Read The Prettiest Feathers Online
Authors: John Philpin
“What else can you tell me about Paul Wolf?” I asked him.
“It’s been so long,” he said. “And no one was ever interested. I remember I wrote down things about him. I kept a notebook, but I haven’t seen that in years. I don’t even know if I still have it. I know he enjoyed inflicting pain. Oh, I provoked him. I stalked him—I guess that’s the word they use now. I asked for what he did to me. But I know he enjoyed
doing it. I felt like he wanted me to keep coming after him, so he’d have an excuse to do something else to me.”
“Do you remember where he was from?”
“I want to say up north somewhere, but I’m not sure. My girlfriend was from Vermont. That may be why I want to say that.”
“What about other people who knew him?”
“He was a loner. If he had friends, I never knew it. He was premed but, like I said, he wasn’t much of a student. I don’t remember who told me that. He played games of chess in his head. No board. No pieces. Complete games. He’d tell people he could do this and get them to bet that he couldn’t. Sixty or seventy moves sometimes.”
“Did he have a job?”
“Not that I know of. He had a scholarship to begin with, but lost it.”
Again I thanked Chadwick and told him to call if he thought of anything else. He said he would.
Lane showed up just as I got off the phone. “Feel briefed?” I asked her.
“They’re going to do some of their magic down in Virginia and report back later. There’s a chance of this and a chance of that, but we can’t be sure of anything.”
“Well, they’re real busy making movies,” I said. “Got to sell the product.”
“We’re supposed to maintain an upbeat posture with the press. Put pressure on the killer. Make him think we’re getting close to him.”
“Lane, he knows we haven’t got shit. This guy is surreal. How many fucking identities does he have?”
“Willoughby wants us to start rating our leads,” she said, “using some kind of numerical system that’ll go into the computer easy.”
“Well, this guy does gobble ’em up like Pac-Man. Besides, we need a good computer game around here to break the monotony.”
“What about the Harvard Chadwick? You said you had more.”
“Lane, I’m gonna tell you something. But I don’t want to hear one word about my paranoia.”
Before I had a chance to tell her about Paul Wolf, Hanson and Dexter Willoughby walked up.
Right away, Hanson began giving Lane the bad news. “Detective Frank,” he said, “since the Bureau will be working these cases, we won’t be using any outside consultation. I told the lieutenant to send a fax up to your father to let him know we appreciate his assistance and to explain the situation. The Bureau has a suspect in the Albany cases. We’ll be working that angle, too.”
While Hanson was running his mouth to Lane, I had a chance to size up Dexter W. The dude was wearing hotshot shoes—real leather, with all those little curlicues punched in it. And they were small because his feet were small. Actually,
everything
about him was—well, not small, really, but dainty. He was neat in an undersized sort of way, like a miniature. And he was perfect. There wasn’t a single wrinkle in his suit or on his little pink face.
But on closer examination, I saw that Dexter Willoughby did have a flaw after all. His briefcase was too big. It looked like what I’d use for a weekend trip to the NCAA basketball championship. I figured he lugged his procedure manuals around in it.
“You have a suspect in the Albany cases?” Lane asked, but the two men ignored her.
Hanson finished saying his piece, then Dexter spoke up. Even his voice was dainty. “This is a complicated matter,” he said, in what seemed to be a signal for Willoughby and the captain to walk away.
Once they were out of earshot, I said, “Fucking profound. Somebody write that down.”
“What
suspect?” Lane said, though not necessarily to me. “If we’re supposed to work this case, it’d be nice to know who he is.”
“It’s a complicated matter,” I reminded her.
“I have to fax Dad.”
I turned back to my desk and stared at it. A single sheet of yellow, lined paper contained all the sense I was able to make out of the case so far. The rest of it was a question mark, and I had just started to ponder that when my intercom buzzed.
“Sinclair.”
“The methane probes were positive,” Lane said. “Looks like he had his own graveyard.”
“But he didn’t bury them all there,” I said. “Why?”
“Sounds like a question for Special Agent Dexter Willoughby.”
“He’s got his own suspect,” I told her, and clicked off.
And that’s why cases don’t get made. Nobody tells anybody shit, especially not when the feds are flocking around like vultures at a leper colony. Investigations have lives of their own. They’re reactive. You do all the shit the manual says—check this, cross-check that. Then some dude calls in and says he saw the boyfriend carrying a gun, leaving the crime scene two minutes after the shooting. So you react. You put all your resources into that lead. Turns out it wasn’t the boyfriend; it was a plumber. He wasn’t carrying a gun; it was his pipe wrench. It wasn’t two minutes after the shooting; it was two weeks before. And you’ve pissed away all that time and effort, but you do it again, with the next call.
Kojak solved them all. Even though Joe Friday talked like a computerized voice mail, he cleared ’em in half an hour. Always by the fucking book. It was a joke. TV was killing us. At least on
Homicide
some of them get left hanging, and the assholes who don’t like the show complain because it’s too realistic.
I felt bad for Lane. It was her first case as lead and here I was doing as little communicating as anyone else around the shop. She’d set all the right stuff in motion—analysis of physical evidence, neighborhood door-to-door, background information, a list of the latest wackos released from mental
hospitals and the prisons upstate—but none of it would mean shit until something flew in from left field.
The feds just made matters worse. Their presence pisses off the drones, puffs up the brass with self-importance, and shuts mouths. Willoughby had his own suspect. I doubted if he or Hanson would ever get around to briefing any of us who were doing the legwork. But hey, who gives a shit? They’ve probably got the wrong sucker anyway.
A
s soon as I arrived at the precinct on Friday, Hanson motioned for me to come into his office, reminding me that he wanted us to have a talk.
“Let me grab a cup of coffee first,” I said—but he told me no, there wasn’t time. The feds were due any minute for a briefing on the Sinclair/Harris cases, et al., and I was to be the lead presenter.
“Have a seat,” Hanson said, closing the door behind me.
I settled onto the wooden chair farthest from his desk.
“There’s a delicate matter we need to clear up, Lane,” he began. “In a situation like this it’s standard practice. You know that. I have to ask you where you were from three o’clock Sunday afternoon until you reported to the murder scene Monday morning.”
“This is about Robert and me, isn’t it?”
“You and the deceased weren’t exactly friends.”
“You think I killed her. Is that it?”
“I just want to get your story on the record.”
“My
story?
Captain, you know where I was. I was on call from Friday night till Monday morning.”
“Dispatch doesn’t show you out on any calls all weekend, until the one Monday.”
I wanted to walk out, but I knew that Hanson would call it a female thing if I did. “There weren’t any calls,” I said.
“The problem is, Lane, the log doesn’t even show you dispatched to the Sinclair scene.”
“I called in when I got there.”
“But how did you get there? Who notified you?”
“You know who notified me. Robert did—when he found her.”
“We need to clear that up for the record. The polygraph will take care of it, and then we can put all this behind us.”
Hanson stood up, smiling—as if he thought we were the best of friends—and gestured toward the door. It was time for the meeting with the feds.
I walked out into the hall. I was a suspect. Someone was playing with my head. Robert was doing his own thing. And this case was going nowhere.
There was one bright spot in my morning. A fax from Pop was waiting in my in box. Once again he mentioned Robert. All I could do was hope that nobody else in the department had read it.
TO: Found Out
FROM: Pop
Ever since you were a child I’ve told you that I know more than everything. You’ve never believed me. I’ve known about your dalliance with Robert Sinclair since before it happened. Parents are like that.
I hope that one of the lessons you’ve learned is that you can’t take care of Robert. He has to wrestle with his own demons—the ghosts of his ex-wife, his child, and the ones that rise up with the fumes from his various
bottles. You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it say no to a fifth of Wild Turkey.
Your man with the gun and all the identities (possibly/probably including that of county ME; Lt. Swartz did mention Chadwick, the explosion, etc.): You will find more identities. He wasn’t concerned about leaving his prints around because he knows they won’t ever lead anyone to him. He destroyed the house because it would reveal too much about him. He has studied those of us who study people like him. I’m sure he’s read all the books, and probably attended a few seminars. Some of us may have even met him (those of us who bother to attend those god-awful things).
I went over the material the good lieutenant dropped on me. Your wolfman is charming, suave, attractive, deliberate, very cool. He develops his dramatic scenes for murder in fantasy ahead of time (sometimes it’s days in advance—as it was in this case; other times it’s only hours). Also, well ahead of time, he could have drawn for you the tableau depicted in the crime scene. All of which, of course, reveals his first weakness: rigidity. He might say that he can’t be stopped. But I would say that, once in motion, he can’t stop himself—other than to make a few minor adjustments. He must carry out his fantasy/plan.
This “rigidity” translates into a number of things. He gives obsessive attention to detail, can’t tolerate imperfection. He has to be in absolute control. He’s an organizer and a collector, like Christopher Wilder, that fellow who terrorized the country several years back. After Wilder was killed in a shoot-out in northern New Hampshire, Florida police found a copy of the Fowles book
(The Collector)
on his shelf. No, I don’t know what he collects, but if he is your ME, his collection wasn’t in that house. He has another, more permanent residence (and identity), one that he has never compromised.
He requires not only respect, but adulation. Like any narcissistic psychopath, however, as soon as he receives his praise, he dismisses it, and dismisses anyone stupid enough to be suckered by him. But even so, when he isn’t worshiped, he’s enraged.
Although it galls him to create his works of homicidal art, display them, and not be able to take the credit, he is sufficiently in control to recognize his own need for anonymity. His rather smooth exterior masks a turbulence inside. He has to go away for a while and hide, but that bothers him, too. No doubt he can busy himself with his collection—but not for very long. He has a thirst for risk and excitement.
I suspect that he had (has?) a sister—probably younger (these are crimes of control, power, manipulation; an older sister would have thumped him one). His mother was inadequate, but indulged him. This would be the most common family arrangement, with father, if present in the home, aloof and removed, except in matters of discipline, which would have been quite physical. Mom failed to protect him ’from Dad—she was caught in her own bind (Defy her husband? Unthinkable!). And I suspect there was a blowup (at least one) when the wolfman was a mere cub. Think about it. Read Laing’s
Sanity, Madness, and the Family.
There has to be tension in the familial relationships. Study physics, dear daughter, and chaos theory: turbulence eventually explodes. We’re talking about an adult who believes that he has a license to Cuisinart the world. Primal learning supersedes all other education.
So what did he learn? His preferred status in the family disappeared when little sister squirmed her way out of the womb. The sex/aggression fusion evident in the crimes requires that he was old enough to jerk off when she was born (self-reinforcement). Mom might ignore the stains on the sheets, but Dad would beat the
piss out of him, further reinforcing the equation of sexual exploitation and violence. We’re so civilized I could puke.
I don’t think that Sarah Sinclair was planning to marry. While there was something ceremonial about her dress, the setting, etc., the ceremony was more likely his. She does sound like something of a romantic—one who was swept off her feet by this fellow—but marriage? I doubt it. I can understand the confusion. Sarah would have used extravagant words when speaking about what, to any other woman, would have been simply a special date or a significant moment. Sarah seems to have done nothing in moderation. When she withheld herself from relationships, she did it with a fierce determination. And when she opened herself to her killer, she did it with abandon. But her marriage had failed. Why fly into another?
Something about this man summoned forth a side of Sarah that had lain dormant for too long. Maybe there was no stopping him. But there was no stopping her, either.
Sorry to be so clinically distanced about all of this. If you come up with any more information that you want to run by me, feel free, but keep in mind that I cannot and will not become physically involved in your manhunt. I’m counting on the vast resources available to you law enforcement wizards to bring him to ground. I have no desire to pierce my soul with another fishhook in order to lure out the land sharks this culture creates with such abandon.
Pop
P.S. Please advise about other unsolved cases. You must have collected a few by now.
P.P.S. Examine the photo marked #011. Sarah’s house is neat. No doubt she vacuumed in anticipation of the
evening. You’ll need a magnifying glass in order to see what I believe to be a blue jay feather just beyond her fingers, next to the table.
P.P.P.S. Please send me a copy of Sarah’s journal. She has much to tell me.