Authors: Mazo de la Roche
Tags: #FIC045000 – FICTION / Sagas
She said: “Tell him not to trouble. Finch will drive me in, won’t you, Finch?”
“I’d like it awfully.”
“What do you suppose, Alayne?” cried Wake. “I’ve never been on a visit.”
“What a shame! Will you visit me some time? I’d love to have you.” She pressed him to her, on the sofa, and whispered: “Tell me, where is Renny?”
He whispered back: “In the stables, I know, because he sent Wright to the kitchen for something, and I was there.”
Finch was to see her back to the Hut. He ran upstairs for his electric torch.
Alayne was enfolded in the arms of Augusta, Nicholas, and Ernest.
Ernest said: “How shall we ever repay you for what you have done for Eden?”
Nicholas growled: “How shall we ever make up to her for what he has done? Turned her life topsy-turvy.”
Augusta said, holding her close: “If you change your mind about coming to England with me, just let me know. I’ll make you very welcome.”
“I advise you not to,” said Nicholas. “She’ll freeze you in that house of hers.”
“Indeed I shan’t! I know how to make people comfortable if anyone does. It was I who arranged the cottage for her, though Mama took all the credit.” From her was exhaled a subdued odour of the black clothes she wore, and of a hair pomade with the perfume of a bygone day.
Finch and Alayne were out in the darkness, the beam from the electric torch thrown before her. Cold, sweet scents rose from the flower beds. The grass was dripping with dew.
“Let us go through the pine wood,” she said. She had thought to return that way with Renny.
They spoke little as they went along the bridle path beneath the pines. Her mind was engaged with its own
unhappy thoughts. Finch’s was filled with the sadness of life, its reaching out, its gropings in the dark, its partings. It was cold under the trees. From a cluster of hazels came the troubled talking of small birds passing the night there on their migration to the South.
Finch flashed the light among the branches, hoping to discover the small things perching. His attention was diverted to a more distant sound, as of footsteps moving among the pines.
“What are you listening to?” whispered Alayne.
“I thought I heard a twig break. Someone in there. Wait a second.” He left her and ran softly padding toward the sound.
She strained her ears to listen, her eyes following the moving beam of the electric torch. The sound of Finch’s padding steps ceased. The light was blotted out. She was in black silence except for the infinitesimally delicate song of a single locust on a leaf near her. She was frightened.
She called sharply: “Finch! What are you doing?” “Here! It was nothing.”
The torch flashed again; he trotted back to her. “One of the men hanging about.” He thought: “Why was Renny hiding in the wood? Why didn’t he turn up at the house? If looks could kill, I’d be a dead man! Gosh, he looked like Gran!”
The Hut lay in darkness, save for starlight sifting among the trees. A tenuous mist hung among their trunks, weighted with chill autumnal odours, dying leaves, fungus growths such as wood mushroom and Indian pipe, and the exhalations of deep virgin soil.
Alayne opened the door. Dark and cold inside. Eden had gone to bed early. He might have left the lamp burning and
put wood on the fire! Finch flashed the light into the interior. She found a match and lighted two candles on the table. Her face in the candlelight looked white and drawn. A great pity for her welled up in the boy’s heart. She seemed to him the loneliest being he knew. He glanced at the closed door of Eden’s room. Was Eden awake, he wondered.
Alayne said: “Wait a minute, Finch. I must get that book I want you to read.” She went into her room. “Goodness, what a muddle I have here!”
“Oh, thanks! But don’t trouble now.” The laundry list decorated with postage stamps caught his eye. What the dickens? He peered at it, puzzled. Some of Eden’s foolery, he’d bet. The stamps not used ones either. If they went away and left that pinned to the wall, he’d come and get the stamps.
When she returned, after what seemed a long while to Finch, what little colour she had had in her face had been drained from it. She laid the book on the table.
“There,” she said in a strained voice, “I hope you will like it.” She went on, with an odd contraction of her mouth, “I have just had a note from Eden.” He saw then that she had crumpled a piece of paper in her hand.
“Oh,” he said, stupidly, his jaw dropping, “what’s he writing a note about?”
She pushed it into his hand. “Read it.” He read:
DEAR ALAYNE—
After all your preparations it is I who am to flit first! And not to flit alone! Minny Ware is coming with me. Are you surprised, or have you suspected something between us? At any rate, it will be a surprise for poor old Meggie. I’m afraid I am never to have done taking favours from your sex. There is only one thing for you to do now, and that is divorce me. I am giving you good grounds—and not so impossibly scandalous as the first time. My dear child, this is the first really good turn I’ve ever done you. My withers are wrung when I think what you must have gone through this summer!
If you and Renny don’t come together, I’ll feel that I have sinned in vain.
We are not going to California, but to France. I shall be writing to Finch from there, so he will be able to inform your lawyer of my exact whereabouts.
Thank you, Alayne, for your magnanimity toward me. I can say thanks on paper.
Yours,
E
DEN
.
Finch read the letter through with so distraught an expression that Alayne burst into hysterical laughter.
“Oh, Finch, don’t!” she gasped. “You look so funny, I can’t bear it!”
“I don’t see anything funny about it,” he said. “I think it’s terrible.”
“Of course it’s terrible. That’s what makes it so funny. That, and your expression!” She leaned against the wall, her hand pressed to her side, half laughing, half crying.
He strode toward Eden’s room and flung open the door. It was in a state of disorder such as Eden alone could achieve. Alayne came and stood beside Finch, looking into the room. He could feel that she was shaking from head to foot. He put his arm about her.
“Dear Alayne, don’t tremble so! I’m afraid you’ll be ill.”
“I’m all right. Only I’m very tired, and Eden’s way of doing things is so unexpected!”
“I’ll say it is! I’m the one that ought to know. He didn’t tell me he was going to take a girl with him when he borrowed the money.”
She was bewildered. “Borrowed the money? What money?”
“The money for the year in France. I raised it for him. But for heaven’s sake don’t tell Renny of it or I’ll get into a frightful row!”
She ceased trembling, her face set. “He borrowed money from
you
—to go to
France?”
He assented, not without self-importance.
“But, Finch, Renny was paying for a winter in California!”
“I know. But Eden didn’t want to go to California. He wanted a year in France. He must have it because of something he’s going to write. I can’t explain. You understand how it is. You left your work and came here to nurse him because of his poetry. It makes you feel that what he is doesn’t really matter. You and I feel the same about art, I think. I hope you don’t think I’m a fool.” He was very red in the face.
She must not hurt his feelings by deprecating his act. Ah, but Eden would never pay him the money back! She put a hand on each of his cheeks, and kissed him.
“It was a beautiful thing to do, Finch! I’ll not tell a soul… Strange how he uses us, and then leaves us standing staring at the spot where he has been.”
She took the letter from Finch and read it again. The colour returned to her face in a flood.
“I wish I hadn’t let you read it. Because of—things he said. You must forget them. He’s so—ruthless.”
Finch grunted acquiescence. Of course. That about Renny and her. Still… he stared into the deserted nest from whence the singer had flown. How desolate! How lonely it was here! No place for a woman.
He broke out: “You can’t stop here tonight! You must come back with me.”
“I am not afraid.”
“It’s not that. It’s the gruesomeness. I couldn’t stick it myself. I’ll not leave you.”
“I would rather be here.”
“No. It won’t do! Please come. Aunt will like to have you. There’s your old room waiting.”
She consented. They returned.
There were lights upstairs now, but a light still burned in the drawing-room, and from it came the sound of the piano. Nicholas was playing.
From the hall they could see his grey leonine head and heavy shoulders bent above the keyboard. Alayne remembered with a pang that she had not asked him to play that evening, though she had urged Finch.
He was playing Mendelssohn’s “Consolation.” When had one heard Mendelssohn! His terrier sat drooping before the fire waiting for him to come to bed.
Finch whispered: “Shall you tell him?”
“Yes. Wait till he has finished.”
They stood motionless together. When the last notes had died, Alayne went to his side. He remained looking at his hands for a little, then slowly raised his eyes to her face.
Startled by her reappearance, he exclaimed: “Alayne, my dear! What is wrong?”
“Don’t be alarmed,” she said. “It’s nothing serious. It’s only that Eden has gone away a little sooner than I
expected. He left a note at the Hut for me. Finch wouldn’t let me stay there alone—so I’m back, you see.” Her head drooped; she twisted her fingers together. Her voice was scarcely audible as she added: “He took Minny Ware with him.”
Nicholas’s large eyes glared up at her. “The deuce he did! The scoundrel! He ought to be flogged. My poor little girl—” He heaved himself around on the piano seat and put his arm about her waist. “This is the return he makes you for all your kindness! He’s nothing but a young wastrel! Does Renny know of this?”
“I haven’t seen Renny.” She was filled with shame at the thought of Renny. Now she did not want to see him. She would leave this house and never return to it again.
Augusta was calling from upstairs: “Did I hear Alayne’s voice? What is wrong, Nicholas?”
Full of excitement, he limped vigorously to the foot of the stairs.
“Gussie!” He had not given her this diminutive for years. “Come along down, Gussie! Here’s a pretty kettle of fish. Young Eden has run off with that hussy Minny!”
He turned to Alayne and Finch, who had followed him into the hall. “Do you know where they’ve gone?”
Finch was getting excited, too. “To France!” he shouted, as though his uncle were deaf.
Augusta began to descend the stairs, dressed in petticoat and camisole, a tail of hair down her back. If ever she had looked offended, she looked offended now.
“Nick, you don’t mean to tell me!”
Ernest appeared at the top of the stairs in nightshirt and dressing gown, the cat Sasha rubbing herself against his legs.
“What’s this new trouble?” he demanded.
Augusta on the stairs, midway between the brothers, answered: “Some scrape of Eden’s. I’m afraid that Ware girl has been leading him into mischief. Nicholas does get so excited.”
Just as they drew together at the bottom of the stairs, and Nicholas was demanding to see Eden’s letter, and Augusta was declaring that she had always expected something like this, and Ernest was saying what a blessing it was that Mama had not lived to see this night, and Nicholas was retorting that no one enjoyed a to-do better than Mama, quick steps were heard in the porch and the door was opened by Renny.
Before he had seen her, Alayne fled down the hall. She could not face him there before the others. She would escape to her room and not see him before morning.
She heard his question: “What’s up?” She heard Nicholas put the situation pithily before him. He made no audible comment, but she could picture his expression, how the rustred eyebrows would fly up, the brown eyes blaze. Then she heard Augusta’s voice.
“Alayne is here, poor girl. She is staying the night. Why, where has she gone? Alayne, dear, Renny is here!”
She did not answer. The door of Grandmother’s room stood open; she stepped inside and drew it to after her. She was startled to find the night light burning. By its faint radiance the room was revealed to her in an atmosphere of sombre melancholy; the tarnished gilt flourishes on the wallpaper, the deep wing chair before the empty grate, the heavy curtains with their fringe and tassels, the old painted bedstead, on the headboard of which perched, above the fantastically pictured flowers and fruit, Boney his head under his wing.
The room seemed conscious of this intrusion. It had absorbed, during the years of old Adeline’s occupancy,
enough of human emotions to give it food for brooding while its walls stood. Every article there bore the imprint of that trenchant personality. Now, dimly revealed by the night light, these inanimate objects had the power to recreate her presence. The bed was no longer smooth and cold, but rumpled and warm from the weight of that heavy, vigorous old body. Alayne thought: “If I had come into her room like this, how she would have held out her arms, and grasped me, and begged, ’Kiss me… Kiss me, quick!’”
Alayne stood by the bed, listening. Had they gone upstairs again, or into the drawing-room to talk? She could hear voices, but Renny’s voice, which carried so distinctly, was not audible. The impetus given to her passion for him by her surroundings, by his sudden appearance, made her heart beat painfully. She steadied herself by her hand on the footboard.
He was coming.
Involuntarily she moved toward the door, as though to bar it against him. But he was there before her. He pushed it open and came inside. In the clouded radiance of the night light, against the background of a heavy maroon curtain, she saw the face she loved. The face she called up in the night, the face that haunted her by day. There he stood—she could put out her hand and touch him. He lived in her, and the urge toward him would not be denied. But what did she really know of him? What was really his conception of love and happiness? She did not know. He was an enigma to her to which the only answer was the cry of her heart.