14.
Helene Brandon planned
the trip to the city as a surprise for Gill. Shortly before noon she appeared at his office looking chic and cheerful in her sable-trimmed suit and best pearls.
Gill's private secretary, Mrs. Keely, greeted her with restraint:
A wife's place is in her own office, not her husband's.
“Good morning, Mrs. Brandon. Mr. Brandon is not expecting you?”
“No, he's not. This is a surprise.”
“Oh. He's very busy this morning. He left orders that he was not to be disturbed until lunch time.”
“It's lunch time now.”
She opened the door of his office, softly, in case he was dictating or talking on the telephone. But he was doing neither. He was bent over his desk, his head buried in his hands, while the ticker-tape machine beside him coughed politely for attention. She stood, quiet and motionless, watching him, thinking with surprise how vulnerable he looked and wishing she had never seen him like this. She would rather have had him arguing with her, shoutÂing at her, criticizing her, anything but sitting there deÂfenseless.
“Gill?”
He raised his head slowly. His eyes were red, as though he'd been rubbing them, trying to erase from them images he didn't want to see. “Hello, Helene.”
“Your secretary told me you were busy. Are you?”
“Yes.”
“Doing what?”
“Thinking.”
“Not about... Oh Gill, stop it, stop worrying over things you can't do anything about.”
“I have more reason to worry now than at any time since she disappeared.”
“Why? Has something happened?” She crossed the room and put her hands on his shoulders. They seemed frail and stooped under the padded cashmere coat. “Gilly, dear. Tell me.”
“Amy never came home that night, Sunday. Rupert came home alone. Every word he's spoken is a rotten lie.”
“I can't believe . . . How do you
know?”
“Dodd found out.”
“Can you trust him?”
“Further than I can Rupert.”
His shoulders twitched impatiently under her embrace. She stepped back, and her hands dropped to her sides. Thoughts began swimming to the surface of her mind, ugly and sharp-toothed, like barracuda coming out of the ambush of kelp and crevice.
I don't care if she never came home, never comes home, never is seen again.
“They left Mexico City together on Saturday,” Gill said, “bound for San Francisco. Their luggage was checked through. It arrived, but they didn't. They got oft at Los Angeles. Their luggage wasn't claimed until SunÂday evening.”
“What does that prove?”
“It proves what I've suspected all along, that Rupert's whole story is a pack of lies. Amy didn't come home SunÂday night, she didn't pick up her dog, he didn't drive her to any station, the highball glass with the lipstick stains wasn't hers . . .”
“How can you be sure of all that? Maybe they got off at Los Angeles together and took a plane up here the next day, still together.”
“Why would they stop over in Los Angeles without any luggage? A man traveling alone might. No woman would.” He stopped to rub his eyes again. “There is some eviÂdence that Rupert doped her to make her moreâmanageable.”
“Doped her? Why, that's crazy, that's utterly crazy!”
“I think,” he said quietly, “you'd prefer to believe that I'm crazy rather than that Rupert is corrupt. Is that right, Helene?”
She leaned, suddenly and heavily, against the desk. “IâI've never said you were crazy, just some of your ideas.”
“You're convinced, aren't you, that I have some sort of fixation on Amy which puts me in a position where I can't evaluate facts. Go on, admit it, Helene. You've been thinking it for a long time, tossing hints, making implicaÂtions. You might as well say it outright.”
Her mouth moved carefully, like a cornered animal feeling its way out of a trap. “I don't believe either that you're crazy or that Rupert is corrupt.”
“You're straddling the fence, eh?”
“I'm trying to be detached and reasonable.”
“You're detached, all right. I think you've been deÂtached for a long time, from Amy, from me too.”
She could feel words boiling in her throat like lye, but she swallowed them all and said calmly, “I couldn't be detached from you, Gill, you know that. But that doesn't mean I must agree with you on everything, all the time. You don't like Rupert and never have. I do.”
“Why? Because he married Amy and took her off our hands?”
It was close to the truth. “I thought he would make a good husband for her. And he has, until . . .”
“Until. Yes. That's a very large word.”
“Oh, Gill, stop it. Don't put me in the position of havÂing to defend Rupert against you.”
“You're defending him against the facts, not me. The
facts.
Do you hear me?”
“I'm sure everyone in the building can hear you.”
“Let them!”
They glared at each other across the desk. But deeper than Helene's anger was a feeling of relief.
He's shoutÂing, that's good. At least he doesn't look so vulnerable any more. He's fighting, not just sitting with his neck bent and exposed as if to a guillotine.
“While we're airing grievances,” he said, more softly, “I must ask you not to wear your pearls when you take the train up to the city.”
“Why not?”
“There've been too many jewel robberies lately.”
“The pearls are insured.”
“Not for what they're worth. And I can't afford to reÂplace them. You might as well find out now, money's tight. Call it bad luck on my part, or poor judgment, or both. But the fact is, we have to cut down, perhaps even sell the house.”
“Sell our house?”
“It might come to that.”
“Why didn't you tell me before? There are a hundred ways I could have been saving money.”
“You can start now.”
“I don't mind.” But it was more than not minding; she felt quite excited at the idea of a change, a challenge. PerÂhaps they could find a ramshackle old house, and Gill and the kids could all help fixing it up, painting, putting on a new roof, making over curtains, repairing doors and steps. The whole family working together for a common purpose . . .
“I've been poor before. I don't mind.”
“I do,” Gill said. “I mind very much.”
She could still see the old house clearly in her mind, but no one was working on it. The roof leaked, the steps sagged, the windows were cracked and curtainless, the paint was peeling, and Gill was sitting on the front porch, his head in his hands, his neck exposed to any blow, any attack. “God damn you,” she said. “Stand up and fight.”
“Fight? Fight what? You?”
“Not me. You shouldn't be fighting me. We should be on the same side, pulling together. And we would be if . . .”
“If what? Let me hear your if's, Helene.”
“If it weren't for Amy.”
He looked pained but not surprised. “You may reÂgret saying that.”
“Maybe I already do,” she said soberly. “But not beÂcause I don't believe it.”
The intercom signaled for attention, and the voice of Gill's secretary insinuated itself into the room, as peneÂtrating and genteel as the whisper of a lady librarian. “Mr. Dodd is on the telephone again, Mr. Brandon. Will you take the call?”
“Go ahead. . . . Dodd? Yes. Yes, I understand. When? How much? Good God, didn't anyone try to stop him? I know it's legal, but under the circumstances . . . No, I can't get away from the office until later this afternoon. Hold on a minute.” Gill put his hand over the telephone and spoke sharply to his wife, “I must ask you to wait outÂside.”
“Why?”
“This is a personal matter.”
“Meaning it's about Amy?”
“Meaning it's none of your business.”
“I couldn't care less,” she said airily, but her cheeks burned red and when she walked to the door her legs felt weak and rubbery.
She stopped at the secretary's desk in the outer office. “Tell Mr. Brandon I couldn't wait. I have anotherâappointment.”
Appointment wasn't quite the word, she thought, as she rode the elevator downstairs. Errand was closer. Errand of mercy. Or perhaps errand of mischief. It would depend on your viewpoint.
On the street she hailed a cab and gave the driver the address of Rupert's office.
“That's walking distance,” he said.
“I know. I'm in a hurry.”
“O.K. You from the Peninsula?”
“Yes.”
He screwed up his face in soundless laughter. “I can alÂways tell. After twenty-six years in this business you get intuition. I'm from the Peninsula myself. Redwood City. Every morning I take the train up here and I drive my cab all day and then I take the train back. Always been crazy about trains. The wife says I ought to of been an engineer. That way I wouldn't always be running into a bunch of knucklehead cops always telling me where to park and what to do and making with the one-way streets. You waste a lot of gas on these one-way streets.”
You waste a lot of gas, period,
Helene thought irritably. Any other time the cabbie would have amused her, she would have asked questions, drawn him out, and later made a funny story of the incident to tell Gill and the kids. Today he seemed merely a talkative, annoying old man with a grievance.
He parked at a red curb. She paid him and got out of the cab as quickly as possible.
When she reached Rupert's office, she found Miss BurÂton in the act of combing her hair.
“Why, Mrs. Brandon,” Miss Burton said, returning the comb to her purse with nervous haste. “We weren't exÂpecting you.”
Editorial “we” or Rupert-and-I “we,” Helene wonÂdered. She had never paid particular attention to Miss Burton in the past, and she wouldn't have now if it weren't for Gill's suspicions. There was nothing special about her: eyes blue and rather solemn, short turned-up nose, plump, pink cheeks, temporary blond hair, short, sturdy legs intended for long and loyal service. The comÂposite picture she presented was one of directness and simplicity; not even Gill, with his emotional astigmaÂtism, could have denied that.
Helene said casually, “Is Mr. Kellogg around?”
“He just left.”
“I'll wait, if I may. Or perhaps I'll do some shopping and come back later.”
“He won't be in the office any more today,” Miss BurÂton said. “He's not feeling well. I think he's coming down with the flu. He hasn't been taking good care of himself since Mrs. Kelâsince he's been living alone.”
“Oh.”
“I mean, well, no proper meals for one thing. Good hot meals are very important.”
“Do you cook, Miss Burton?”
“Cook?” She flushed from the base of her throat to the tips of her ears. “Why? Why do you ask that?”
“I'm just interested.”
“I like to cook when there's someone to cook for. Only there isn't. I think that answers your question, and the other questions behind it.”
“Other questions?”
“I think you know what I mean.”
“But I don't. I have no idea.”
“Your husband has.” Miss Burton's voice trembled, and a pulse began to beat, hard and unrhythmically, in her left temple. “Lots of ideas.”
“Has he been talking to you?”
“To me? No. Not
to
me. Behind my back. Hiring a greasy little detective to follow me, pump meâwell, he was pumping at a dry well. He didn't find out a thing, the same as you're not going to because there's nothing to find out, because I never . . .”
“Wait a minute. Do you think I came here at my husband's request?”
“It's a funny coincidence, last night the detective, now you.”
Helene's brief laugh was more like a cough of indignaÂtion. “Why, if Gill knew I was here, he'dâwell, no matÂter. Let's put it this way. I don't agree with my husband on everything. If you're angry with him for something he's done, all right, that's your privilege. But don't let your anger spill over on me. I came here as a friend of Rupert's. You're his friend, too. . . . Aren't you?”
“Yes.”
“Well, then, hadn't we better work together, cooperÂate?”
Miss Burton shook her head, more in sorrow than in denial. “I don't know. I don't know who I can trust any more.”
“That puts two of us in the same boat. The question is, where's the boat going? And who's at the helm?”