The Legend of the Bloodstone (30 page)

“Are ye out here meeting someone? Maybe
yer savage lover?” he sneered.

“You’re a disgusting sod. Let me pass!”
she hissed. She shrugged off the hand he placed on her shoulder. “And keep your hands to yourself, you bloody bastard!”

The insult struck a nerve, and before she could get
away he shoved her against the wall. His faced came close to hers in all its rancid glory, his breath like curdled milk tainted with ale. Her head snapped back painfully when he clamped a hand over her mouth.

“You best keep that trap shut, if ye know what’s good
fer ye! Yer the blasted harlot with the savage bastard in yer belly, are ye not?”

She cursed him, her words muffled under his hand. Suddenly he let go, looking her up and down from breast to toes, nodding to
himself.

“Off with
ye, now. I wouldna touch the leavings of a savage, in any case,” he muttered.

She darted away, her cloak clutched in her hands.
It was not the first time a man made inappropriate advances, and she was certain it would not be the last.  The colony was sorely lacking in women, and when the men fell into their cups they could be quite obnoxious. Just like men of any other time, she thought angrily.

When she reached the inside of the barn without
further pursuit, she stood there for a moment, scanning the crowd. Her heart hammered like a jackrabbit through her chest as she searched for Benjamin, who she finally spotted in a crowd of men. He saw her and grinned, and raised one finger with his brows raised at her.  She nodded and took her former seat watching the dancers.

The frantic squeal of the fiddle rose above the laughter, a rhythmic illusion of happiness in the air. She felt the wetness on her cheek, streaking down as she closed her eyes, wishing the numbness to take her to a place where no dream laid waste and all those faithful led a beautiful life.

Looking around at English, skirts rustling and cloaks flinging in dance, she let out a sob and found camaraderie in the tears. Is this how her life would be, and endless cycle of aimless dance, pleasing her husband, pleasing the townsfolk, yet bereft to fill the empty pit where her heart once resided?

Now you will never be lonely, for we will be together.

His voice smothered those of the celebration. She could hear it as if he were next to her, holding her hand, brushing his lips across her cheek, the sweet simple touch of the man who held her heart.

But
Winn, I am lonely.

She felt a wave of nausea, that gentle reminder of the life growing inside her. She placed her hand over her nearly flat stomach.

She would carry on, because she must. She would endure a life in his time without him, because she must. She would protect their son with the last bit of her breath, if it was needed of her.

And
she would love him until the day she died, because without the ache of such emotion, she feared her charred heart would beat no more.

***

Maggie watched as Finola tended the last customer of the day. She was not often present when the healer closed down her wares for the evening, and frankly was puzzled Benjamin left her at the shop for such a lengthy visit.  Whatever motive was behind his reasoning, she was grateful for it, happy to relax with Finola. The only comfort she felt of late was spent in the presence of the healer, the only person who knew all her secrets and accepted her as such.

“Some tea, child?” Finola asked.  Maggie nodded and rose to help her with the heavy copper kettle.

“Here, let me.”

“Nay! Sit
yerself, dear, I can manage.” The older woman tossed her long blond braid back over her shoulder, her brows raised as she surveyed Maggie. “Has the sickness passed yet? I fear ye eat not enough to feed the babe.”

“I’m eating more now, it will be enough,” Maggie assured her.

“Ye thinks the bairn a lad or lass? I canna see myself what it be.”

Maggie smiled as Finola shook her head. The witch had been trying to see the sex of the babe for the last few weeks, eager to give an identity to the child. 
The English rarely asked for her predictions, so she was out of practice, and with a much more personal stake in the knowledge of Maggie’s pregnancy the woman tried every method she knew of to decipher what it would be.

“If only we had an ultrasound, there would be no question,” Maggie laughed.

“What say you? Tell me of this magic!”

“Ah, it’s no magic. Just a … a machine that makes a picture of the baby, inside the womb.  It uses sound waves to make the image.” Maggie did the best she could explaining the marvelous use of the medical device. Finola was a most avid listener, devouring every
tidbit Maggie explained of the life she left behind. In their frequent talks, Maggie had already described television and cameras, so the description of ultrasound was not too far of a leap to comprehend.

“
Tis most useful then, this yulta-sound?”

“Yes,” Maggie sighed, knowing she would have no such comforts of the
well-being of her babe during the pregnancy. Although she had no bleeding or other indication of problems, she still worried damage was done by the beating she endured.  “I would give just about anything to have an ultrasound right now.”

Maggie felt Finola pat her hand,
then the woman turned quickly back to the boiling kettle.

“Perhaps we should send ye back. Back to ye own time.”

Maggie froze. Surely, she had not heard the woman correctly. There was no way to return, Maggie had accepted that fact.

“There is no way to return, is there, Finola?” Maggie asked, her hoarse voice
rising shrill the more she spoke. “Please tell me!”

“Aye, I know no way, without
yer own Bloodstone,” the woman admitted, shaking her head with her eyes fastened on the mug of tea she poured. “But I will go to the village, and try to find it for ye, if that’s what you need to be happy, child.”

Maggie felt the wetness on her cheeks, unaware she was crying.

“You would do that for me?”

“
Oh, my sweet Maggie,” the woman murmured, taking her into her arms. Maggie squeezed her tight, never in her life knowing what the embrace of a mother’s love felt like, yet knowing her friendship with Finola echoed the spirit of it.  “Of course I would. If sending ye back to yer time would make it all easier to bear, then yes, I will.”

“I don’t know what I want,” Maggie sniffed, feeling the comfort of Finola gently patting her back. “I don’t know where I belong. Here, or in the future, I would still miss him.
Can the Bloodstone take this pain away, can it make me forget? Or can it take me back…” she stood upright away from Finola, tremors overtaking her body as the ideas leapt into her mind. “Can I go back to stop it? Can I stop what happened that day, to save Winn?”  She grabbed Finola’s hands, barely able to contain the rush of hope. They sat down together on a wooden bench.

“No, child. It does not work in such a way. You canna live a time more than once.
And ye must have a bit of your place on ye when you go, so the Bloodstone knows where to send ye. It’s a tricky thing, ye see.”

“A bit of your place?”

“A piece of the time yer meant for. Anything will do. A button, a brooch, any small tidbit of the time ye mean to travel to.  It helps to point the way.”

Maggie reached into the folds of her apron and pulled out
the raven.  The pitted iron was heavy in her hand, but the tiny likeness felt solid. She held it out to Finola.

“Something like this? How could it matter, it’s just a
toy.”

Finola reached slowly for the charm. The woman raised it up with both hands in front of her face, her blue eyes widening at she studied it.  She looked at Maggie, then back to the iron raven, her mouth falling open.

“Where did you get this?” Finola finally asked.

“
Marcus gave it to me when I was about five. I used to have terrible nightmares, awful dreams, sent me screaming bloody murder to grandpa’s room every night.” She smiled a bit at the memory. “Marcus said the raven would chase away the monsters, that no one could hurt me as long as the raven watched over me. I’ve kept it ever since. It traveled through time with me, it’s the only thing I have left from the place I come from.”

They both looked up at the creak of floorboards. Benjamin stood in the doorway. His face
was etched in a mask, his skin pale beneath his crumpled brows. Behind him was Charles Potts. Maggie stood reflexively and patted down her apron, shielding her eyes as creeping fingers of panic gripped her. How much of their conversation had the men heard?

“
Good day, Mistress,” Benjamin said. He nodded curtly to Finola, and took Maggie’s hand firmly in his. She did not resist the pressure of his touch, even though his fingers tightened so much she feared he would bruise her.

Maggie met
Finola’s eyes.  They shared one panicked glance before Benjamin pulled her into the street

***

Maggie watched at the window for Benjamin’s return.  He did not speak to her on the ride home, his gloved hands fisted over the reins, and she was reluctant to spark a conversation.  It was clear he overheard some of the exchange, yet Maggie could not tell how much information he gleaned from his eavesdropping.  

“Get
ye in the house and wait for my return. Stay inside,” was all he uttered. He took a fresh horse from the barn and rode off back toward town, and it was the last Maggie had seen of him since noontime.

A wide bright moon lit the darkness as night wore on. After she had changed into a simple white shift and let her hair down for bed, she finally heard the pounding of hooves against earth and knew he had returned.

“Benjamin! I was worried!” she said as he crossed the room.  The door slammed shut behind him with a thud and she felt the tremor of the floorboards beneath her bare feet with the force of it.  He shed his cloak and hat, tossing them carelessly into a heap near the fire.

She took a deep breath to steady herself.  Turning to the hearth, she reached for a bowl to ladle him a bit of stew, but stopped at the sound of his low, cold voice.

“I want truth between us, my wife,” he said evenly, advancing toward her one slow pace at a time. She equaled it by stepping backward, keeping the distance as best she could. She had never seen him so affected, not certain what emotion lay beneath his features as the veins on his neck bulged and sweat glistened on the chest exposed by his half-opened shirt.

“I don’t know what you mean,” she replied.
He reeked of spirits, but his eyes were still sharp as he latched his steady gaze on her. She had never feared Benjamin, yet the manner in which he stalked her made her heart start to thud against her bodice.  They had an arrangement; he would not come to her bed without invitation, and with the stench he carried in from the tavern she was certain that time would not be tonight.

Her hand bumped the latch to her bedroom, and she sprung it, trying to slam the door shut before he could reach it. She was certain he would be more reasonable in the morning after he slept off the liquor.

She made a grave error in thinking the door would deter him, and she shrieked when he shouldered the door
before she could latch it, and he stalked toward her quickly now as if the door had been no barrier at all.

“
Where do ye come from!” he shouted. “Who are yer people?” He grabbed her arms then, and it crossed her mind that she was frightfully tired of men grabbing her like a sack of potatoes. She tried to shake him off, but he was strong, after all, and clearly not ready to budge.

“
Stop it!” she cried. He shook her hard.

“
Did Winn know? Tell me!” She flinched at mention of his name, and he read the look on her face with ease.

“Stop it, Benjamin, stop it!” she yelled, finally wrenching away from him. He kissed her then, hard and harsh, no trace of the gentle soul beneath.

“Ye are my wife, before God we were married. Have ye no love for me at all? Have ye no care to tell me? Ye lay with Winn, tell him your secrets, yet I get not even a sliver of such truth from ye!”

“Benjamin, please-”

“Did ye go to him willingly, or did he ravage ye?”

“
Stop it,” she moaned.

“
Tell me, wife!”

“Benjamin-”

“No more lies. Take off ye shift.”

“Ben-”

“
Take it off
!” he roared. She did as he asked, biting down hard on her bottom lip to quell her sobs. Unwinding the laces in front with shaking fingers, she let it drop around her ankles to the floor. What did it matter now? Let him have his victory over her, let him qualm his anger, and in the morning he would beg forgiveness and life would go on.

His eyes
were glazed, with anger and something else, and she closed her eyes against his perusal. Standing naked before him in the light, she knew he could see the gentle swelling of her belly and the fullness in her heavy breasts, and Winn’s Bloodstone pendant hanging against her skin. She hoped it would not incite him further.