The Morning Gift (17 page)

Ruth's first concern when she arrived had been to hide her marriage certificate and all other evidence of her involvement with Professor Somerville whom she could now only serve by never going near him or mentioning his name.

This was not as easy as it sounded. Number 27 Belsize Close was not a place where privacy was high on the list of priorities, nor had Ruth ever had to have secrets from her parents. Fortunately she had read many English adventure stories in which intrepid boys and girls buried treasure beneath the loose floor-boards of whatever house they lived in.

Accustomed to the solid parquet floors of her native city, she had been puzzled by this, but now she understood how it could be done. The floor of the Bergers' sitting room, hideously furnished with a sagging moquette sofa, a fumed oak table and brown chenille curtains, was covered in linoleum, and her parents' bedroom next to it was obviously unsuitable. But in the room at the back, with its two narrow beds, which Ruth shared with her Aunt Hilda, the floor was covered only by a soiled rag rug. Dragging aside the wash-stand, she managed to prise open one of the splintered boards and make a space into which she lowered a biscuit tin decorated with a picture of the Princesses Elizabeth and Margaret Rose patting a corgi dog, and containing her documents and the wedding ring which she meant to sell, but not just yet.

Next she went to the post office and secured a box number to which all mail could be sent, and wrote to Mr Proudfoot to tell him what she had done. After which she settled down to look for work. It was nearly two months before the beginning of the autumn term at University College and though she had heeded Quin's admonitions and was looking forward very much to being a student once again, she intended to spend every available second till then helping her family.

Jobs as mother's helps were easy to come by. Within a week, Ruth found herself trailing across Hampstead Heath in charge of the three progressively educated children of a lady weaver. Untroubled by theories on infant care, she felt sorry for the pale, confused, abominably behaved little creatures in their soiled linen smocks, desperately searching for something they were not allowed to do. When the middle one, a six-year-old boy, ran across a busy road, she smacked him hard on the leg which caused instant uproar among his siblings.

'We want it done to us too. Properly,' said the oldest. 'So that you can see the mark, like with Peter.'

Ruth obliged and soon the walks became extremely enjoyable, but, of course, the money was not very good and it was Ruth's announcement that she intended to spend her evenings as a waitress in the Willow Tea Rooms which brought Leonie's period of saintly virtue to a sudden end.

For several days after Ruth was restored to her, Leonie had kept to her vow never again to argue with Ruth or speak a cross word to her. Just to be able to touch Ruth's hand across the table, just to hear her humming in the bath, had been a joy so deep that it had precluded ever crossing Ruth's will again. This, however, was too much.

'You will do nothing of the sort!' she yelled. 'No daughter of mine is going to have her behind pinched by old gentlemen and take tips!'

But Ruth was adamant. 'If Paul Ziller can play gypsy music in a cummerbund, I can be a waitress. And anyway, what about you doing the ironing for that awful old woman across the road?'

Leonie said it was different and canvassed the inmates of the Willow Tea Rooms for support which did not come.

'Of course, when she begins university it will be another matter, but now she will want to help,' said Ziller, meaning - as did Dr Levy, and von Hofmann from the Burg Theatre and the banker from Hamburg - that the sight of this bright-haired girl bearing down on them with a tray of an evening was a pleasure they did not think it necessary to forego.

So Ruth became a waitress at the Willow and was undoubtedly good for trade. For the weary, disillusioned exiles, Ruth was a sign that there was still hope in the world. She had been rescued mysteriously by an Englishman and that in itself was a thought that warmed the heart. And not only was Ruth young and sweet and funny, but she was in love!

'I have had a letter!' Ruth would say, and soon everyone in the Willow Tea Rooms and the square knew about Heini, everyone asked about him. The news that Heini's visa was almost through made them as happy as if the good fortune was their own - and they all understood that it was essential that when Heini arrived, he had his piano.

It was the matter of Heini's piano which disposed of the last remnants of saintliness still adhering to Leonie. For there was only one place where it could possibly go: in the Bergers' so-called sitting room - and Leonie was perfectly correct in saying that it would make the place impossibly crowded.

'All right, he can sleep on the sofa till he has his own place, but Heini
and
the piano - Ruth, be reasonable.'

But when has love been reasonable? Seeing her daughter's distress, Leonie consulted her husband, sure that his strictness would prevail. But the week in which they had believed Ruth lost had changed the Professor.

'We shall manage,' he said. 'I work in the library in any case and we can take one of the chairs into our bedroom.'

So Ruth had put a jam jar on the windowsill, with a label on it saying
Heini's Piano.
It was an entirely British jam jar, which gave her satisfaction, having contained Oxford marmalade and been retrieved from the dustbin of the nursery school teacher on the ground floor, but it was not filling up very quickly. Ruth had made enquiries about the deposit on the kind of piano Heini required and it was two guineas even before the weekly rental and there was a delivery charge as well. She gave her wages from the progressive lady weaver to her mother and had hoped that the money from the Willow Tea Rooms would help, but there always seemed to be an emergency: Aunt Hilda needed throat pastilles, or the teapot broke its spout. Though she bought nothing for herself during those long hot weeks of summer, not a hair ribbon, not an ice cream on the most sizzling day, the heap of coins at the bottom of the jar remained pitifully small.

If Heini's letters were shown to everyone and were matters for rejoicing, the letters from Mr Proudfoot, arriving secretly at Ruth's post office box, were another matter. Mr Proudfoot had seen fit to lay the conditions of nullity before Ruth, who found them daunting.

'Are you
sure
there's no insanity in the family?' she asked her puzzled parents. 'What about Great-Aunt Miriam?'

'To believe that the Kaiser was a reincarnation of Tutankhamen may be eccentric, but it is not insane,' said her father firmly. But if the immediate prospects for annulment were poor, Mr Proudfoot was helpful about getting her British naturalization confirmed, sending her forms in prepaid envelopes and continuing to offer assistance. That Quin himself never wrote or sent a message was only what she had expected and did not disappoint her in the least.

By the middle of August:, the crisis over Czechoslovakia began to dominate the newspapers. Hitler's rantings grew more demented; newsreel pictures showed him strutting about with his arm round Mussolini or shaking his fist at anyone who dared to interfere with the concerns of Eastern

Europe. Cabinet ministers abandoned their grouse moors and began to shuttle back and forth between London and

Paris, between Paris and Berlin The Czechs appealed for help.

Great Britain's increasing preparations for war affected the inhabitants of Belsize Park in various ways. Mrs Weiss looked up at a large grey barrage balloon floating above her, said,
'Mein Gott,
vat is zat?', fell over a hole in the pavement and was conveyed to Hempstead Hospital for stitches in her nose.Uncle Mishak, passing a poster which urged him to

Keep Calm and Dig,
did just that, excavating a vegetable patch in the rubble-strewn garden behind the house. In the

Willow Tea Rooms, Miss Maud pored anxiously over a leaflet giving instructions for the assembling of a prefabri-cated air-raid shelter and received much good advice from the male customers who professed to understand them. Mrs

Surdt stopped singing over the washing up because her

Trevor had been passed fit for the air force, and Dr Levy, though he had made it perfectly dear that he was not entitled to practise medicine, was pulled into a neighbouring house to resuscitate a man with a weak heart whose wife had sought to amuse him by coming to bed in her gas mask.

For Ruth, the crisis meant only the dread of separation from Heini. She emptied the jam jar and sent frantic cables to Budapest, but his emigration papers, though expected at any moment., still hadn't come through. There was one matter, however, on which she sought enlightenment from

Miss Maud and Miss Violet who, as general's daughters, could be expected to know about the army.

'Would someone aged thirty, or a bit over, be called up?' 'Only if the war went on for a King time,' Miss Maud replied.

It was during these dark days that Ruth received news which would normally have caused her the deepest dis-appointment. University College had given her place on the Zoology course to another refugee. They were now full up and could not admit her in the coming year.

'It was a muddle,' she said, holding out the letter. 'When I wasn't on the student transport, the Quakers got in touch with them and they had so many people begging to come that they accepted someone else. They're going to see if they can get me into another college, but they're not very hopeful as it's so late.'

Ruth, after the first shock, made the best of it. 'It doesn't matter,' she said. 'I want to go on working anyway, to help you and to help Heini when he comes.' 'It matters a great deal,' said the Professor sternly. For him and his wife, Ruth's rejection was a bitter blow. Like parents the world over, they would accept any tribulation if their child could go forward into a better future. Ruth must not live in the twilit world of the refugees, the world of menial jobs, of anxiety about permits and poverty and fear. 'I wonder if I should get in touch with Quinton Somer-ville,' said the Professor that night when Ruth had gone to bed. 'I feel sure he would help.' 'No, I wouldn't do that.'

The Professor looked at her in surprise. 'Why not?' But Leonie, who seldom found a use for logical thought and was pursuing a hunch so nebulous that it could not possibly be uttered, just said that she thought it was a bad idea - and in the days that followed nobody had time to think of their personal lives.

All the cliches written later about the Munich crisis were true. The world did hold its breath, the storm clouds did gather over Europe, strangers did stop each other in the street and ask for news. Then Neville Chamberlain, that obstinate old man who had never been in an aeroplane before, flew to meet Hitler, flew home again, and back once more… to return at last with a piece of paper in which he believed wholly and which he held up to his people with the words 'Peace in our time.'

There were many who cried appeasement and many - and the refugees, of course, among them - who knew what

Hitler's promises were worth, and that the Czechs had been betrayed, yet who could want war? As the crowds cheered in front of Buckingham Palace, Ruth waltzed with Mrs Burtt among the pots and pans in the Willow Tea Rooms kitchen because Heini could come now and Mrs Burtt's Trevor sleep safe in his bed.

It was in this time of renewed hope, when the chrysanthemums glowed gold and russet in the flower seller's basket and little boys called at Number 27 for the conkers Uncle Mishak collected in his wanderings, that Professor Berger came home to find Ruth reading a letter - and was startled by the radiance in her face.

'From Heini?' he asked. 'He is coming?'

She shook her head. 'It's from the University of Thameside. They've offered me a place, straight away. I start next week.'

He took the letter she held out to him. It was signed by the Admissions Tutor, but no one was deceived by that.

'This is Somerville's doing,' said the Professor, and felt a weight lift from his heart because it had hurt, the belief that his young protege had forgotten them. 'He's Professor of Zoology there. And sternly to Ruth: 'You will be worthy of his kindness, I know.'

She had retired into her hair, trying to still the confusion in her mind and remained in it, figuratively speaking, till late that night when her Aunt Hilda's snuffling proclaimed her to be asleep, and she could lean out of the window, breathing in the sooty air, and try to think things out.

Why had he done it? Why had Quin, who had made it so clear that they should never meet again, accepted her as a student? What had made him override his decision and ignore the warnings of his solicitor about collusion and consent and heaven knew what else, to give her this chance?

But what did it matter why? He had done it, and the future lay bright and shining before her. She would be the most studious student they had ever seen at Thameside. She would work till she burst, she would get a First - she would get the best First they had ever had - and she would do it without ever making him speak to her, without even once looking his way.

That her acceptance had nothing to do with Quin, that he did not even know of it, was something which could not have occurred to Ruth or to her family, accustomed as they were to the formal working of Austrian academic life, yet it was so. Quin always left the admissions, indeed most of the administration, to his second in command, Dr Felton, and was himself not only not in London, but not even in his Northumbrian home.

Believing in the inevitability of war, he had taken himself off to a naval base in Scotland to evoke the revered name of his appalling grandfather, Rear Admiral 'Basher' Somerville, and get himself into the navy. To talk himself into the corridors of power had been relatively easy; to talk himself out of them, as the threat of war receded, was taking longer.

Professor Somerville was going to be late for the beginning of term.

CHAPTER TWELVE