The Old Neighborhood (21 page)

“Hey, man, I'm gonna cruise,” Angel said as he rose. “Wanna come?”

“Naw, I'm cool,” I said. I took a deep breath, trying to keep my heart from thumpin'.

“Aight den, fools,” Angel chided in a silly voice as he got on his bike.

“Hey, Hyacinth,” Angel sang as he peddled fast and silly towards the girls.

“Hey, Angel,” Hyacinth said, smiling at him as he rode past them and into the tree-shadowed walkway.

Hyacinth approached, looking straight at me the whole way. Her hair was combed down straight to her shoulders, and her bangs cut sharp across her forehead; they framed her round, little face with its small button nose and long eyelashes. Her skin was smooth and perfect and dark. She folded her arms over her stomach. It looked like she squeezed a bouquet of orange, white, and red wildflowers that were printed on the chest of her yellow t-shirt. She walked right up to me with her dark eyes like two almonds, and when she got close, she flashed her bright teeth. I couldn't help but smile back. This warmth rushed all through my chest in overlapping surges like boiling carp in the Chicago River.

“Hey,” she said. The heel of her open-toed sandals clacked on the sidewalk. She bumped her knee into my thigh, playfully, and I made room for her to sit beside me in the sill.

“Is this your bike?” she asked, finally breaking eye contact with me and looking at it.

“Yeah… You like it?” My throat swelled with pride.

“It's great.” She kicked her legs out in front of her as she gripped the ledge of the sill between her thighs. “It's beautiful.” She glanced back at me.

“Beautiful?” Ryan frowned. “Come on… You gotta find some other word than
‘
beautiful,'” he said.

“Well….” Hyacinth raised her hands.

“
‘
Beautiful' is fine with me,” I cut her off as our eyes met again. Her cheeks blushed deep-red.

The other Good Girls giggled and whispered in a huddle like pigeons pecking at a scrap of bread. That's when I saw Monica from next door. She was a year younger than me, and I hadn't paid her much attention, but she'd finally started to grow up. She fit right in with 'em even though she was the only black girl. Her hair was pulled up in some kind of New Wave braids with little white and purple beads tied in on the ends. She made eyes at me—her eyebrows arched way up—challenging me like when we used to play as little kids.

“What?” she said playfully as we both laughed.

Ryan nodded his head towards Monica and winked. His face turned all pink as he showed them gnarly chompers.

I sighed and looked back at Monica. “Have you ever met Ryan, Monica?” I introduced them and thankfully didn't have to do much more, and they started to talk.

“Can I ride it?” Hyacinth asked.

I stood the bike, and she raised her leg up and swung it over the bar and sat down. Her short khaki shorts slid up so her whole thigh showed. It glowed in the streetlight with lotion. She sat down snug on the soft banana seat, and then she reached her arms out to grab the rubber grips on the ape hangers.

“Do you like it?” I asked.

“I like it.”

“It's hard to ride lowrider bikes, so I'm gonna push you 'til you get it, OK?” I got behind her.

“OK. Don't let me fall over.” I leaned my cheek in close to hers.

“I won't,” I whispered.

I grasped the chrome sissy bar and the neck of the handlebars and pushed. Her hair whisked against my face and neck with my chest snug against her back. It felt so good that it instantly eased the tension in my shoulders, and I pushed her like this for a few feet until she peddled away. She made a big loop around the wide sidewalk adjacent to the sills as the Good Girls
‘
Ooohhed' and cheered. Finally, she rode to a stop in front of me and slapped her sandals on the sidewalk.

“It's a great bike,” she said as she got off. “You did a good job making it.”

“Thanks.” I put it back to rest on its pedal.

Monica sat beside Ryan in his sill. His beet-red face grinned so hard it looked like his head was about to explode at any second.

Hyacinth sat next to me in my sill; there was barely enough space for the two of us. She drew her sparkly lip gloss capsule across her top lip, then glided it along the thick bottom one. She smacked and smushed them together, and the tiny flecks of glitter percolated in the burnt-orange streetlamps. The rest of the Good Girls chattered in a tight gaggle at Angel's vacant sill and drew on the concrete inner-walls with pink and purple highlighter markers. The aroma of Hyacinth's peach-cream lip gloss permeated the vault of my sill, and my mouth salivated instantly.

We sat so our legs and bare arms touched. Her damp, smooth skin pulled like a magnet on mine. It made me want to reach out and squeeze her, then tear off both our clothes so as much as of our skin could touch as humanly possible. Or maybe, just kiss her—kiss her arms, her hands, her neck.

A silence bloomed up in our sill, and finally, she smiled. Her purple lips slowly spread, and her immaculate silver braces shimmered. She reached up and touched the golden nameplate attached to my rope chain that read Joey in cursive.

She inspected it. She rolled her fingers over the smooth, polished gold, and her teal fingernails curled over the letters. I looked at her and her short, straight-cut bangs. The dark, silky strands glistened in the night. My pulse pattered in my thorax, and my ears burned hot. Suddenly it struck me: she'd say yes if I asked her right then. A gush of joy washed over my chest, then popping little pin-prickles spread in its wake and slid up along my neck. My lips quivered, and I started to say it. It came out as this high-pitched squeak, and I swallowed it back as her deep almond eyes rose to mine.

“You wanna be my girl?” It flowed smooth and low like a vibration that'd eased out of my spinal cord. She smiled and nodded. Then, she leaned in and pecked me swiftly, but firmly, and her lips left mine with a moist smack.

I grinned, reached back, and unclasped my rope chain. Then, I slid the little cursive
Joey
off and placed it in my palm. She undid hers and pinched the corner of the
Joey
with her thumb and index to draw the end of her chain through the tiny rings. Then, she asked me to clasp it and turned. Her hair fluttered across my face soft and light as she brushed it over her shoulder. I brought the chain up over her head and laid it down, struggling with the tiny circular clasp.

“This fuckin
'
thing,” I muttered as she covered her mouth and giggled. And then, the ring slid true, and she was mine. I leaned in and softly kissed her neck. The smudge of her lip gloss slid from me and on to her cool skin.

The girls said they had to go and started off down Hollywood, then shouted back, “Come on, Hyacinth!”

Hyacinth looked at them, then back at me.

“See you later,” she said smiling.

“OK,” I said. She gave me a kiss on the cheek and ran away to catch up with the other Good Girls.

Ryan waited until they were out of earshot. “Man, that Monica is hot as hell!”

“Yeah, man. We been neighbors since we was little,” I said. “I think she likes you man.”

“Yeah?” Ryan raised his eyebrows, and that awkward squeakiness returned to his voice.

Angel rode up from the tunnel and asked, “What up?”

“Ryan's in love,” I said as I shoved a thumb at Ryan.

“Which hood rat now?” Angel replied, flashing his teeth at me.

“Fuck you,” Ryan sang.

“Naw, it's my neighbor Monica.”

“Mort's little sister?” Angel asked.

“Yeah,” I said smiling.

“Got that jungle fever, huh,” Angel said as I broke up.

“Man, fuck you,” Ryan snapped.

“Hey, but whatcha think Mickey's gonna say about him dating a black girl?” I raised my eyebrows at Angel.

“Well, he'll probably just be happy he finally found a girl with all her teeth in her mouth,” Angel joked, looking away towards Ashland.

“Ohhhhh.” I covered my mouth trying to bite back my laughter.

“Motherfucker,” Ryan said, jumping up and slugging Angel in the arm hard. “Where's your bitch at?” he shouted.

Angel stood up. They were the same height, but Ryan outweighed him by about twenty pounds. Ryan was a little soft, but it wasn't all fat. Angel's smile disappeared. They snarled nose-to-nose.

“Come on already,” I said, exhausted with the way those two got under each other's skin. “Quit already.”

They both sat back in their sills and continued to glare at each other like two brothers that had to share the same little room their whole lives.

•

IT WAS LIL PAT'S BIRTHDAY
around then, and Ma and Dad felt bad for him—he'd been in the infirmary for some kind of fight—so we drove out to Statesville Correctional to visit him. Jan'n'Rose came along even though they'd never gotten along with him, and at the last second, Rich shuffled out of the house and jumped in the van. There was nothing much to do—it was a rainy Saturday. Statesville is in Joliet and only about an hour outside the city. I was glad to go, glad to see Lil Pat again. I missed him a lot, and we didn't go to visit much; Ma didn't like the idea of us getting tangled up in that world. She wanted better for us. We drove through endless lines of tall cornfields, then passed a sign on the road that read “Do Not Pick Up Hitchhikers.”

“Yeah, if Pat ever escaped, he'd probably need a ride into town, huh?” Rich guffawed.

“Quit talking like that, damnit,” Dad said, trying to hide his smile as the rest of us the giggled softly.

The van came over a hill, and there it was in the center of a cornfield. The huge concrete prison walls spread widely across the field with the grayish-purple sky hovering heavily above. I remembered it being taller and scarier the first time—I thought it was like Conan the Barbarian's house—but now, it just looked sad and depressing.

“So he's in segregation, huh,” Dad said.

“Yeah, I guess he's been misbehaving,” Ma replied.

“Ah, what'd you expect,” Rich said. “He had detention every day at Gordon.”

“Richard, if you don't shut'chur mouth,” Ma said, twisting and glaring at him.

It was a long wait. Two lines—one for men, one for women. Step out of your shoes. We were all searched. Ma, Dad, and Jan'n'Rose went in first while Rich and I waited for about a half an hour. Suddenly, Dad burst out of the doors to the visiting room. His face was red and puffy, and he tore across the room to the exit doors where a guard stood behind a glass and mesh window.

“Let me outta here!” he yelled.

The guard buzzed him through.

Ma, Jan, and Rose followed soon after. Ma grinned stoically at us while Jan'n'Rose hung their heads solemnly.

“Go on in. He's only got fifteen minutes left,” Ma said.

“You think he should go in?” Rich asked Ma, nodding at me.

“He'll be fine,” she replied. “Daddy just got worked up.”

“I'm goin
'
in,” I sighed. “I didn't come out here for nothing.”

“Go on, it's OK,” Ma said, patting me on the shoulder. “He's got a busted-up eye, but he's fine.”

I followed Rich through the doors, and we walked down a short hall. Along one side, there was a series of booths—some with people talking and others that were empty. We walked until we saw Lil Pat sitting across the thick glass. His left eye was swollen terribly and sealed shut, and there was a long, twisty string of black stitches running along his brow. He looked anxious and grabbed the yellow phone and motioned for us to pick ours up. Rich picked his up, and Lil Pat spoke fast. I put mine to my ear.

“He's fine,” Rich urged.

“Are you sure? He was crying and everything. Jesus,” Lil Pat said. His eye bugged out. “Are you sure, Rich?”

“He's fine,” Rich sighed.

“Ah, aye, Joey,” Lil Pat said, looking at me bright-eyed. “How are ya, buddy?”

“Good,” I said. “What happened to your eye?”

“Ah, nothing. I'm fine.” Lil Pat shrugged. “How are you, kid? You've grown! How old are you now?”

“Fourteen,” I replied.

“Jesus Christ, kid,” Lil Pat said as he twisted his head sideways. “I remember when… Ah, ya look great, kid. I miss ya so much.”

“I miss you, too.” A knot strung-up in my throat.

“So what the hell happened?” Rich laughed.

“Ah, nothin',” Lil Pat said as he eased back on his stool. All his street swagger returned. “Some nigger hit me wit' a hunk of brick rolled up in a sock.”

“Ohhho fuck!” Rich gasped. I couldn't believe it.

“Yeah,” Lil Pat said. “We was working down in the laundry, and he snuck up on me. Little fuckin' bastard. I'd stole on his boy a couple weeks ago.”

“Did you get knocked out?” Rich asked.

“Yeah,” Pat smirked. “I woke up like woohoo!” He rolled his eye around in its socket. “But he got his already.” He mimicked a stabbing. “The white brothers are doing just fine in here. Don't worry about dat.”

“Damn.”

In my imagination, the entire series of violent repercussions suddenly unfolded like a row of dominoes falling and clattering on a table. No winners, no losers, just destruction.

“It was good, though. Got me out of the pressure cooker. It's quiet over here.”

“Sounds real nice, Pat,” Rich said, sarcastically arching his eyebrows.

“You asshole,” Lil Pat said giggling. “I heard ya got a real nice girl.” He smiled at Rich.

“Yeah,” Rich said bashfully.

“Got tired a dem skanks, huh?” Lil Pat asked.

“Yeah,” Rich answered and looked away. “She's great.”

“You guys gonna get married?” Lil Pat asked.

Rich hid his eyes from his big brother.