The Moth
Authors: Unknown
For Wanda
Foreword by George Dawes Green
Introduction by Catherine Burns
Life on a Möbius Strip
BY JANNA LEVIN
Mission to India
BY DR. GEORGE LOMBARDI
Notes on an Exorcism
BY ANDREW SOLOMON
Man and Beast
BY ALAN RABINOWITZ
The Prince and I
BY JILLIAN LAUREN
The Day I Became a Matador
BY A. E. HOTCHNER
Life After Death
BY DAMIEN ECHOLS
Don’t Fall in Love with Your Monkey
BY ARI HANDEL
Tajik Sonata
BY ANOID LATIPOVNA RAKHMATYLLAEVA
Impeachment Day
BY JOE LOCKHART
Easter in a Texas Roadhouse
BY WAYNE REECE
Bicycle Safety on Essex
BY RICHARD PRICE
The Big Things You Don’t Do
BY ANNIE DUKE
A View of the Earth
BY MICHAEL MASSIMINO
The House That Sherman Didn’t Burn
BY GEORGE DAWES GREEN
Cocktails in Attica
BY SHERMAN
“
O.T.
”
POWELL
Whatever Doesn’t Kill Me
BY ED GAVAGAN
Discussing Family Trees in School Can Be Dangerous
BY PAUL NURSE
Good News Versus Bad
BY ERIN BARKER
The Apron Strings of Savannah
BY EDGAR OLIVER
A Perfect Circle
BY CARLY JOHNSTONE
We’ll Have to Stop Now
BY ANDY CHRISTIE
The Case of the Curious Codes
BY CYNTHIA RIGGS
The Accident
BY OPHIRA EISENBERG
Sing Sing Tattoo
BY TED CONOVER
My First Day with the Yankees
BY MATTHEW MCGOUGH
Under the Influence
BY JEFFERY RUDELL
One Last Family Photo
BY JAMES BRALY
A Dish Best Served Cold
BY TRISTAN JIMERSON
A Work in Progress
BY AIMEE MULLINS
The Small Town Prisoner
BY WANDA BULLARD
The Past Wasn’t Done with Me
BY KEMP POWERS
Hair Today Gone Tomorrow
BY JENNY ALLEN
The One Good Man
BY JOYCE MAYNARD
Life Support
BY STEPHANIE SUMMERVILLE
Where There’s Smoke
BY JENIFER HIXSON
Perfect Moments
BY BRIAN FINKELSTEIN
Fireworks from Above
BY FAYE LANE
Franny’s Last Ride
BY MIKE DESTEFANO
Dates, Locations, and Directors of the Original Performances of the Stories
W
ho knew that what New York needed was a front porch? That the secret desire hidden in the hearts of hipsters and banksters alike was a chance to sit after dinner in a screened-in space, to escape—or maybe just enjoy—the summer heat, and there, in the dark, lit by a single lamp with its attendant insects, swap stories, tell tales? Who knew that what we really wanted was one shared place where everyone from a kid off the street to a cop just off the beat to Salman Rushdie could tell about this weird thing that happened:
Did I tell you this already? No? Well, you remember that time I went round on Christmas to Uncle Norm’s
…
Storytelling, story-sharing, tale-bearing in the good sense,
yarn-spinning
—who knew that what New York (and now the nation; we’ll get there) needed was…
that
?
Well, the men and mostly women of The Moth knew. This book relates what is itself an improbable story, a yarn spun about how The Moth sprang from a simple idea of George Green’s, slowly grew, and then eventually became a national phenomenon.
But the deeper questions are: Why now? Why here? And, above all, why does it work? What is it about this improbable form that The Moth has made its own and shared with the world—the timed, short personal story, rooted in reminiscence and memoir, distinctly unprofessional even when offered by a pro—that vibrates with its era?
A lot of its success has to do, as always in life, with much preparation and calculation beneath the seeming spontaneity. For all their seeming inconsequence and improvisational air, a good Moth story is as carefully prepped and cultivated as a bonsai tree, with the same understanding that the miniature form, far more fragile than the bigger kind, needs more constant tending. You have a little stage space to waste in a two-hour play, but there’s not a second that doesn’t have to count in a ten-minute story. The producers and directors of Moth evenings—an astonishing array of those mostly female overseers, who somehow combine the role of effusive cheerleader and hard-headed theater critic—“run” the stories,
work
the stories, over and over, until that thing you hear, though never written down, is incised on the storyteller’s consciousness for good, with all its inner twists and turns.
That relentless preparation may be, for the arrogant writer-type who thinks he already knows all there is to know about storytelling—i.e., me—the most difficult, and then in the end the most rewarding thing about the Moth process. A good story, we’re reminded, is shaped, plotted, rehearsed. The best guy on the porch was planning his tale right through dinner. A good story needs an A plot and usually a B plot, and then, if it’s to “levitate the room,” to use the lovely expression the women of The Moth use themselves, it almost always needs some last
rising touch, a note of pathos or self-recognition or poetic benediction, to lift the story, however briefly, into the realm of fable or symbol.
Three more C’s spring to mind to encircle the mystery of The Moth. A lot of the magic of the Moth story is confessional: Everyone likes to talk about himself, to be sure, but the stories we like to hear most are the ones that you would think we would be most unwilling to tell. The human need for confession in the presence of others, left mostly untended by the churches these days, is fulfilled by the Moth occasion. An uncanny number of the best Moth stories are
admissions
, even apologies, frank, candid (“I spent Christmas in a transgender bar” or “When I was fourteen, I shot my friend by accident”). And the audience listening implies, by the perfect silence of their attention, that they are rapt—right there with you. Throughout even a self-humiliating Moth story, one hears the rarest thing: the sound of an audience keeping an open mind. Then often laughter—and always, applause—closes the circuit. The unspeakable or embarrassing thing admitted turns out to be… not so bad, maybe even surprisingly commonplace. We didn’t all insult James Brown or get busted making hooch in Attica, but life presents relentless difficulties and complexities and humiliations even to the luckiest of us, and we applaud warmly as if to say,
I know
. The audience doesn’t release its breath as it does at a high-tension tragedy, or applaud in culminated pleasure as at a good musical. No, the audience pauses, reflects for a bare half moment, and then erupts in the pleasure not of seeing a thing accomplished but of hearing a truth shared. Some ancient ritual of expiation seems to be taking place: that’s okay, the exhalation says, what happened to you, however hair-raising,
and the Moth stories that have been told about escapes from prison, accidental shootings, and near-death experiences are now part of what has happened to
us
all.
The second C is that of comedy. Perhaps the hardest thing those Moth story directors have to teach the storyteller is that the laughter will come only if there are no self-conscious jokes.
This isn’t stand-up
, they say, in pleasant effect, to the guy who, with a microphone suddenly in his hands, wrongly thinks himself a second Seinfeld. (Me, again.) The laughter provoked by a Moth story has to be ethical laughter: not the laughter of a taboo transgressed, but the laughter of a truth revealed. And nothing is more
helpful
to a storyteller who may also be, in mufti, a pro writer than this reminder that the ethic of all storytelling is credibility, truth.
Much has been made of the human need for narrative, but, truth be told, stories don’t make us better people. But they do make us truer writers.
My own Moth experience came along, for instance, at a moment when I often felt mired in the damp, soggy marsh of the four-thousand-word essay, with its exhausting, sapient certainties and predictable drop-cap caesuras (“Edmund Burke was born in…”). The pressure of Moth storytelling made me newly aware of what propulsion can do for a paragraph. It reminded me that drama and pacing and even suspense could be wooed from the slightest materials, and that the key to good writing (one key, anyway) is that the reader should never look back. (Even Proust, for all his elaborating, is a spiraling but not a circular writer. We may move round and round, but we press ahead.) Every essay is really a story, and every story, truth be told, shares the same ethic, the same motto. The great storyteller Frank O’Connor defined it best, saying once that every
good story should end, in spirit, with the exact same words: “And everything that ever happened to me afterwards, I never felt the same about again.” (He actually got to use that ending, once.) In this book of Moth stories, that test of significance, of meaning, is met again and again. There are very few of these well-told tales that don’t have those words as an invisible addition. You can mouth them to yourself as the story ends:
Jesus, she could never have felt the same about
anything
after that
…
Confession, comedy, and then one last alliterative thing—connection. Poetry and philosophy may be there to teach us, in a sudden stunning lurch of perspective, the virtues of detachment, but storytelling, large and small, is there to teach us the beauties of attachment. The sweat and worry of a Moth evening nearly always ends with the sense of membership in a private club, but one shared by speakers and listeners. We wring each other’s hands, not in sweaty acknowledgment, but in shared appreciation: Every story knits together with every other. It must: A small connection, a link in a chain, is always forged.