They burned the third hole in his back.
“Paul, they tell me you had a terrible evening. The guard says he thinks you did not sleep at all. And you do look feverish, Paul. Frankly, you look awful. You look terrible. I think yesterday I let them go too far. That wound is terrible. Paul, if you could see it you would be disgusted. And the flies. The flies must drive you insane. Paul! How much longer can you let this go on. You are destroying yourself!”
Chardy had given up, by this time, any idea of heroism. Courage had no meaning in a cellar among men with blowtorches. He’d quit caring for the Kurds; they could have the Kurds, they could have Ulu Beg and his band of lunatics. And the Agency—what good was it? They’d let him hang on ropes for three days now, in his own filth, in a cell with rats, a medieval place full of damp straw where other men screamed in the night, and his nightmares were huge and terrible and he could think of nothing but the torch.
“It’s not as if anybody cares,” Speshnev said. “Do you really think all those Ivy Leaguers care? I mean, think about it, Paul: have you been really satisfied with your treatment from them? Haven’t they always regarded you
with contempt as some sort of working-class adventurer, just a shade above a mercenary? Do they even bother to conceal their superiority? Tell me if I’m not right: they all wear pinstripe suits and black shoes, don’t they? I’m right; I know I’m right. They seem to pad along. They wear those pink-rimmed glasses, plastic things. They all know each other, and each other’s fathers, and all went to the same schools. They play squash. They send their children to the same schools. They all live in the pleasanter Washington suburbs. McLean or Chevy Chase. They drink wine and know about French food. They speak a different language. And you terrify them. You scare the pants off them because you are one of those rare men with talent. How ordinary people hate talent! They despise it! It terrifies them! You have a talent for action, a will, a courage. They envy it fiercely and they hate you for it. Think about it, Paul. Be reasonable. Are those men worth suffering these torments for? Think about what I’m saying, Paul. They’ll leave you here to the next century. They have no capacity to imagine what you are undergoing. Paul. It would be so easy to tell me.”
And it would. Speshnev wanted the frequencies, the times of transmission, the code system of the radio linkup with the Kurds. It was so simple. The frequency was 119.6 MhK, nothing fancy at all, but the Kurdish receivers and the Agency transmitter in Rezā’iyeh were calibrated exceedingly fine so there was very little band waver going in or out. Radios were an Agency specialty. You had to be parked right in the groove to intercept and if Speshnev didn’t get the frequency he had no chance. The codes were easy too: Fred to Tom on the odd days, Tom to Fred on the even ones. It was so simple it was primitive, straight out of a World War II OSS handbook. He could tell Speshnev in ten seconds. He could be off the hook in ten seconds.
“Please don’t hurt me again. Please,” he said.
“You’ll cooperate?”
Chardy twisted on his ropes until he made eye contact with the Russian. He begged forgiveness with his eyes and the Russian responded.
“Don’t you understand?” Chardy said hoarsely, whispering. “I—I—just can’t.”
Johanna was among the Kurds. He’d have to give them Johanna and he would not.
They burned the fourth hole in his back.
By the fifth day Speshnev was growing desperate. Chardy could hear him pacing in the cell, hear his boots scrunching on the straw.
Chardy tried to think of Johanna.
“The early burns are festering badly, Paul. There are maggots in them, and flies. The infection looks gruesome. The pus is something terrible, Paul. I’d like to get a doctor in here. I don’t know how you can stand the pain. The pain must be intense.”
He had never seen her naked. He never would see her naked. It had always been in a sleeping bag. He tried to imagine her naked. He tried to put her nakedness between himself and this room.
“Those flies can lay eggs, Paul, that get into your bloodstream. Your blood distributes them throughout your body. They hatch in odd places, Paul. They hatch in your lungs, in your toes, in your genitals, in your heart, in your brain. Paul, all those little insects in you, eating you up. All that corruption and filth spreading through your body, devouring you, absorbing you.”
Her breasts. He tried to imagine their heft and weight, the size of the nipples. He concentrated desperately.
“Paul, a little antibiotic and the problem is instantly taken care of. It’s just a pill, a shot, and modern medicine
takes over, vanquishing the invaders. Or they eat and grow fat on your flesh, grow corpulent on your organs, Paul. And out there, eating you from this side, Paul, is the torch. Always the torch, Paul. The torch is here. Tell me, Paul, are you ready for the torch again? Paul, you are making it so hard on me. But you force me to do my duty. Help me, Paul. Let me save you from the torch and the insects, Paul. Help me.”
But Chardy was thinking of nothing else in this world except Johanna and could not help him. They burned the fifth hole in his back.
The Russian was desperate on the sixth day.
“Damn you, Paul! Damn you, Chardy, the codes! The codes, damn you. The frequencies.”
Chardy hung on the rope. Before him, the wall. He could hear the wheel of the cart as they brought the heavy acetylene torch in. He had never seen it, but he’d heard it bang against the walls, heard the squeak as its metal wheels rolled across the stone floor. He had no idea who was working the torch, who actually applied it, but for certain, whatever happened, happened at Speshnev’s direction.
He could hear them now adjusting the nozzle, could hear the soft turning of valves as the gas and oxygen mixed. He smelt the gas, as he always did, and he began to gag reflexively, to choke and twist on his ropes, to retch up food that wasn’t there.
“It’s here, Paul. The torch. It is once again the hour of the torch. Are you ready, Paul? The torch is here; he’s got it lit. Its flame is blue, Paul. Its pain is indescribable. He’s going to wait a second, adjust the flame.”
Chardy’s head lolled idiotlike on his chest. Drool played across his chin. Very little was real to him except the torch, whose approach he could feel all the way to his
inmost cells. The rope cut into his hands. His fingers looked like blue sausages. Blood ran down his arms. He hung in his own waste.
“Paul, don’t make me debase you again! Don’t!”
Chardy fought them with his last weapon. It was his game. He tried to think of basketball. He tried to keep the game at the front of his brain. He tried to remember what he loved most about it: the pebbly feel of the ball as it came up to his hand on the dribble; the exultation that fired through his veins when a long one went in, especially late in the last period in a close game; the sheer fury, the physical ferocity of the struggle under the boards. He saw himself in a vast dark gym. He could not tell if there were fans in the seats or not, for he could not see. He could not make out the people he was playing against either: they seemed to be shadows, swatting at him, throwing their bodies at him. But he could see the hoop, the only spot of light in this great arena, an orange circle, crisp and perfect, its white net hanging beneath it. And he could not miss. He kept putting it in. He kept firing that ball up there and it kept going through. He could smell his own foul sweat, and exhaustion clouded his vision. His legs didn’t work and fatigue blurred the precision of his moves. He could get it in, though. He thought he could get it in.
“Paul, it’s working now. The torch is working now. We are ready. They tell me you screamed all night, Paul. You’re feverish, you’re in great pain. You’ve fought so hard. But you’re not going to make it. You are not going to make it, Paul. I’ve won. You knew I would. Paul, it’s a matter of time. It’s only a matter of time. The torch is ready.”
Chardy could hear two grunting men shove the thing over, hear the squeak of the wheels.
“Paul?”
“Please,” Chardy said. “Please don’t.”
“Are you ready, Paul?”
“Please. Help me. Don’t hurt me. I’m begging, oh, Jesus, I’m begging you. Don’t hurt me. Please. Don’t hurt me. Don’t hurt me.”
“Burn him.”
“No.
No!
P
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,
OH
, J
ESUS, PLEASE DON’T HURT ME
! P
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! I’
M BEGGING
! O
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, I
CAN’T TAKE IT
! P
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!”
“You’ll talk then?”
Chardy hung on his ropes. He tried to pray. Dear God, spare me. Spare me, please, dear God. I pray to you, dear God, help me. Please, help me.
“Paul. Your answer?”
Chardy whispered.
“What? Louder, Paul. Louder.”
Chardy tried to find the words. His tongue caught in his throat. He could hardly see. He was so scared. He could feel his heart thumping.
“Yes, Paul? Yes?”
Chardy croaked, “I said, fuck you, cocksucker.”
They burned the sixth hole in his back.
Chardy lay in the ropes. How much time had passed? Pain-time or real time? Pain-time is different: longer. In pain-time, years, decades. In real time, maybe three hours. It was just night. He stared at the crumbling stone. He heard rats in the darker corners of the cell. He knew that tomorrow he would crack. It would be tomorrow. He was not even sure he could last the night.
He heard the cell door open. Off schedule. Were they going to give him his seventh day’s dosage now, and cheat him of the pleasures of brooding upon it? But he couldn’t turn to see. His neck barely worked.
Rough hands cut him down. He fell limbless to the straw. He was dragged toward light. They lifted him up.
“Ahhhhhhh!”
“His back, watch his back, you fool.”
“Yes,
Agha.”
He seemed to sit.
“Get him some water.”
It was presented in an earthenware cup, held for him because his gray hands would not work. He felt the rough texture of the vessel with lips and tongue as the water sweetly entered him.
“Enough.”
The water was taken away. “Paul? Can you hear me?”
Chardy could not focus. He squinted and recognized the voice. He could almost see the face and then it swam into clarity. The Russian peered at him intently.
Chardy smiled stupidly, feeling the skin of his lips crack and split. A tooth fell out. His head lolled forward; he raised it again. He shook his head.
“Paul, listen to me. We’ve captured another Kurd from Ulu Beg’s group. A deserter. We broke him with the torch just minutes ago.”
Chardy thought about it. He almost passed out. More water was poured into his mouth, until he almost choked.
“I—I—I’m the only one who knows the fre—fre—
fre
—
”
“Frequency, Paul. Frequency.”
“Frequency.”
“Paul, he didn’t have to tell us about the frequency or the codes. He told us enough. He told us about the woman.”
Chardy stared groggily at the man. His back fired off on him, curling him in a spasm of pain.
“Jo—Jo—Jo—?” he began weakly.
“Yes. Listen carefully. Here it is, a one-time-only offer. I’m not going to give you much time. You’ve got
about thirty-seconds. Paul, either give us the information or I swear to you, I’ll bring you her head. If you talk, maybe we can get her out. We can try, at any rate. She’s beyond anybody else’s help. The Agency can’t help her. The Iranians can’t. She’s with his group and we’re closing in and we’ll have them in a matter of days, a week at the most. Only one man can help her, Paul. You, Paul. You decide, Paul. Does the woman live or die? You tell me, Paul, or I swear that within the week, in this very chamber, I will hand you her head. I’ll take it from her myself.”
Chary had begun to cry. He found the strength to lift his hands to his eyes to shield his shame. Fat tears fell onto his filthy body and ran into the straw. He choked on them.
“Paul. Ten seconds.” Speshnev stood.
Chardy fought for his strength as he watched the Russian go toward the light. He felt himself slipping into the straw. He watched the others join Speshnev at the door and begin to file out. Speshnev pulled the heavy door closed behind him.
“No,”
screamed Chardy. “No. God help me. God help them all. God forgive me. No. No. No.”
“There, there, Paul,” he heard the Russian crooning, as he lifted Chardy’s head gently from the straw. “It’s going to be all right. You’re being reasonable at last.”
They cleaned him quickly after he told them, and shot him full of pain-killer. The rest he remembered poorly. They took him up several floors to some kind of operations center. He sat at a Soviet artillery radio, an older model. It had evidently already been adjusted to proper frequency. Several technicians hovered about and he
could tell that his condition shocked them. He almost passed out twice. The radio crackled.
“What do you want me to say?”
Speshnev told him about the helicopters, and Chardy told Ulu Beg, and then they gave him some more pain-killer and he went to sleep.
He awoke in a hospital room, on his stomach, in the presence of two Soviet Marines with AK-47s. He was much improved, though groggy. Bright sunlight flooded in through the window, and beyond he could make out the city. They brought him a glass with some high-protein concoction in it, mostly egg and wheat, and he sucked it down.
The door flew open and the Russian came in.
“How are you, Paul? How are you?”
Chardy had no answer and looked at him stupidly. He could only think that he had just begun a day where there would be no torch.
“We broke it, Paul. Yes, we did it. I did it, Paul. Broke it, broke the revolt. We broke the Kurds, Paul. All American advisers have been ordered back to Rezā’iyeh. The mission there will be closed down. The Shah has arrested the Kurdish emissaries in Tehran, and closed the border. It’s all over.”
He looked carefully at Chardy.
Chardy had trouble concentrating. Even now his memories were beginning to jangle on him, to mix and twist and fabricate themselves. His back felt numb. He’d been jacked up to his eyeballs on narcotics. He could hardly remember his own name.