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Authors: Sarah Strohmeyer

Sara was so stunned she didn't even notice the light had turned green until a car behind us leaned on the horn, whereupon she flipped him the bird and floored it. We sped along silently for a bit. I lowered the window for some fresh air, and then she said in a dull monotone, “Why would anyone have murdered Erin?”

“That's the million-dollar question, isn't it?”

Chilled, I raised the window and turned my attention to Sara. All color had drained from her already alabaster complexion and her lips were a pale blue. For a crime junkie who spent her free hours glued to Investigation Discovery, her worst nightmare had just come true: a girl her age in her neighborhood had been murdered in her own upstairs bathroom while her parents had been out of town.

Creepy things like this weren't supposed to happen in Potsdam, especially not in the supposedly safe and suburban Pinewoods development where Sara's and Erin's parents ponied up for monthly security on the naïve assumption that something as flimsy as an electronic gate could protect their kids from evil.

“Three streets away, Lil,” she said, her voice hoarse. “The same railroad track runs through our backyards. The killer could have been freight-hopping. Or maybe he'd been stalking her from the woods and just waiting for the moment when her parents were out of town to get her unaware.”

“I know. I know. It's freaky.”

The knuckles of Sara's right hand were white against the black steering wheel. “Do they have any idea who it might have been?”

“I don't think so.” In an attempt to calm her, I
added softly, “According to the fax, there was no sign of forced entry, which means most likely it wasn't a freight-hopper or some stalker, but that Erin probably knew her killer.”

Matt.
I immediately shook this thought out of my head.

“Or,” Sara added, “he's a supersmart psychopathic serial killer like Israel Keyes, who lived in Alaska and traveled to the lower forty-eight states and rented cars under an assumed name so there'd be no connections to the victims he picked at random. God knows how many people he killed before he did himself in.”

I had to resist the temptation to roll my eyes. Sara needed to curb her TV habits or it was going to warp her mind, if it hadn't already.

Sara hooked an abrupt right into someone's driveway and scrutinized her driver's side mirror.

“What's wrong?” I asked, thinking maybe she needed a chance to pull it together.

“I want this jerk behind me to pass. He's been on my tail since Evergreen.”

We both turned around to see a nondescript gray Ford sedan. It stopped, waited, and then pulled a U-ey, speeding off in the opposite direction with a screech of its tires, kicking up a cloud of dust.

Sara and I exchanged glances. “You don't think . . . ,” she said.

“That he was following you? Nah.”

“Then why did he . . . ?”

“Maybe he was lost. You're just being paranoid.”

“Yeah, maybe.” Sara flicked on her turn signal and headed out to the road.

We didn't say another word until we got to school.

Potsdam Regional High was built in the 1970s when three towns merged into one school district and bought up a bunch of farmland for a new, modern facility. The building itself was an eyesore, the brainchild of the open-concept system, when it was fashionable to teach in classrooms without walls. That lasted for all of five minutes before they rolled in paper-thin temporary partitions that were never replaced, so what was being taught one room over was crystal clear.

My main gripe, however, was the lack of windows. The same professionals who decided it was a good idea to remove walls also thought the same applied to glass. Supposedly this was to keep students from being distracted. The result was that, unless you were in the cafeteria (windows galore) or in the atrium (skylights above), Potsdam High
seemed an awful lot like a high-security correctional facility.

But that day there were other reasons to call it a prison.

“Are they serious?” Sara asked as we approached the front entrance, where not one but four Potsdam police officers waited to greet us with wands and metal detectors.

Annoyed students rummaged through their backpacks to remove laptops, iPads, phones, and anything else that might set off alarms.

“Was there a bomb threat?” I asked a chinless patrolman, who scrutinized my outfit with a disapproving scowl.

“Do you have any knives, guns, weapons of any sort?” he responded, ignoring my question as he pawed through my bag.

“Not unless you count the pins in the voodoo doll.”

He didn't even crack a smile. “Step forward, please, and hold out your arms.”

It was humiliating, being scanned in public. I don't know why I considered it such an invasion of privacy, but I did, especially when he ran the wand up and down my legs and across my crotch.

Cleared for education, Sara and I slipped on our shoes and gathered our stuff. The whole experience
was decidedly Orwellian.

“This is because of Erin, you know,” I said as we crossed the atrium.

“Kind of gives credence to your theory that she was murdered.”

“You had doubts?”

Sara stopped. “Lil. This is the Potsdam PD we're dealing with here. Did you take a good look at those dudes? The crossing guards we just passed are more qualified.”

Over her shoulder, I spied a sheet of pink poster paper that had been tacked up outside of Guidance on Monday so people could write their condolences to Erin. Every inch was covered in ink.

M
ISS YOU
!

L
OVE YOU
!

I
KEEP LOOKING FOR YOUR SMILE AT PRACTICE.

(D
ON
'
T FORGET
S
KITTLE BUMPS
!)

M
Y HEART IS DARK KNOWING YOU HAVE GONE.

I
CAN
'
T BELIEVE IT
'
S TRUE.

I
CAN
'
T STOP CRYING.

P
LEASE, NO.
N
O.
N
O.
N
O.

There were many random lyrics from various songs, too many of which quoted “The Wind Beneath
My Wings.” But it was the dedication at the bottom that stopped me short.

I
WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU,
E. P
EACE.

It was signed simply
M
, which I knew had to be Matt.

He was back.

Picking up a Sharpie, I hastily scribbled
Rest in peace
,
Erin. I'll find him
, and signed it
Lily G.

Sara stooped to read it. “You meant you're going to find the killer, right?”

“Yeah.”

“Because people might take that the wrong way.”

“Good.”

They were waiting for me upstairs. Blond and petite Cheyenne Day, dark-haired and almond-eyed Allie Woo, and their new queen, Kate Kline, Erin's presumed successor.

An ambush.

“There she is,” Kate announced as Allie and Cheyenne whipped out their cells to document in texts and photos whatever was about to go down.

Kate was shorter than I was by a good five inches. But what she lacked in height, she more than made up for in self-righteous indignation. Below the adorable
widow's peak that defined the part of her straight brown hair were equally pointy eyebrows that highlighted her mesmerizing blue eyes. Guys in school were secretly intrigued by Kate but few asked her out because they felt intimidated. I never understood that—before.

“Excuse me,” I said, gesturing to my locker, which she was blocking.

Kate didn't move. “I bet you're glad Erin's dead.”

“Don't be stupid, Kate.”

“Don't be lying, Lily. You've been jealous of her since elementary school.”

Not jealous. More like resentful for the way she made fun of Sara's disability and my family's profession, as if we were subhuman for not being symmetrical specimens whose parents worked in the brewery's headquarters.

A teacher passed by and wished us a good morning. I used the reprieve to spin my combination—25, 9, 33—while Sara positioned herself on my other side, just in case things got out of hand.

The teacher disappeared. The locker popped open. Kate slammed it shut. “I hope you're satisfied.”

“With what?” I stuck my finger in the handle and opened it again. Sara leaned against the door so Kate couldn't close it.


With what?
” Kate shook her head so her hair rippled like a Pantene commercial. “With pushing Erin to the edge, that's with what. She'd be alive today if it weren't for you.”

Sara rolled her eyes. “Oh, please.”

After depositing my heavy calculus book on the top shelf, I closed the locker and gave the combination lock a quick flick. “I didn't do anything to Erin. With all due respect to the dead, whatever she told you about Matt and me is wrong.”

“It's not what she said, it's what I
saw
,” Kate spat back. “Those scratches you gave her? You are one sick puppy to do that to her.”

Sara dropped her jaw. “Lil, you can't let her get away with that.”

No kidding. “Um, for the record,” I said, “Erin attacked
me
.”

“Another lie!” Kate smiled triumphantly at Cheyenne and Allie. “
For the record
, Lily, I went to Erin's house, since she didn't meet me at the game like she was supposed to and she wasn't answering her phone. Matt had just broken up with her—”

“Because of you,” Allie chimed in—a mistake, because this was Kate's show. Kate glared at her reprovingly. Allie retreated.

“Anyway, when I got there,” Kate continued, “I
found Erin on the couch, a total mess. I asked what happened and she told me that you'd finally managed to turn Matt against her just so you could get him for yourself. You broke her heart, Lily. She killed herself because of you.”

Sara said, “You don't know anything.”

I sucked in a breath because, although I appreciated Sara's defense, I didn't want her to blow it so soon. The murder theory was still supposed to be a secret. If it got out via us instead of the cops, Mom would kill me.

“Sara . . . ,” I said, smiling. “Remember?”

“Screw it, Lil. Kate's talking out of her ass.

Kate sneered. “Shut up, Shrinky Dink.”

Instinctively, I lifted my hand, this close to slapping her hard enough to send that stupid adorable widow's peak of hers to the back of her head. She hadn't dared call Sara “Shrinky Dink” since I overheard her whisper it to Erin when Sara missed an assist in volleyball back in middle school gym class. It had been worth detention just to see the fear in Kate's eyes as I pushed her against the gym wall and threatened to mess up her widow's peak forever if she ever mocked my best friend again. Ms. Seidel had to forcibly drag me away, I was so enraged.

“Yeah, go ahead and hurt me,” Kate said defiantly. “Just like you hurt Erin.”

Sara lowered her eyes, a signal that I should lower my hand. Reluctantly, I did.

“You're an awful person, Kate,” I said. “Selfish, vain, and cruel.”

“Like I care,” Kate replied with a defiant lift of her chin. “Insulting
your
friend hardly compares to what you did to
my
friend, Lily.” Kate lightly raked her own cheeks. “I saw the blood.”

Bull. I hadn't even broken skin. Rolling up my own sleeves, I thrust out my arm to reveal the scabbed streaks. “
This
is what Erin did to me Saturday afternoon. Look.”

All four girls plus Sara leaned in for closer inspection. Then Kate turned to Allie and Cheyenne. “Didn't I tell you guys Erin tried to defend herself?”

“Unreal,” Sara said.

Cheyenne snapped a few shots of my arm. In a matter of seconds, the pictures were circulated throughout the school as proof of my complicity in Erin's supposed suicide.

“It's so like you to trash Erin after she's dead,” Kate sing-songed as the second bell rang. “By the way, in case you were wondering, you're on Matt's shit list too.”

I swallowed and hugged my books tighter.

“You know what he calls you, Lily?”

Sara gripped my elbow, while I tried desperately to keep my face impassive.


Pathetic
.”

I walked off before my tears gave me away.

My class lineup that day was calculus, English lit, physics (in which we had a pop quiz), and World Cultures. So I decided to exercise my prerogative and skip the afternoon to hang out in the school library reading up on handy uses for chicken blood in Haitian death rituals. Besides, the last thing my psyche needed was to be surrounded by my haters. Also, let's be honest—what was the point of sitting through a droning lecture about the European Union when my future was already set in stone? Literally.

After high school, I would major in mortuary science at Center Valley Community College, where Mom got her degree and which conveniently required no more than a 2.5 for admission. There, I'd study anatomy and physiology, embalming theory, mortuary law, and chemistry, as well as the more lucrative “Mortuary Marketing” and the squishier “Understanding the Grieving Process.”

“You could teach those professors a thing or two,” Boo often said. She was probably right. I highly doubted that most of the esteemed staff of CVCC had read the
Tibetan Book of the Living and Dying
from beginning to end or that, by age eight, they had
learned never to use the femoral artery as a point of injection for embalming fluid when the cadaver was obese. Always go with the carotid if possible.
Always.

Unfortunately, Kemple's reptilian brain was too unevolved to grasp the complex logic behind my skipping, and I soon accumulated enough detentions to equal a suspension. I stood my ground—I was going to study what I wanted, when I wanted, and if Kemple had a problem with my “nontraditional” approach to education, then he could kick me out.

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