The Pesthouse (5 page)

Jackson felt the evening chill at once, but he was liberated, fighter in himself. He'd left his ma behind at last and distanced himself a little from his brother. The coat had been her manhood gift to him. In richer times. They'd feasted on four sibling goats with all the other families, and she had scraped and tanned the hides to make his gift, which, she said — too frequently — would last him a lifetime. It would outlast him. Jackson was certain that if she were to imagine him now and wonder how he and Franklin might have fared, the coat would be a sure part of it. Now he was beyond imagining — and glad of that.

The meal that night was not as grand as he had hoped, although the usual country protocols were followed closely before the food was served, raising expectations. Everybody had to wash their hands at the canteen door in water that, after passing through two hundred hands, dirtied by the journey, smelled of horse hair, sweat and rope, and looked as brown as tea. And for at least the second time that day (for news of Margaret's illness had made the Ferrytowners vigilant and fussy) everybody was inspected for rashes or livid spots before they were allowed to take their places. The women had the best benches, on the wall side of the tables. The men sat in the central gangway with nothing to support their backs. Their children and any adolescent boy too young to grow a beard gathered, on their haunches, on mats to the side of the fires and were forbidden to move or speak above a whisper. No dogs. Hats off. And sleeves rolled up, in optimistic readiness.

Jackson was given a low stool at the head of the shorter table so that he could stretch his legs and use his elbows without fear of braining a neighbor. It suited him to take this mostly practical and cautious placement as a mark of respect not only for his size but also for his bearing, which he considered dignified. The candlelight made all the faces seem rudely healthy and animated, and soon new friends were being introduced and stories told. Jackson, though, stayed mostly silent, partly because he had no direct eye contact across the table, partly because his immediate neighbors were too old and tired to draw his attention, but largely because he was taciturn by nature, prepared to express a short opinion but not eager or even able to prattle. Besides, his head was full of awkward possibilities.

When the food was served, it was clear that the hosts had gone to no expense. It was hog and hominy with corn bread, they said (though it was later claimed by one of the travelers — possibly a joke — that he'd pulled a yellowish racoon hair from between his teeth. 'I've never seen a ring-tailed hog before!'). Hardly anybody failed to clear their plates, however. Anything was better than the travel pantry that had provided yesterday's meals.

The meat was followed by oatmeal and molasses, offered without the benefit of silverware, so eating it by hand was a noisy, self-conscious business. The adults felt obliged to extend their little fingers respectfully as they ate, using their fores and indexers as spoons and reserving the pinkie for dipping into the dishes of salt and for scooping pine-nut mash onto their molasses. Such good manners seemed excessive for that quality of food but necessary in the company and under the scrutiny of strangers.

Nobody was truly satisfied. This was not the meal that they'd been dreaming of on the journey, when they'd been making do, at best, with brushjack stew and feasting on the skeletal corpses of pack horses and mules, or on carrion. A chicken's egg, some milk, some recent, cultivated fruit, true bread and mutton, would have served them better.

Despite the quality of food, however, Jackson could have eaten twice as much again. At least his stomach was half full for once, and sweet. And eating in the company of so many other emigrants had been a kind of nourishment as well, even though he had not spoken yet. But when the elderly woman to his right offered him her unfinished oatmeal and some untouched quarters of bread, he felt required, once he had cleared his board, to set aside his dignity, provide his name and say a word or two about his journey east. He had listened to the travel tales of his fellow diners with little interest. So much disaster and regret should be not be spoken of, when it was over, Jackson thought. What was done was dust, as far as he was concerned. Such rapes and robberies and injuries and deaths, so many bolting horses, snapped axles, wagon fires and sudden floods, did not fit his experience. His account would tell of uneventful days marked out by boredom and hardship and livened only when the weather or the landscape played its trick of exposing travelers to mud or drought or, when the route had not been notched or blazed on tree trunks by preceding travelers, luring them into valleys that had no exit at their farthest ends. He told his story in a sentence, one that did not mention his brother.

'We could use a pair of shoulders like yours,' the old man said, nodding at his wife for her approval. 'Our cart's too heavy and we've lost a horse. We're moving out tomorrow, if you'd appreciate the ride. Pay your fare with your muscles, when the going's poor.'

Jackson nodded. Yes, he'd sleep on it and let them know. He'd be sleeping on a lot of things that night. His single bed would be crowded with temptations.

In fact, it was not at first easy for anyone to sleep that night. What they'd eaten crept around inside their guts, foraging with its nocturnal snout. And then the storm arrived, beating against the rest-house walls, keeping them all awake to wonder what state the route ahead would be in and whether they should rest up in the town for another day, allowing the mud some time to crust. The men called out in the deafening darkness from their shared beds, exchanging advice and providing their versions of the likely route ahead. No two versions were the same. The liars and the teasers could exaggerate as much as they wanted to. The worriers could share their greatest fears without shaming themselves. They were only faceless voices in the night. And they could safely list their various adversities — the beatings and the robberies, the time that they were stoned by bears, the five nights drifting on a lake, the treachery of so-called friends, the toil and drudgery, the hunger and the thirst, the murderous temperatures that they'd survived — from between warm coverings and underneath a decent roof.

The optimists among them believed that once the river had been crossed, something of the old America would be discovered, the country their grandpas and grandmas had talked about, a land of profusion, safe from human predators, snake-free, and welcoming beyond the hog and hominy of this raw place, a place described by so many of their grandparents in words they learned from
their
grandparents, where the encouragements held out to strangers were a good climate, fertile soil, wholesome air and water, plenty of provisions, good pay for labor, kind neighbors, good laws, a free government and a hearty welcome. A plain and simple ambition, surely.

Here were men who'd come from places with flat and functional names like Half-day Bridge, Boundary Wood, Center Island and — yes — Ferrytown, but within a day or two they expected to travel on the Dreaming Highway that led, so they believed, through Give-Your-Word Valley to Achievement Hill and a prospect of The Last Farewell, with its long views from the far shore of America. On the journey the country would be flat, they'd heard, with surfaced tracks as hard as fired clay. 'Not flat,' someone corrected them, 'but downhill all the way, sloping to the sea. The wheels do all the work. That's why it's called the Dreaming Highway. The country lets you sleep.' The journey to the boats, he said, would be an easy and a speedy one. 'A hog could roll there in a sack.'

But there were doubters in the darkness, too, men who'd heard less comforting reports. Rivers too wide and wild to cross. Forests so impenetrable and gloomy that nothing grew at ground level except funguses — and little moved except wood ants and blind lizards, both as white as snow, and rats that hunted for their prey by smell alone and so had noses longer than their tails. Great, dusty, waterless plains. Ridges sharper than a knife that tore your clothes. Others spoke of brackish swamps that could be crossed — in twenty days, if they were strong and lucky — only by travelers who dared to leave their horses and their carts behind and drag themselves across the mire on wooden rafts.

And were there any people beyond the river crossing? A multitude, yes. Everyone who'd ever headed east to catch the boats. There were no boats. Or else it was a land where no one lived, and there'd be not a soul to provide, once in a while, a good dry bed or any hog and hominy. 'You'd be glad to dine on racoon, then.' Or otherwise the people were all unwelcoming, or they were naked cannibals, or they were dwarfs 'smaller than a prairie dog but uglier'.

'But furrier!'

'And very tasty on a slice of bread!'

By now the laughter in the room was louder than the rain. Indeed, the rain had relented somewhat, as had their indigestion. Now they could fall asleep more easily, apprehensive but amused. 'Watch out,' one of the men whispered, wanting to be the final voice, after all his companions had fallen quiet. 'There's folk out there, one day ahead of Ferrytown, who are as handy with their toes as with their fingers. They can wipe their butts, scratch their noses, poke your eyes out and pick your pockets, all at the one time.'

But there was still another man simmering to speak. 'From what I've heard tonight,' said Jackson from his single bed at the far end of the hall, too softly to be heard by many of his fellows, 'there're at least a hundred different lands beyond the river. And none of them strikes me as likely. Maybe all of us should only wait and see what we'll find when we've planted our feet on the actual earth ahead of us.' He wanted to say out loud what he was hoping for within — that if he advanced his shoulders to the couple with the heavy cart and left his brother to take care of himself, then he could square it with his conscience only if the way ahead for Franklin would prove to be an easy and a kindly one. He fell silent for a little time, judging his words, and wondering, too, whether he could ignore the pressure in his bladder from the flagon of apple juice he had traded and drunk, before adding, 'I'll tell you something for free. This afternoon, I walked down the very same hill as all of you, and I looked ahead and used my eyes. I saw the view. Nobody missed the view, I'm sure. And what I saw ahead of me was land and sky just like the land and sky we've always known. Tomorrow you can see it for yourselves.' Tomorrow, he was thinking, as he fell asleep, will be like yesterday.

THE DAWN SEEMED TIRED and hesitant at first, hardly capable of shaking off the clouds and pushing out into the day. The sun, rising for its daily journey to the west, was veiled by that night's retreating storm, which, like everything else, including the slight wind, was — typically for this season of migration and withdrawal — resolute in going east, unlike the light. The last stars lingered on, just happy to be visible beyond their time. But once the breeze stood up, the storm was cleared entirely. No cloud at all, and only gray-white mist and yesterday's smoke in the hollows of the valley, hiding Ferrytown.

When Franklin, drenched and stiffer than a log, finally emerged from underneath his bedding and dragged the tarps into the clearing where they would drain and dry, it was unusually warm and bright on Butter Hill. The undergrowth was steaming, and the air was fragrant with pine and earth, and faintly sulfurous. A hen-house smell. He stood for a while in the sunshine, hoping to recover quickly, and, indeed, he soon felt well enough to walk around a little. The rest had benefited his leg, but not sufficiently to pledge a day of walking. He washed in standing water and cleaned his teeth with a snapped furze branch, which smelled of nuts but left his gums bleeding. He would be sensible and put his feet up for one more day, he thought, flexing his knee. Less swelling, yes, though no less pain when he put any pressure on it. He would not be surprised if his brother returned that afternoon with food or with some transport. But, actually, the prospect of another day free from Jackson's nagging temper was not unwelcome.

Part of Franklin was uneasy, and just a touch alarmed. He sensed that there was death about. He'd felt it in his bones the moment that he'd tried to stand. He recognized it in the fragile colors of the morning. On days such as this the sky is so thinly blue and hollowed out that death's great hand can, at any time, reach through to harvest anyone it wants, to pick off lives like berries from a bush. And he could smell it on the air, beyond the pine, that faintly eggy smell, the chemicals of hell, the madman's belch. Was this the smell of pestilence? He hardly wanted to check. He did not want to exchange the memory of the young woman alive in candlelight with the reality of her perished in the night, borne off on death's enormous wing.

Franklin chose a good stick for support and made his way across the clearing to the Pesthouse, hoping not to waken her or frighten her, if she was still alive, but also ready to defend himself if there were any devils at her bed. But, looking through the Pesthouse cracks and the smoke-heavy fume of the little chamber, he found her well, still breathing in her house of turfs and boulders, still palely beautiful. He was far too thankful now, too teetering, to wonder or to care whose death he'd heard during that long night of rain and sleeplessness in the forest-frowning, eastward-looking hills.

It would be a pity not to be of service to the woman in the Pesthouse, he decided, straining to see her face and shaven head more clearly, hoping to see more — a naked leg flung out of bed, perhaps, a breast. He wanted an excuse to help her, rescue her. Not just to enjoy the true heat of her wood fire or to share her provisions. Not just to do his duty for the sick, either, obeying what his people called the Golden Obligation. He simply wanted her close company. If he was careful and wrapped his face, he would be protected from infectious air — then surely he could dare to sit beside her in the hut, not too near, but near enough to see her fully and to study her more easily. Oh, don't let Jackson ruin it by coming back too soon.

Franklin pulled aside the wooden door of the Pesthouse to let in fresh air. A corridor of sunlight fell across her bed and hands. 'Pish, pish,' he whispered, a gentle call that he had learned from Ma, a greeting that had allowed him many times to walk up to a horse or among cattle without distressing them.