The Line of Beauty (44 page)

She came in at her gracious scuttle, with its hint of a long-suppressed embarrassment, of clumsiness transmuted into power.
She looked ahead, into the unknown house, and everything she saw was a confirmation. The high hall mirror welcomed her, and
in it the faces of the welcomers, some of whom, grand though they were, had a look beyond pride, a kind of rapture, that was
bold and shy at once. She seemed pleased by the attention, and countered it cheerfully and practically, like modem royalty.
She gave no sign of noticing the colour of the front door.

Upstairs, calm was re-established, but of a special kind, the engaged calm of progress once the overture has finished and
the curtain has gone up. People recollected themselves. There was a sort of unplanned receiving line when the Lady came into
the room (her husband, behind her, slipped modestly towards a drink and an old friend). Barry Groom, bouncing back from a
low point with a call girl in the spring, dropped his head with horrible humility as the PM took his hand; it was later claimed
that he had even said hello. Wani she greeted humorously, as someone she had seen recently elsewhere—he won the glow of recognition
but surrendered the claim to need to speak to her so soon again; though he held on to her hand and it wasn't clear for a moment
if he was going to kiss her. Gerald steered her jealously on, murmuring names. Nick watched with primitive interest as she
approached; again she was beyond manners, however courtly and jewelled. Her hair was so perfect that he started to picture
it wet and hanging over her face. She was wearing a long black skirt and a wide-shouldered white-and-gold jacket, amazingly
embroidered, like a Ruritanian uniform, and cut low at the front to display a magnificent pearl necklace. Nick peered at the
necklace, and the large square bosom, and the motherly fatness of the neck. "Isn't she beautiful," said Trudi Titchfield,
in unselfconscious reverie. Nick was briskly presented, elided almost, in the rhythm of the long social sentence, but with
a surprising detail, or fib, "Nick Guest . . . a great friend of our children . . . a young don," so that he saw himself enhanced
and also compromised, since dons were not the PM's favourite people. He nodded and smiled and felt her blue eyes briefly but
unconfidently focus on him before she seized the initiative and called out, "John, hullo . . . !" to John Timms, who was suddenly
right next to him. "Prime Minister . . ." said John Timms, not shaking her hand but clasping her somehow with the fervour
and humour of his tone. At the end of the row were the children themselves, a goggling unmatched pair, Toby still marvellously
cheerful and Catherine, who could have sulked or asked an awkward question, shaking hands with a bright "Hello!" and gazing
at the PM like a child at a conjuror. "Oh, and this is my boyfriend," she said, producing Jasper but forgetting to name him.
"Hello," said the Prime Minister, in a tone just dry enough to suggest that by now she deserved a drink: which Tristao, with
his doe eyes and nerveless smile, was at hand to provide.

Nick trotted downstairs from a quick refresher and caught Wani coming
out of Gerald and Rachel's bedroom. "God, careful, darling," he said.

"I was just using the lav," said Wani.

"Mm," said Nick. He was too drunk and high himself to take the danger at all seriously. "Do use my lav if you need to."

"The stairs," said Wani.

Nick loved the way the coke took off the blur of champagne, claret, Sautemes, and more champagne. It totted up the points
and carried them over as credit in a new account of pleasure. It brought clarity, like a cure—almost, at first, like sobriety.
He put an arm round Wani's shoulders, and asked him if he was having a good time. "We see so little of each other," he said.
They started to go downstairs and something caught Nick's eye at the third or fourth step, someone else moving in the great
white bedroom that Wani had come out of. His instinct as guardian of the house, preventer of trouble, quickened. Jasper came
out, businesslike, as if he had the keys and was showing the place to a buyer. He gave Nick a nod and a wink. "Just going
up to Cat's room," he said.

"So," said Nick, as he and Wani went on down, with a pensive hesitation each step or two, as though they might stop completely
in the charm of a shared thought, "you've been running the house tart up the hill . . . "

"It's got to be climbed, old chap, it's got to be climbed."

"Yeah," said Nick, with a sniff and a sour turning down of the mouth. He looked for guilt in Wani's oddly rosy face; he glimpsed,
like shuffled cards, the two of them together in the bathroom, Wani's love of corruption, all the licence that went with the
latest line. "So it's not our secret any more," he said. Wani gave him a look that was scornful but not aggressive. Nick might
be in the clear, clever phase, but Wani was much further on, in the phase where high spirits reel and stall and blink at a
barely recognized room or friend. Nick let him go, and the high heartbeat of the coke became a short sprint of panic. He smiled
defensively, and the smile seemed to search and find a happier subject, in the opening bloom of the drug. It was hard to know
what mattered. There was certainly no point in thinking about it now. Out in the marquee the music had started, and everything
had the air of an escapade.

He found Catherine in a corner of the drawing room being chatted up by toothy old Jonty Stafford, the retired ambassador,
who stooped over her like a convivial Jabberwock. "No, I think you'd like Dubrovnik," he was saying, with a suggestive hooding
of the eyes. "The Hotel Diocletian,
enormous
charm."

"Oh," said Catherine.

"They always gave us the bridal suite, you know . . . which has the most
enormous
bed. You could have had an orgy in there."

"Not on your wedding night, presumably."

"Hello, Sir Jonty."

"Ah, now here's your handsome young beau, now I'm for it, now I'm done for!" said SirJonty, and lurched off after another
passing female bottom, which happened to be that of the PM. He looked back for a moment with a shake of the head: "Marvellous,
you know . . . the Prime Minister . . . "

"I think you've just been propositioned by a very drunk old man," said Nick.

"Well, it's nice to be noticed by someone," said Catherine, dropping onto a sofa. "Sit here. Do you know where Jaz is?"

"Haven't seen him," said Nick.

The photographer was at large, and his flash gleamed in the mirrors. He slipped and lingered among the guests, approached
with a smile, like a vaguely remembered bore, in his bow tie and dinner jacket, and then poufl—he'd got them. Later he came
back, he came around, because most shots catch a bleary blink or a turned shoulder, and got them again. Now they bunched and
faced him, or they pretended they hadn't seen him and acted themselves with careless magnificence. Nick dropped onto the sofa
beside Catherine, lounged with one leg curled under him and a grin on his face at his own elegance. He felt he could act himself
all night. He felt fabulous, he loved these nights, and whilst it would have been good to top the thing off with sex it seemed
hardly to matter if he didn't. It made the absolute best of not having sex.

"Mm, you smell nice," said Catherine.

"Oh, it's just the old 'Je Promets,' " said Nick, and shook his cufflinks at her. "Have you had your twelve seconds with the
PM yet?"

"I was just about to, but Gerald put a stop to it."

"I heard a bit of her talk at dinner. She does that Great Person thing of being very homely and self-indulgent."

"Greedy," said Catherine.

"They all love it, they breathe sighs of relief, they'd talk about marge versus butter all night, and then suddenly she's
on them with the Common Agricultural Policy."

"You've not given her your own thoughts on it."

"Not yet. . ." said Nick. "She's quite closely managed, isn't she? She's in charge, but she goes where she's told."

"Well, she's not in charge here," said Catherine, beckoning boldly to Tristao. "What do you want to drink?"

"What
do
I want?'.' said Nick, matching Tristao's formal smile with a sly one, and running his eyes up the waiter's body. "What would
I like best?"

"Champagne, sir? Or something stronger?"

"Champagne for now," Nick drawled, "and something stronger later." The view of pleasure deepened in front of him, the lovely
teamwork of drugs and drink, the sense of risk nonsensically heightening the sense of security, the new conviction he could
do what he wanted with Tristao, after all these years. Tristao himself merely nodded, but as he stooped to reach an empty
glass he leant quickly and heavily on Nick's knee. Nick watched him going away through the crowded room and for several long
seconds it was all one perspective, here and Hawkeswood, the gilt, the mirrors, room after room, the glimpsed coat-tails of
a fugitive idea: which then came to you, by itself, and it was what you wanted. The pursuit was nothing but a restless way
of waiting. All shall have prizes: Gerald was right. When Tristao came back and bowed the drinks on their tray towards them,
Nick plucked up his glass in a toast that was both general and secret. "To us," he said.

"To us," said Catherine. "Do stop flirting with that waiter."

A minute later she said, "Fedden seems pretty lively tonight. Most unlike himself, I must say." They looked across to where
Toby was sprawled on the PM's sofa and telling some unimaginable joke. Just beside the PM the wide dented seat cushion was
a reception zone on which supplicants perched for an audience of a minute or two before being amicably dislodged—though Toby,
trading perhaps on the triumph of his speech after dinner, had been there rather longer.

"I wouldn't be surprised," said Nick, "if Wani hadn't given him a bit of laughing powder to get him through."

"Oh, god," said Catherine disparagingly, before smiling at the idea of it. "You know what he's like, he'll offer her a poke
or whatever it's called."

"She's had a lot to drink, hasn't she. But it doesn't seem to have any effect."

"It's so funny watching the men with her. They come up with their wives but you can see they're an embarrassment—look at that
one now, yes, shakes hands, 'Yes, Prime Minister, yes, yes,' can't
quite
get round to introducing his wife . . . obviously longing for her to get lost so he can have a hot date with the Lady himself—now
she's got to sit on the sofa, he's furious . . . but yes! she's got him—he's squatting down . . . he's kneeling on the carpet
. . ."

"Maybe she'll make him kiss her, um . . ."

"Oh, surely not . . ."

"Her ring, darling!"

"Oh, maybe. It's a very big one."

"Well, she's quite queenly, isn't she, in that outfit."

"Queenly? . . .
Darling, she looks like a country and western singer."

Catherine gave a brief screech, so that people turned round with varying degrees of humour and irritation. She had a look
of running on quite fast inside. She held her trembling glass in front of her face. "These champagne flutes are simply enormous!"
she said.

"I know, they're sort of champagne tubas, aren't they," said Nick.

Some very loud fireworks started going off in the communal gardens, mortars and thunderclaps. The windows rattled and the
bangs echoed off the houses. People shouted cheerfully and flinched, but the Prime Minister didn't flinch, she fortified her
voice with a firm diapason as if rising to the challenge of a rowdy Chamber. Around her her courtiers started like pheasants.

"Actually what amazes me," Nick said, "is the fantastic queenery of the men. The heterosexual queenery."

"I sort of expect that," said Catherine. "You know, having Gerald . . ."

"Darling, Gerald's like a navvy in overalls, he's a miner on a picket line compared to some of these people. Look at old,
um, the Minister for . . . what is he the Minister for?"

"I don't know, he's the Monster for something. With the pink face. I've seen him on telly."

It was one of the men standing directly behind the PM, like a showman, both protecting and exhibiting her. From time to time
he cast covetous glances at her hair. His own grey curls were oiled back in deep crinkly waves, over which he passed a hand
that barely touched. He was one of the few men who were wearing a white tuxedo, and his posture was a superb denial of a possible
gaffe. The jacket had swooping lapels, with cream silk facings; a line of flashing blue dress studs climbed to a lolling,
surely purple, velvet bow tie. His wing collar kept his head framed at a haughty angle, and a tight silk cummerbund kept him
erect and deepened the dyspeptic flush on his face.

Catherine said, "I can see no self-respecting homosexual would dress like that."

"Oh, I wouldn't go that far," said Nick, uncertain which of them was being more ironic. "It's just the licensed vanity . .
."

"He's the Monster of Vanity, darling!" said Catherine with another whoop.

He went to the first-floor lavatory and had a quick line there. It seemed a bit unnecessary to go all furtively upstairs.
He snorted with a thumb against each nostril in turn, and smirked back at Gerald shaking hands with Ronald Reagan. You never
felt the old boy knew who Gerald was—he had that look of medium-level benevolence. From outside the music was thumping, it
had been Big Band jazz and now it was earlyish rock 'n' roll, such as Rachel and Gerald might conceivably have danced to twenty-five
years ago. Fireworks popped and screeched. Beyond the locked door the collective boom of the party could be heard, with its
undertone of secret opportunities: there were two men here that he wanted. The door handle rattled, he tidied, checked, flushed,
tweaked his bow tie in the mirror, and sauntered out, hardly seeing the policeman waiting.