“You are working?” he snapped, imparting so much scorn into the words that he might as well have accused her of whoring on the streets of Middleford.
“There is nothing wrong with work,” she countered. “I teach music and French. There are less genteel ways to support oneself.”
“The daughter of a marquess does not work for a living,” he stated coldly.
“I repudiated that designation nine years ago, as did you. I have never regretted it, nor do I now. It makes no difference to me which course I take, but I felt you deserved the option of keeping my origins quiet if they matter to you.”
His face was glaring with rage, its features twisted into a caricature of one of the gargoyles she had seen on Notre Dame. “Your place is running a proper home for a proper husband and providing his heirs – if you can. I will not condone your continued intransigence.”
“My lord, this discussion is pointless,” she interrupted him, steel underlying her voice. “I have no intention of marrying again. I could never find another man like Jack. Nor will I give up my teaching. All other considerations aside, I enjoy it. The only question is the one I already stated. Will you provide me a small allowance, or shall I trade on my aristocratic connections to attract more business?”
“You have already cost me a small fortune,” he snapped. “I had to pay off Fontbury to keep your stupidity quiet.”
“Don’t you dare blame that on me,” she snarled. “You signed a contract without consulting me. It was your affair and your responsibility. I will allow no one to force me into an untenable life. Nor do I care a fig if people know I eloped, so any face-saving you indulged in was strictly for your own benefit. Now enough of the past. Have you a preference about how I conduct my business in the future? If not, I will do what I must.”
His hands balled into fists, but she no longer quailed under his stare. She had seen too much in recent years to be cowed by one arrogant nobleman. That fact alone gladdened her heart as some of the weight of her childhood slid from her shoulders. Jack had told her many times that she would never fear Thorne again. She had always replied that she knew he would protect her. But Jack had not allowed that to be the last word, pointing out that because Thorne was powerless to coerce her, she would find the courage to face him down the next time they met.
And she had. Her muscles relaxed as she watched her father pace restlessly around the library under the disapproving frown of the previous marquess, whose portrait hung from the chimneypiece.
Several minutes passed in silence.
“You will have your allowance,” he conceded finally. “But there are conditions.”
Amanda kept her face impassive with an effort.
“I will provide one thousand pounds a year,” he continued. “But you must move back home. You will behave like the proper widow you should be and may choose between overseeing this house or looking for a new husband.”
She burst into laughter. “You surpass yourself in arrogant blustering,” she said once she had regained her voice. His face resembled a thundercloud, but she was no longer intimidated. The freedom that fact brought swelled her heart. “I will never again live in this house. You have no legal authority over me, and I thank God every day for that..” She rose to leave, but a gesture stayed her.
“Perhaps I have been too hasty.”
She could hear the effort it cost his pride to admit even that small error. Her heart began to race.
He continued slowly. “I repudiated all connection with you when you cast aside your breeding to elope with a common soldier. If you refuse to come home, I will continue to disown you. But it is improper for a woman to live in London alone. The offer of an allowance stands, but only if you move to a cottage in the country where no one knows you, and comport yourself as befits your station.”
“You are being deliberately obtuse, my lord,” she stated coldly. “My station is what I choose it to be. And what I chose was to sever all connection to a family that has done nothing but denigrate me since the day I was born. Unfortunately, fate seems to have other ideas, and I am left with making a damnable decision between openly declaring a connection or secretly accepting an allowance. But I will not give up my freedom. I am not ashamed of my life and will never act as though I were. Nor will I give up teaching.”
Thorne again paced the room. In his newly opened countenance she could read his conflict. He despised the idea of reneging on his word, yet duty demanded he assist his daughter. Playing shuttlecock between those extremes were his ingrained beliefs on the proper role of ladies.
He finally halted next to his desk, absently fingering the letter opener as he spoke. “Aside from propriety, it is not safe for a woman to live alone in London. I cannot offer you even a shilling in support of so foolhardy a notion. Nor will I allow you to trade on the family name to make a living there. If you persist, I will make your name a byword in town until no family of any class will employ you.”
Amanda remained motionless. That possibility had occurred to her before, but she had not believed that he would drag his own name through the mud to such an extent. She still did not.
He continued. “If moving elsewhere smacks of cowering in shame, then live in Middleford. Show the neighborhood how low you have sunk. But don’t expect to trade on the family connections. We will have nothing to do with you, and you will not be welcomed here again.”
She considered his words, trying to discern his real thoughts. Manipulating people was second nature to him. The demand that she hide away anonymously in the country was irrelevant. He must have known that she would never consider it, just as she knew he would never openly blacken her name in town. So the choice lay between surviving alone in London without help, or moving to Middleford and accepting an allowance.
He probably wished her to remain where he could watch her, but now that she’d come into the open, he could do that anyway. Middleford was a charming market town of several hundred inhabitants. She knew many of them, though he might not be aware of that. And if she were honest, London was not the most congenial place for a woman alone. She had to walk to most of her lessons, and the streets were never safe – not even in the respectable neighborhood where she and Jessie lived.
“The allowance?” she asked, for he had not actually connected it to Middleford.
“A thousand pounds a year, but nothing if you remain in London.”
It was more than twice what she had had to live on in even the most affluent times of her marriage and would allow her to survive in comfort for the rest of her life.
“I will not claim any connection with you,” she agreed. “But I must visit my grandmother on occasion. She will wish to see me if I live so close, and you can hardly dictate her behavior.”
He frowned, but finally nodded.
“I will continue teaching music and French if there are students who wish to study those subjects,” she continued. “And you must understand my past. Many people in this area, including several in Middleford, know me. I have not changed that much since my marriage. You are mistaken to believe they will think poorly of me. Quite the reverse. I will not trade on your name, but I cannot control the tongues of others. Very soon, everyone in the district will be aware both of the connection and of the antagonism that exists between us. If you cannot accept that, then you must allow me to return to London..” Even as she spoke the words, she knew they would not matter. Thorne regarded the lower classes as little better than animals. Their opinions would affect him any more than those of a sheep. But she had to point out the obvious, lest some higher-ranking individual criticize his decree. She would no longer allow him to blame her for anything.
Thorne paced the library, face contorted in thought. Finally, he turned back to Amanda. “As usual, you live in a dream world. But even if you prove correct, I care nought for the opinions of a bunch of motley peasants. Make yourself a laughingstock if you must. Every family has its black sheep, so worthy gentlemen will not blame me. But you will not interfere in my family’s life.”
“Agreed.”
Chapter Three
Amanda paused to admire an arrangement of roses on the hall table before joining her grandmother for tea. She had not seen the lady in nearly a fortnight, her own affairs keeping her too busy.
After leaving the Thornridge library, she had walked back to the dower house deep in thought, trying to decide whether she had handled the confrontation well or had botched it. Though she was not unhappy at the thought of leaving London, perhaps it would have been better to live someplace that was not under Thorne’s nose. Had he outmaneuvered her? She had little experience in manipulation.
Yet there was another side to his terms.
She laughed aloud as the truth suddenly became clear. Instead of the choice she had offered, she had won both options. The allowance was many times what she had requested, and enough people knew her identity that she would have little trouble securing students. An unexpected benefit was that Thorne was proving to all and sundry that he really was the unfeeling monster she had always known him to be. She doubted that he even realized she had won everything. Despite her efforts, he had not believed her. He was the one living in a dream world, a place where lords not only received obedience and respect from their inferiors, but could control their minds and thoughts as well. He truly believed that his peers would follow his lead and condemn her, and that the lower orders would ridicule her every move. This was but another skirmish in their lifelong war, his latest attempt to shame her into adhering to his standards.
Lady Thorne did not see it in that light, of course. When Amanda admitted she was leaving London, the dowager was delighted.
“I always thought he regretted the rift between you. This is the first step in making amends.”
“Fustian!” Amanda exploded. “He has never rued an action in his life. He is again trying to make my life miserable.”
“It is true that he has never openly admitted a mistake,” agreed Lady Thorne. “Even as a child he was adamant. But that never prevented him from correcting his behavior.”
“Enough, Grandmama,” protested Amanda. “I have agreed to his conditions, but that is the end of it.”
“It is right that you return to your home,” she stated firmly.
“Not home, Grandmama,” she countered. “I would starve first. I will live in Middleford, where I will continue teaching.”
Lady Thorne frowned, but did not offer new arguments. “There is a cottage on the edge of town that was recently vacated. It is not large, but you seem not to care about that.”
Her grandmother had been right, Amanda decided as she toured the house that afternoon. Too large to deserve the designation of cottage, it nonetheless suited her. The parlor was roomy enough to house a pianoforte – something Lady Thorne had already insisted on providing. A small stable would permit her to keep a horse and gig, allowing her to accept students from farms as well as town. The garden included a selection of common herbs that she could use for making healing draughts. The adjacent forest and water meadow contained others. Yet the house was small enough that it could be run by only a couple of servants.
She had returned to London the next day to close up the house and ship her belongings north, arriving back in Middleford only two days before. Now that she was settled into her new home, she had accepted her grandmother’s invitation for tea.
“You pour,” requested Lady Thorne once they had exchanged greetings. “Are you established at last?”
“Reasonably. I could have been back a week ago, but I wanted to stay in town until after Jessie’s wedding.”
“She shared rooms with you?” asked Lady Thorne.
“Yes. Her husband also died at Waterloo.”
Her voice precluded further conversation on the subject. She did not wish to discuss her marriage. She missed Jack. She missed so many old friends. Talking about any aspect of the last nine years would reduce her to tears, something she could not do again in her grandmother’s presence.
“Is the house party still in progress at the Court?” she asked instead.
“No..” Unexpectedly, the dowager chuckled. “It was a dismal failure.”
“There was no betrothal?”
“The suitor excused himself from attending. Thorne was livid..” Her voice held an odd inflection.
“What happened?”
“The gentleman sent word that he was suffering from an unspecified injury and must return home. Personally, I suspect that he was not ready to commit himself. He has a reputation for avoiding society. That is one of the reasons Thorne chose him – proper disdain for frivolity.”
Amanda shuddered. It sounded like Emily was having as little voice in choosing her husband as she’d had. “And he must also have the requisite title and wealth. Who is this paragon?”
“The Duke of Norwood.”
Surprise flooded Amanda’s face as she recalled Thorne’s fury in the library and the letter he had slammed onto his desk. He must have received it along with the note from his mother. No wonder he had been unable to control his face. Two such massive shocks in succession were too much.
“Do you know him?” Lady Thorne asked, raising a quizzical brow.
“I met him once,” Amanda admitted. “You needn’t fear that he is vacillating. His injuries are real and more than slight. He was a fellow guest at the Blue Boar the night of the fire. His valet was the man who required the surgery.”
Lady Thorne shook her head at this coincidence, though it was really not that surprising. The Blue Boar was the natural stopping place for those traveling to Thornridge Court from London. “I have never met him, though his grandmother was a close friend. She claims all virtues for the lad, but her mind has been wandering so much these last few years that it is difficult to know what to believe. Will he make a suitable husband for Emily?”
“Speculation is useless,” Amanda reminded her. “I have not seen Emily since she was eight years old. Is she like her parents?”
“She has been raised to be a dutiful daughter.”