him, but he was so caught up in his work, in the campaign strategy, that nothing else seemed to matter. Not their son, not their marriage.

For as long as she could remember, she'd been holding things together, making things right, but she was reaching her limit, and she didn't think he realized it.

“I'm sorry,” she said. “I'm just so worried.”

“I know. I'll get out of here as soon as I can, and I'll meet you at the hospital.”

“Thanks.”

Relieved that they'd found a common ground, a common crisis, she ended the call.

She hadn't meant to put a strain on the marriage she'd fought so hard and so long to keep together.

For years she'd feared that Joseph would walk out on her if he found out what she'd done while he'd been in Vietnam. And even if time might have softened the blow, she feared that he'd be crushed by her coverup, by her deception.

She'd made a deal with God, though. And she was going to spend the rest of her life making it up to everyone involved by being the best wife and mother a family ever had.

And she'd done just that, even if there were times when she'd only gone through the motions of being happy.

But if anything happened to Joey, if her son…Oh, dear God, she couldn't even think it.

Her eyes welled with emotion, with fear, and pain filled her chest. In a rush to get to her son's bedside, she backed out of the parking lot. But before she could blink back her tears, the Jag slammed into something rock hard, and she jerked to a sudden stop.

Oh, for Pete's sake. She glanced in the rearview mirror, expecting to see another vehicle, but spied a police patrol car instead.

How was that for luck?

Her whole life was falling apart, and now this had to happen.

 

Amy sat in haunting silence, grieving for the woman she'd never really met and trying to wrap her mind around what she ought to do now.

She scanned the living room, with the stacks of boxes that had left the once-cozy area as cluttered as Ellie's current mental state. Just moments ago, Maria had led the elderly woman back home. When she'd suggested they take the quilt with them, Ellie had dropped it onto the recliner as though it was a used tissue she no longer needed.

A dull ache throbbed at Amy's temples, and she massaged it away with her fingers. What more could she do here?

She'd been dragging her feet about calling the Realtor—or rather the property manager—but there was no need to dawdle any longer. Ron might as well send someone to pick up the boxes. So she dialed his number, then waited through four rings.

A click sounded, and a canned voice answered, “You've reached Ron Paige with Parkside Realty and Mar Vista Property Management Company. I'm either on another line or have stepped away from my desk. You can leave a message at the tone, or dial zero for an operator now.”

Amy pressed the zero.

Another ring, another click.

A chipper female voice answered. “Parkside Realty. It's a great day to buy a new home.”

“Is Ron Paige in the office?”

“He's on another line. Would you like to leave a message?”

“This is Amy Masterson. Will you have him give me a call?” She left her number, then hung up.

She glanced around the living room again. Even though she'd already set the wheels in motion and someone would soon come to pick up the boxes she'd stacked against the wall, there still didn't seem to be any hurry to pack the last of it. As weird as it might sound, Ellie's essence remained vibrant in this room as long as her things remained in the house.

But Amy couldn't hang out on Sugar Plum Lane forever, even if it was her only connection to Ellie.

She wandered to an antique curio cabinet near the fireplace, ran her fingers along the wood grain and over the lip of the trim. She studied the figurines that rested on glass shelves—a couple of Precious Moments angels and several Hummels—noticing how dusty they'd gotten.

For a moment, she thought about packing them away, then decided to take them to Maria's house instead. That way, Ellie could have them in her room, a reminder of the things that had once meant something to her.

As she turned and headed for the cabinet under the sink to get a dust rag, her gaze shifted to the photographs that lined the mantel. She probably should take those to Ellie, too.

On her way to the kitchen, she again spotted the Bible on the lamp stand. She hadn't given it much thought before; she'd just noticed the worn binding and the embossed lettering that spelled out
Eleanor Rucker
on the front cover. But she just couldn't seem to walk past it this time. So she picked it up and carried it to the sofa, where she took a seat on the cushion nearest the lamp, a place she could easily imagine Ellie sitting, the light turned on for easy reading.

As she opened the cover and flipped through the pages, she noted Ellie's handwriting in the margins, comments she'd made, scripture she'd underlined.

Amy suspected that the highlighted verses might have helped Ellie through some of the trials or struggles she'd had over the years, that they'd given her peace and assurance.

Be still and know that I am God.

Trust in the Lord.

Joy comes in the morning.

She might have taken time to read through them all if she hadn't stumbled across a couple of pieces of stationery that had been folded together and inserted between the pages, where a single passage had been highlighted. The words, “Ask and it shall be given unto you,” rustled over her as she unfolded the paper and saw a list of names.

Each person mentioned had a handwritten explanation underneath.

Was this a prayer list of some kind? It certainly appeared to be.

Maria—

Lord, at times the young woman who lives next door to me is more like a daughter than the one I bore. Please bring a special man into her life, a man who will love her the way Harold loved me, a man who will respect and honor her in a way her ex-husband never did. Let him also be a good father to her kids, the kind of daddy they need.

And bless each of her children, Lord. Especially little Danny. He was the one who was more affected by his father's crime and imprisonment, the one who was hurt the most.

Amy could certainly say “Amen” to that. She wanted the same things for her new friend.

As she continued to peruse the familiar script, she noticed a name she didn't recognize.

Chuck—

I know that he was once hell-bent, Lord, but he's a good man now. And he's turned his life around. He's always got a ready smile and a servant's heart. He needs the money, yet look at all he does for the folks down at the soup kitchen. I know that I don't have to tell You that, but I pray that he will reconcile with his son. And while You're at it, will You please heal that stomach problem he has? I had an uneasy feeling when he told me about it and fear that it might be serious. Don't let him die before making amends with his only child. My heart goes out to them both, and You know why.

Amy had come to trust Ellie's intuition, so she added her own prayer for Chuck and his son before reading on.

Angel—

Dear God, bless that dear child, as well as her family—her parents, her siblings, and any children she might have. You, Lord, are the only one who knows the tears I've shed since handing her over to that woman from the adoption agency. I would have given anything to raise Angel as my own daughter, and I hope someday she will realize that. Please make sure that she was given to a family who was able to love her—perhaps even more than I would have if Barbie hadn't been so dead set against it.

After reading Ellie's journals, Amy had no doubt that Ellie had loved and wanted the baby Barbara had given up, the little girl who'd grown up to be Susan Rossi.

Was that when the rift between mother and daughter had begun? If so, it had been going on for more than forty years, which was a long time to hold a grudge.

Still, Ellie's prayer for “Angel” had been answered many times over. It was just too bad that she hadn't been aware of that. It would have done her heart good.

Her own faith buoyed, Amy whispered, “Thanks for answering that one, Lord.” Then she went on to read the other prayers on Ellie's list.

Joey and Cynthia—

Please continue to bless my dear grandson and his darling wife. He's been such a good boy, Lord. My only regret is that he never knew he had a younger sister, that the two of them didn't grow up together.

When Angel does indeed come home, as You've promised me time and again that she will, I pray that Joey will welcome her with loving arms, and that the two will become close.

Now, there was a prayer that gave Amy pause for reflection. There was no way that Joey would ever be able to meet his sister, but he could certainly meet his niece. The trouble was, Amy wasn't so sure she wanted to become a part of the Rucker family. Maybe, if Ellie had still been mentally alert, she might have felt differently.

But Ellie was no longer a factor. And Barbara seemed cool, aloof, harsh. Not at all like the daughter she'd given up.

Susan Rossi had been warm and loving. Playful, too.

And speaking of Barbara…

Barbara—

I don't even know what to ask for when it comes to my daughter, the heart of my heart. I loved her and doted on her to such an extent as a little girl that she grew to believe the world revolved around her and her needs. Funny how that happens. A mother can try her best to raise her child, and while we all make mistakes, we don't usually recognize them until it's too late to correct them.

I have no idea where that girl got her stubborn streak, Lord, but it will be her downfall if You don't step in and teach her how to temper it. At one time, as a little girl, she was close to You. I pray that she will turn her heart and her life back over to You, Lord. That she will come clean, with You and with Joseph.

Yes, I know why she'd like to keep things a secret, but as Pastor George said in his sermon a couple of Sundays ago, she needs to own her mistakes so she can move on. Otherwise, she'll be like that little hamster Joey used to have, running like crazy on a wheel going nowhere.

Interesting,
Amy thought as she began to connect the dots. If Barbara needed to “come clean” with her husband, then it stood to reason that she'd betrayed him somehow.

Had she hidden the fact that she'd given up their child? Or that she'd been pregnant with another man's baby?

Maybe it had been a matter of infidelity, although it would have been tough to conceal a pregnancy. Wouldn't it?

Amy pondered the possibilities, then shook them off.

Did it really matter?

She supposed it did, if she were to actually approach Barbara and reveal that she was “Angel's” daughter.

But did she even want to broach the subject at all? Did she owe it to her mother to do more than just find the Ruckers?

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