The Night Ferry (38 page)

picked up a man in a hard hat and reflective jacket who couldn’t be identified as one of the crew. The footage didn’t show his face clearly but he was seen carrying a pet traveling cage.

The square gray plastic box was supposed to contain two Siamese cats but they were found wandering in a stairwel .

Another camera in the Customs area picked up the clearest images of the unidentified man. In the foreground trucks are being scanned with heat-seeking equipment designed to find il egals. But in the background, at the edge of the frame, a pumpkin-shaped caravan attached to an early-model Range Rover can be seen. Mr. and Mrs. Jones of Cardiff are seen repacking their duty-frees and souvenirs after being searched. As the car and caravan pul away, a square gray pet cage is visible on the tarmac next to where they were parked.

The Welsh couple were pul ed over a little after midday Sunday on the M4 just east of Reading. The caravan was empty but Pearl’s fingerprints were lifted from the table and the aluminum door. The couple had stopped for petrol at a motorway service center on the M25. A cashier remembered Pearl buying bottles and baby formula. Shortly afterward, at 10:42

a.m., a car was reported stolen from an adjacent parking area. It stil hasn’t been found.

Forbes is running the investigation, liaising with Spijker in Amsterdam, combining resources, pitting their wil s against the problem. They are cross-checking names from the IVF clinic with the U.K. immigration records.

There has been a news blackout about the missing twins. DI Forbes made the decision. Stolen children make dramatic headlines and he wants to avoid creating panic. A year ago a newborn was snatched from a hospital in Harrogate and there were 1,200 al eged sightings in the first two days. Mothers were accosted in the street and treated like kidnappers.

Homes were raided needlessly. Innocent families suffered.

The only public statement has been about Pearl, who has a warrant out for his arrest. Another one. I have taken to carrying my gun again. As long as he’s out there, I’m going to keep it with me. I am not going to lose Samira again.

She has been staying with me since leaving hospital on Wednesday. Hari has moved out of the spare room and is sleeping downstairs on a sofa bed. He seems quite taken by our lodger. He has started wearing a shirt around the house because he senses that she disapproves.

I am to face a Police Disciplinary Tribunal. Neglect of duty, deliberate falsehood and abuse of authority are just three of the charges. Failing to show up at Hendon is the least of my worries. Barnaby El iot has accused me of harassment and arson. The investigation is being supervised by the Police Complaints Authority. I am guilty until proven innocent.

A toilet flushes along the hal way. A light switch clicks off. A few minutes later comes the hum of a machine and the rhythmic suction of a breast pump. Samira’s milk has come in and she has to express every six hours. The sound of the pump is strangely soporific. I close my eyes again.

She hasn’t said anything about the twins. I keep wondering when she is going to crack, fragmented by the loss. Even when she identified Hassan’s body at Westminster Mortuary she held it al inside.

“It’s OK to cry,” I told her.

“That is why Al ah gave us tears,” she answered.

“You think God played a part in this?”

“He would not give me this suffering if he did not think I could endure it.”

How can she be so wise, yet so accepting? Can she real y believe this is part of some grand master plan or that Al ah would test her so cruel y?

Such faith seems positively medieval, yet she has an appetite for learning. Things that I take for granted she finds fascinating, like central heating, dual flush toilets and my washer/dryer. In Kabul she had to carry water upstairs to their flat and the power failed almost daily. London has lights along every street, burning through the night. Samira asked me if perhaps we British are scared of the dark. She didn’t understand why I laughed.

I took her shopping for clothes at Canary Wharf yesterday. “There is not so much glass in al of Afghanistan,” she said, pointing to the office towers that shone in the morning sun. I could see her studying the office workers queuing for coffee and “skinny” muffins: the women dressed in narrow skirts, tight tops and jackets, flicking their short hair, chatting on mobile phones.

The clothing boutiques intimidated her. The shop assistants were dressed like mourners and the shops felt like funeral parlors. I told Samira there was a better place to find clothes.

We left and went to Commercial Road where garments were crammed on racks and spil ing from bins. She chose two skirts, a long-sleeved blouse and a cardigan. It came to less than sixty pounds.

She studied the twenty-pound notes.

“Is this your Queen?”

“Yes.”

“She looks like she has been dipped in plaster.”

I laughed. “I guess she does.”

The Christmas decorations were up. Even the bagel bakery and halal butcher had fairy lights and fake snow. Samira stopped and peered into a lobster tank in the window of a restaurant.

“I am never going to swim in the sea.”

“Why?”

“I don’t want to meet one of them.”

I think she had visions of lobsters crawling over one another in the same density as in the tank.

“This must be like science fiction to you.”

“Science? Fiction?”

“It means like a fantasy. Unreal.”

“Yes, unreal.”

Seeing London through Samira’s eyes has given me a different perspective on the city. Even the most mundane scene takes on a new life. When I took her underground to catch the Tube, she clutched my hand as an approaching train roared through the tunnel, sounding like a “monster in a cave” she said.

The casual wealth on display is embarrassing. There are more vets in the East End than there were doctors in Kabul. And the animals are better fed than the orphans.

The breast pump has stopped. She had turned on Hari’s TV and is flicking between channels. Slipping out of bed, I tiptoe along the hal and knock on her door. She’s wearing my old dressing gown, the one with an owl sewn onto the pocket.

“Can’t you sleep?”

“No.”

“I’l make us a sleeping potion.”

Her eyes widen.

She fol ows me down the stairs, along the hal into the kitchen. I close the door and take a bottle of milk from the fridge, pouring it into mugs. Two minutes in the microwave and they’re steaming. Breaking up pieces of dark chocolate, I drop them in the liquid, watching them melt. Samira uses a spoon to catch the melting shards, licking it clean.

“Tel me about your family.”

“Most of them are dead.”

She licks the spoon. I break off more pieces of chocolate and add them to her mug.

“Did you have a big family?”

“Not so big. In Afghanistan people exaggerate what their family has done. Mine is no different. One of my ancestors traveled to China with Marco Polo they say, but I don’t believe it. I think he was a smuggler, who brought the black powder from India to Afghanistan. The king heard of the magic and asked to see a demonstration. According to my father, a thousand rockets streamed back and forth across the sky. Bamboo castles dripped with fire. Fireworks became our family business. The formulas were passed down from father to son—and to me.”

I remember the photograph among Hassan’s possessions showing a factory with workers lined up outside, most of them missing limbs or eyes, or incomplete in other ways. Hassan had burn scars on his arms.

“It must have been dangerous work.”

Samira holds up her hands, showing her fingers. “I am one of the lucky ones.” She sounds almost disappointed. “My father lost both his thumbs when a shel exploded. Uncle Yousuf lost his right arm and his wife lost her left arm. They helped each other to cook and sew and drive a car. My aunt changed gears and my uncle steered. My father’s other brother, Fahad, lost his fingers during a display. He was a very good gambler but he began to lose when he couldn’t shuffle the cards.

“I didn’t meet my grandfather. He was kil ed in a factory explosion before I was born. Twelve others died in the same fire, including two of his brothers. My father said it was a sacrifice that only our family could make. One hand is enough to sin, he said. One hand is enough to save.”

She glances at the dark square of the window. “It was our cal ing—to paint the sky. My father believed that one day our family would make a rocket that would light the way to Heaven.

In the meantime, we would make rockets that drew the gaze of Al ah in the hope that he would bless our family and bring us happiness and good health.” She pauses and considers the irony of such a statement. Perfectly stil , she is canted forward over the table, firm yet fragile. Her stare seems to originate at the back of her eyes.

“What happened to the factory?”

“The Talibs closed it down. Fireworks were sinful, they said. People celebrated when they arrived. They were going to stop the warlords and end the corruption. Things changed but not in a good way. Girls could not go to school. Windows were painted over so women could not be seen. There was no music or TV or videos, no card games or kites. I was ten years old and they made me wear a burka. I could not buy things from male shopkeepers. I could not talk to men. I could not laugh in public. Women had to be ordinary. Invisible. Ignorant. My mother educated us in secret. Books were hidden each night and homework had to be destroyed.

“Men with beards and black turbans patrol ed the streets, listening for music and videos. They beat people with whips soaked in water and with chains. Some were taken away and didn’t come back.

“My father took us to Pakistan. We lived in a camp. My mother died there and my father blamed himself. One day he announced that we were going home. He said he would rather starve in Kabul than live like a beggar.”

She fal s silent, shifting in her chair. The motor of the refrigerator rattles to life and I feel the same shudder pass through me.

“The Americans dropped leaflets from the sky saying they were coming to liberate us but there was nothing left to free us from. Stil we cheered because the Talibs were gone, running, like frightened dogs. But the Northern Al iance was not so different. We had learned not to expect too much. In Afghanistan we sleep with the thorns and not the flowers.” The effort of remembering has made her sleepy. I wash the mugs and fol ow her upstairs. She pauses at my door, wanting to ask me something.

“I am not used to the quiet.”

“You think London is quiet?”

She hesitates. “Would it be al right if I slept in your room?”

“Is there something wrong? Is it the bed?”

“No.”

“Are you frightened?”

“No.”

“What is it then?”

“At the orphanage we slept on the floor in the same room. I am not used to being alone.”

My heart twists. “You should have said something earlier. Of course you can sleep with me.”

She col ects a blanket and spreads it on the floor beside my wardrobe.

“My bed is big enough. We can share.”

“No, this is better.”

She curls up on the floor and breathes so quietly that I want to make sure she’s stil there.

“Good night,” I whisper. “May you sleep amid the flowers, not the thorns.”

DI Forbes arrives in the morning, early as usual. Dressed in a charcoal suit and yel ow tie, he is ready to front a news conference. The media blackout is being lifted. He needs help to find the twins.

I show him to the kitchen. “Your cold sounds better.”

“I can’t stomach another bloody banana.”

Hari is with Samira in the sitting room. He is showing her his old Xbox and trying to explain what it does.

“You can shoot people.”

“Why?”

“For fun.”

“Why would you shoot people for
fun
?”

I can almost hear Hari’s heart sinking. Poor boy. The two of them have something in common. Hari is studying chemical engineering and Samira knows more about chemical reactions than any of his lecturers, he says.

“She’s an odd little thing,” says Forbes, whispering.

“How do you mean?”

“She doesn’t say much.”

“Most people talk too much and have nothing to say.”

“What is she going to do?” he asks.

“I don’t know.”

What would I do in her shoes? I have never been without friends or family or stranded in a foreign country (unless you count Wolver-hampton, which is pretty bloody foreign).

Hari walks into the kitchen looking pleased with himself.

“Samira is going teach me to make fireworks,” he announces, taking a biscuit from Forbes’s plate.

“So you can blow yourself up,” I say.

“I’m very careful.”

“Oh yes. Like the time you fil ed that copper pipe with black powder and blew a hole in the wooden siding.”

“I was fifteen.”

“Old enough to know better.”

“Sunday is Guy Fawkes Night. We’re going to make a whistling chaser.”

“Which is?”

“A rocket that whistles and has white-and-red stars with a salute at the end.”