"She's doing better," she said. "I'll tell her."
"I didn't know she'd been sick," Luap said.
"Oh. I thought maybe that was why you came—"
"No, I've been out in the new place—surely she told you?"
Eris shrugged. "I don't pay that much mind, to be sure. She's getting on, you know. She did say something—about a new place, and we might go—but she'll never shift out of her own room, again, let alone move the household."
"But—" He said no more. He had counted on Dorhaniya, old as she was; something about her eased his mind in a way no one else did. To her, he was the prince, the legitimate heir to the throne, and while she agreed he must never take the throne, she still gave him the deference, the respect, she thought due his birth.
"I'll tell her," said Eris again. "Please—wait here—she'll want to see you, but she'll want to dress."
He waited in a stuffy little room hardly warmer than outside. Perched on a carved chair that seemed designed to poke him in the spine if he relaxed, he looked around at a room lit by sunlight reflected from a snowy back yard, perhaps a garden in summer. Gradually, he recognized the contents, the tools and supplies of a lifetime's occupation for a woman of Dorhaniya's class. Baskets of fine-spun yarn in neat balls, two standing tapestry frames, another hand-frame with a half-finished design placed neatly on a table under the window. He stood, after another vicious poke from the chair, and went to the table. Outlined in a circle of blue, a white G and gold L intertwined, the stitches so tiny that, as with the altarcloth, he almost believed the design painted and not embroidered. He glanced at the frames. On one, another version of the G and L design, this one set in a blue rectangle bordered with red and white interlacing. To his eyes, it looked finished. The other, hardly begun, he could not interpret—something geometrical, he thought, in green and blue and red.
"She begs your pardon," said Eris, behind him; Luap turned quickly. "She wants to see you, but wishes to have me put up her hair. Would you like something to drink?" She had brought a tray with a tall, narrow silver pot; the scent of the vapor rising took him straight back to childhood. What had it been called? Something he'd never tasted, but served to the adults in the afternoon. "Selon, perhaps?" said Eris, touching the pot. Luap nodded, more curious than thirsty. It looked as he remembered, darker than sib, with a hint of red, but clear. Eris poured into a cup thin as an apple petal, and shaped almost flowerlike, of five lobes. He took it, inhaled, and smiled at her. The impulse came to confide.
"I haven't smelled this since I was a boy," he said. Her answering smile was clearly ironic.
"I don't doubt," she said, in a voice that halted any further confidence. "No more trade to Aarenis or Old Aare; my lady's had the sacks hidden in her grain-jars more than half her life. It was her husband's, the Duke's—part of the marriage settlement, it was, for my lady's father craved selon, especially in cold weather. Hasn't been any in the markets since I was a girl, not even for the richest mageborn. Yet my lady'd rather starve than sell it." From her tone and expression, it was clear that Eris had never tasted it, and that it would never occur to Dorhaniya to share, and that Eris would resent any questions far more than her lady's thoughtlessness.
Luap sipped. A strange flavor, that fit well with its aroma: rich, exciting, an edge of bitterness (though less bitter than sib, and needing no spoonful of honey to ease it down.) By the end of the cup, he felt rested, as if waking from a night's sleep. Eris had left the tray on the table; he considered pouring himself another cup, but resisted the temptation. Lady Dorhaniya might want to share one with him, and it would not look well if he had guzzled the whole pot. But the tray also held a small plate, of the same delicate ware, with tiny pastries; he tried one and found it delicious. He had not suspected Eris of being that good a cook. He ate another, then another.
"She's ready," said Eris from the doorway. She turned and led the way up a short flight of stairs, and showed Luap into a room in the front of the house, overlooking the street. He stopped just inside the door, appalled. It had not been that long—surely it had not been that long! Exquisitely clean and groomed as always, she lay against piled pillows, silver hair elaborately dressed—but no longer the spry elderly lady he had known. Only her eyes still looked alive, and even there, he thought, he could see the faint veils of approaching death wrapping her gently away from the world.
It could not be; he would not have it. He was making the safe place for her to live; she must live until he made it. He would heal her—he remembered then that Aris was in the new stronghold. Well, then, he would get Aris. He realized he was standing there, like any rude clod, saying nothing, and that she was smiling at him, the rueful smile of any grandparent observing a child in distress.
"You can't do it," she said, her voice as fragile as a frost-fern on the window. "It is not something you can cure."
"Aris—" he said.
She shook her head, once, very carefully, as if she feared it might come off. "No, my prince. Not even that sweet boy—man though he is—can defeat age. I'm glad you came back in time; I wanted to see you again."
He knelt by her bed, holding her hand in his and blinking back tears. It was hard to remember how he had resented her at first, when he felt she intruded on his childhood memories. Now it was as if he had always known her, as if she were part of his own family. "I wanted you to see it," he said softly. "I thought of you, as we carved the valley walls. . . ."
"I know," she said. "You told me. . . . I can almost see them in my mind, the way you said. A land made of castles, towers and walls, rose-red and pink and sunset-orange. I think of you standing there in the sun, atop a red stone wall, the wind blowing your cloak. Your place, your own land. Prince, if you never wear a crown, you will still have more than your father had, when you have your own land, at peace, with your own people around you."
In her soft old voice, the dream came alive; he forgot the surly guards, Sterin's doubts, the Marshal-General's obstructions. Already, the terraces lay green with springing grain, edged with vegetables, and fruit trees bore blossom and fruit on the same branch in a warm spring sun.
He blinked. Whoever did or did not have the power of charming men, Dorhaniya had it full measure, though he doubted she knew it. That vision had been hers, not his—for his included watchtowers on the height. "I came directly here," he said. "To the—to Esea's Hall; the same pattern is there, behind the altar. I could take you back, if only for—"
Her head turned slowly. "Prince, if you command, I will do even this—but I would not live to see it. Esea's light almost blinds me even now. Do not trouble yourself about me—think of the others you are working to save. Think of your friend Gird—"
"Gird?" The last person he wanted to think of right then, and the last he'd expected her to mention.
A sigh escaped her. "Prince, never forget him. He was—more than a man, I think. A great man, at the least. Peasant though he was, the gods gave him light to see beyond the rest of us. And he was your friend, though he and you might both deny it."
"I . . . would not deny it."
"Wise of you." She drew a breath, and let it out slowly. "If I cough, prince, do not fret. Just wait." He waited; she did not cough, but did not speak for some time. Then: "Gird loved you, but as a man loves a son he does not understand. And so his advice to you could not be precisely fitted—but it was not bad, for all that. You were his luap; I would not have you disloyal."
"Disloyal?" His heart sank. Could she possibly imagine all he had thought? Hoped? And would even she consider it disloyal?
"Downstairs," she said. "In the room where Eris left you. You saw the embroidery?"
"Yes, lady." Was her mind wandering?
"Prince, I charge you to take as your crest that symbol." It was as if a tiny child had spouted legal theory, or a wren had given voice to an eagle's scream. Luap felt his jaw drop, and hastened to shut it again. It was not a voice to bear argument. "Gird and Luap—your initials intertwined. I think of you as a prince, as indeed you are, but Esea's light shows me you will prosper as Gird's luap only. Stray from that at your peril."
"But, lady—why do you think—?"
"Because—" Her old face crumpled, and her grip tightened on his hand. "Prince, I will not insult you—but remember an old lady's years. I had children; I had nieces and nephews enough, watched them grow through all the awkwardnesses of youth to adulthood, saw the same patterns in the adult as in the child, the same grain in the wood. It is not your fault; I could never blame you. But you know what I mean—don't make me say it!"
"I don't hate Gird," he said, almost whispering.
"That is not enough," she said. "You must love him. You must be his luap, truly his luap, before you can be the prince you are—or rather, the prince you were meant to be."
"To all but you, I have always been his luap."
"Then . . . to me also, be his luap."
"But, lady . . . you were the one who said I must be a prince; you encouraged me."
"Yes. I did." Her other hand plucked at the lace on the coverlet. "I did not always understand, until Gird died. I thought it was foolishness longer than I should have, all that about Gird's rule being one for both peoples. But it came to me when he died, that he was right: that was the only way. And if I encouraged you to think of your heritage, and that made you unwilling to enter into Gird's vision, then I was wrong and Esea may send me to the dark forever."
"You could not be so wrong," Luap said. He squeezed her hand. "You, who love the gods so much—how could they be angry with you?"
"Don't be silly!" Again that tone of authority that stung like a lash. "Selamis—no,
I
will call you Luap! If that will get through your thick head—how can you think of the gods as indulgent grandparents? If I cause great harm, then of course Esea will be angry with me. I only hope I have not, or that I can cure it."
"You have not caused any harm," said Luap firmly. If he could do nothing else, he would soothe the fears of this dying old woman. "You are quite right; I am Gird's luap. I loved Gird from the day I met him, served him as well as I could, and will continue to honor his memory to the day I die. Don't fear I could forget him."
She had fallen back against her pillows again. "You will use the crest I made?" she asked, her voice unsteady. "You will be loyal?"
He kissed her hand. "I will use it," he said. "I will carve it into the very rock, if that will please you. And I will serve Gird's memory as I served him in life." He meant that, and his voice carried all that conviction.
"Esea's light guide you," she said. She lay for awhile, eyes shut, breathing shallowly. Eris came in to sit beside Luap.
"It won't be long," she murmured. "Today, perhaps tomorrow."
Luap forgot time, and sat silently, holding that old hand with its soft loose skin, until the light failed outside. Eris went to fetch candles; when she came back, Dorhaniya's breathing had changed. She seemed to struggle, panting, then all at once lay motionless, each breath slower than the last. Luap waited long for the last, before he realized it had already come and gone. Beside him, Eris sobbed.
"You can take a wagonload of soil, but no more," said the Marshal-General when he summoned Luap. By his expression, he expected Luap to argue.
"Thank you. Marshal-General," said Luap, "for your generosity."
"And you can't take it from any working farm," the Marshal-General went on, "or from any grangeland. You must find unclaimed land, and take it there."
"Of course, Marshal-General."
"And take it out the
other
way—we don't want a wagonload of dirt in the Lord's Hall."
Luap started to say that a wagon wouldn't fit into the little cave chamber, and realized that was what the Marshal-General hoped he'd do. He bowed instead. "Of course, Marshal-General; that would not be fitting."
"And,"
the Marshal-General went on, as if reaching for something at which Luap would balk, "and you will have a yeoman-marshal with you, to ensure that you take your soil as I said, from unclaimed land only."
Luap shrugged, as much in anger as resignation, but managed not to say what he was thinking. The Marshal-General stalked to his door, opened it, and beckoned to a short muscular woman wearing the blue shirt that most yeoman-marshals wore these days. Apparently he had already explained her task, for now he simply pointed to Luap and said, "Make sure, Binis, that he does what I said."
"Right, Marshal-General." She looked at Luap as if he were a thief on trial; he could feel his ears growing hot. He would, he decided, change her mind before he left, if he could not change the Marshal-General's. "When do we leave?" she asked Luap.
"After a friend's funeral," he said. "An old lady I've known a long time, a friend of Gird's—she died yesterday."
"Who?" asked the Marshal-General.
"Dorhaniya, who made the altar cloths for the Lord's Hall."
"A magelady," growled the Marshal-General.
"Gird thought of her as a pious old woman who cared more about the gods than any quarrel of men," said Luap, putting a bite in it. "He enjoyed talking to her—but you weren't in the city then, were you?" He regretted that even as it popped out, for it would do no good to remind the Marshal-General that he had never been close to Gird. The man scowled even more darkly.
"Even Gird made mistakes," he said.
"I must go," said Luap, "but we can leave at dawn, day after tomorrow. Meet you in the kitchen?" He looked only at Binis, who glanced uncertainly from him to the Marshal-General. The Marshal-General nodded, then she did.
"But don't try to sneak out without me," she said. "I'm a tracker; I would find you."
"That's as well," said Luap, "since we'll be traveling in the midst of winter storms. I will depend on your tracking ability when the snow flies."
The Marshal-General grinned at him. "That's right . . . how are you going to dig your soil while it's frozen? You can't use your magery here; it's against the Code and your own oath forbids you."