happiness from it. Though it is difficult to gain a sense of his wife's character from the conventional language used by all who described her, she seems to have given as fully of her love as of her obedience. Increase noted of her that he could always rely on her to keep the family well when he was called away, but she was clearly one who shared more with him than a concern for their children. Maria Mather understood her husband's hopes and fears for New England. When he went to England to retrieve the charter in 1688, she took his place in his study, praying and fasting for his success. Her prayers, recorded in her papers, reveal that she grasped something of the analogy of New England to Israel, and of the desperate plight of the people of God in America. 49
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Increase undoubtedly shared much of his private feelings with Maria Mather, but to the world he showed a highly controlled gravity. His thin face with its long nose was not harsh, but it did not invite light and frolicsome behavior. When Increase laughed, men did not believe their ears; everything about him suggested the gravity that Puritans cultivated inwardly as well as outwardly. Increase's presence, his awesome presence, testified to his belief in life's seriousnessand tenuousness on earth. 50
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Only in his church, and especially at the Lord's Table, did he unbend. There, even more than in the pulpit, he could release publicly the passion he felt for his God. The quality of his feeling cannot now be recaptured, of course, but we can gain a glimpse of his soul in these rapturous moments. Whatever else he experienced, he received an impression of the immensity of God's power and beside it the triviality of his own. His soul melted, he said, when immediately afterwards he tried to recapture the experience at the Supper. He wished God to treat him as a child; he felt like a child standing before the majesty of the Divine. Tears gushed from my eyes, he reported; and indeed, he usually wept at the Supper, wept in happiness, not in terror. He wept too, one suspects, for himself, as well as for the beauty and generosity of God in sacrificing His Son. He wept out of his sense of his imperfection, his impurity, which he could not escapeand could not hide fromin the celebration of what he considered the most perfect act in history. 51
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