The Sea Sisters (13 page)

‘To show you were still a family.’

‘Yes, that was exactly it,’ she said, surprised by the acuteness of his observation. He intrigued her, this man who surfed at night and preferred a beach fire to a bar. There was a sense of autonomy about him that she recognized in herself, too.

‘Is your sister still in London?’

‘Katie. Yes, she is. She’s happy there.’

‘Where are you happy?’

She heard the lull of the waves, like soft murmurs from a lover. ‘By the sea.’

They continued to talk, swapping stories of their seas. She discovered that his was the clear blue water of the Tasman Sea with its peeling waves and roaming bull sharks, and she explained hers was the Atlantic, fringed by granite and slate cliffs and stalked by herring gulls.

When she spoke he listened intently, his eyes never leaving her face. His focus gave her confidence and she felt something within her releasing, as though a small door in her throat had been nudged ajar. She talked about her mother’s cancer and how Katie played nurse and she played truant. She told him how the weekend she moved to London, she’d lain in Hyde Park staring at the clouds, trying to pretend she was elsewhere. She confided that she’d come to Maui to meet her father, who’d humoured her for an hour and then asked her to leave. As she talked, the fire burnt low and her hair dried in stiff waves from the salt.

Suddenly she looked up. ‘Sorry, I’ve talked too much.’

‘No you haven’t,’ he said studying her closely. His eyes were dark, serious. What was it about them? They seemed somehow older than the rest of his face. She could feel herself drawn to him.

Noah picked up a thin branch and prodded at the glowing embers. Her gaze travelled from the grip of his fingers, over his wrist and to the black tattoo spreading towards his inner elbow. ‘Your tattoo,’ she began, ‘when did you have it done?’

‘Ten months ago.’ He threw the branch on the fire. Orange sparks flickered into the sky. He angled his arm towards the firelight and she could see that the wave had been skilfully tattooed so its power was captured in a rush of water crumbling from the crest. At the bottom there were six discreet numbers.

The tattoo intrigued her. It wasn’t an adolescent attempt at rebellion like the Arabic words branded on the pale backs of the boys she went to college with. It had been done recently and was inked on the tender skin on the underside of his forearm. ‘It’s beautiful,’ she said, reaching out and tracing the curve of the wave with a fingertip.

Instantly the atmosphere became charged and she was aware of heat emanating from where their skin touched.

Noah looked at her. She was surprised by how much she wanted to kiss him. They were strangers, yet somehow she felt as if they already knew each other. An overwhelming rush of desire filled her and she reached a hand to his cheek, feeling his stubble against her palm.

He blinked as if startled by the touch. For a moment she thought he was going to pull away, but then he leant forward and pressed his mouth gently against hers. His lips were soft and warm, and she closed her eyes as he drew her closer, kissing her deeply. His tongue explored her mouth and she could taste the sea on his lips.

Her hands eased beneath the cotton of his T-shirt, feeling the muscular ridges below his shoulder blades.

He rose up onto one knee and, cupping a hand behind her head, he tilted her backwards, so that she was lying beneath him, her hair spilling over the sand. He ran his tongue from her collarbone to her throat. Her head swam.

A sky of stars hung above her and the heat of the fire spread along her side. Her thoughts melted free of her mind, so that the disappointment of earlier was lost to the press of his body, to the warmth of his skin, to the feel of his lips on her neck. She let herself dissolve fully, exquisitely, into this stranger.

K
atie closed the journal and pushed it aside. She pressed her hands to her forehead where a tension headache threatened. Once she might have been shocked by the risk Mia had taken with a stranger, but shock fell away beneath her anger at Mick.

Mia had been sheltered from many of the details of their father; this had left a blank canvas on which she could project any number of fantasies. Her disappointment at the reunion ran deep: eight neatly written pages attested to that. Katie snatched up the journal again and located the single sentence that had pulled her up short and made her heart crack: ‘
I wish Katie had been with me
.’

She wished that too! She wished she’d listened when Mia tried talking about Mick, rather than dismissing the conversation. The dull aching in her forehead spread, taking a firm grip of her temples. Moving to the backpack, she fished in the front pocket for headache pills. Her fingers brushed over a tube of suncream, a pack of tissues, and then they reached an inner zip. She slipped her fingers in and they met with something slim and glossy that she couldn’t place. She tugged it free and found it was a photo.

Her eyes widened in surprise, and then she felt the oily rise of nausea at the back of her throat.

The picture was taken years ago when Mia was 8, Katie 11. Their mother had driven them to the local town for a day out and, carrying beach towels and costumes, they’d strolled along the promenade snacking on cola cubes from a paper bag. Mia had been the first to spot the merry-go-round glinting in the sunlight, the singsong tinkle of its music carried on a light sea breeze.

It arrived every spring and stayed for three weeks before slipping away in the night, leaving only a faint ring of dead leaves and dust behind. Rather than painted ponies, what rose and fell on each twirl of the merry-go-round were seahorses. Each looked as if it had been dipped in a different ocean and dripped with the shade of the sea – cobalt blue, cerulean, navy, azure – and they always begged their mother to let them ride on it.

The cheerful lady who ran the merry-go-round beamed when she saw them. ‘Ah, it’s the Sea Sisters!’ They had earned this title because each year, after riding the merry-go-round, they’d play for hours in the sea while their mother sat on the shore with her book, drinking coffee from a polystyrene cup.

‘What in heaven is this?’ the lady said, pulling a small shell from behind Mia’s ear with a flourish. ‘And what have you got there?’ she said to Katie, who glanced down at her red sundress to find a long white feather poking out of her pocket.

They chose two seahorses next to one another. Katie tucked her feet into the imaginary stirrups of the sapphire seahorse she’d picked, and shot up and down in a rising trot. Mia rode a sky-blue seahorse on the outside so she could feel the wind against her face as they spun.

‘Girls,’ their mother called, pointing her camera at them.

They stretched out their arms and linked hands, grinning, the glitter of sea caught in the background. The photo used to be pinned to Mia’s bedroom wall in Cornwall, but Katie hadn’t seen it in years. Written on the back, in Mia’s faded childish hand, were the words ‘
Sea Sisters
’.

Now, with a trembling finger, she traced the rough edge of the picture. It had been torn in two: Katie’s image ripped from the photo and discarded.

How could you, Mia? Did you give up on us? Had we grown that far apart? Or did you rip me out after our last fight, hating me for what I’d said?
Questions circled like vultures, swooping down to claw through her grief. She shoved the torn photo into the journal and clapped it shut. Locating the headache tablets, she swallowed two, then changed into a cotton dress, and left the hostel.

*

The anger was coiled tight and muscular in her stomach as she strode to Mick’s front door, the whitewashed walls dazzling her in the midday sunlight. She rang the bell and waited, exactly as Mia had done six months earlier.

When the door opened, she was prepared for Mick not to recognize her or to dismiss her with a weak apology. What she wasn’t prepared for was the way his whole face broke into a wide smile. ‘Katie!’

She remembered his voice. It was rich and deep and he let the second syllable of ‘Katie’ float away from his lips, which made her name sound special. She searched his face for features she could recall from her childhood and found another memory in the roundness of his chin and the hazel of his eyes. He looked older than she would have imagined, the years etched in the heavy lines across his forehead and the loss of shape to his lips, now just thin lines.

‘You are so beautiful.’ He smiled, shaking his head. ‘So like her.’ For a moment she imagined he meant Mia and her anger softened as she wondered what he saw between them. Katie had given up wearing make-up since being abroad, and her hair was unstyled and hung loosely around her face. He reached a hand towards it: ‘Your mother’s colour exactly.’

She flinched.

His hand dropped to his side.

Eventually she said, ‘Can I come in?’

‘Yes, of course.’ He stepped back, allowing her space as she passed, but his gaze followed her closely as she moved along the hallway, her sandals making hard clicks on the flagstoned floor.

In the kitchen a fresh bacon sandwich, half eaten, was cooling on a plate, the sweet meaty aroma filling the room. Katie positioned herself by the sink, with her arms folded over her chest. She felt the cool stainless steel through her dress.

Mick stood opposite. He was wearing a pair of beige summer trousers and a casual cotton shirt that had creased around his middle. It was hard to place him as the young man who had spun their mother across the red-tiled floor of their kitchen. ‘I was so sorry to hear about Mia’s death. It was tragic, desperately tragic,’ he said emphatically. ‘I understand how difficult it must be for you—’

‘You can’t possibly.’

‘I just meant that having—’

‘You didn’t come to her funeral.’ She had been undecided about letting Mick know about Mia’s death. Their mother hadn’t wanted him to be told when she passed away, but Ed argued that this was different: Mia was his daughter. Katie eventually agreed and got in contact with the last company Mick had owned, who were able to provide a current number for him. She had called and left a brief message on an answering machine explaining what had happened. She didn’t know whether he’d get the message and wasn’t sure she cared.

‘I am sorry, but it didn’t feel appropriate,’ he said. ‘The flowers reached you?’

‘Yes.’ The morning of the funeral, an extravagant bunch of calla lilies arrived with a card. It was the first written word she had received from Mick in two decades. The card had said, ‘
Losing the two people you love most in the world is almost unbearable. My heart goes out to you.
’ She had got rid of the flowers, snapping the thick stems in half so they’d fit in the plastic cylinder of her bin.

Her thoughts snagged on another flower sent in tribute: the single orchid that came with a card reading, ‘
Sorry
.’ She still had no idea who it was from and found it an odd message, more apology than condolence. Ed had photographed the flower on his phone, saying he’d show it to his mother – a keen gardener – who might be able to identify it. Katie pulled her thoughts back to Mick. There were many things she needed to say and, walking here, she’d ordered them into key questions as she did when interviewing a candidate, beginning by making the interviewee comfortable and then building up to the pertinent, revealing questions.

As she opened her mouth to begin, Mick said, ‘Let me make us both a drink. What would you like? Something cold?’

She wanted to say no but her throat felt dry and papery. ‘Water.’

He fetched two glasses and a jug from the fridge and poured their drinks, sunlight catching in the stream of water. He handed her a glass, suggesting they take them onto the deck. She refused. The gesture was too similar to the one he’d made to Mia; instead, she took a quick drink and then set the glass behind her on the draining board.

‘I did wonder if I might hear from you sooner … after Mia’s visit.’

She wouldn’t admit that she had only learnt about it yesterday, so she said nothing.

‘I’m sorry if it was a shock.’

‘I was shocked at how you treated her.’ Katie’s anger was beginning to uncoil, hot and swift. She grasped it. ‘Mia travelled thousands of miles to see you. She deserved more of a welcome.’

‘She took me completely by surprise.’ His palms opened to the ceiling, ‘I didn’t even recognize her—’

‘I heard.’

‘I would have liked things to have been different—’

‘I’m sure Mia would have, too.’

Mick nodded, his head lowered. She saw tiny beads of sweat clustered at his hairline.

She was rushing, tripping him up before he’d had a chance to speak. She must slow down and focus on what Mia had come to Maui to find out: who their father was. In order to do that, Katie needed a question answered for herself. ‘Mick,’ she said, her voice softening a note to draw him into her question. ‘What happened to Mia the night you left us?’

His head tilted to one side, an eyebrow raised. ‘Your mother never told you?’

‘No.’

‘But you remember the evening?’