The Indwelling: The Beast Takes Possession (22 page)

Tsion saw this from above now, as if in the middle of the room. He saw himself asleep on the couch. He had heard of out-of-body experiences but had never had one, or dreamed one. This didn’t seem like a dream, didn’t feel like one. He felt weightless, moving higher, wondering if the joists from the flooring above would conk him on the head as he rose and whether that would hurt a floating, hallucinating, dreaming, praying, or sleepr deprived man. He wasn’t sure what kind of a man he was right then, but despite his incredible lightness of being, he felt as conscious and aware as he had ever been. Though he knew he was unconscious, he had never been so attuned to his senses. He could see clearly and feel everything from temperature to the air moving over the hair on his arms as he ascended. He heard every noise in the house, from Kenny’s breathing to the refrigerator kicking on as he passed it.

Yes, he had drifted through the first floor, but he could still see Kenny and neither worried nor felt guilty about leaving him. For he saw himself too, still on the couch, knowing that if Kenny needed him, he could return as quickly as he had left.

The fall air was crisp above the house, yet he was glad he was in shirtsleeves.

It was not uncomfortable, but he was so aware of everything … feeling, seeing, hearing-the wind through the dead-leafed trees. He even smelled the decaying leaves on the ground, though no one burned them anymore. No one did anything anymore that used to be mundane. Life was about surviving now, not about incidentals. If a task did not put food on the table or provide shelter, it was ignored.

In an instant Tsion instinctively shot his arms out for balance and felt as if he had returned almost to his sleeping form in the underground. But the house, the halfdestroyed village of Mount Prospect, the northwest suburbs, the twisted ribbons that used to be highways and tollways, the whole Chicago area had become minuscule beneath him.

Would he soon grow colder, lose oxygen? How could it be that he was this far from home, now looking at a blue globe that reminded him of the hauntingly beautiful pictures of earth from the moon? Daylight turned to night, but the earth was still illuminated. He felt as if he were in the deep recesses of space, maybe on the moon.

Was he on the moon? He looked about him and saw only stars and galaxies. He reached for the earth, because it seemed to recede too quickly. In a strange way, though he could not see it anymore, he sensed he and Kenny still slept in Mount Prospect at the safe house.

He was soon able to see the planets as he drifted, drifted, farther and farther from all that he knew. How fast could he be going? Such physical questions seemed pedestrian, irrelevant. The question was, where was he and where was he going? How long could this go on? It was so, so strange and wonderful, and for the briefest instant, Tsion wondered if he had died. Was he on his way to heaven? He had never believed heaven was on the same physical plane as the universe, somewhere rocket men could go if they had the resources. And at the same time he had never before felt so thoroughly alive. He was not dead.

He was somewhere in his mind, he was convinced.

In an instant, as he seemed to hang weightless in space, it seemed he accelerated yet again. He raced through the vast universe itself, with its numberless galaxies and solar systems. The only sound was his own breathing, and to his amazement, it was rhythmic and deep, as if, as if, as if he were asleep.

But he wondered how so puny a mind could dream such a vista. And as if a switch had been pulled, the darkness turned to the brightest light, obliterating the utter darkness of space. Just as the stars disappear in the light of the sun, so everything he had passed on his way to this plateau vanished. He hung motionless in soundless, weightless animation, a sense of expectancy coursing through him.

This light, like a burst of burning magnesium so powerful as to chase even a shadow, came from above and behind him. Despite the sense of wonder and anticipation, he feared turning toward it. If this was the Shekinah glory, would he not die in its presence? If this was the very image of God, could he see it and live? The light seemed to beckon him, to will him to turn.

And so he did.

RAYFORD
drove as close as he could to the Chicago city limits, staying on a rebuilt collar road that had ominous warning signs its entire length, prohibiting traffic beyond its northern line. Patrolling GC cars ignored the sparse traffic, so Rayford looked for a turn that would appear to take him into a local area but which might lead him off-road to the city.

He felt as conspicuous and obvious as he had in a long time, bouncing over dusty lots and through closed forest preserves in the middle of the day. But he detected no tail. He parked the Land Rover beneath a crumbling former L station.

He and Chloe and Leah sat in the shade, Rayford beginning to feel the fatigue that had preceded his wonderful sleep in Greece.

“This is my fault,” Chloe said. “I was impatient and stupid and selfish. No way we can walk into Chicago until tonight. And how far is it? Twenty miles to the Strong Building? It’ll take hours.”

Leah shifted in her seat. “If you’re looking for someone to argue with you, I can’t. I’m not trying to be mean, but we’re going to sit here until dark. Then we’re going to walk at least five hours to what, check out our next safe house?”

Chloe sat shaking her head.

“We’re not walking anywhere,” Rayford said. “I know this town like the back of my hand. When it’s good and dark, we’re going to drive to the building with our lights off. The GC aren’t keeping people out of here for fun. They really believe it’s contaminated. If we have to turn on the lights now and then to keep from getting swallowed up in a hole and some surveillance plane spots us or some heat detector locates us, at worst they’ll warn us to get out. They’re not coming in after us.”

“No, Dad,” Chloe said. “The worst that will happen is that they force us out and figure out who you are.”

“They would keep their distance and check us for radiation first.”

“And finding none, there goes our whole plan.”

“There’s enough to think negatively about these days,” Rayford said. “Let’s think positive. Bad enough I have to give Buck the news about his family soon.”

“Let me do that, Dad.”

“Are you sure?”

“Absolutely. When he calls, let me talk to him.”

But when Buck called, it was clear this was still not the time to give him news like that. Rayford watched as Chloe seemed to disintegrate on the phone. “Thank you, sweetheart,” she said. “Thanks for telling us. We’ll be praying. I love you too, and Kenny loves you. Call me as soon as you can. Promise me.”

Chloe rang off and quickly brought Rayford and Leah up to speed.

“So that’s where T is,” Rayford said. “Good thinking on Buck’s part. We need to pray for them right now.”

“Especially for Chaim,” Chloe said. “He sounds close.”

“Landing on one wheel is risky,” Rayford said, “but it can be done. I think this is T’s first time in a Super J, though.”

“What kinds of odds would you give them?” Leah said, then appeared to regret asking, realizing Chloe could lose her husband within the next twenty minutes.

“No, I want to know too,” Chloe said. “Really, Dad. What are their chances?”

Rayford stalled but saw little value in getting Chloe’s hopes up. “About one in two,” he said.

Chaim called for Buck, who had joined T in the cockpit.

Buck went back and knelt near Chaim’s seat. “One more question,” Rosenzweig said. “Dare I test God?”

“How?”

“Tell him I want to believe, offer him what’s left of my life, and just see if he’ll accept me in spite of my selfish motive.”

“I can’t speak for God,” Buck said. “But it seems to me if we’re sincere, he’ll do what he promised. You already know that this is about more than mere believing, because you believe now. The Bible says the demons believe and tremble. It’s a decision, a commitment, a receiving.”

“I know.”

“We’re about fifteen minutes out, Chaim, give or take circling and getting some tower help. Don’t stall.”

“But you see?” Chaim said. “That just contributes to my problem. I won’t be any more just because my time may be running out. I may be even less.”

“Let God decide,” Buck said.

Chaim nodded miserably. Buck didn’t envy his having to work this out while wondering how long he had to live. Chloe and Kenny were at the forefront of Buck’s mind, and knowing he would see them again in three and a half years regardless did nothing to abate his desperation not to leave them.

He headed back to the seat next to T. “I’ve been in touch with the tower at an airport south of Ptolemai’s called Kozani. They agree I might have a better shot trying a belly landing than trying to put down on one wheel. No telling how strong that one is, or how good a pilot I am. If I’m not perfect, we bounce and that’s it. Going in flat will allow me to land at the slowest possible speed and hope for the best.”

“You’ve got to really be smooth, don’t you?”

“Tell me about it.”

“You gonna fly over low first and see if they can get a look at the wheels?”

T pointed to the fuel gauge, buried on empty. “You tell me.”

“Well, that could be good news, couldn’t it?”

“How so?” T said.

“If we crash, we don’t burn.”

“If we crash, Buck, you’re going to want to burn. You’re going to wish we were vaporized.”

Tsion felt such a sense of peace and well-being that he didn’t want this to end, dream or not. He knew he should be terrified to turn and face the light, but it was the light itself that drew him.

He did not move as if in water or in a vacuum. He didn’t have to move his limbs.

All he had to do was will himself to turn, and he turned. At first Tsion believed he was looking into a bottomless crevice, the only dark spot in a wall of bright white. But as he backed away from the image, so real he believed he could touch it, other dark spaces of relief came into view. As his eyes adjusted to the light, he pulled back far enough to make out a face. It was as if he dangled between the nose and cheekbone of some heavenly Mount Rushmore image.

But this was neither carved from stone nor made of flesh and bone. Huge and bright and strong, it was also at once translucent, and Tsion was tempted to will himself to pass through it. But as it should have been frightening and was not, he wanted to see the whole. If a head, then a body? He pulled back to see the face ringed with hair massive as prairie grass. It framed a face kindly and yet not soft, loving and yet confident and firm.

Tsion knew beyond doubt he was imagining this, and at the same time it was the most sensory-rich experience of his life. It burned into his mind’s eye, and he believed he would never forget it nor experience anything like it again as long as he lived.

His voice nearly failed him, but he managed to croak, “Are you Jesus the Christ?”

A rumble, a chuckle, a terrestrial laugh? “No,” came A gentle voice that surrounded him and, coming from a mouth that size, should have blown him into oblivion.

“No, son of the earth, I am merely one of his princes.”

Tsion pulled back farther to take in the scope of this beautiful heavenly being.

“Gabriel?” he whispered.

“Gabriel and I are as brothers, child. He announces. I command the heavenly host.”

It came to Tsion at once. The great sword long as the Jordan, the breastplate big as the Sinai. “You are Michael! The prince who shall defend my people, the chosen ones of God.”

“You have said it.”

“Prince of God, have I died?”

“Your time has yet to come.”

“May I inquire more?”

“You may, though I prefer righteous warfare to conversation. Gabriel announces.

I engage in battle.”

“A selfish question, sir. Will I remain until the Glorious Appearing?”

“It is appointed unto men once to die, and—”

“But will I die before the—”

“That is not for you to know, created one. It has no bearing on your obligation to serve the Most High God.”

Tsion wanted to bow to this being and to the truth he spoke. He could not believe he had interrupted Michael the archangel, one of only two named angels in all of Scripture.

“Why am I here if I am not dead?”

“You have much to learn, teacher.”

“Will I learn the identity of Antichrist, the enemy of God?”

Michael seemed to grow stony, if that were possible for an angel. It was as if the mere mention of Antichrist had stoked his bloodlust for battle. He spoke again: “Antichrist shall be revealed in the due time.”

“But, sir,” Tsion said, feeling like a child, “is not now the due time?”

“We measure past, present, and future with different rods than you, son of earth. The due time is the due time, and to the prudent and watchful ones, the revelation will be clear.”

“We’ll know for sure the identity of the … of the enemy?”

“So I have spoken.”

“Teach me all I am here to learn, great prince who stands watch over the sons of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.”

“Stand silent,” the angel said, “observe, and give ear to the truth of the war in heaven. Since the calling up of the righteous dead and alive, the enemy has competed with the hosts of heaven for the remaining souls of men.

“The evil one, that old serpent, has had access to the throne of the Most High since the beginning of time, until now, the appointed time.”

What was he saying? That Tsion was there to witness the end of Satan’s access to the throne, where for millennia he had exercised his power to accuse the children of God? Tsion wanted to ask how he earned so great a privilege, but Michael put a finger to his lips and beckoned with his other hand for Tsion to look past him to the very throne room. Tsion immediately fell prostrate in what seemed the midair of the extended universe. He saw only one figure, bigger, brighter, and more beautiful than Michael himself.

Tsion covered his eyes. “Is it the Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world?”

“Silence, son of earth. This is neither Son nor Father, whom you will not see until your due time. Before you is the angel of light, the beautiful star, the great deceiver, your adversary, Lucifer.”