The Living (15 page)

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Authors: Anna Starobinets

‘He will fear the Monster. He will not want to become a part of the Monster. From childhood. He will be on your side.’

‘But I don’t have any…’

‘You do. The Monster is on one side. You are on the other. Separate. Outside him. In the future. You will need friends.’

My future ‘friend’ had rolled up in a ball on the floor, his whole body jerking rhythmically as he tried to fall asleep. Before his pause this was how he would rock himself to sleep. The light. This empty white correcting light under which it must have been hard to get to sleep. But easy to lose your mind. I turned round. Another wave of fatigue came over me – not the sort that pins you to the floor and stops you
breathing
, but a different sort, the sort that fills your whole body with invisible cotton wool, that poisons you and takes away your pain. That makes you indifferent.

‘You’re insane,’ I said, trying not to look either at Cracker or at his ‘hostage’. ‘What sort of future can I have here, in the House of Correction? What friends? You and the Son sitting in your impenetrable test tubes…’

‘…retrable tes tubs…’ Foxcub rasped.

Fox looked bad: his face became pale and damp, like a peeled potato. He stood like before, pulled up to his full height, and his legs shuddered noticeably.

‘Would you like to sit down, eh, Fox? Or lie down?’

‘Mnt Fx. Bn lying dn lng tme.’

‘Give him a break, Cracker! He’s in a bad way. Let him go finally!’

‘Soon e-nough,’ Foxcub said with effort, sounding out the syllables. ‘Help hm st…’

I sat Foxcub on the floor, leaning his back against Cracker’s chamber. He half-shut his eyes and said nothing for a little while. Then he started talking again, quietly, but fairly clearly:

‘You are right. There is no future in this house. That is why I invited you here. You have to get out of here…’

‘That’s nonsense, Cracker!’

‘There is no time. Do not interrupt me. Listen.’ Foxcub coughed up short phrases in bursts. ‘You will get out. Not now. Later. I will help. For now info. Must know. Above all. Chatterboxes. They are cleverer. Than it seems.’

And then Cracker told me about the chatterboxes using Fox’s disobedient tongue, his numbed vocal cords, his dry lips.

About the way the chatterbox, which hangs from every planetman’s belt, is not just a device for recording and
conducting
conversations.

About the way the chatterbox conceals a marvellous secret. Inside the chatterbox there hides a tiny cerebron. Not invasive, like they were before. The final model, the last type that was used before the Nativity. About the way the tiny cerebron duplicates all the information from the planetman’s
socio
slot: how, in other words, it is a copy of his cell. And in a force majeure situation, if the planetman’s
socio
slot is turned off, his cerebron continues to function.

About the way the
socio
slot is usually turned off after a planetman’s physical pause. In this case an external cerebron proves to be very useful: the Service for Planetary Order can download all the information from the temporarily
non-existent
planetman’s cell through his chatterbox.

About the way that theoretically – purely theoretically – a different sort of force majeure is possible. For instance, if the planetman is alive, but his
socio
slot is damaged. Let’s say, an injury. A head trauma. It’s unlikely – but anyway. Then the
planetman can take the cerebron from this chatterbox and, in order to stay on
socio
, can get hooked up to that. Through an external port…

…Inside Foxcub something started gurgling.

‘…tterbox…ternal ort… fox you res… digra…’

Fox flopped his tongue, which was covered in a grey film, out of his mouth and vomited on the shiny floor.

Ef: memory F: Hunter’s Living Journal: private entries:
Cleo.doc

10th June 471; 5:00

…Again those questions in the wastes. And she’s quite a piece of work this one. I’m going to have to feel her out a bit better

Right, let’s get going.

10th July 471; 15:30

I think it is necessary to instigate independent surveillance of subject:

current name

cleo
eternal name

leo
current sex

female
invector

generally positive.
Predominant specialisation over recent reproductions: ‘research scientist’ and ‘head of research’. Previous reproduction: Leo – professor, doctor, one of the creators of the infamous ‘directed Leo-Lot ray’ experiment.

However, the current reproduction has seen serious
professional
demotion following the shameful failure of the experiment carried out prior to the pause. Despite her high intellect coefficient and excellent multilayer receptive capabilities,
cleo
has not been permitted to do scientific work and is employed at the festival service Everything’s Going to Be Alright and is not happy with her work, a fact which she has mentioned more than once in personal
socio
chats.

type of relationship
formed between myself and subject under investigation: erotic connection in deep layers

NB. I do not believe that the ‘personal aspect’ can have a negative effect on surveillance in this instance, because I feel no emotional attachment to the subject.

Basis
for instigation of surveillance: subject’s suspicious behaviour. It was
cleo
who initiated an intimate relationship in deep layers. Despite my insistence on entirely
cruel
and one might even say
sadistic
conditions for the act in
luxury
mode, subject
cleo
nevertheless
continues to insist
on repeating it. On the conclusion of the act
cleo
, it would seem,
tries to take advantage
of my
relax
status and
extract confidential
information
concerning the correctee under my control,
Zero
(who himself took part in the Leo-Lot ray experiment and was, without doubt, the most important object of inquiry). The subject tries to pass her interest off as common curiosity (I am looking after a celebrity
), however, I think that my answers interest her a great deal more than the
acts
themselves
. More than once
cleo
asked me about a personal (!!) meeting with Zero in first layer (cf. video recording of extract of our act in
luxury
).

I suspect that
cleo
’s plans may be criminal in nature.

We cannot rule out the possibility that she is planning to pursue, or has already pursued, independent, unsanctioned scientific activity in relation to the directed Leo-Lot ray (and in this sense with the ‘mysterious’ genesis of Zero – a very tasty little morsel). Her aim is obvious: to return her ‘good name’ in scientific circles and restore her invector. I would evaluate actions of this sort as a threat to the harmony and peace of the Living, as the Leo-Lot ray experiment was acknowledged as ‘unsuccessful and harmful’ and further experiments were forbidden at the highest level, and contact between citizens and Zero is strictly forbidden.

Moreover, taking into account
cleo
’s clear dislike of the specialisation given to her in this reproduction, it is impossible to exclude the possibility that
cleo
is a member of the criminal group the Dissidents. In this case her interest in Zero, who was born, according to the Dissidents’ absurd doctrine, to change their lives, is entirely harmful in nature.

11th July 471

Yesterday I instigated surveillance on
cleo
’s cell using ‘beetle’ spyware. I installed the ‘beetle’ in the fashionable
dog
socio-
toy,
after which I sent a free gift link to the game directly to the subject. On receipt of the link to the game by the subject the
dog
was unpacked and launched.

Ef: memory F: Hunter’s Living Journal: private entries:
Beetle1.doc

11.07.471:
no suspicious data found

12.07.471:
demand by user
cleo
No. 108 (!!!) for
socio
communication with hidden user
lot
granted in accordance with statue 470764 ‘On the rights of citizens for a final
socio
meeting with a pre-pauser’.

13.07.471:
9:00
cleo
invites user
lot
to her cell in order to chat in
socio
.
No reaction in reply.
11:00
cleo
invites user
lot
to her cell
Lot
accepts invitation
I cite the transcript of the conversation made by
dog
:
cleo:
hello there
lot:
hi! who are you?
cleo:
i’m leo
lot:
should that name mean something to me?
cleo:
yes,
lot
. we used to work together. we were scientists. don’t you remember?
lot:
i don’t remember… the doctor says i have this illness. No memory
cleo:
lot:
but i’m looking in
socio
now. so… leo and lot… oh, i found a photo straightaway! it’s handy this
socio
! are you the one with a beard or without?
cleo:
yes, i had a beard. the one without a beard is you…
lot:
and what was it we were doing?
cleo:
we were trying to look back into the past. to overcome the five seconds of darkness.
lot:
five seconds of darkness!! sounds lovely.
user
lot
has updated his status: 5 seconds of darkness
cleo:
do you not remember anything about the directed Leo-Lot ray? about the formula of the injection?
lot:
i don’t remember. sorry, i need to go to the dining room. it’s breakfast time. we’re having stewed fruit. my favourite.

16:00
lot
wants to enter cleo’s cell and chat in
socio
cleo:
hey!!
lot:
you tricked me
cleo:
?
lot:
you are not my colleague. You are not leo
cleo:
who told you that?!
lot:
my doctor. he tells me what i don’t remember. my friend leo no longer exists
cleo:
you’ve just misunderstood!!! i am leo – just in his next reproduction
lot:
leo died
cleo:
what are you saying! there is no death!!!
lot:
really?
leo:
of course not. have you forgotten THAT too? what is this illness you’ve got, what’s it called?
lot:
lot’s drowsy demon
cleo:
?
lot:
my doctor says that i am the only person with this illness. every night – while i am asleep – my deep layer memory is completely wiped. everything i’ve saved in my memory over the course of the day is wiped. all that’s left is my basic reflexes and skills.
cleo:
and your memory in first layer??? is that wiped too?
lot:
no
cleo:
then you should remember loads! our experiment: we conducted it partly in first layer!
lot:
first layer memory is unreliable
it’s too fragile. without the support of deep layers it’s mostly blocked off. try and go off
socio
and remember the names and details of your best friends! try and remember what you did a day before, let alone a month ago… it’ll never work. without
socio
memory we’ve all got dementia
not just me
cleo:
how strange. you’re talking completely differently. not like you did this morning
lot:
maybe i got smarter?
cleo:
something like that
lot:
so much time has passed since then! i try to fill my memory as actively as possible over the course of the day. the bigger your
socio
memory the better your first layer memory will work… i hope that by evening i’ll be a wise man
but tomorrow i’ll forget it all again
by the way, madam, what is that animal of yours that’s so inquisitive?
cleo:
it’s a dog. a game app. she’s very good with people.
lot:
she’s sweet. but a bit pushy. please don’t take offence, madam. i don’t like being sniffed all the time. i’m going.
cleo:
pop in in the evening, when you are a wise man
and by the way why are you calling me ‘madam’? we’re friends, aren’t we?
lot:
leo was my friend. probably. but you are a woman that i don’t even know. it would be impolite not to call you madam
cleo:
but i am leo, what’s the difference!! there’s no need for these conventions!
lot:
let’s drop this conversation, i really have to go
cleo:
so are you going to pop in?
lot:
your dog has worn me out a bit. if you like, come to my place. today or tomorrow
cleo:
tomorrow’s not going to work
lot:
why not?
cleo:
erm… you’ve got a pause. haven’t you been told?
User
lot
has left chat

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