The Living (34 page)

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Authors: Anna Starobinets

Suffering from tinnitus? Are you experiencing the subjective sensation of noise in the ears without an irritant? Are you in despair because the autodoctor can’t help you and are you dreaming of a self-pause?
THERE IS A SOLUTION!!!
Just download the best music on socio!
Our tunes will drown out the sounds on any frequency!
Our tunes will beat your neuritis of the auditory nerve!

13:00
Music-makers – go screw yourselves. Why do they lie? Why do we all lie, pretending it’s just tinnitus? ‘Subjective sensation without an irritant…’ A bare-faced lie.

There is an irritant.

We are just listening to the Living dying. His howls, his groans, his weeping, his roaring – with no end… We have been hearing Him dying for several years. You can’t drown out those sounds with gopzing music. These sounds are driving me insane. They stop me from working. I haven’t been to the lab for months.

And my research is extremely important for the Living… I am, as it happens, on the verge of a great discovery… The termites are giving a result of up to twenty immersions under the L-L ray… And what are my friends in
isoptera
if not termites…? At the end of the day the biological body is not important… When He dies, we’ll all be able to live in
isoptera
, we’ll make
ourselves
a new Living…

13:50
I reread my last post. The rantings of an absolute lunatic. It’s all that noise. Fofs, He is howling so loud today! But there is a small lull now and my head is clearer. I am saving the following in my memory as auto-reminders:

1. The termites in the experiment have no connection whatsoever to
isoptera
.

2. Experiments on people are still not giving any result.

3. Don’t go mad, Cleo.

14:20
I ran myself through the autodoctor. My memory is partially destroyed. Everything seems to suggest I’ve picked up some kind of virus. There are a lot of viruses now. The noise is getting stronger.

My hair is the wrong colour. I have to change it. To support the Living.

15:00
Luxury
is a good place to escape His howling. You can hear him there too, but it seems almost melodic. Like background music that you don’t focus your attention on…

mother_queen
has updated her status hi, I’m available again

The final dispatch of the Second Great Reduction: 17.09.479 A.V.

Committed in the past 24 hours:

– acts of terrorism in first layer: 1,566 (dead: 12,456 pers.; injured: 9,342 pers.) 

– acts of terrorism / virus attacks in socio: 11,569

– illegal organised self-pauses at underground Festivals for the Assistance of Nature: 14,980

– illegal self-pauses outside of festival zones: 11,934

– murders on streets: 5,750

– thefts and robberies: 25,875

– clean-up operations successfully carried out by the Army of the Three-Headed God: 4,965

– ceased to exist during clean-ups: 8,400 terrorists

– ceased to exist due to various illnesses, starvation and insanitary conditions: 68,411 pers.

– ceased to exist from previously received wounds: 12,784 pers.

– homeless children discovered on streets: 48,733

– temples of the Three-Headed God burned down / blown up: 421

 

Claim to region EA 1 restated by: Goldenhorse (formerly, First member of the Council of Eight)
Claim to region EA 2 restated by: Goldenhorse
Claim to region EA 3 restated by: Goldenhorse, Emperor
Claim to region EA 4 made by: Goldenhorse,
Prince_of_Darkness
Claim to region EA 6 restated by: Emperor
Claim to region EA 7 made by: Goldenhorse,
Prince_of_Darkness, Emperor
Claim to region EA 8 restated by: Peacemaker,
Prince_of_Darkness, Emperor
Claim to region AS 1 restated by: Asiatic (formerly, Sixth member of the Council of Eight)…
exterminated during armed territorial conflicts: 16,943 pers.
(of which, children: 2,570; women: 5,342)
sentenced to Public Pause of Shame as part of Who Else Deceived Us: 1 pers.

Total
number to (temporarily?) cease to exist during the past 24 hours:
151,659
pers.

Reproduced during past 24 hours: 67 pers.

Number of livings
at present moment:
1,000,476,117
(one billion four hundred seventy six thousand one hundred and seventeen) pers.

‘The figures look bad,’ the General says dejectedly. ‘The figures look very bad.’

As if he needed to say that. Every day it keeps getting worse and worse.

Don’t make the same mistakes as me, pal.

I rescued people from a lie – but they could not handle the truth.

I gave them the right to a long life – and they die by their own hands. In illegal, dirty, vomit-strewn pause zones or just on the streets. Because, you see, they are not immortal.

I granted an amnesty for correctees, called on them to be who they wanted to be – and they became criminals.

I gave them a mighty new god in place of their weak,
half-dead
one – and they destroy the temples.

I gave them wise regents for their territories – and they rise up under the banners of the old stupid and deceitful ones.

I gave them the right to love their Darlings – and they throw them out as seven-year-olds.

I gave them the right to love each other – but they don’t know how to love.

They blow things up, they burn them down, they get sick, they hang themselves, they weep, they beat up the weak. They pine away, they wallow in filth, they panic, they destroy
themselves
. They fight wars for empty spaces, they release
socio
viruses, they break into cells, they wipe memory, they rape, they die and they are not reproduced. They are reduced. And the Army of the Three-Headed God is no longer strong enough to hold them back…

‘We can’t hold them back any longer,’ the General glowers, and his scar goes crimson, as it always does when he is agitated.

He is so devoted to me, he tries so hard to sense my mood and fulfil my desires that sometimes he manages to read my mind. It’s good I agreed to keep him back then. He brought nearly all of the SPO into the Army of the Three-Headed God. And it’s good that I streamlined his
socio
slot: after all, he had had his eyes on my position, the sneaky bastard…

Now he is meek and devoted. The operation was very successful: he kept all his professional skills and his entire contact list. But he doesn’t remember being the Servant or being Second – except for some first-layer glimpses, fragments of nightmares… Now he is my General. He is the head of the Army of the Three-Headed God, he prays regularly and he does not question orders. And if his memory does play nasty tricks on him, he doesn’t worry, because he knows the reason.
He clearly remembers getting wounded in the head in one of the first battles of the Reduction… No big deal, but his
socio
slot was grazed by a piece of shrapnel and it left a scar.

My General suddenly shudders with his whole body and groans, and covers his face with his hands.

‘Three-Headed Lord,’ he whispers, his face buried in his hands. ‘Lord, Three-Headed Lord…!’

That’s very unlike him. I put my hand on his shoulder – ‘no sucs, just success: the Wise Prophet’s hand works on demand!’ – and quietly ask, ‘General, are you not feeling well?’

Like a dog, he licks his dried out lips and slowly takes his hands from his face. The whites of his eyes are full of burst blood vessels. His teeth are chattering.

‘Another terrorist attack in
socio
,’ the General says. ‘I am present there. We are all dying.’

The first reports appeared on the news feed after a quarter of an hour.

We are broadcasting live from the location of the incident. At the current moment the termite mound is overrun with fire, there are burnt insect bodies everywhere. Several hundred nymphs are circling in the air, evidently panicking. They are gnawing off their wings and falling to the ground, into the fire. There is some sort of movement by the exit from the burrow – it seems as if the surviving workers and soldiers are trying to drag out the charred body of the Queen…
The explosion at Isoptera is the most horrific socio terrorist attack in the history of the Great Reduction: over the last few years nearly a billion users have worked together to create this resource. As yet no one has claimed responsibility for this monstrously cruel crime; however, it is evidently
not the work of a lone suicide-bomber. To produce an explosion of this magnitude in luxury required a coordinated and well-organised fantasy on the part of a large number of users.
The millions of friends of those who died today in luxury are outraged at the government’s indifference and failure to act.
‘The Wise Prophet will not help us.’ This was the response to the situation of Goldenhorse, a former member of the Council of Eight, who died today in Isoptera as a prince. ‘Because he doesn’t understand us. He cannot share our pain. The Wise One does not want to connect himself to socio as a matter of principle – he has all sorts of fine-sounding explanations for this behaviour of his, but I have my own opinion on the matter. He just doesn’t want to be our friend
on socio,
and that is all.’

‘It’s provocation.’ The General has already almost calmed down, but his voice is still trembling a bit. ‘To start a panic. I think Goldenhorse is behind the attack. Permission to
terminate
him?’

‘Leave him.’

He looks confused, but still trusting, like a dog.

‘Permission to capture him alive to take part in Who Else Deceived Us?’

I repeat: ‘Leave him. We’ve taken enough lives.’

‘So what are your orders?’

I say nothing for a long time. Then I say, ‘You and your father were right.’

He rubs his blood-drenched eyes with his hands, like a Darling who has not had enough sleep. And he looks at me again – this time in entreaty:

‘I don’t remember my father. I don’t understand you, Wise One…’

…The old man was right. And the Servant. And Fourth too. No one needs my truth. The whole world was held together by their lie.

Just a bit longer – and we will have been reduced completely, to nothing, to nought. Haha. To me. But I hope that the mistake can still be corrected.

Today I will bring the Living back to life…

My son will not be my heir. It will be you, my inc-successor.

But please don’t have any illusions. In no way are you my continuation. This is just the only solution.

I am going to shut down the System.

How many of us are there now – a billion four hundred and something? – I’m going to take a slightly smaller figure. A billion. A nice, round number. So then: ‘The Living equals a billion livings…’ Sounds fantastic.

There, it is decided. The Living has risen again, and His number equals one billion. The rest will be reduced while we are establishing stability. Those that aren’t reduced we will finish off. For their own good. For the good of the Living.

There is no other solution. I will force them to calm down. I will force them to multiply. If there are too many, I will terminate them. Then the System will sort itself out and start to work on its own.

At least, that’s what happened last time. If you can believe Fourth. And the things she said on Who Else Deceived Us, before she was torn apart.

‘Confess, Fourth, moderator of assistance to nature: when did you first lie?’
‘My inc-predecessor first lied in the time of the first Great Reduction.’

At that time they moulded the Living from three billion, with three hundred thousand in reserve.

But it helped.

I sentenced her to a Public Pause of Shame – though she would have ceased within days anyway. She was like a skeleton. It was as if Death had stepped down from the ancient paintings to take part in the show…

…I say to the General, ‘Don’t worry. You don’t have to understand anything. Now go and bring a good sysadmin to the Residence.’

‘Why, Wise One?’

‘When I resurrect the Living, I should become a part of him.’

The General smiles:

‘Understood, Wise One.’

…Father takes me over to the Crystal and says, ‘Look, son. Look at the System for the last time. Soon I am going to shut off access.'

And I look, since he is asking, although I don't understand: why ‘for the last time' all of a sudden?

Even if, for instance, he stops sharing the System with
everyone
, I will still be able to see it. It has always let me in, for as long as I can remember. Cracker promised me that the System would never turn me away.

Then he looks at the screen for a long time and says
thoughtfully
, ‘My lucky number is eight. Incode no. 8 has been free for a long time, I'll take cell eight…'

And then I suddenly start having this attack, as if I'm saying someone else's words. I get it from time to time: it's as if
someone
has crawled into my head and is making all my decisions for me. I say to him, ‘Well done, your intuition is good. That was your number after all.'

He asks what I mean by that, but I don't really even know myself. I don't know, but I say, ‘In theory you should have been a double of incode 0 000 000 008. But Cracker managed to correct the last eight to a nought.'

And he shouts at me:

‘Don't lie! Cracker was a child then! He's only two years older than me!'

I shrug my shoulders: ‘Cracker is the founder. He will always be four and a bit centuries older than you.'

My father starts looking so stupid that I really want to laugh. But I mustn't. I bite my tongue painfully and squeeze my lips shut.

I mustn't laugh while the Monster is alive…

Then the sysadmin comes and gives him that capsule – they gave me one like that too, a long time ago, in the House… And
he says to father, ‘Connection is a great sacrament. I must read the Book of Life over you – or is your wisdom so great that you remember the text off by heart?'

‘I remember it,' father replies. ‘But I don't know what we should do with the opening. “The Living is three billion livings…” – because it doesn't tally with the truth.'

‘What's truth got to do with anything?' The sysadmin gets scared. ‘The text must be read out in accordance with the canon! Otherwise the program won't unpack and the
socio
slot won't go in right.'

‘Fine,' says father. ‘It might as well be in accordance with the canon for now. But remember – we are going to be changing the canon soon. “The Living is equal to one billion livings” – that's how it's always going to start…'

When the sysadmin leaves, my father takes the capsule and begins the rite. And I say to him: ‘Dad, don't. The Monster must die!'

But he carries on reading. He gestures for me to go. And I leave.

my monster must die

I know where he keeps his black larvae.

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