The Monmouth Summer (12 page)

“That’s beautiful, Ann! That’s re … really n … nice!” Rachel clung onto Sarah for support. “D … do you think if I make myself into a chimney sweep Tom’s brother will marry me”

"Chimney sweep, chimney sweep! Ann was sleeping in the fire!" shouted little Oliver, jumping up and down with delight at the joke.

"Right then, 'tis time for the washhouse." Mary Carter took charge, dragging herself back into movement. "You'd laugh even more if you could see yourselves. We could all do with a proper wash, and then you maids can put next week's dresses on today, since they're dry. We can keep these to wear tomorrow, when we're cleaning up."

"We won't have to clear up, too, will we?" asked Sarah. "We've done enough today."

"Only the dishes. The guests will take care of the food."

They went out to the washhouse at the back, where there was a great copper boiler over a fireplace which they heated once a fortnight for the washing, and once a month for a bath. But there was no need for that today; they scrubbed themselves in cold water from the well.

An hour later the room was full of people, and Ann, sitting between Tom and his mother, suddenly felt a flutter of nervousness she had not had time for before. This feast was a public acknowledgement of something that had so far been only a private understanding; indeed, it was very little different from a wedding. There were seven members of her own family, Tom’s parents, sister and three brothers, and their godparents: John Spragg the mason and his wife Ruth, for Tom, and William Clegg, the skinny, humorous old weaver, for Ann.

"A fine spread, indeed, Adam. Be that there pork, or lamb, now?" Ann glanced at the thin, stooped eager figure of Luke Goodchild, Tom's father, and realised sadly that he had left his working spectacles at home, and without them his weak, watery eyes were half blind, from years of careful, precise stitching at his shoemaker's bench.

"'Tis lamb, Luke. The Lord be thanked, we can still feed well when we've a mind, whatever troubles may be abroad in the wide world." Adam smiled at his old friend.

"Troubles, Adam? There bain't no more news, be there?" asked John Spragg from across the table, his voice in the deep chest booming loud as usual.

"Nothing much. Only that they have stood the militia down in Exeter. I don't rightly know if that be good news or, bad." Adam's voice was careful and even, giving nothing away. The two men's eyes met across the table, in understanding, and the subject was dropped.

"Adam," said Mary, who had been carving, and handing the laden plates to Rachel and Sarah to pass around the table. "Will you lead us in our prayers, before we eat?"

They all bowed their heads, and Adam led them in the humble grace with which they began every meal.

"Almighty God, we humbly thank Thee for Thy loving kindness in providing us with this Thy food which we see before us; let us remember Thee with gratitude in our eating of it, and hope that it will strengthen us to serve Thee further, and remember Thee in all our daily acts upon this earth."

He paused, and a slight smile played around his lips before he continued. "And we ask Thee also to give Thy blessing to our two children here, Thomas and Ann, whose betrothal we are gathered to celebrate; bless their promise, Lord, and grant that they do come in the fullness of time to the blessed state of matrimony, therein happily and fruitfully to continue all their days, in love and harmony, and by their lives to be an example to their children, and to all the people of this village, of the holiness of Thy true religion."

Amid the hearty 'Amens' Ann’s vision of her father blurred, and her eyes filled with tears. She had done this thing now, and it was good, or should be; but she was an evil, wicked person to do it so, with a devil inside her, dividing her in two so that she did not know which was right. Which was the evil, which the lies? Were they lies which she had told to God, was she damned for trying to deceive the Almighty? Or were these lies, now, these thoughts that were trying to persuade her that what she was doing now was not right?

She felt Martha Goodchild's arm around her. "There, there, my dear, you have a good weep. 'Tis a bit much for us all, when we comes down to it."

"I ... I'm not worthy, Mrs Goodchild."

"'Course you are, my dear! Not worthy? Why, you'm the finest girl in this whole parish, you are! I wouldn't never want my Tom to choose another, not if he could have any girl he liked in all the three counties!"

Desperately, Ann brushed away her tears, and looked up, to see tears on Mrs Goodchild's cheeks too, and her mother's. Everyone was looking at her, and half of the faces were as long and sad as though it were a funeral! It was absurd! Then she caught John Spragg putting his arm round his own wife, and winking at little Oliver, whose eyes were wide with amazement, and the craziness of it all made her laugh, although her laughter sounded much like crying too, when it came out.

William Clegg turned to her bemused father with a shrug. "Well, Adam, I reckons us better start on these yer vittles now, don't 'ee, 'fore it all d'get washed away, like?" - a remark which only served to spread the laughter and weeping further, so that all around the room men were grinning and women wiping their faces with their aprons.

They all began eating in a fine good humour. And despite her own bewilderment at the effect of her tears, Ann could not help being cheered by it too. For a while the devil of doubt within her was quelled, and she felt that she really did belong here, and nowhere else. This was her home, these were her people; if she cried, they accepted her for what she was. Or what they thought she was.

She could feel Tom’s mother bubbling with emotion beside her, and soon the reason came out.  She looked around the company, her plain ruddy face beaming with delight. It was a great moment for her.

"'Tis only that ... well, this afternoon I've gone and found a house for these two youngsters yer, which they can have as soon as they gets married, if they wants it."

There was an excited murmur of appreciation around the table, and Mary Carter and John Spragg asked, almost together:

"Well, come on, dear, tell us! Where is it to?"

"'Tis in Rosemary Lane - you know, that little cottage between the two houses - where old Granny Marples do live."

"Oh yes, I know it." Mary looked puzzled. "But old Granny Marples is still living there."

"That's just it, see." Martha looked immensely pleased with herself. "You know she's Tom's grandmother-in-law, so to speak - well,  I knew she ‘aven't been too happy there on her own since 'er husband died last winter,  she’d rather lodge with my brother Martin. So I goes round to 'er this afternoon, and 'er says 'er's quite happy to move out and let these two have it whenever they do want. They'd have to pay rent to Martin, o' course, 'tis his cottage - but I thought 'twould suit they just fine!"

"Why, if that bain't the hand of the good Lord, just as plain as day!" Mary Carter looked as pleased as Martha; and as the conversation broke up again amongst the small groups around the table, the two mothers continued talking excitedly about the cottage, drawing Ann in as much as possible.

"'Tisn't much, you understand, dear, just the two rooms downstairs and the attic, but it's got its own well in the backyard, which is something, and a little bit of garden too, for herbs and such. You've seen it from the outside, haven't you, love?"

"Yes, I know where it is," said Ann. "But I've never been inside."

"What about cooking, Martha - do it have a decent fireplace?"

It might almost be her own mother that was moving there, Ann thought - she looked so excited. 

"Big enough, I suppose. Not so big as yer, o' course, but then you won't be cooking for so many - not at first anyway, will you, dear?"

Ann smiled shyly, and blushed; and again the feeling began to come back that the smile, that her whole body, in fact, was not her own - that it was a doll, going through a performance, holding a captive screaming soundlessly inside. She hadn’t expected this – it was happening too suddenly, too fast.

"But it has a real good chimney, my dear, and 'er says 'e do draw beautiful, and never blows smoke back but in they northeasters, like we had last winter. But the best of all is, where the woodshed be to - right outside the back door, so you've hardly a step out there in the cold weather; and there be a proper little wooden slat in there too, so 'ee can keep the wood and sea-coal separate ..."

Ann nodded and smiled politely, trying to see the good points of the cottage, and ignore the panic inside her, like a thin whistle in her ears that made her want to leap up, throw her food across the table, and run from the room. She felt the hair crawl on her scalp as she forced herself to sit still. People spoke of being possessed by devils - was this what they meant?

She looked carefully at the people around the table - people she had known all her life. They were good people, who loved her and cared for her, and wanted what was best for her - she knew that. They would always help her, keep her from sin and danger, never tempt her to do anything which might lead to her wandering the streets of a strange wicked city, a lost, abandoned harlot.

She should be glad to be betrothed to such an industrious, handsome man as Tom; her heart should leap up at the chance of setting up a little cottage of her own with him, making real the house that they had played at so often as children. Surely the idea should thrill her, as Mrs Goodchild so clearly believed it did? And the doll Ann - the part that felt like a doll to her, but was the real Ann to everyone else - the doll Ann was thrilled by it, and nodded and smiled and asked further questions until Martha Goodchild and her mother had the cottage all completely furnished in their minds, and were beginning to plan ahead for their grandchildren.

But what had that picture to do with her fantasies of music and laughter and dancing in London? Of herself honoured by handsome cavalier officers, or travelling overseas to Holland, perhaps, or Belgium, Germany?
This could have been yours
, the captive inside her whispered;
he really meant what he said, you know!
If you could just forget about the night Simon was hurt; if you could have agreed to love him as his mistress, he would surely have come to love you in the end - you could have returned to Devon with honour, a lady in Shute House. He did not mean what he said that night; it was only his anger, and the moonlight greying his face.

Ann played with her knife and looked down at the table. It was Belial, she knew, the devil within her; the courtier Belial she had read of in
Paradise Lost
, who could persuade anyone of anything if only they listened to him, and his smiles, and honeyed, glozing lies. Or was she herself  Belial, to pretend to be happy here tonight, when really …

"There's that old spinning wheel of my mother's, that I have no use for at all, though 'e do go just as well as my own. And 'e wouldn't take up so much room in that kitchen, being an upright one - you've seen 'un in our house, haven't you, dear?"

"Yes, Mrs Goodchild, 'tis a very fine one. I prefer using the upright ones, myself."

"And I think I've got several old pans would look lovely in there ... "

There was a sudden, urgent knocking at the door. Conversation died, and then rose again as those who had only half heard questioned each other as to what it had been. The knocking came again, louder in the silence where the talk had been. Faces looked at each other, questioningly; most merely curious, but a few - Simon's, her father's, John Spragg's - anxious, a little afraid. Ann remembered Simon's words the other night, about Robert's search of the house in Farway. Surely not? Her pulse raced in fear and ...
hope?

Adam pushed back his chair and strode to the door. It was not bolted. He paused with his hand on the latch.

"Who is it?"

"Roger Satchell! Open up, Adam, I've got great news!"

A sigh went round the room, followed by frowns, especially among the women. Surely the man must know this was a family celebration - could not the news wait?

Adam opened the door and Roger Satchell strode in. He surveyed the company, breathing heavily. His face was flushed, and his clothes dusty, as though he had been riding hard.

"The Duke of Monmouth has landed in Lyme!"

There was a moment's utter silence - perhaps half a minute, perhaps less - when every face was still, as the message curved towards their minds like a stone thrown at a pool. Then it hit the surface, and the ripples spread across their faces in a stir of amazement. John Spragg leapt to his feet.

"What, man? Has he come alone?"

Roger Satchell strode to the end of the table, by the fireplace, where everyone could see him.

"Alone? No, John, he has come with three ships and three hundred men, and has called all honest Protestants to rally to him and form an army!"

For a moment there was uproar, everyone speaking at once. At last Adam Carter's voice came through.

"Where did you hear all this, Roger? Have you been in Lyme?"

Satchell laughed. "No, Adam. I was out on the road over toward Axminster when I met that fool Alford, the mayor of Lyme, riding out of the place as though all the devils of Hell were after him. He was out to spread the alarm and raise the militia, and sent me down to Colyton to do likewise. I would to God I had thought quick enough to stop him - he'll be nearly clear to Honiton by now!"

"Aye, and then they'll call the militia out to put a guard on the roads, to stop folk going to join him. God was with thee, Roger — we must act fast!"

All eyes turned to the stocky, determined figure of John Spragg, his genial face no longer smiling but grim and decided, a strange light of conviction in his eyes.

"John! What do 'ee mean? You bain't going off to fight?" Ruth Spragg looked up at her husband, amazed, her hand clutching his arm.

He bent down to look at her. "I must, my dear. You know that. We've spoken of it before. A man must follow the Lord before all else, to save his religion."

"But 'tis treason! 'Tis to fight the King!" Ruth's cry was desperate, terrified, voicing the innermost fear of them all. Her husband hesitated, shocked at the fear in the eyes he loved.